I just want to be a vegetable

Cheng Zhiyuan helped Yang Yang wipe away the tears from the corners of his eyes: "Baby stay at home obediently, okay? Dad is going out to chase Dad back."

Yang Yang still held his arm tightly: "I'll go too!"

"Baby is obedient. I will come back as soon as I find my father. Baby can play games first, or watch cartoons."

"Will daddy not want us anymore?" Yang Yang asked timidly, and sobbed again after speaking, "It's all my fault..."

"Okay, okay, don't cry baby. Dad is just in a bad mood, and he won't want us. If the baby goes out together, I will take care of the baby and your dad. I can't figure out what to do. manage?"

Yang Yang listened carefully to Cheng Zhiyuan's words, nodded after thinking about it, and let go of Cheng Zhiyuan: "Then you must find Dad back!"

"Trust me." Cheng Zhiyuan kissed Qin Yangyang on the forehead, took his wallet and mobile phone, got up and went out.

After yearning ran out, she first walked around the community, and then wandered aimlessly.

The phone vibrated in his trouser pocket, he took it out, saw Cheng Zhiyuan's name, and pressed it.

Cheng Zhiyuan called again, and he continued to press it.After going back and forth a few times, he turned off the machine directly.

After walking for about an hour, a thin layer of sweat broke out on my body, and I yearned to find a bench to sit down, watching the cars coming and going under the street lights, not knowing what to do.

He didn't want to go home, and he didn't want to look for Feng Zhe, he just wanted to be alone, luckily he had his wallet in his pocket when he went out.

After sitting for a while, he went to the hotel and got a room. After taking a shower, he lay on the bed, with the faces of Cheng Zhiyuan, Yang Yang and Feng Zhe repeatedly appearing in his mind.

He suddenly felt that he was such a failure. His lover who had been in love for many years may have betrayed him, and his friends for many years also helped to hide it, and even his own children turned towards others.

Is it necessary for them to transform themselves into what they like in order to obtain permanent happiness?

Is this him still him?Didn't Cheng Zhiyuan like him back then, why can he change now?

Although Cheng Zhiyuan has pushed him very tightly recently, which is completely different from the previous letting go, but Xiangxiang never thought of leaving him for a moment.

Thinking of this, the thoughts of yearning turned to the side again, and he thought about Cheng Zhiyuan forcing him to do things he didn't want to do, and the more he thought about it, the more he felt that something was wrong: Since they are getting on good terms with others, why do they still meddle with themselves? Shouldn't it be more and more alienated from yourself?

But if he hadn't gotten along with others, why were all the signs so obvious?

Especially Feng Zhe, who even helped Cheng Zhiyuan hide it from him. Could it be that the relationship between Cheng Zhiyuan and Feng Zhe is better than that between himself and him?

Longing for a headache, he unconsciously turned on the TV before lying down, and a popular fashion drama was broadcasting on the TV at the moment, and there was a cute child talking to adults in the drama.

Yearning sees this child and thinks of Yangyang. Every time Yangyang sees that child appear, he will proudly tell Yearning that he can sleep by himself without being afraid, but that child is still afraid.

At this time, Yearning would hold down his arrogantly raised head, pinch his little face and praise him.Sometimes when Cheng Zhiyuan came out after he was busy, he would also boast about it.

Longing can't control myself not to think about them, even if I'm alone in a cold and unpopular place like a hotel.Yearning called the front desk and asked the front desk to bring him a pack of cigarettes.

Until the whole pack of cigarettes was smoked, Yearning still did not feel sleepy.There is a strong smell of smoke in the room, and I yearn to close my eyes and force myself to sleep in the smell I made.

Later, Yearning didn't know when she fell asleep, she slept very unsteadily, she always habitually moved aside while half dreaming and half awake, but always missed...

Although he didn't sleep for a few hours, Yearning still woke up following the biological clock.He reacted for a while before he remembered where he was, and reached for the mobile phone beside the bed, wanting to see what time it was and whether it was time to go to work.

The greatest sorrow of adults is that no matter how sad or sad they are, they still have to work hard to get up and go to work the next day.

Longing to press the power button for a long time, but the phone's screen is still black, probably out of battery.Yearning sighed, quickly finished washing, put on yesterday's dirty clothes, and went out to check out.

Looking forward to seeing the time in the lobby, thinking that Cheng Zhiyuan should have gone to work, he planned to go home, get the charger and change his clothes before going to work.

After returning home, he did not see Cheng Zhiyuan and Yang Yang.Longing to charge the phone first, and then went into the bedroom to get a change of clothes.

There is obviously no sign of sleeping in the bedroom, because the sheets are not wrinkled at all, and everything is so neat.Did Cheng Zhiyuan sleep on the sofa last night?longing to think...

Yearning took the clothes and went into the bathroom to take a quick shower. After coming out, the mobile phone was already charged by [-]%.

He pressed the power button for a long time, and the screen slowly lit up.Yearning didn't take a closer look, so she pulled out the charger and put it in her bag, opened the door and went out.

It wasn't until she got down to their parking space in the basement that Xiang Xiang realized that she didn't want to drive.

But the car in the parking space was not driven away by Cheng Zhiyuan, yearning was still very surprised.Their family has two cars, one for the company as a commercial vehicle, and one for home use, which is convenient for two people to commute to get off work and for the whole family to travel.

