withered lover

Du Zhinian went to the hospital, and Shen Guiwan slept on the bed again.

He slept soundly, and when he awoke it was lunch time.

Du Zhinian fed him something last night, Shen Guiwan wasn't too hungry yet, but after washing up, he still walked into the kitchen and stood in front of the refrigerator.

Shen Guiwan's refrigerator is like Schrödinger's box to Shen Guiwan. Sometimes it is empty when he opens it, and sometimes it is full of ingredients. He never knows what he will see after opening it. It all depends on Shen Lu's mood. .

Shen Guiwan is now almost imprisoned in the villa by Shen Lu, he can only look at people under the fence, and has no right to make demands at all.

But here in Du Zhinian, the situation was different again.

Shen Guiwan touched the groove on the side of the refrigerator door and slowly opened it.

Before opening Du Zhinian's refrigerator, Shen Guiwan guessed that there wouldn't be much food for cooking in it, but when he saw the empty compartment and the bottom drawer full of beer and soda, his face swelled. A trace of bewilderment flashed across his expression.

Du Zhinian is very busy with his daily work, and he has to wait until the day off for meetings. It's normal that he doesn't have time to cook, but the things in the refrigerator really don't match his professional image as a doctor.

Shen Guiwan stood in front of the refrigerator, staring at the cans in a drawer in a daze for a while, and closed the door before his hands were numb from the cold air of the refrigerator.

He went back to Du Zhinian's bedroom, took out two banknotes from the drawer, took the spare key and went downstairs.

There are several large supermarkets in the city center, Shen Guiwan found the nearest one that didn't require a taxi, went in and pulled a trolley to the fresh food section.

In autumn, the prices of many ingredients have gone up quite a bit. Shen Guiwan pushed the cart around in front of the freezer in the fresh vegetable section a few times, and only put a few vegetables into the shopping cart.

Although it was said that it was Du Zhinian's money, Shen Guiwan was not sure how much Du Zhinian tolerated him, so he could only keep the expenses as low as possible.

After all, Shen Lu, a father in the legal sense, would be furious because he went into the study to get a book, and beat himself to pieces with a stick, not to mention Du Zhinian, who he had known for less than a month.

Shen Guiwan touched the potatoes on the shelf, weighed a few, and took a box of eggs.

Du Zhinian's kitchen is equipped with a full set of kitchen utensils, and the cabinets are also full of seasonings. However, the smooth and clean appearance of the kitchen utensils and the completely unopened packaging tell Shen Guiwan that the other party has hardly ever cooked with a fire.

Shen Guiwan didn't know what Du Zhinian liked to eat, so he just took some food that was easy to store, and pushed the cart towards the artificial counter.

There is not enough balance in his mobile phone account, so he can only pay with Du Zhinian's money. Fortunately, the things are not expensive, and he only spent less than one-third of the bill.

Shen Guiwan settled the bill and returned to Du Zhinian's apartment with the bag.

He put the ingredients in the refrigerator, sent Du Zhinian a message, put his phone in his pocket, and took down the dusty enamel pot in the hanging cabinet.

Shen Guiwan put the enamel pot on the induction cooker and cooked himself a bowl of noodles in clear soup.

He was still the same as last time, no seasoning or oil, just sprinkled with a little salt, but today he added a small handful of green vegetables and nestled another egg bun.

The boiled egg buns in the noodle soup had a faint fishy smell, Shen Guiwan took a bite and couldn't help frowning.

The egg whites were a bit hard to swallow, but Shen Guiwan didn't waste it, stuffed everything into his stomach, and even drank the soup at the bottom of the bowl.

He washed the bowls and pans, wiped off the splashed water on the edge of the pool, went to the balcony, and lay down on the window edge to watch the scenery.

There are still a few colorful picnic cloths on the hillside of the park today, just for picnics, not young girls traveling together, but two couples who look very young.

The four sat on the lawn chatting and laughing, and the two half-grown children ran around the lawn before throwing themselves into their mother's arms.

Shen Guiwan looked at the scenery in the park, the gentle wind blew past his cheeks, curling up the broken hair on his forehead.

Yesterday he told Du Zhinian that he could live outside for a while, not just to leave that gloomy villa.

Shen Guiwan likes the feeling of overlooking the scenery from a high place, and also likes to stay indoors where the sun can find it. The balcony of Du Zhinian's apartment just meets these two conditions.

It's just that this kind of satisfaction can only last for a short period of time. When Shen Lu comes back, he will return to the room that is not favored by the sun.

Shen Guiwan closed his eyes slightly, the sun shone on his eyelashes, and the shadows cast covered the emotions in his eyes.

Shen Guiwan stayed on the balcony for a while, until his body was hot from the sun, and then slowly moved back to the living room.

