So you're secretly jealous again

Shu Jinshi spoke these two words calmly and forcefully.

The same is true for her eyes, which have been locked on Xu Fengyi's body, without any erratic.

It doesn't seem like it came casually, but after careful consideration.

Driven by these two words, Xu Fengyi felt as if there was a transparent silk thread in the air tied to her heart, and she lifted it up.

Shu Jinshi's answer turned out to be like this, she really didn't expect it at all.

Because Shu Jinshi said before that she didn't want to be in a relationship, Xu Fengyi thought that Shu Jinshi would say something like "You better not like me", and even thought about how to answer when the time came.

Who knows the result?

After her heart beat wildly, Xu Fengyi cleared her throat, glanced at her, and asked softly: "But didn't you say before that you don't like dating at all?"

Shu Jinshi looked at her with a smile, noncommittal.

After a while, she continued: "I think it's time for me to grow up too. People can't always live in the concept of the past."

"Admittedly, I used to be very afraid that someone would like me, because the kind of liking that several people showed to me was not what I needed, such as threatening me with their lives, etc. Such liking would only scare me."

"But not everyone in the world is that kind of person, so I thought about it, if I am liked by normal people, then, whether I like the other person or not, I will not be afraid."

"If you like me but I don't like you, then I will find a way to make it clear to you and tell you not to have illusions about me. I just want to be friends with you, and I won't block you because of this." You, an adult, still have to solve problems in an adult way, don't be rash. But if you like me, and I like you too, then I don't have to worry about anything, and I don't have to be afraid, isn't it all happy thing?"

What Shu Jinshi said was very interesting.

After she said this, it not only relieved the previous embarrassment, but also prevented Xu Fengyi from discovering that he had actually developed some other feelings for her now, and prevented her from running away in a panic.

The most important thing is that she left a way out for herself and let Xu Fengyi understand that if she wants to fall in love or likes herself in the future, she doesn't have to struggle and escape.

Yes, if before today, Shu Jinshi still had doubts about her feelings, then after today, she has completely determined what her true feelings look like.

She felt that she should, already understood which category her feelings for Xu Fengyi should be classified into.

Xu Fengyi is the only person who makes her worry about bumps and bumps, and also the only person who can mobilize her many subtle emotions.

All the signs showed that Xu Fengyi was completely different from everyone around her in her world.

Even compared with her best friends, it is completely different.

After that, without waiting for Xu Fengyi's answer, Shu Jinshi smiled and pointed to the meat on the iron plate: "Eat it quickly, or it will be cold later."

"Ah... oh." Xu Fengyi came back to his senses, and also picked up a bunch of roasted pork belly.

Then, during the barbecue time that followed, Shu Jinshi continued to chat and laugh with Xu Fengyi, chatting all over the world, from this movie to that music, as if nothing happened.

However, Xu Fengyi felt like a huge wave was being stirred up in his heart, and he couldn't calm down at all.

This uncontrollable strange emotion even accompanied her until the night.

That night, Xu Fengyi went back to wash after eating barbecue, and went to bed before eleven o'clock.

Originally, she thought that after going through so many strange things today, she must be very tired and would fall asleep soon, and even sleep so darkly that even thunder could not wake her up, but the fact is...

After she lay down, she soon suffered from insomnia.

I was caught off guard.

Obviously her body and limbs felt tired, but she just tossed and turned on the bed for most of the day, unable to fall asleep no matter what.

The body is sleepy, but the brain is still extremely active, and it is impossible to suppress those ghostly thoughts.

How could such a weird thing happen?She really hasn't met it yet.In the past, even when the pressure was the greatest, as long as her body was exhausted enough, she could still fall asleep deeply.

In desperation, she took out her mobile phone and checked the time several times. Seeing the time span from 11:30 to [-]:[-], and then from [-]:[-] to [-]:[-], her brain still seemed to be raped. Like a spell, I can't fall asleep.

The words that Shu Jinshi said during the barbecue were constantly playing in her mind, every word was so clear and powerful that it was impossible to ignore.

So, the meaning of Shu Jinshi's words is that she is not sure if she will like him in the future?

Rounding it up, it is equivalent to saying that even if she doesn't like herself now, at least she doesn't resist, right?

For a moment, Xu Fengyi felt as if his heart was hanging in the air for a moment, and then it was just another moment, slowly returning to its original rhythm.

She didn't know what she was thinking, she just knew that she was replaying what Shu Jinshi said in her mind over and over again, tirelessly.

What Shu Jinshi said was right, he is indeed afraid of falling in love now.