Xiang Xiang came out of the underground garage and waved for a taxi, because he really didn't have the energy to drive.Cheng Zhiyuan should be in this state, otherwise he wouldn't drive and would not drive, yearning to think.

After arriving at the company, I yearn to click on the mailbox, reply to a few emails, and start writing the work plan for the day.

He purposely filled himself with work to avoid overthinking, and went out to socialize as much as possible, so as to avoid getting along with Cheng Zhiyuan in the company.

At the thought of avoiding Cheng Zhiyuan, Xiangqian couldn't settle down again. Those so-called words of forgetting everything when she was busy, Xiangqian felt that it was not very reasonable.

Especially for mental work, it is impossible to concentrate at all. In such a state, it is easy to make mistakes in work. Unless it is pure physical work of mechanical work, there is no need to think about anything.

But even if it is purely physical labor, poor condition may cause physical injury.

Yearning was lost in her own thoughts until there was a knock on the door.

"Come in." Xiang Xiang tightened his tie and lowered his head to organize the documents on the desktop.

"Mr. Xiang, these documents need your signature."

Xiangxiang looked up, took the documents, and only after signing one did he think of something: "Isn't this a project that Mr. Cheng is in charge of? Why did you come to me?"

"Boss Cheng hasn't come to work yet, these few are in a hurry, so they came to see you."

"Huh? Did he go out to meet clients or never came?"

"I haven't seen him since I went to work."

Yearning paused, and signed all the remaining documents: "Okay, you go out."

After the secretary left, Xiang Xiang remembered that she hadn't looked at her phone.He took the charging mobile phone aside, and after unlocking it, he found a bunch of missed calls and messages.

Missed calls include those from Cheng Zhiyuan and Feng Zhe, and the messages are all from Feng Zhe, including text messages and WeChat.

Yearning to open the text message first, it was sent at [-]:[-] this morning: "Call me back immediately when you see the message!"

Yearning to open the address book, dial Feng Zhe's phone number, but no one answered after the ringing ended.Yearning shook his head and clicked on WeChat.Read from most recent to first:

[We are in XXX Hospital, come here if you see it! 】

[Cheng Zhiyuan's parents have already come, I'll take Yangyang back to my house first.He was terrified and kept crying, and he couldn't be coaxed well.Where are you? 】

[I sent him to the hospital, and he is not out of danger yet, so hurry back to me! 】

[The situation is urgent, I have been unable to contact you, I have already called his parents, and I am on my way to the hospital now. 】

[Where did you go, call me back quickly! 】

Yearning to hold the phone's hand shook violently, and the phone slid onto the table, making a loud noise.

He froze for a few seconds before grabbing his phone and rushing out the door. Halfway through the rush, he found that he didn't bring his wallet, and ran back again.

Everyone in the company was surprised to see Xiang Xiang's distraught appearance, but no one dared to take the initiative to ask what happened.

In the taxi, Xiangqian's hands and feet kept shaking uncontrollably, and the driver kept peeking at him from the rearview mirror, for fear that he would be picked up by a mentally ill person.

As soon as he arrived at the place, Xiangqian drove the door and rushed straight. The driver grabbed his hand excitedly. Only then did Xiangxiang realize that he hadn't paid him. After stuffing a handful of money randomly, Xiangqian rushed into the hospital gate.

The driver behind kept shouting: "Hey, what's wrong with you, what's the matter with giving me so much?"

After rushing in, Xiang Xiang remembered that he didn't know Cheng Zhiyuan's ward number, Feng Zhe only mentioned the name of the hospital in the message.

He quickly took out his mobile phone and called Feng Zhe again, but there was still no one answering, so he called Cheng Zhiyuan again and turned off the phone.

Longing was running around in a hurry, and was about to go to the front desk to ask the first responder last night which ward the patient surnamed Cheng lived in, when Feng Zhe walked out of the elevator holding Yang Yang's hand and was heading towards the lobby.

Of course Feng Zhe also saw him, and hurriedly walked towards him, Yang Yang broke away from Feng Zhe's hand, leaped towards Xiang Xiang, and Xiang Xiang rushed forward to catch him.

Before Feng Zhe had time to speak, Yang Yang was already crying in his arms, the louder he cried, the more people in the lobby looked at them.

"Dad, woo woo, dad, you're finally back! I'm so scared, I'm afraid you don't want us anymore! Dad is sick, I call him, call him, he doesn't answer me, I'm so scared, so scared, woo woo woo..."

Yearning's nose also became sore, and while patting Yang Yang's back, he softly comforted him: "Baby, it's all dad's fault, don't cry, baby, dad is here. If you continue to cry like this, dad I can't bear it anymore..."

Feng Zhe walked to his side and patted him on the shoulder: "Cheng Zhiyuan is in danger, but he hasn't woken up yet. The doctor said it was because he was too tired, and he will wake up naturally later."

"What's going on? Why did you get hospitalized?"

Feng Zhe looked deeply into his eyes, yearning to hold Yang Yang's hand tightly: "Tell me, I can bear it."

"Liver cancer." Feng Zhe paused, then continued, "Late stage."

Yearning's body seemed to be split in half by a bolt of lightning. The whole body was not his own. There was a piercing sound like a prevention and control alarm in his head. He couldn't hear what the people around him were saying, and he didn't know what he was thinking at all. What.