mistakenly compared you to a star

The autumn wind was bleak, and Yan Ke's voice was as thick and warm as a cup of hot drink.

"During the time you disappeared, I often wandered here with nothing to do."

"I remember when we met here, the leaves of the sycamore trees all over the street were already yellow. When you had an accident three months ago, the sycamore trees were all green, which often gave me the illusion that we hadn't met yet. "

"So I always come here to wander, thinking that if there is really a four-dimensional space that allows me to see us a year ago, I will definitely say to myself at that time, hey, be nice to the people around you, You will fall in love with him and never let him go."

Zichen remained silent, unable to bear to look back at Yan Ke's expression, only his fingers gradually tightened by his side.But Yan Ke suddenly stopped and walked around in front of him.

He squatted down and held Zichen's hands, the hem of the woolen coat fell on the sycamore leaves.

"Later when you came back, I knew that no matter how hard I try to make up for the harm done to you in the past, it is better to seriously think about the future and how to treat you better in the future."

"Maybe I'm really an imbecile when it comes to love, but Zichen, do you know that you really taught me a lot of lessons. No matter how long, no matter how many things I am willing to learn, Zichen, I just want to learn from you .”

"If my actions have brought you a burden during this time, I want to say sorry to you. I have been learning to respect your opinions and feelings. Now I want to ask you again... "

Yan Ke's voice was rough, and his Adam's apple rolled down: "Are you still willing to give me another chance? Or do you still prefer to leave my side and live alone?"

A gust of wind pushes more leaves to the side of the road, scrubbing the ground fresh.Yan Ke looked into his eyes earnestly, begging in a suppressed tone.

Chu Zichen stared at him in a daze, and suddenly wanted to keep their eyes on him longer.At this moment, there is no barrier between them, they have penetrated the haze of the past, and confessed their sincerity to each other.

The temperature that made him nostalgic was continuously coming from the palm of his hand.Maybe it's because I drank a few glasses of champagne at noon, and the emotions in my heart are surging, ready to overflow at any time.He couldn't help raising his hand, covering Yan Ke's thin but still handsome cheek.

"Brother, I think, I still care about you, and I can feel your heart. Sometimes I really don't want to doubt you and guard against you. I just can't control myself...it must make you very sad."

Yan Ke shook his head vigorously, Zichen watched him enduring his sadness and trying his best to take care of his mood, instantly remembered a lot of past scenes, and unconsciously blushed.

"Seeing you sad, I also feel bad. These days, when the night is quiet, I can't help but shake in my heart, thinking, just stay."

"But when I woke up the next day, I found that I still have a lot to do; I want to rely on my own strength to become what I admire. You are so good, so dazzling, I am not satisfied to stay by your side like this, I want to be worthy of you. Can we, all go a little further?"

Yan Ke trembled with sadness: "No, Zichen, you have always been worthy, you are worthy of the best..."

"But I can't just be your asteroid, revolving around you and being illuminated by you."

There were tears in Zichen's eyes, but they shone with determination like diamonds: "I want to leave your gravity and discover a whole new universe. Let's share each other's sky at that time, do you think it's okay?"

Yan Ke was speechless, as if he had a premonition of parting in his heart, and even his breathing was mixed with unspeakable heaviness.The only thing she could do was hold Zichen's hand tightly.With these hands, he could do it no matter if he was asked to hold them tighter, but now it is more difficult for him to let go than to cut off a part of his body.

Zichen is leaving him.Zichen chose to leave him.

From now on, he must learn to wait in place and learn to return the other party's freedom.

Zichen, this is also a lesson you taught me.

"I understand." In the end, he let go of the opponent's hand, ignored the entanglement and pain in his heart, got up slowly, and sorted out a decent smile.

"Go where you want to go, just don't forget that you can turn back at any time, and I will stay where I am."

Chu Zichen nodded, wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, and smiled.After a long time, he looked back reluctantly, and slowly turned the wheel, walking towards the depths of the wide and lonely street.

11 month 5 day.

Zichen left, and left my world with all his things.When we left, we hugged each other tightly, like a pair of separated lovers.Can I think that Zichen still has a little bit of nostalgia for me?

11 month 6 day.

I really want to know what he is doing now, is his life convenient, and what he eats three meals a day... But does this count as an invasion of his privacy?He might be upset.

11 month 7 day.

Zichen must not want to see me so decadent.It's time to do something of your own.

11 month 8 day.

Couldn't help sending a message, he said everything was fine.I just had to believe it.

……

For half a month, I struggled through such empty and repetitive diaries.

On this day, Yan Ke received a call from his friend in Wa City.

These days, Zichen's departure made him dizzy, temporarily forgetting that he had asked a friend to investigate the matter of the perpetrator Chu Song, so that after he connected the phone, he was stunned for a while before he realized it.

The voice of the person on the other side floated into my ears:

"We found this Chu Song. He is Chu Chen's father's younger brother. He worked as a truck driver in the early years. He was knocked into a disability by drunk driving once. He was sentenced to 15 years and was not released from prison until last year. It was a miracle later on. No one knows where he went."

Sure enough, that Chu Song turned out to be Zichen's uncle?Sure enough, it was not an ordinary car accident, Yan Ke's heart sank suddenly.

He originally thought that the car accident must have been aimed at himself, the owner of the car, but now it seems that it is not that simple... Various assumptions emerged in his mind, and he couldn't help but glance at Zichen's photo, thinking, he must not let these dark things The things hurt Zichen a little bit.

After making quick calculations, he lowered his voice and said to the person on the other end of the receiver: "I'll find a few well-informed people to inquire about his whereabouts across the country, and you can ask your other acquaintances in Washi to help me squat this person. Once you find his whereabouts, let me know as soon as possible."

"Okay, no problem. Brother Yan, be careful."

"understood."

After hanging up the phone, Yan Ke became more and more worried, and couldn't help calling Zichen for the first time after they separated.

"Hello?" Zichen answered it naturally, and there seemed to be the sound of a piano in the background.

It's Zichen's voice... His voice seems to be quite high, is he doing well?Yan Ke suppressed the excitement in his heart, and briefly talked about Uncle Zichen.

However, to his regret, Zichen had no impression of this uncle, and simply replied: "Okay, I see."

After a brief silence, Yan Ke asked cautiously:

"What have you been doing lately?"

"I'm writing a song." Zichen paused, "... I'm also doing rehabilitation. The doctor said I should be able to stand up soon."

"That's really great." Yan Ke was very honored by Zichen's little desire to share, and couldn't help but said, "I'm back in the studio, and I've become busy recently."

"Ah."

Zichen stopped talking, and Yan Ke's rippling heart slowly fell to the same place.After much deliberation, I still ordered: "Then you pay attention to safety, and come to me if you need anything."

Fables.

"Ok."

Not "um", but "okay", does this mean that you will really come to me when you need me?After hanging up the phone, Yan Ke looked at the phone screensaver made of Zichen's photo, his heart racing for a while.

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I got a little emo today about the jj next door.

As a person who has never watched BG, thinking about where Danmei will go in the future, it is inevitable to feel a little pessimistic about the future.

Because of this, I cherish the time when I can spill blood here, and you who cheer me up TT

If Danmei really becomes a very small circle in the future, we will definitely meet there again...