perfect out of control

"What movie are you watching again?"

Sheng Ye raised his head when he heard the sound, and he was relieved to see Xi Yuan coming in. During this time, besides his mother, Xi Yuan was the one who often visited him.Every time he thought that Xiyuan was here to persuade him to go back to work, but every time Xiyuan just sat and chatted with him.

Xi Yuan put down the fruit, walked over and glanced at the laptop screen.

Sheng Ye said, "It's The Green Mile."

"Tan Zhen likes to watch this?"

Sheng Ye nodded: "Well, I saw this DVD in his theater. He has a lot of works by Tom Hanks and Will Smith."

"You remember all of this?" Xi Yuan smiled.

"Yes," Sheng Ye also smiled, a little nostalgic, "The first time I went to his villa, I looked through all the DVDs on his shelf, just to find out what he likes, so I can match him with what he likes."

Xiyuan felt sore in her heart, sat down on the sofa, and asked again: "Then isn't this a repeat?"

Sheng Ye looked at the person on the hospital bed, and said, "I haven't watched it, he promised to watch it with me." The corners of his lips twitched, "Now let him fulfill his promise."

Xi Yuan also looked at Tan Zhen. It's been almost two months, Tan Zhen has lost a lot of weight, but with his exquisite bones, he is still handsome.She looked at Sheng Ye again, a certain person had lost weight too, I don't know if he noticed.

Before leaving, Shengye called Xiyuan, and said sincerely, "Thank you."

Thank you, Sister Xiyuan, we should have a working relationship between a manager and an artist, but you treat me like a younger brother.

It will be very quiet in the ward at night. The VIP ward is far away from the general ward, and there is no noise. Sheng Ye thinks this is good or bad. If it is too quiet, it will appear dead. He wants Tan Zhen to listen to the human world more. Therefore, he always turns on the computer or mobile phone, and plays some funny videos for Tan Zhen to listen to. In the video, there are cats, cats and dogs, as well as the joys, sorrows and joys of the world, and the lives of ordinary people. He hopes that Tan Zhen will When wandering somewhere, you can think about some of the taste of the world.

At nine o'clock in the evening, after scrubbing Tan Zhen's body, amidst the noisy laughter in the video, he vaguely heard someone knocking on the door. After covering Tan Zhen with a quilt, he got up and opened the door, only to see Tan Zhen standing outside the door. Zhen's mother, Wu Liang.

Sheng Ye was stunned, remembering that Sister Tan Qian told him yesterday that his aunt was discharged from the hospital, he was at a loss: "I'm sorry, Auntie, I just wiped his body and closed the door, I'll go out now."

Wu Liang didn't say anything, and she stopped Sheng Ye when he was about to close the door when he went out.

Sheng Ye stopped, feeling very disturbed.

Wu Liang asked, "How long has he been in a coma?"

"Today is 51 days." Sheng Ye said.

Wu Liang blinked her eyes, nodded, turned around and entered the ward alone.

Sheng Ye didn't go anywhere, and kept guarding the corridor. A week ago, the air accident investigation team salvaged the black box, and the suicide notes left by the passengers were also delivered to the family members. I don't know if his aunt has read it. I wrote everything, but I know that the gate password set by Tan Zhen in the villa of Fushan Villa is my aunt’s birthday. Does my aunt know? If she knows, can she forgive Tan Zhen for not telling her those things?

Sheng Ye sat on the bench, and soon became a little tired, but before Wu Liang came out, he kept waiting, and finally fell asleep from sleepiness.

He didn't know how long he slept, but when he woke up, he felt feathers scratching his cheeks. When he opened his eyes, he was surprised to see the camel coat covering his body.

It was a lady's coat with camel hair around the neckline. He recognized that it was Wu Liang's coat and sat up quickly.

She folded her coat and held it in her hands. When she stood up, she heard the sound of the elevator door opening at the end of the corridor. Wu Liang walked out of the elevator with a paper bag in her hand.

When the two saw each other, they froze for a moment.

Wu Liang came over, and Sheng Ye returned the coat to her nonchalantly, thanking her aunt.

There was the faint cry in his voice that a boy would have when facing his mother, and Wu Liang could hear it.She looked at the boy calmly, his eyebrows and eyes were more like his mother, no wonder she didn't recognize him as his son at first sight.

"I have something to tell you. I just told Tan Zhen." Wu Liang said.

It was late at night, and the whole hospital seemed to be completely silent. Hearing these words, Sheng Ye was still very disturbed.

Wu Liang said: "I have decided to divorce."

Sheng Ye was stunned, and it took him a long time to ask vaguely: "...why?"