It's not even just about falling in love, she doesn't want to spend any more energy to meet new friends now.

Especially after Chen Siqi's incident happened, she was severely suppressed again.

She doesn't know if it will be better in the future, anyway, it won't be better in a while.

Because she will never know whether others will treat her sincerely.That sincerity, is it real, or just pretending.

Therefore, it is more difficult for her to trust a person in a short time, even if she thinks that person is not bad.

However, as Shu Jinshi said, it is difficult for people to control their hearts.

Even if I have been hypnotizing myself and telling myself that I don't like anyone at all, it doesn't mean that I can do it.

Just like...

Suddenly, Xu Fengyi thought of Shu Jinshi when he covered his ears.

And also, the way the other party warmed his hands while breathing out for him.

Even if she didn't want to admit it, she could still feel that her heart was covered with a thin layer of honey, which was so sweet.

And, when thinking about this, the corners of her lips were also raised.

The more I thought about it, the faster my heart beat, as if it would jump out soon, Xu Fengyi felt that she was crazy.

Turning over and changing posture, Xu Fengyi sighed, opened his eyes from the darkness and looked at the ceiling, and said silently: "Don't think about it, don't think about it, sleep and sleep..."

However, no matter how much she hypnotized her, it was in vain.

What's worse, Xu Fengyi felt that he couldn't fall asleep anymore.

Crazy, she thought, she might, really be crazy.

……

In the blink of an eye, the rest day came to an end and Monday arrived.

When Xu Fengyi woke up in the morning, it was exactly 07:30.

Her current biological clock is absolutely perfect, she doesn't need to set an alarm clock at all, and she can wake up on her own.

After a long yawn, Xu Fengyi stretched out his arms to stretch under the warm blanket, but he still couldn't get rid of the chaos in his mind, as if even his thinking was muddled.

Winter is like a season when a strange spell has been cast. Every time this happens, all animals, including humans, will become sleepy and lethargic.

If only every day in winter was a holiday.

On days like this, shouldn't you sleep until you wake up naturally, then play a few rounds of games wrapped in a quilt, and finally watch TV on the sofa with your hands in hot water?

Thinking about it, Xu Fengyi almost fell asleep again.

It wasn't until she touched her head one after another in a daze, felt a few rough bumps on the scalp with her fingertips, and after thinking about what they were for a long time, her heart moved and she opened her eyes.

That's scab.

When someone pulled his hair before, he said that the injury was not serious, but after all, there was a little blood.

Bleeding means that there is a wound, no matter how small the wound is, after condensation, there will be a little scab, which hurts the hand.

After touching for a while, Xu Fengyi hurriedly put down his hands to prevent himself from digging, lay flat on the bed, and blinked slowly while looking at the snow-white ceiling.

In a daze, what happened on Saturday played again in her mind.

This was the first time since that day that she allowed herself to think about the minutiae of that time.

After a while, she pushed the sleeves on her lower arms, staring quietly at the few bruises printed on her skin.It feels like it's almost gone, but the traces are still there.

Obviously this happened not long ago, but it always feels like several years have passed.

After sorting out all the emotions deeply in her heart, Xu Fengyi lifted the quilt and sat on the edge of the bed to wake up, then stuffed her feet into plush slippers, went to the bathroom to wash up, came back, changed a set of clothes, and put on her makeup started.

As usual, eyebrows, eyeliner, and lipstick.

After packing, she now looks the same as before in the company, as if nothing happened in the past two days.

After pinching her hair into slightly curved curls, Xu Fengyi opened the bedroom door and walked out.

Shu Jinshi went to the neighboring city last night, but he is not here now, so the house looks a bit empty.

It's strange to say that Xu Fengyi used to live by himself every day, no matter whether he opened or closed the door, there was no other living thing in the house except himself.

As a result, she has only lived here for a long time, and she feels that the house is extraordinarily empty when she is alone.

Could it be because of the relatively large area of ​​the house?

Going downstairs and turning into the kitchen, Xu Fengyi stretched out his arms, took the whole wheat toast from the top of the refrigerator and opened it, fished out a few slices from the inside and ate it, drank a cup of hot water, left the kitchen, took the key to the bag, changed Put on a pair of apricot-colored fleece shoes and head for the garage.

After arriving at the company floor, Xu Fengyi greeted everyone along the way as soon as she stepped out of the elevator.

Some people praised her for her beautiful clothes today, some people praised her for her beautiful lipstick color and her complexion, and some people praised her for her curly hair.

Xu Fengyi thanked them one by one with a smile, and turned into his office.

