a certain Zheng Kexin

The last time Zheng Kexin saw Qi Yao's mother was at the parent meeting in junior high school.At that time, the senior high school entrance examination was approaching, and the school specially approved the meeting hall for students and parents to have a meeting together. Zheng Kexin and An Ji were called by the teacher to sort out the "Letter to Parents", and ran into the ghostly Qi Yao at the door of the office.

Qi Yao pulled his mother to point her to the girl he liked, thinking that Zheng Kexin couldn't hear the noisy voices, but he didn't expect that the person who had just opened his mouth to count the notice would suddenly turn around——During that time, Zheng Kexin was "pursued" by him Tormented by one head and two big ones, they have developed radar skills, and their nerves are densely packed, and their senses are about to evolve.

Qi Yao's mother has long curly hair with bangs, and a hairpin with pearls on the half-draped hair. The bag and skirt have been carefully matched. The color is a lively and gentle apricot color, unlike other parents who wear it properly. Old and mature, the whole person looks very young.

Unexpectedly alarmed Zheng Kexin, Qi's mother smiled embarrassedly, hurriedly pulled her son and ran away with a guilty look on her face, and almost bumped into the grade director who entered the door.At that time, no one thought that such a chaotic and hurried side would be the last side of the two of them.

An Ji, who was counting homework, took a look and said to Zheng Kexin, "I finally understand why Qi Yao is like this."

A heartless child is heartless and happy to see everything. Outsiders worry that he will not grow up. In fact, the person concerned may be living a very happy life.

Zheng Kexin only understood An Ji's meaning at this moment, but in a blink of an eye, he was separated from that lively mother.She offered incense and worshiped, nervously staring at the funeral photos in black and white, somehow feeling that Qi's mother was still wearing apricot.

In the third year of high school, everyone was busy studying and had no time to make friends with each other. Qi Yao made no close friends for more than half a year after turning over.Both An Ji and Ning Zhi rushed back from other places, and Qiao Yuan brought them here to attend Qi's mother's funeral.Presumably, they and Qi Yao were classmates in junior high school, so they had a deeper relationship.

In addition to the five of them, Qi Yao's "hunters and dog friends" also came, and the son who exiled him from Lincheng also came from Hua'an - although now I know that the fight may be just the excuse of Qi's father... But it's also It doesn't matter anymore.

The boys don't know much about comforting Dafa, and some of them instinctively want to hug him, but they can't do anything—Qi Yao seems to have grown up overnight, talking and behaving like a strange adult, with red eyes and very restrained, He doesn't lose his temper when he sees people, he speaks kind words in a courteous and thoughtful manner, and passes a white flower by the way.

The bastards stared at each other and had no way to deal with it. In the end, they had to nod and say "sorry" in return for courtesy.

Qi Yao was a child before, and he did not do things lightly or seriously. He couldn't understand the meaning behind the lines, and he couldn't see through the world and human relationships. If he said something a little more complicated, it would become an embarrassing "quantum mechanics".But no one among those who are wrapped in several layers of slickness hits people in the face. Everyone has their own thoughts and scruples and is always reluctant to speak clearly, and the whole world becomes more and more unpredictable in his eyes.

Before, Zheng Kexin was annoyed by his ignorance, and thought it was annoying and stupid. Now that he thinks about it, the older he gets, the more complicated he becomes. He hides his own thoughts and secrets inside and outside his words. He even pretends to correct the answers after the exam. The words are full of embarrassment.They are no longer innocent and simple children, is it true that Qi Yao is the only one who is still responsible for being frank and sincere.

The entire venue was full of adults, and many teachers came, talking about topics that they couldn't talk about and didn't want to interrupt, a few people left silently after paying their respects, and were stopped by Qi Yao at the gate.

He was originally facing Xu Niannian, but then he moved his body and bowed slightly to Zheng Kexin and Xu Niannian: "Before I was ignorant, I caused you trouble."

But he was sensible, and it made people feel even more uncomfortable.

Everyone felt a little uncomfortable. It was past four o'clock in the afternoon when we walked all the way to the square. Qiao Yuan walked with four girls and attracted the attention of most of the street. Have something to eat before going back?"