Sitting on the sofa, he saw a book under the coffee table, picked it up and flipped through a few pages.

It was a suspense novel. Du Zhinian had read halfway through it, and there was a small bookmark in the book.

Shen Guiwan seldom reads this kind of books, but he couldn't stop after flipping through a few pages.

There was nothing to do left and right, although the door of Du Zhinian's study was open, Shen Guiwan would not step in without Du Zhinian's permission.

He leaned on the sofa and looked at it for a while, then nestled in the lazy sofa in the corner again, and the thick book was turned to the page Du Zhinian had read.

Du Zhinian's emergency surgery lasted from eleven o'clock in the morning until seven o'clock in the evening, and he was exhausted when he returned home.

He opened the door of the apartment, and warm light came out of the door and shone on him.

Du Zhinian stood at the door, staring at the lit living room in a daze for a while.

From the open kitchen to the sofa, his gaze scanned the room, and finally settled on the corner of the living room.

Shen Guiwan was wearing his pajamas, reading a book on the beanbag sofa in the corner, the light from the spotlight cast a soft halo on his body.

That picture was so beautiful and so quiet that Du Zhinian couldn't bear to make a sound to break it.

It's a wonderful feeling to have someone waiting for you to come home.

Du Zhinian didn't know how long it had been since he saw such a scene. Since he was broken up at the beginning of the year, there had been no second person in the family for a long time.

It was okay to get used to loneliness before, but later there were people waiting for him to go home, and after separation, he saw the empty and dark apartment, and he felt a little lonely in his heart.

Du Zhinian didn't make a sound to disturb Shen Guiwan, but Shen Guiwan raised his head from the book as if he felt his gaze.

He looked at Du Zhinian who was standing at the door, "Are you back?"

Du Zhinian was silent for a while, and replied softly: "En."

He threw the car keys and mobile phone on the sofa, sat on the carpet next to the beanbag sofa, and lay on Shen Guiwan's lap.

"What are you doing alone at home this afternoon?" Du Zhinian asked while stroking the broken hair on Shen Guiwan's forehead.

The broken hair was hooked by Du Zhinian and rubbed against the corners of his eyes, Shen Guiwan hid a little to the side, "Reading."

This boring way of pastime is really in line with Shen Guiwan's personality, Du Zhinian smiled, and asked him again: "Won't it be boring?"

"No." Shen Guiwan put the book on the ground, "Because it's always like this at home."

The smile on Du Zhinian's face faded a bit, he withdrew his hand from playing with Shen Guiwan's hair, and stared at the empty spot on the ceiling for a while.

The weight of the adult male was on the thigh, Shen Guiwan felt a little numbness in the leg not long after.

He raised his knee, and suddenly heard Du Zhinian say in a sighing voice: "I have talked to a few people before."

Shen Guiwan didn't know why Du Zhinian suddenly brought up his ex, he lowered his knees halfway up, and sat on the spot listening quietly.

"They couldn't bear the loneliness, they were always clinging to me, sometimes they had to rush back when they met an emergency surgery, they lost their temper with me before they broke up, and they kept calling me after they broke up."

"It was so clingy that I ended up breaking up with them."

When Du Zhinian talked about the ex he had dated with, his words were full of indifference.

It was the first time for Shen Guiwan to hear Du Zhinian talk about himself, and he didn't know how to answer, so he was silent for a long time before replying: "Yes."

Du Zhinian sat up and looked into Shen Guiwan's eyes, "Shen Guiwan, do you think they are like this because of love?"

Love, this is a real luxury for Shen Guiwan.

He couldn't answer Du Zhinian's question, nor would he lie against his will, so he could only answer dryly: "I don't know."

The two stayed quietly for a while, Du Zhinian looked at Shen Guiwan sitting beside him, and suddenly felt that if he could live with Shen Guiwan like this, it might be a good choice.

It's a pity that they are just lovers now, and they can only be lovers.

Du Zhinian leaned on Shen Guiwan's shoulder, and said in a low voice, "Shen Guiwan, it would be great if I could get to know you earlier."

Get to know each other earlier and talk about a complete relationship again instead of developing such a twisted relationship.

Shen Guiwan's body froze for a moment when Du Zhinian's words fell, but he soon relaxed again.

He pushed away Du Zhinian who was leaning on his shoulder, and said word by word: "Then you might be disappointed."

After hearing this, Du Zhinian laughed.

"Disappointed?" He repeated Shen Guiwan's words, "Do you think I will be disappointed?"

Shen Guiwan's hand on Du Zhinian's shoulder trembled, before he could take it back, Du Zhinian held it again.

Du Zhinian bit the wound on Shen Guiwan's wrist, "Nothing will disappoint me more than now."

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