No one knows what happened to her these two days.

She wasn't going to say either.

Some things are not suitable for talking to others after becoming an adult.

After the chat, no one really cares about her, but it will make people feel "so stupid, if it were me, I would definitely not be fooled like this".Even, it becomes the latest gossip after everyone's gossip, and then spread it to ten, ten to a hundred, old people to newcomers, and finally everyone will know: that Xu Fengyi almost entered the pyramid scheme.

Even, everyone may change the message and become: Hey, the power of money is so powerful, why don't you work down-to-earth?

However, Shu Jinshi would not think of her that way.

Not only did Shu Jinshi not scold her for being stupid, but he kept comforting her, saying that it was not her fault that things would turn out like that.

When thinking of Shu Jin, Xu Fengyi thought of the other party warming her hands again.

Looking down at the ground, Xu Fengyi laughed out of nowhere again.

After putting down the bag at his workstation and turning on the main computer, Xu Fengyi looked at the time.

At present, there are still [-] minutes before the official work.

If I knew it earlier, I would stop eating bread and go have a serious breakfast.

After leaning on the back of the chair with both hands and thinking for a while, Xu Fengyi turned around to get a cup of hot water and came back.

On the way back, Xu Fengyi heard a clean and loud voice.

"My man and I have decided to get married, remember to come and have a wedding wine then."

Xu Fengyi looked along the voice, and her eyes locked on Lin Hui, a thin and thin colleague with neat bangs and bob.

Lin Hui came to the company before her and has been working here for more than three years. She usually looks quite energetic.

Because she is too aggressive, she is the last one to leave the company for 360 days out of [-] days a year. Xu Fengyi has already automatically classified her in the ranks of those who do not need marriage.

So much so that she couldn't believe that Lin Hui was getting married.

Xu Fengyi didn't even know when she fell in love.

Well, Lin Hui is a woman who never talks about her personal affairs in the company.

After Xu Fengyi was surprised, she walked over with a smile: "Congratulations! But, when did you fall in love, why don't I know?"

Lin Hui smiled lightly: "We've been talking for more than half a year."

Xu Fengyi nodded in disbelief and said: "Excellent, to be honest, I really can't see that you are also a person who can fall in love."

Lin Hui played with a pen: "Really? Why?"

Xu Fengyi shrugged: "I don't know, maybe it's the aura?"

People are really strange, although Lin Hui was born as a small one, but in terms of aura, he is far better than himself.

Often when we go out for dinner together, some people think she is some kind of small boss.

However, no one ever thought that Xu Fengyi was a small boss.

Lin Hui smiled brightly: "It's true that I didn't deliberately look for a partner, but I met them anyway, so let's stay. I'm not that kind of person."

Xu Fengyi laughed: "As expected of you, cool."

Lin Hui suddenly changed the subject and looked at Xu Fengyi: "Speaking of which, do you have a date now?"

Xu Fengyi shook his head.

Lin Hui laughed: "It seems that I think too much."

Xu Fengyi was puzzled: "What are you overthinking?"

Lin Hui raised her eyebrows: "There was a time before, like a month or two ago? I saw someone driving to the company to pick you up. She was a very beautiful woman."

After Xu Fengyi searched carefully in his head for a while, he finally understood.

What she said should be Shu Jinshi.

At that time, they hadn't lived together yet. At that time, the other party invited her to dinner and drove over to pick her up once.It was the time to eat hot pot.

Xu Fengyi never expected that Lin Hui would actually see that scene.

Lin Hui continued: "Don't you like girls? I thought you were a couple because you looked so well matched."

Yeah?Good match?Xu Fengyi was stunned for a second.

But there is one thing to say, they are just living together now.

Xu Fengyi smiled honestly: "We are not the kind of relationship you think..."

Lin Hui was slightly taken aback: "Okay, but you really look like a good match."

"Really?" Xu Fengyi suddenly became curious, "Why do you think so?" "

Lin Hui: "I guess maybe. Although we were far away at the time, she seemed to be very considerate to you."

Xu Fengyi murmured in a low voice: "She is indeed a considerate person."

Lin Hui didn't hear clearly: "Huh?"

"No, it's nothing, I mean..." Xu Fengyi raised his glass, "I'm going to work first!"

Lin Hui smiled: "Okay, let's go."

After Xu Fengyi returned to her computer with the cup in her hand and sat down, she stared at the interface that asked her to enter the password and wandered away for a while.

Does Lin Hui really think that way?When she and Shu Jin looked like a couple?

Xu Fengyi pursed her lips, her thoughts were in a mess.