After speaking, he looked at Zheng Kexin as if he suddenly remembered something, and asked hesitantly: "Is there anyone in your family... Are you in a hurry to go back?"

Zheng Kexin noticed his nervousness and shook her head.In the next year, Zheng Shupei no longer needs to be on guard 24 hours a day, and Su Yingyu will go home from time to time to get some clothes. Before going out, Su Yingyu told her to walk around outside and eat something delicious before coming back. There is a mother watching at home.

A few people were not in the mood to go shopping, so they entered a hot pot restaurant nearby.

It was not time for dinner yet, and there was only one table for them in the shop. Qiao Yuan went to the toilet and the four girls ordered a few dishes. When he came back to look, he found that he ordered clear soup for hot pot in winter, which was too disrespectful. Lamb is up!

Qiao Yuan wanted to liven up the atmosphere, and said in a very dissatisfied voice: "Clear soup? Is my grandfather's youth over? Serve him some perverted spicy food."

It's rare that Ning Zhi didn't choke with him, but just glanced at him indifferently: "Spicy appetizer, you are really a mountain that even a foolish old man can't move on the way to lose weight."

As soon as Ning Zhi spoke, Qiao Yuan immediately compromised. The little girl who ordered the order didn't hear the exact words, so she didn't have much wit and asked, "So who do you listen to?"

Qiao Yuan had already rushed to adjust the small ingredients, and pointed at the sound: "Listen to the ancestors."

After being disturbed by the two of them, the mood of several people improved a little. Zheng Kexin turned his face and exchanged a tacit look with An Ji. When he turned his head, Xu Niannian had already poured hot water into her empty cup.

I don't know if it's because of the weather or lack of resistance. During this time, Zheng Kexin's hands and feet were very cold. During the day, it was better. At night, when the two of them touched each other, Xu Niannian was woken up by the ice several times. The electric blanket was flipped out.

Just after going out to blow the wind, Xu Niannian accidentally touched the back of Zheng Kexin's hand when ordering, and found that her hand was as cold as ice, so she asked the waiter for a pot of hot water.

The hot pot was boiled in a short while, and the aroma of the meat slices quickly rose from the hairy belly. The heat is consumed quickly in winter, and the few people are indeed a little hungry after all the hard work.

Qiao Yuan ordered two bottles of iced cola to drink, and then lost his mind for a short time as he slid down the shrimp.The last time the five of them got together was years ago, when Zheng Kexin went to the hospital to donate bone marrow and something happened to his family.Qiao Yuan's science is not very good, and his liberal arts are not top-notch. He can't tell how exciting he is with a few baskets of books. He just feels that this day is terrible.

As soon as Qiao Yuan, the pistachio, was silent, the table suddenly became eerily quiet. Ning Zhi picked up a shrimp slip and said nonchalantly, "We must do very well in the college entrance examination—luck is conserved, and good things come when bad things pass. Not always bad luck."

Qiao Yuan: "Well said, it sounds like a famous quote from a celebrity."

Ning Zhi gave him a white look, and then smiled helplessly: "It's really a 'celebrity quote'."

"Really? Who said that? Gorky or Shakespeare?" Qiao Yuan didn't expect that he would guess the correct answer by throwing the dice, and was suddenly a little surprised to see a dead mouse.

Ning Zhi smiled, and gave everyone points while laughing: "Can you still name the third option—it's my sister. Every time she fails the exam, she uses this sentence to comfort herself, and she is very energetic." .”

Qiao Yuan gave a "tsk": "It's okay, when you are on the rich list, she will be a celebrity... The celebrity is her sister, so is my sister's conclusion reliable?"

"How should I put it?" Ning Zhi narrowed her eyes with a complicated expression, "According to her current grades, she should be saving her luck to wait for the college entrance examination."

Thanks to Ning Zhi's sister, several people finally laughed.

Afterwards, Ning Zhi scolded her stupid sister, An Ji gossips about her younger brother who chased girls, Qiao Yuan complained between his parents who are at full combat level, and the meal chatted about family problems, and it ended lively.

It was already dark when we left the hot pot restaurant, and several people went back to their respective homes to find their own mothers. Zheng Kexin got in the car and chose a seat by the window. It turns out that Lincheng's winter is so cold.