Wu Liang looked in the direction of the ward and said, "His father will not accept you being together anyway, just in case... just in case he wakes up," she said, her voice choked up, because she knew that hope was extremely important. Slim, "When you are together, he always needs the support of his family."

Sheng Ye's eyes turned red instantly.

Wu Liang lowered her head, put the paper bag on the bench, and said, "This is for you, eat more, you don't want him to wake up and see you so thin..."

After she finished speaking, she didn't look up, turned around and walked slowly.

Tan Qian was waiting in the car and saw Wu Liang walk out of the hospital building with her head down. When she got in the car, she saw dried tears on her mother's cheeks.

She didn't ask anything, and started the car silently.

Wu Liang looked at the gradually receding hospital building, and suddenly said, "Tan Qian."

Tan Qian looked sideways at her.

Wu Liang looked out of the window and said, "If you don't want to go on a blind date, you won't go on a blind date. It doesn't matter who you like. Mom has only one request." She said, thinking of Tan Zhen on the hospital bed, his hair was clean and neat, With no stubble on her chin, clean manicured nails, and looking as if she was just asleep, she took a breath and said, "Find someone who loves you, and nothing else matters."

Tan Qian pursed her lips and said nothing.

Wu Liang lowered her head, and tears fell again. Why did she only understand such a simple truth now.

***

There was only one day when Sheng Ye was not with Tan Zhen, and that day was Sheng Yanfeng's death day.

Although he used to visit his father every year, this year is very different. For the first time in his life, he feels that his father is guarding him from the sky.

Putting the flowers in front of the tombstone, he knelt down, looked at his father's photo and smiled: "I'm sorry, mom is on duty today, and only my annoying son is here." He moved closer to look at the photo, He tilted his head and said, "Why do you think you are not happy?"

Forget it, he thought to himself, I'm used to seeing your stinky and unhappy face, sometimes it's weird.He sat sideways by the tombstone so that the sun would not be blocked, and sat quietly against the tombstone for a long time, as if he was basking in the sun with his father. The sun warmed his body and warmed the cold tombstone It was warm, and he thought of the small shop by the sea again.

"Dad, why didn't I recognize you?" He thought for a while and found the answer, "It must be because your acting skills are so good."

The cemetery is peaceful and full of comfort.

"Dad, I want to ask you something." Sheng Ye turned and looked at the black tombstone, "If he...I mean Brother Tan Zhen, if he comes to your store again, you must let him come back, Tell him I'm still waiting for him, don't sell my little sister to him, don't sell him, okay."

The sun shines on the silent tombstone, and the wind blows the chrysanthemum rustlingly.

***

It was already evening when we returned to the hospital. Sheng Ye saw a familiar figure getting out of the car downstairs in the inpatient department, and he was very surprised: "Uncle Jie?"

Jie Pingan closed the car door with his things in his hand, turned his head when he heard the sound, was taken aback for a moment, and then smiled at him.

The two got on the elevator together, and Jie Pingan seemed a little sorry, and said, "I'm sorry, I just came back from a tour abroad with the troupe."

Sheng Ye shook his head and said, "I understand."

They are all people who love acting, and he is also very happy that "We are the best selves in our dreams" can be spread overseas. He knows that Tan Zhen will also be very happy, even if the starring role is not himself.

After entering the ward, Jie Pingan put down the messenger bag he was carrying, looked at Tan Zhen on the hospital bed, smiled gratifiedly, and said, "He is in better condition than I imagined."

Sheng Ye walked to the bed, lowered his head and said to Tan Zhen, "The manager is here to see you." He took a closer look at Tan Zhen again.

Jie Pingan asked: "What's wrong?"

Sheng Ye looked at Tan Zhen for a while and said, "He is not in a good condition today, and his brows are a little wrinkled."

Jie Pingan watched Sheng Ye stretch out his hand to stroke Tan Zhen's eyebrows, and didn't know whether to laugh or sigh: "I used to feel sorry for you all, but now..." He shook his head to himself, "I don't know what to do either." Knowing whether it's a good thing or a bad thing for you to get to know him."

"Of course it's a good thing." Sheng Ye said, turning around, "Uncle Jie, thank you very much for letting me play "Stable Structure."

Jie Pingan let out a long sigh, walked to the sofa, took out a mobile hard drive from his bag, and said, "It's for you."

Sheng Ye took it in confusion: "What?"

"You'll know it after reading it," Jie Ping'an said, "I don't know what else I can give you.

***

After Jie Ping left at night, Sheng Ye scrubbed Tan Zhen's body, finished his massage, and plugged in the hard drive, which contained a 1T video file. He opened the file curiously, only to find that it was "Stable Structure" uncut version of .

