withered lover

Shen Guiwan stayed in Du Zhinian's apartment.

The two don't do it much, but they sleep together for a long time.

Du Zhinian went to work in the hospital during the day, came back at night to have dinner with Shen Guiwan, and fell asleep with his arms around him late at night, and when he was on duty, Du Zhinian would not come back until the next morning.

He came back very early, and Shen Guiwan hadn't woken up yet, and after taking a hasty bath, he would hug Shen Guiwan who was still not awake and sleep together.

When Du Zhinian is sleeping, he likes to put his hand into Shen Guiwan's pajamas, touching Shen Guiwan's waist and chest.

Shen Guiwan obediently applied body lotion every day, and after a few days of care, the skin was no longer dry and cracked, and the tentacles were a piece of smooth and delicate skin.

He didn't go out often, and he didn't have a temper when he was hugged by Du Zhinian as a pillow all day long. He just hummed softly when Du Zhinian went too far.

When Du Zhinian is resting, Shen Gui will accompany Du Zhinian to sleep until he wakes up naturally. When Du Zhinian goes to work, he will go to the study to find a book, hold it on the beanbag sofa, and read it in the sun. Books all day.

Shen Guiwan wears Du Zhinian's pajamas at home, uses Du Zhinian's shampoo, and reads Du Zhinian's books.

He is like Du Zhinian's beautiful canary, raised in a [-]-square-meter apartment, with the label of belonging to Du Zhinian all over his body.

Du Zhinian liked to see Shen Guiwan like this very much.

Every time he went to work and thought that someone was waiting for him at home, he even felt less resentment for staying up late on duty.

On Friday night, Du Zhinian came back from work from the hospital.

He pushed open the door and saw Shen Guiwan reading a book on the beanbag sofa without any surprise.

Shen Guiwan liked that corner very much, Du Zhinian could see him there almost every night when he came back.

Du Zhinian put down his bag, walked up to Shen Guiwan and sat down.

He rested his chin on Shen Guiwan's shoulder, "What are you looking at?"

"I took it from the shelf." Shen Guiwan pressed a corner of the page with his thumb and closed the book.

The dark green title of the book was printed on the light beige cover. Du Zhinian glanced at it, "This is a medical book, and it's a little difficult."

"I'm not a doctor, so I don't need to understand." Shen Guiwan turned the book back to the page he saw, "Just read it."

Du Zhinian smiled and took away the book from Shen Guiwan's hand, and reached out to take off his pajamas.

"The above answer agrees, shall we go to the beach tomorrow?" Du Zhinian stroked Shen Guiwan's neck, and kissed down along the protruding muscles and bones.

"Hmm." Shen Guiwan's Adam's apple rolled up and down, "...Go in the afternoon."

His lips opened and closed, and the words in the middle couldn't make a sound, but Du Zhinian read out the words "I think" from his mouth.

Shen Guiwan seldom expresses his desires bluntly, except for "good", most of them are the simplest multiple-choice questions when Du Zhinian asks.

"I think", this is a word that Du Zhinian has never heard from Shen Guiwan's mouth, it seems that it is not in the dictionary of Shen Guiwan's life, but Du Zhinian is eager to hear Shen Guiwan say it once.

"Okay, let's go in the afternoon." He held Shen Guiwan's hand, clasped his fingers, and pressed his palms tightly together.

Du Zhinian pressed on Shen Guiwan's body, the beanbag sofa bearing the weight of two people was squeezed out of shape, and Shen Guiwan's body sank deeply into the soft stuffing.

The lazy sofa shook slightly, making a faint friction sound.

A white foot stepped on the carpet, and the soft down touched the instep gently, covering the stretched blue veins on the instep.

Shen Guiwan raised his head, the spotlights on the ceiling shone dazzlingly, shining on Du Zhinian's shoulders, and casting a shadow on his chest.

Shadows flowed on Shen Guiwan's body following Du Zhinian's movements, Shen Guiwan squinted his eyes, the light in front of his eyes was crushed by the water vapor and turned into fine specks of light.

He vaguely saw the setting sun falling into the sea, and the red-hot seawater splashed in all directions, drawing long tracks on the canvas of the sunset.

The trajectory flickered, carrying the salty smell of damp sea water, but disappeared in the blink of an eye.

Du Zhinian came once on the beanbag sofa, and asked Shen Guiwan to kneel on the carpet, lying on the ground with his back facing him.

The fluff swept over Shen Guiwan's chest and collarbone, and a tingling sensation spread from the place where the fluff brushed lightly to his brain.

Shen Guiwan propped up his body to avoid the fluff's harassment, but Du Zhinian held down the back of his neck from behind.

He lay on the ground gasping for breath, clutching the carpet nervously, the fluff passing through between his fingers, entangled intimately with his fingers.

The early winter night wind beat against the glass windows, and the chill seeped into the room along the cracks, Shen Guiwan's back exposed to the air lost the last bit of warmth.

He was very cold, but soon Du Zhinian's warm palm was pressed against him again, the heat was transmitted from the place where the skin was touching, making Shen Guiwan shiver and shiver from the heat.

"Du Zhinian..." Shen Guiwan lay on the ground, trying to look back at Du Zhinian.

His body was tense, tears were rolling in his red eyes, he looked pitiful to me, but in the charming atmosphere, Du Zhinian couldn't help but want to bully him harder.