It may also be that I felt this way when I was very young, but I forgot it later.

When Su Yingyu and Zheng Shupei were very young, they took her to temple fairs to watch lanterns. They were afraid that she would be exposed to the wind, so they always wrapped her into a ball with three layers of hats and scarves. The clothes were thick and slippery, and Zheng Shupei couldn’t sit on the bus. Just pick her up, put her on your lap, and raise her up a bit so that she can see the vendors selling things outside.

Those who sell rice cakes, sugar people, fruit lotus root noodle soup...

Zheng Ke was so greedy that he clamored to buy food several times. The family got out of the car hand in hand, bought delicious food and then ran to the station hand in hand...then there was no such scene again.

Sheng Yunming was ill, so someone had to be taken care of at home. Qiao Yuan knew how to ask: Is there anyone in your family? Are you in a hurry to go back?

Her mother has no freedom, and her father has no legs. Zheng Kexin lives herself like a bonsai, eats as much as she wants, sleeps as she pleases, and lives very well.The ordinary happiness of other people's family is a luxury for her family, Zheng Kexin stared at the passing street scene, as if she couldn't see clearly.

She grows up, grows up, her family grows old, and after that, after a period of years that no one can say for sure, separation will also be put on the agenda.There will always be farewells in the world, just like there are always changes, the moon is cloudy and sunny, it is a difficult thing since ancient times.

No matter how reluctant and painful, there is no banquet in the world that lasts forever.

As soon as adults step into the society, they start to worry about cars, housing, salary and household registration. They worry about their hearts in the middle of the night, and when they want to speak and cry first, they always think about the good days of their school days.Not only because of the time filter cast by the past years, the beatings and scolding when I was a student, the homework exams, the heartbroken inside and outside, and the good words full of calluses, all are just to complete the goal of the college entrance examination .

When you are a teenager, you don't have to worry about your family's livelihood, you don't have to worry about your responsibilities, and you don't have to see clearly that life and death are involuntary, and there are endless truths—it is really the easiest time to live.

However, Zheng Kexin realized the helplessness of life earlier than his peers, and now he has realized another fact that is about to surface in advance.

Home doesn't feel like home anymore, and in half a year, if the review materials are thrown away, the rain in June will wash away all the friends around her.

An Ji will go abroad to study after finishing his undergraduate degree, while Ning Zhi has wild thoughts and wants to go far away. Qiao Yuan has no grades, but he will choose a school that is closer to Ning Zhi among the limited choices.

Taking a step back, even if we are still together in college, we will go to work in different cities in the future. Qiao Yuan said that he wants to be a photographer and travel around the world-after all, we still have to separate.

Looking far away, everything is sad, and following this line of thought, the hot pot meal just now became the "last supper" for five people, and Zheng Kexin was instantly swallowed by a huge sense of loneliness.

She tried her best to convince herself that people are just meeting by chance with a few words or a few more words. Everyone has their own future, just like going home at the station and going home. of.

But at the same time, Zheng Kexin knows well that she is silent and not good at making friends. Adults no longer have the curiosity and enthusiasm of young people. No one will get used to her cold temper and come over to hold her hand like Ning Zhi and the others. The ability to maintain a sincere friendship that does not need to be maintained is a gift that can only be found in boyhood.

Feelings are not like a quiz. If you don't score this time, you will have a chance next time.Many things in the world are the college entrance examination, and there is no room for regret if it is overdue. If she loses these good things, she will never get them again.

Xu Niannian plugged in an earphone, the car was shaking and there was a lot of noise, the lyrics were not clear, intermittent.It took Zheng Kexin a long time to hear the song, happiness is really not easy... I don't want to be separated from you again.

She doesn't want to be separated, not at all, she doesn't want to lose anything.

She didn't have much, she couldn't bear it.

There were people coming and going outside the window, Zheng Kexin suddenly felt the emptiness and loneliness that he had imagined decades later in the bustling world, the heater in the car made people cold, Zheng Kexin's hand was held by Xu Niannian for a long time but failed to warm up, outside The street scene is getting darker and darker, and only her own face is left on the window.

The two faces faced each other silently, the person in the car and the person in the window judged and sized each other up, Zheng Kexin gradually saw through her cowardly nature from under her flawless and calm appearance.