As soon as Yan Fei, played by Tan Zhen, appeared in the camera, he seemed to have eaten a bottle of mustard, and all his memories were revived, accompanied by the heat in his eyes and nasal cavity.

There is no post-production, no subtitles, no soundtrack, in the quiet ward, he and Tan Zhen are on one side, watching them on the other side, living seriously in another world in another identity without wearing any halo filter .

In the camera, Tan Zhen is wearing a cheap black T-shirt and jeans, his hair is tied behind his head, and he is silent when he does not speak. He is a boy who makes people feel unapproachable. Ye listened to Tan Zhen calling him "Kong Xinghe" with a smile, calling him "Kong Xinghe" seriously, and calling him "Kong Xinghe" in a low voice when he was angry, watching Tan Zhen's hands rubbing his hair, stroking his back, Throwing the coat casually over his head... The original heartbeat was still freshly imprinted in his body.

While watching, he was talking to Tan Zhen: "Brother Tan Zhen, it's still exciting to see it now. Didn't you realize that I have unreasonable thoughts about you?" After speaking, he laughed.

It seems that he and Tan Zhen have talked about many love affairs. Bai Xingnian in "Creating Love" was his first heartbeat, Xuan Wang in "Dragon and Tiger Strategy" was the object of his crush for a semester, and Yan Fei... Yan Flying was his first love.

He didn't know Tan Zhen's feelings for him, where did the love that seemed to fall on him overnight come from?Now that I know it, it is such a different feeling to look at these familiar shots.Those secrets are clearly revealed in Tan Zhen's eyes.

"I was in the film at that time, and I thought it was just you watching Kong Xinghe," Sheng Ye looked at Yan Fei in the camera, and this scene was later edited by Jie Pingan, maybe because Jie Pingan also saw that this was happening. Tan Zhen in one shot is not quite like Yan Fei, there are small flames in his eyes, Sheng Ye looked at Tan Zhen on the hospital bed, choked up, "You are looking at me, aren't you?"

no respond.

Sheng Ye reached out and touched Tan Zhen's ear, and murmured in a low voice, "Are you feeling hot?"

In the unedited version, there are many more scenes that the movie version does not have. There is no post-production and soundtrack. Tan Zhen’s voice is his usual deep voice. He is sweating, and his every move is full of strength. There is magma and lava in his gaze , The silence boils.Sheng Ye thinks that Tan Zhen is obviously fine, he can go to the construction site, he can deliver food, he can pick himself up with a light hug, he can carry himself up the whole seven floors...

"When you hugged me, I was really afraid that you wouldn't be able to hold me, but when you hugged me, I felt..." Tears rolled in my eyes, "It's over, you are my superman. It's in your hands."

In the unedited version of more than four hours, Sheng Ye held Tan Zhen's left hand like this, and watched midnight in one breath. At the end, he was the only one in the room with tears streaming down his face.

He leaned down and buried his face in Tan Zhen's hands: "Wake up quickly, talk to me like in the movie...I really miss you..."

The movie was over, and there was only his choking voice in the ward. He held Tan Zhen's left hand with both hands, and put it on his cheek and forehead, pretending that Tan Zhen was still touching him and comforting him. He only replaced this hand in the morning. After trimming his nails, he interlocked his fingers and played with his fingers jokingly, saying "move, move".

Tears kept flowing into Tan Zhen's unconscious palms, probably because his body was shaking when he cried, and at a certain moment he really felt Tan Zhen's fingers caressing the center of his brow.

How many nights has he raised his head in this hallucination, and seeing Tan Zhen who is still unconscious, about to be defeated by despair, he is so afraid that he dare not look up, fear is nothing but joy.

Then I felt Tan Zhen's fingers touching his cheek again, sliding down the cheek, instead of sliding down weakly, the slender index finger stopped at the corner of his mouth.

Sheng Ye felt that the finger firmly hooked the corner of his lips, and with a slight touch, he suddenly raised his head——

The warm light at the head of the bed shone on Tan Zhen's much thinner face, his eyelashes trembled slightly, and he looked at him from under the powerless half-drowned eyelids.

Sheng Ye dared not move, fearing that it would be another dream, another hallucination.

Then I heard Tan Zhen open his mouth, his voice so hoarse that he could hardly hear it:

"Where did you go this afternoon..."

The chair fell back to the ground with a "bang", Sheng Ye rushed forward and hugged him desperately: "Is it a dream?! Don't be a dream, don't be a dream, don't be a dream—"

Tan Zhen tried his best to raise his hand, put it gently on the back of his neck, and breathed into his ear like a gossamer: "It's not a dream."