Du Zhinian grabbed Shen Guiwan's shoulders, picked him up from the ground, leaned on his shoulders and let out a long breath.

The hot breath burned Shen Guiwan's shoulders, he struggled to escape, but his back was pressed tightly against Du Zhinian's chest, and the arms around his shoulders and waist firmly imprisoned him in Du Zhinian. in his arms.

Shen Guiwan stayed in Du Zhinian's arms almost the whole night, from the living room to the bathroom, and even when he returned to the bed in the bedroom, he couldn't even take a step on the ground.

He fell into a drowsy sleep until noon the next day.

Du Zhinian opened the curtains, and the unobstructed sunlight rushed towards Shen Guiwan through the glass.

Shen Guiwan narrowed his eyes, Du Zhinian walked in front of him, blocking the bright light, "Get up and have something to eat, the weather is fine today, I will take you to the beach this afternoon."

Du Zhinian rubbed Shen Guiwan's head, Shen Guiwan dazedly rubbed it a few times, and hummed a nasal response: "Yeah."

After having lunch near the community, Du Zhinian drove Shen Guiwan to the beach.

The silver car drove up the elevated highway in the urban area, heading towards the source of the salty and humid breath in the wind.

Shen Guiwan sat on the co-pilot, turned his head to look at the scenery outside the car window.

Outside the window is a stretch of white, with a vast sea of ​​clouds floating, and a piece of it was torn off when it passed through the spire of the tall building, revealing the blue sky.

This is the weather where you can see the sunset, but when you reach the beach, the clear sky is completely overcast.

The sky was gray and gloomy, the sea was viscous black-gray, and the salty sea breeze whizzed by. Apart from Du Zhinian and Shen Guiwan, there was no third living thing to be seen on the entire seashore.

There is no scenery to admire in the gloomy seaside. Du Zhinian didn't know why Shen Guiwan came here, but when he turned his head, he saw him taking off his shoes, stepping barefoot on the beach, and walking towards the sea step by step.

The waves were crushed by Shen Guiwan, the cold tide roughly grabbed his soles and slowly climbed up his ankles.

Du Zhinian looked at Shen Guiwan who was walking towards the sea, and a thought suddenly appeared in his mind——

Did Shen Guiwan want to die?

He walked towards the endless without hesitation, and seemed to have no intention of stopping.

Du Zhinian jumped off the short embankment on the shore, trying to rush over to stop Shen Guiwan, but Shen Guiwan only took a few steps forward and stopped where the waves hit his calf.

With his back to Du Zhinian, he raised his head slightly to look at the cloudy sky, his hair was blown to pieces by the sea breeze and fluttered wildly in the air.

The waves submerged Shen Guiwan's ankles, and the tide rushing towards him became more and more turbulent each time, slowly rising up from his calf, licking his skin.

The splashed water wet the trousers, but Shen Guiwan didn't care.

Du Zhinian didn't know what Shen Guiwan was thinking when he looked at the sea, he just felt that Shen Guiwan's back was too lonely.

He stood there, motionless, as if he would be swallowed by the waves at any moment.

Shen Guiwan knew a long time ago that his luck had been bad, he had always drawn the worst lottery, even when he came to the beach to watch the sunset, he often failed.

Standing in the waves, he couldn't see the sunset, nor the sun-rippling sea level. All he could see in front of him was the tide that kept rushing towards him.

The weather is not good today, and the tide is high again. The surging waves look more like a beast ready to go.

Not every time he came to the beach, he could see the scenery of that day, but more often he saw the exact same scene as now.

As the bitter sea breeze blew past his eyes, Shen Guiwan's eyes were moist for a while, and the moisture at the end of his eyes was quickly blown away by the sea breeze.

Mother said that the sea is tolerant. It has heard the shouts and laughter of others, seen Shen Guiwan standing silently, and accepted a mother covered in scars.

Shen Guiwan has no intention of telling Dahai about his past, but just wants to watch the sunset.

Because the wind will whisper in the ears of those who have nothing to do with it, because the waves will swallow everything, his voice, his pain, those memories full of pain and cries are all blown away by the wind, smashed by the waves, in the afterglow of the setting sun quietly submerged in the depths of the vast sea.

Any talk is meaningless, just like his past 23 years.

Only that piece of sunset, and myself standing here, are the only ones that my mother doesn't give up before she leaves.

The sea breeze blew past Shen Guiwan's ears with the sound of the waves, making his ears red and cold.

Shen Guiwan stood in the waves for a while, then slowly turned around when the tide was below his knees, and walked towards Du Zhinian stepping on the fine sand.

Standing in front of Du Zhinian, he raised his head slightly, "I've seen enough, let's go back."

Shen Guiwan's nose and eye sockets were very red, as if she had cried, but her eyes were so clean that no emotion could be seen.

Du Zhinian looked at Shen Guiwan, trying to find a different expression on his face, but accidentally saw his own reflection in those beautiful eyes.

The self in the reflection frowned, looking at Shen Guiwan with a worried look that he had never seen before.

"...Aren't you cold?" Du Zhinian raised his hand and touched Shen Guiwan's red ears.

Shen Guiwan was slightly taken aback, then shook his head.

He has experienced even colder and bitter partings, and a little sea breeze is nothing to him.

Du Zhinian took Shen Guiwan's hand that was frozen stiff, and silently pulled him towards the opposite direction of the waves.

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