mistakenly compared you to a star

It was already past three o'clock at night when Chu Zichen sent the doctor away.Yan Ke fell asleep, but he was so tired that he felt dizzy.

But he no longer regards this place as his home, so he drank a cup of coffee to refresh himself and began to pack his luggage.

Since there is no place in Yan Ke's heart, why should he take up space in his life with a shy face.

When he moved in, he didn't have much luggage, and he bought many things with Yan Ke.Now it's time to take them away from their most familiar home.

As he took things away from their original places, he seemed to feel that they were all sad.

Say goodbye to clothes and wardrobes.

Books and bookcases farewell.

But what is the use of living in the past?

The happy times he thought he thought were actually all piled up with ingenious lies.

Now that he has fully understood, looking back at all the good memories, he feels that they are no longer pure, and even look disgusting.

It was Yan Ke who ruined their memory.

He inadvertently turned out the iron box containing Chu Chen's old things in the back of the cabinet.He used to think affectionately that the things in the iron box belonged to him, but now he revealed the answer. These things are Yan Ke's longing for another person, and have nothing to do with him.

Yan Ke is sincere to Chu Chen, and the bond between them is irreplaceable.And where did I come from, what exactly was I...

This iron box has been replaced several times by Yan Ke, and now that I think about it, I don't know if it's just for my own protection.

He felt revenge for a moment, and wanted to take the box secretly, but after much deliberation, he decided to forget it.

When he came to the study, he immediately saw one of his birthday presents, a villa model, on the desk.

After returning from Wa City, he also finished the balcony of the house.Wine tables, bar stools, wine glasses and bottles, beautiful wall plants and night lights...he remembers the process of making everything.The plastic villain Zichen and Yan Ke, who I brought back from Washi, sat face to face on the balcony, drinking comfortably.

Every brick and tile is his carefully woven dream.But how turbulent my mood was at that time, how lonely and ironic I am now.

The model was only half completed, and he looked at the parts on the table and began to struggle.

There are so many details inside this tiny home that it is very difficult to pack.Do you still want to take it?Keeping this kind of thing is equivalent to leaving a thorn in my heart.

Resentment suddenly ignited in his heart, and he thought, it's better to smash them all.

So, he raised the house in a strange way.The house was heavier than he had imagined, and with a slight touch, the small world inside would shake on the spot.

His hands trembled as he raised the house.Suddenly he lost his balance, and the furniture in the house fell to one side like a gust of wind.A small cabinet placed on the outside rolled out of the house directly...

The sound was not too loud, but it made his face change drastically, and he hurriedly put down the model again.He hurriedly picked up the cabinet from the ground, and recognized that it was the bedside cabinet that Yan Ke had helped him make.

The bedside table wasn't broken, just a small drawer came out of the cabinet.After confirming this, he let out a heavy breath.

Holding the small bedside table in his hands, he couldn't help but recall the way Yan Ke helped him glue the drawer handles.It was obviously only a short time ago, but it was as far away as if the entire Milky Way was in the middle.

The bedside table was not broken, and he should be glad in his heart, but the tears seemed to be unable to hold back any longer, and fell on the palm of his hand.

Only now did he really feel that forgetting is also a powerful skill.

If I could forget it, it wouldn't hurt so much.

He carefully moved the objects in the house, trying to return everything to its original position, but no matter how he placed it, he couldn't get back the original feeling.If it was lively and full of vitality in the past, now it is only dead and silent, as if it has lost its soul.

He guarded the house and cried for a long time, until his eyes were so swollen that he could hardly shed any tears, and then he slowly recovered his composure.

Since he is reluctant to destroy it with his own hands, it is better to leave it to Yan Ke. I wonder if he will also feel a thorn in his heart when he sees this house?

He immediately shook his head mockingly.Will not.Yan Ke will just throw away the model.

Thinking of this, he couldn't bear it anymore, and started rummaging through boxes and boxes to find a cardboard box that could put the house in it.

He can not want other things, but no matter what, he has to take this house away.

When Chu Zichen woke up, he found himself lying in Yan Ke's bedroom, sleeping with all his clothes on.

He woke up suddenly. He originally wanted to leave overnight, but he was so tired that he fell asleep when packing up his things yesterday...

A faint ding-dong sound of news came from behind him, and when he turned around, he found that Yan Ke was sitting by the bed, processing information with his mobile phone.Seeing that he was awake, Yan Ke immediately put down his phone, and approached with concern: "...Zichen, you're awake."

"Yeah." Chu Zichen sat up with his head down, without even looking at him.

"Let's talk, shall we?" Yan Ke asked eagerly.Seeing that Chu Zichen ignored him, he got up and walked around to the other side of the bed, forcefully turning the other side's body to face him.

"Do you have anything else to say?" Chu Zichen raised his eyelids and glanced at him.The tightened fingertips on the shoulders conveyed real tension. Chu Zichen thought that maybe his complexion was really not good, which actually aroused Yan Ke's sense of guilt.

"It's about... what I said last night." Yan Ke hesitated to speak, "I don't remember clearly, but what I want to say is that I have feelings for you, this... this You can't deny it, can you?"

Chu Zichen quietly watched him scratching his stomach, thinking it was very funny.

If I put it in the past, I would definitely rekindle my expectations because of this ambiguous sentence, right?But now I already know Yan Ke too well, too well.He knew from the flash of thought in Yan Ke's eyes that this was just Yan Ke's chatting tactic.Because Yan Ke can't remember what he said yesterday, so it is better to play the emotional card directly than to clarify to him in detail at the risk of exposing more things.Anyway, the other party knew that the only thing he cared about most was feelings.