At this moment, the time jumped to the moment when he officially went to work.

Before he had time to think about anything more, Xu Fengyi moved his index finger, put the cup filled with hot water aside, put his hand on the keyboard, entered a series of numbers neatly, tapped the Enter key, and entered Go to the main page and officially start a new week of work tasks.

When logging into the enterprise Q account and receiving a lot of messy documents and various messages and tasks, Xu Fengyi almost couldn't laugh, let alone think about other things.

This day is destined to be another busy day.

It was five o'clock in the afternoon.

After returning to the company from the neighboring city, Shu Jinshi went downstairs and got into the car after finishing some things, and asked Lao Luo to drive the car home.

It's rare to get off work on time, if it was in the past, she would probably ask Lu Yuan or Zheng Ziyi out, go to the bar to order a glass of wine and chat.

Or go bowling or billiards to relax.

But it's strange recently, she doesn't really want to wander outside anymore, she just wants to go back to stay at home.

After the driver Lao Luo drove the car to a zebra crossing and stopped, Shu Jinshi looked at the green light, raised his hand again, and rolled up his sleeve to check the time.

It's like twenty past five now.

If Xu Fengyi's company normally leaves work, it will be 05:30 in the afternoon. I don't know if she is busy today or if she will come back earlier.

When Shu Jinshi was thinking about these things, Lao Luo started the car again, and the scenery outside the window continued to recede.

It's like an endless scroll.

After more than ten minutes, the car passed by a place called "Wudaowan Vegetable Market".

Lao Luo glanced at it and sighed: "This vegetable market is really big. I have been here last time. There are so many things in it, and they are still fresh. That's great."

After finishing, he continued to drive forward with full concentration.

But at this moment, Shu Jinshi yelled, "Stop."

"Okay." The driver nodded.

Shu Jinshi lowered the car window and looked over there: "Is the quality of the vegetables sold in this vegetable market good?"

The driver was stunned for a second, Xin Dao was the first time someone used the word quality to describe the food, and almost didn't realize it: "Yes, Mr. Shu, the food here is very fresh. My wife and I came here once Since then, my wife has never forgotten this place.”

Shu Jinshi nodded.

She remembered what Xu Fengyi said earlier about the spicy potato, fat sausage and taro chicken.That is, the one that Xu Fengyi really wanted to eat, but it wasn't sold here.

Lao Luo looked at the vegetable market, and then at her: "Mr. Shu, have you been interested in cooking recently?"

Shu Jinshi pulled the corner of his lower lip: "No."

To be honest, she is really not interested in any unprepared ingredients.

As we all know, although Shu Jinshi can cook, he only knows how to cook.The taste will not be too good, anyway, it's just so bad that you can't kill people.

For example, buy all kinds of quick-frozen dumplings filled with meat and cook them, buy all kinds of semi-finished thick soups and cook them, put quick-frozen food in the microwave oven, and put toast in the oven. Anyway, it’s all kinds of things. A ding.

For stir-frying, she usually directly buys the boxed pre-made vegetables in the supermarket that are prepared with ginger, onion and garlic and all chopped.The recipe said how long to fry, she just took a spatula to stir fry for as long as she wanted, but she didn't dare to add salt.

After all, at least it can be eaten if it is light, but it can only be thrown away if it is salty.

In other words, when faced with most of the ingredients, she didn't even know how to cut them.

"but."

"I want to make it for someone." Shu Jinshi looked at the vegetable market, the corners of his lips were slightly raised, and his face was full of gentle pampering.

"Who?" Lao Luo was curious.

Shu Jinshi: "It's the young lady who is currently living with me."

Old Luo understood: "Miss Xu Fengyi?"

"Yes." Shu Jinshi nodded.

Lao Luo lowered his head and thought about it, and suddenly realized that he seemed to have learned something important: "Mr. Shu, you and her... she... could it be your girlfriend?"

That's right, I should have thought of it a long time ago. Can the relationship between two adults live together be simple?

However, Shu Jinshi shook his head: "We are just living together. She is not my girlfriend."

"Oh," Lao Luo nodded hastily, "Okay."

That's right, Mr. Shu has been solo for so long, so he must be an ordinary roommate.

Unexpectedly, Shu Jinshi looked forward again, and said slowly: "However, I don't know if it will happen in the future."

When Lao Luo heard this, his face was wrinkled with a smile: "Then, Mr. Shu, do you want her to be?"

Shu Jinshi didn't answer immediately, but just stared at the passers-by outside the car window with a calm expression.

For a moment, she nodded.Um.