I just want to be a vegetable

Yearning's hand unconsciously let go, almost throwing Yang Yang off, Feng Zhe hurriedly took over Yang Yang.

Looking at Xiang Xiang's sluggish appearance, Feng Zhe was very worried.He put down Yang Yang, stroked Xiang Xiang's back: "If you feel uncomfortable, cry out, don't hold on."

Yearning was still in a trance, his eyes were loose, he looked at Feng Zhe's open and closed lips, but he couldn't make a sound when he wanted to speak.

Feng Zhe held Yang Yang with one hand, half-dragged and half-dragged Xiang Xiang to the rest chair with the other, and pressed his shoulders to force him to sit down.Yang Yang stopped crying a long time ago, and stretched out her little hand to touch the yearning face.

"Dad, Dad, what's wrong with you? Are you sick too?"

Yearning was finally pulled back by Yang Yang's voice, pulling back a sliver of consciousness from that almost suffocating state.

Feng Zhe knew that he was in a hurry, but at this moment, he really hoped that Yang Yang would continue to cry, so as to stimulate his longing and let him vent his emotions, otherwise this state would be very dangerous.

Yearning slowly turned to Feng Zhe: "Take me up."

Feng Zhe knew that this would not cater to him, maybe he would collapse.Yearning followed Feng Zhe into the elevator, and there were only three of them in the elevator.

The elevator slowly ascended, Xiang Xiang suddenly said: "When did you know?"

"Not long, less than a month."

"why did not you tell me?"

"He said, wait for him to arrange everything and talk to you in person."

The elevator fell silent for an instant, and it happened to arrive at the floor.

When he arrived at the entrance of the intensive care unit, Xiang Xiang suddenly stopped in his tracks. Up to this moment, he still couldn't believe that it was true. One second he forced himself to calm down, and the next he kept refuting the fact that Cheng Zhiyuan had cancer.

Feng Zhe turned the doorknob with one hand, grabbed his shoulder with the other, turned his head to look at Xiangxiang, Xiangxiang took a deep breath, and nodded to Feng Zhe.

As soon as the door was opened, yearning to see Cheng Zhiyuan surrounded by various instruments in white, so weak and so quiet.

Longing for the whole heart, this man who was as calm as a mountain in front of him, this man who never showed his weak side in front of him, just lay in a cold corner like this, as if he would never wake up again after falling asleep.

It took a lot of effort for Xiangxiang to move from the door to the bed, her feet were soft, she knelt on the floor at the head of the bed, supported the bed with her hands, and just looked at Cheng Zhiyuan's face steadily.

Feng Zhe didn't want to disturb Yearning, but after he looked down at Yang Yang, he still had to whisper to him: "Yang Yang is hungry, I'll take him down to eat, and I'll bring you something, too?"

Yearning completely blocked out any sounds around her, and only maintained that kneeling position looking at Cheng Zhiyuan.Feng Zhe shook his head, took Yang Yang's hand and walked out the door, closing the door gently.

Yearning slowly stretched out her hand, and stroked the only forehead exposed outside the instrument with her warm palm.

It's been a long time since I yearn to look at Cheng Zhiyuan so carefully, and now I realize that Cheng Zhiyuan has really lost weight, and the obvious cheekbones can be seen on the already chiseled face.

Feng Zhe came up quickly, carrying a bowl of porridge in his hand, but Yang Yang didn't follow, and was carried by the nurse outside to the nurse's station to watch cartoons.

Feng Zhe put the porridge on the table: "Get up and have some porridge." As he said that, he went over to hold Xiangxiang's arm, trying to pull him up.

Xiangqian's body was very heavy at this time, Feng Zhe had to use a lot of strength to support him up, Xiangqian also realized Feng Zhe's efforts, and supported his movements with his hands on the edge of the bed.

Feng Zhe pulled him to the side chair and sat down, Xiang Xiang slowly looked up at him, Feng Zhe also pulled the side chair and sat face to face with him.

"At about one o'clock last night, Yang Yang called me. He was so crying that he couldn't hear what he was talking about. It took me a long time to coax him to find out that he was alone at home. Cheng Zhiyuan went out to look for you and never came back. Yesterday Did you have a fight tonight?"

Xiang Xiang nodded weakly, Feng Zhe continued: "Yangyang said that Cheng Zhiyuan has been out for a long time, I thought he was not in good health, and was afraid of something, so I drove directly to your house, picked up Yangyang, and walked around I hope to find Cheng Zhiyuan."

"Later, he was found lying on the ground in an alley. He was unconscious at the time. Fortunately, the ambulance arrived in time. When he was sent to the hospital, the doctor said that if it was a little later, he might be gone."

Xiang Xiang violently clenched his fist and hammered his head hard, Feng Zhe hurriedly grabbed his arm to prevent him from continuing to move: "Don't do this. Since things have happened, there is no way to undo it, you can only learn to cheer up. Think about it Yangyang, you still have Yangyang to take care of, now is the time when Cheng Zhiyuan needs you the most, you can't give up on yourself, you know?"

Yearning's struggling strength was taken away at once, he leaned softly on Feng Zhe's shoulder, Feng Zhe put his arms around his shoulder, patted his back and whispered in his ear: "It's okay, it will pass ..."

Longing just let Feng Zhe hold her in such a silent way, as if she didn't even breathe.

"Dad, little Zhezhe. You can't hug!" Yang Yang's voice appeared at the door.

Yearning moved her eyelashes slightly, and raised her head from Feng Zhe's arms.Feng Zhe let go of him, and pressed him against the back of the chair.