Sheng Ye cried and cried and finally laughed. He stretched out his hand and pressed the nurse's bell beside the bed. After a while, a nurse opened the door and came in to ask. Sheng Ye looked at her and couldn't speak a word. Looking at Tan Zhen on the bed, he immediately turned around and ran to notify the doctor on duty.

Sheng Ye heard the voices of nurses shouting from the corridor, and the voices of excited inquiries from patients on the same floor, and felt that the dead hospital came alive.

***

The garden of the inpatient department is very large and the scenery is good, with small bridges, flowing water, pavilions and pavilions, like a park. Shengye often feels that the scenery in the commercial area is not as good as here.

He finally got rid of the habit of sleeping late, and pushed Tan Zhen downstairs for a ride every morning. Tan Zhen said that driving is called a ride. Sheng Ye looked down at the wheelchair and said, "It has wheels."

Tan Zhen laughed and said, "This cold joke is not very funny."

"Then you still laugh."

"To save face." He still smiled, his tone still gentle.

There were not many people in the garden of the inpatient department in the morning. Sheng Ye pushed Tan Zhen to a big banyan tree. There was a long stone bench there. He stopped the wheelchair and sat down on the stone bench by himself. The two sat face to face. with.

Tan Zhen didn't know whether to laugh or cry: "What are you doing?"

Sheng Ye hunched over on the bench, stretched his neck to look up at him, and said, "Look at you."

Tan Zhen raised his hand and pinched his chin: "Can't you look at me more normally?"

"I see you lying down for so long, with the same angle of view every day, can't you change the angle of view? And this angle of view is the angle from which I see you when you usually stand up. I think this angle of view is kind!"

Tan Zhen sighed helplessly, supported the wheelchair with both hands, and made a gesture to stand up: "Then I will try to stand up."

"Hey, forget it!" Sheng Ye quickly held him back, "Don't force it, your legs are not strong yet, you need to raise them for a few more days."

Tan Zhenjiao got down from the wheelchair and said, "Come and help me."

Sheng Ye didn't dare to refuse, and hurriedly stepped forward to support Tan Zhen, feeling that Tan Zhen's whole body fell on him as soon as he stood up, the weight was so strong that he was afraid at first that he would not be able to bear it, but finally he stabilized , couldn't help but his eyes lit up: "Hey? It's not as heavy as I imagined!"

Tan Zhen looked down at him, smiled and said nothing.

Sheng Ye supported Tan Zhen to go forward, watching Tan Zhen take each step slowly, he was very pleasantly surprised: "You can go!"

"It's still a bit soft." Tan Zhen looked down at his feet and frowned.

"It's okay, take your time." Sheng Ye said, "The doctor said you are recovering well."

The two leaned against each other, like two strolling snails, sticking together and stopping, Sheng Ye saw the outpatient building in the distance, and couldn't help feeling: "That's how you helped me go back then. You used to push me when I was filming. My wheelchair is so amazing, this feeling." He looked up at Tan Zhen, "Do you want me to do everything you have done for me before?"

Tan Zhen looked at him: "What else have I done for you?"

Sheng Ye thought of something, laughed, and whispered, "Give me a bath."

Tan Zhen also smiled: "Then you can do it tonight."

Sheng Ye looked down at Tan Zhen's body, covered his nose and said, "Wow, then I must have a nosebleed."

Tan Zhen laughed and ruffled his hair.

After walking for a while, Tan Zhen stopped for a while, his eyes looked towards an empty corridor in the distance, and Sheng Ye asked, "What's wrong?"

"Looks like someone took a picture."

"where?"

Tan Zhen turned around, looked at Sheng Ye, and said, "I don't know what else they want to shoot." He frowned, with a confused expression, and said, "Is this it?"

Sheng Ye opened his eyes slightly, the sun was shining on their heads, and Tan Zhen's kiss fell on his lips.

This kiss was a little trembling, because Tan Zhen was still standing still, and he felt Tan Zhen's hands on his shoulders, using his strength to complete the kiss.

Sheng Ye really heard the "click click" shutter sound from a distance, a series of dense sounds, like machine guns shooting at them, as if they didn't separate, the gunfire would never stop.

Tan Zhen didn't separate, and neither did he. He moved closer, put his arms around Tan Zhen's waist, and helped him stand up. They all wanted to know whether the sound of the shutter was longer or the kiss was longer.

The shallow kiss, with a smile, was as gentle as a breeze. After an unknown amount of time, Sheng Ye heard the sound of the shutter disappear, and there were only birds chirping around.

The sun is so beautiful and they will always be in love.