She told herself that "in the world of life, being alone with no one to rely on" is the norm, thinking that she was already ready to spend the next few decades in solitude, she thought that she could eat alone, sleep alone, and push away alone The door of the room is soaked in cold air, and a person is slowly getting old.

Xu Niannian patted the back of her hand lightly, Zheng Kexin suddenly had the urge to cry.

"The college entrance examination is coming soon." She spoke in a steady tone, summarizing her silent thoughts in a few words, "I will be very busy in the next six months, and I will graduate after that. It may be difficult to have a meal together in the future."

Xu Niannian let out a "hmm", and then said optimistically: "No, I will spend more time in college, and there will be more opportunities to get together."

Zheng Kexin smiled wryly in her heart, Xu Niannian really didn't know what she was worried about.

fair enough.

I heard Xu Niannian continue to say: "We can go out to play together if we have nothing to do during the winter and summer vacations. There is no sea in Lincheng, so I really want to go to see the sea."

Zheng Kexin didn't speak.

She looked far and wide, falling on one sad ending after another, without daring to think about Xu Niannian.She knew that Xu Niannian would have new friends in the future, would fall in love and get married, and would step into marriage and become a happy wife and mother. The more she knew, the less she dared to think about it, and her heart ached when she thought about it.

She suddenly remembered the dog that Xu Niannian liked.

At that time, she had just moved away from home, and the two of them had just gotten to know each other. They went shopping together and discussed what to eat. Xu Niannian took her to the pet shop to open a can for Feifei, and happily said to her, "Isn't Feifei so cute? My mother told me to take Feifei home after the college entrance examination."

Feifei was very happy when he heard this, he scattered the cans everywhere, and jumped on people very lively.When she is happy, Xu Niannian is happy, when Xu Niannian is happy, Zheng Kexin is happy.

She thought about it silently, and bought Feifei after she graduated as Xu Niannian's graduation gift.

"Or, go and see Feifei."

Now it's Chinese New Year, you can open two cans of canned food, one can of beef and one can of chicken, and I have to say happy new year to her.

The mall closes at [-] o'clock, and they rushed over in a hurry. There was no one in the store. A waiter who was unfamiliar was checking the bill. When a customer came in and wiped off his exhausted face, Zheng Kexin skipped her and looked back.

There were two yellow-haired corgis lying in Feifei's cage, and they were disturbed by the door opening. One of them looked up excitedly, then couldn't hold back the drowsiness and buried its head back.

Zheng Kexin loosened Xu Niannian's hand suddenly.

The past days can't go back, and relatives and friends go farther and farther. In the end, she can't even keep a puppy. The powerlessness of being unable to grasp anything makes Zheng Kexin feel the loneliness and anger that she has never had before. Inspired her vindictive willfulness.

She seemed to be driven out of her body by another Zheng Kexin, watching "she" pull Xu Niannian out of the shopping mall, get back into the car, and drag Xu Niannian to get off the car halfway, the two of them kept walking all the way, Crossing most of the downtown area, the exhaled white air hit people's faces in large groups... It was not until they saw the rental building of the two of them that they stopped panting heavily.

The rolling door curtain of the Malatang shop creaked, and the last shop with lights on was also closed.

It has snowed a little, and when the eyelashes move, there will be a water mark.

She heard "she" ask: "If I say I like you, will you think I'm a pervert?"

In the next second, all Zheng Kexins changed back to that Zheng Kexin.

The hands are so cold that they don't feel cold, only pain.

The author has something to say: As soon as Ning Zhi spoke, Qiao Yuan immediately compromised. The little girl who ordered the order didn't hear what she said, so she asked in a non-tactful manner, "So who do you listen to?"

Qiao Yuan had already rushed to adjust the small ingredients, and pointed at the sound: "Listen to the ancestors."

Ning Zhi's mind is wild, and he wants to run far away. Qiao Yuan has no grades, but he will choose a school that is closer to Ning Zhi from the limited choices.

—I'm always a fan of rowdy relationships.

Looking far away, everything is sad——"Reunion Qian Zhongshu Documentary" In the world of life, suddenly like a traveler——"Shangbai on Qingqingling"