Yang Yang walked up to Xiang Xiang, squeezed between his spread legs, Xiang Xiang Xuxu raised his hand, and took Yang Yang into his arms.

"I'll take Yangyang back and come back after he's settled down. Can you do it alone?"

Yearning paused for a long time before slowly nodding, Feng Zhe coaxed Yang Yang and left the ward.There were only the two of them left in the ward.

Yearning pulled the chair to the side of the bed, leaned over and buried her head sideways on the hospital bed, pinched Cheng Zhiyuan's little finger with one hand and kept rubbing it.

The strong smell of disinfectant water in the hospital can't cover the smell of Cheng Zhiyuan's body, this is the unique smell that he yearns for.

Yearning to smell this exclusive smell, he closed his eyes.The piles and pieces between them poured into my mind overwhelmingly.

Cheng Zhiyuan forced him to learn how to cook, to exercise, to go to bed early, to get rid of his bad temper, and to get along with Yang Yang... All these were originally preparations for his departure one day.

Yearning only realizes now that he has been so dependent on Cheng Zhiyuan all along. Whether it is work or life, Cheng Zhiyuan is his solid backing, allowing him to be himself without any worries.

As for himself, he actually suspected that there was someone outside him, lost his temper with him because of this, and even slammed the door and ran away.

What kind of torment did Cheng Zhiyuan spend that time in?

Bearing the pressure of illness, and having to take care of the life and emotions of the family, one big and one small, my yearning heart began to ache again.

When Cheng Zhiyuan's parents opened the door and came in, they saw Xiangxiang lying on the side of the hospital bed with a stiff body, and thought he had fallen asleep.

Cheng's mother put a can of soup on the table. Although she handled it carefully, Xiangxiang still noticed the faint sound in the ward.

When he first learned about Cheng Zhiyuan, he was completely in a state of tinnitus. After lying alone beside Cheng Zhiyuan for so long, his hearing was more sensitive than usual, and he could detect even the slightest noise.

Yearning slowly opened his eyes, and met the reddish eyes of the second elder above.Yearning to straighten her body, trying to make herself speak out: "Dad, Mom, I..."

Not only Cheng Zhiyuan's parents, but even Longing himself was frightened by his hoarse voice, and he couldn't say anything after that.

Seeing his hard work, Mother Cheng waved her hand to signal him to stop talking: "Drink some soup, my son, my voice is hoarse. Sigh——"

"Xiao Xiang, let's go back and rest first. It's good that the two of us are here to watch. We'll notify you when we wake up later." Dad Cheng said.

Yearning shook his head desperately, his mouth squirming to say something, he turned his head and rummaged through the bedside drawer to find a pen, wrote a line in his own hand, and opened his hands to show the two elders after writing.

I saw writing on his hand: I'll just keep watch, my parents are getting old, no matter how tired and sick, I won't be able to face Cheng Zhiyuan when he wakes up.

Mother Cheng and Father Cheng looked at each other, and after a while of eye contact, they compromised.Before leaving, Cheng's mother repeatedly told Xiangxiang to drink the soup first, so that he would not be too tired.

Yearning nodded in response, and later took out her mobile phone and made a gesture to make a call.The second elder understood what he meant, stayed in the ward for a while, and then went back after consulting the attending doctor about some situations.

The ward was quiet again, Xiangqian then lay down beside Cheng Zhiyuan.In the evening, Xiang Xiang felt the slight twitch of Cheng Zhiyuan's fingertips, and he suddenly looked up at his face.

Cheng Zhiyuan's hand moved again, and Xiang Xiang hurriedly rang the bedside bell.When the doctor arrived, Cheng Zhiyuan had already squinted his eyes slightly, yearning to stand aside with his hands on the wall, watching the doctor examine Cheng Zhiyuan in every aspect.

"Well, it's all right. When he wakes up completely, don't rush to feed him. Moisten his lips with water first. At present, he can only eat liquid food first."

Yearning nodded earnestly, the doctor removed the large piece of equipment, changed the bottle of IV for him, and walked out of the ward.

Cheng Zhiyuan has fully opened his eyes, and Xiang Xiang hurriedly walked to the bed.Cheng Zhiyuan wanted to raise his hand to touch his head, but his hands couldn't make it work.Yearning saw his intention, bent down and handed his head to Cheng Zhiyuan's hand.

Longing rubbed against Cheng Zhiyuan's palm, and his heart warmed up a little.Cheng Zhiyuan patted the bed, signaling Xiang Xiang to come up, Xiang Xiang thought about it, took off his shoes and climbed onto the bed, carefully lying on his side beside Cheng Zhiyuan.

Cheng Zhiyuan took him into his arms and pinched the back of his neck: "Are you scared? It's okay baby—"

Yearning's shoulders trembled slightly, and Cheng Zhiyuan stroked the corners of his eyes with his hands, which were wet.Cheng Zhiyuan helped him wipe the tears off his face with his hands, but he couldn't dry them no matter what.

Yearning from shaking his shoulders silently to gradually letting out a suppressed hoarse cry, Cheng Zhiyuan held his hand tightly, wanting to kiss the top of his hair, but couldn't lower his head.

Yearning to thump Cheng Zhiyuan's chest lightly, then rubbed again after beating: "Bastard!"

"Yeah, I'm an asshole, sorry baby."

"You are a bastard, you know! You bastard!"

The voice of yearning has a kind of explosive power in forbearance, which makes people feel heart-piercing.

"Listen well, you, don't think about it, leave me alone!"

Feng Zhe looked at the two people hugging inside the door, and slowly closed the door.He was leaning against the wall, his nose sore, so he had to raise his head slightly.