To be precise, it was "once"—the Chu Zichen who took love as his everything could not come back.

Chu Zichen nodded lightly: "It's the feeling for the dog, I know."

Yan Ke was in a hurry: "What nonsense are you talking about—"

Chu Zichen sneered and thought to himself, that's what you said yourself last night.

"Remember what you told me about rhubarb? Your grandfather beat it away, and it came back because it couldn't bear you. When I think of this story in the cemetery, I feel very familiar."

"Now I understand that I'm just another rhubarb. When you're unhappy, you can treat me whatever you want, hit me, scold me, throw me in the face, scare me... because you don't worry at all. You know that as long as you Hook your fingers, and I'll come back to you regardless of past suspicions. You just like to see me being injured and running away, and because I don't want to part with you, I will never leave you. "

His voice trembled involuntarily, he gritted his teeth to prevent himself from showing a fragile expression, but his eyes were reddened.

Yan Ke didn't expect Chu Zichen to think so. After reacting for a moment, his eyes widened and he retorted fiercely: "I'm not! That's not the case, Zichen!"

The way Chu Zichen tried his best to hold back his tears made his heart feel strangely sour. He hated such an expression and didn't want to watch it anymore.So he hugged the young man hard, but the next second he was pushed away vigorously by the other party.

"Not a dog? Oh, maybe it's not as good as a dog. It's just a marionette. You have to follow your arrangement in everything. I can't do anything if you don't let me do it. I can't do anything if you don't let me associate with anyone. I don't follow your ideas. To be an actor is to accept your punishment! Now I finally understand, I am a tool man."

Yan Ke was so shocked that he couldn't speak. For the first time, he saw Chu Zichen's resentment towards him. It was so strong that it tore an unhealable rift between them.He admitted that he was a little scared.

Chu Zichen looked away, unwilling to look at Yan Ke's blank expression again, in his opinion, it was just the embarrassment of the conspiracy being exposed.He said coldly: "Okay, it doesn't matter what it is. Tell me, what do you want me to do?"

Yan Ke's voice was very weak: "Of course... I hope you can cure the disease. To cure the disease..."

"What will happen to me then?" Chu Zichen's nails dug into his palm, "I won't exist at that time, will I?...There will be no more Chu Zichen in this world, will there be?"

Yan Ke's subconsciously avoiding eyes were like pouring cold water on his head. He gritted his teeth and said: "From the beginning, you never planned to live with me for the rest of your life, and you didn't even think about letting me live..."

"No, I'm already mentally prepared, I've convinced myself!" Yan Ke eagerly stepped forward, "If the disease can't be cured, we can keep it like this, and I can't accept it!"

But he didn't know that the word "accept" stung Chu Zichen again.

Chu Zichen thought to himself, what did I do wrong for this person to accept it condescendingly?

Why should I be grateful to Dade when I became a substitute for others?

What about Yan Ke's harm to himself?He didn't mention deceiving himself from the beginning to the end, so how should he count?

After years of using lies to deal with a person who loves himself so much, does this person still have a heart?Chu Zichen didn't dare to think about it.

He stood up suddenly: "I don't want to hear it anymore, let's break up. Oh, but maybe you can't say that? You didn't think of me as your boyfriend at first, and Chu Chen was your boyfriend. That would be easier. I will Move out as soon as possible."

"Get out, where can you go? You are a patient, and you have been ill in Washi, and I have to be responsible for you!" Yan Ke should have expected this a long time ago, ready to speak, his voice He became cold and hard again, and immediately changed back to the one-sided look that Chu Zichen was familiar with.

It's just that I'm afraid I'll lose your Chu Chen.It's been this way from beginning to end.Chu Zichen thought.

"If you are afraid that I will get sick, send me to a mental hospital, otherwise you have no right to restrict my freedom."

Yan Ke choked for a moment, and his anger added another layer: "You are my entertainer, and I have the right to know where you live!"

When Yan Ke said this, both of them were taken aback.Once upon a time, they secretly felt that a brokerage contract was the guarantee of the relationship between the two of them, but they didn't expect it to come in handy in this way now, it's so ugly.

Chu Zichen broke the embarrassment with a sneer: "By the way, you just reminded me. I am an artist of the company. Doesn't the company have a dormitory for trainees? Arrange one for me. This request is not too much."

Yan Ke froze for a moment, a deep sense of powerlessness almost prevailed.This was not the Chu Zichen he was familiar with.The Chu Zichen in the past would shed tears, complain, and resist when he was sad, but he always showed his soft and real side, like a mollusk with its shell open.

But now Chu Zichen is resolutely closed... He locked himself out!This is Yan Ke intolerable.

But Yan Ke would not control his emotions, he quickly calmed down.

Chu Zichen's words reminded him instead.He knew in his heart that he couldn't go head-to-head with Chu Zichen right now, and he just needed to think of a place where someone could watch Chu Zichen for him...

Although somewhere in his heart was trembling with Chu Zichen's decision, he still maintained his superficial calm: "Okay, I will arrange a single room with the best conditions for you."

Chu Zichen nodded, turned around and was about to leave the room, but his wrist was pulled hard.

Yan Ke tensed his cheeks, like a stubborn child who knew he would fail but refused to give in, and said in a firm tone: "But, I will not agree to break up."

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