Infatuation is the most boring

On the eighth day after the college entrance examination, Zhou Mingkai called me for the first time.

In those few days, I lived in a muddle, without any food every day, and locked myself at home.My dad came to see me several times in the middle, and I was so annoyed that I changed the lock directly.When he came again, he could only knock on the door. I covered my head with a pillow and pretended not to hear.

Zhou Mingkai first asked me how I was doing in the exam.On the other end of the phone, I held back and didn't cry out, but my nose was sore all the time, and my throat was so sore, I tried not to say anything, for fear that I might accidentally cry out.

Zhou Mingkai said: "Do you want to play games? Mr. Lin promised me that after the college entrance examination, we will have a game together. Do you want to come?"

I felt like going crazy when I heard the word Lin, and I asked, "Who are you talking about?"

"Mr. Lin." Zhou Mingkai didn't notice it at all.

I suddenly yelled: "Fuck Lin Qingyi! Tell him to die! I hate him all my life, and I will never let him go!"

If it wasn't for him, my dad wouldn't cheat.

If it wasn't for him, my dad wouldn't be determined to get a divorce.

Without him, my mother would not have died.

The person I hate the most in my life is Lin Qingyi.Love may not know the origin, but hate does not. There must be a reason to hate someone, especially the hatred that goes deep into the bone marrow.

Zhou Mingkai was silent for a few seconds after hearing me swearing, and said: "Xu Jiayang, are you interesting or not? You can't blame anyone if you don't do well in the college entrance examination, and you can't blame anyone if your grades are a mess! You look like that, don't talk about Mr. Lin, God! No teacher can save you!"

"I hate him," I said, "Zhou Mingkai, I hate him!"

But before I finished speaking, Zhou Mingkai hung up the phone.

Holding the mobile phone, I felt like a big stone was pressing on my heart, and I couldn't even breathe steadily.

These days, I've been dreaming every night, basically the same dream.In my dreams, I always saw my mother standing in the kitchen, making dumpling wrappers with a rolling pin. I seemed to say something, and she was about to beat me up with a rolling pin.But she didn't keep hitting. The movements of gesturing with the rolling pin have been seen a lot since I was a child, and I imitated them the most.I heard her laughing at me, saying that I'm some kind of Xu family's little sun.

But gradually, her smile froze at the corner of her mouth, her clothes changed into that white floral skirt, her hair was long and draped over her shoulders.She looked so beautiful, but she walked to the balcony step by step with bare feet, turned around and cried to me, crying so hard.

I wanted to go over and comfort her, but there was nothing I could do.I could only watch helplessly as she jumped down in front of me and turned into a pool of blood in front of me.

The dream was not over yet, when I turned around again, she was standing behind me again, the afterglow of the setting sun reflected on her face.The picture suddenly became beautiful again, but she turned and left again. I wanted to catch up with her, but found that I couldn't move. I could only watch her go farther and farther, disappearing into a vast expanse of whiteness.

When I wake up, I always feel tears all over my face. The gauze on my head has not been removed, and there are tears hanging all over my face. It looks so embarrassing.

Another day later, the doctor asked me to change the gauze.It was Zhao Erhou who accompanied me. When the doctor removed the gauze, he seemed to be in more pain than me, so he kept telling the doctor to be gentle.

In the end, the gauze was replaced with a small piece of white gauze, which looked a little better than before when it was wrapped around the whole head, but the bump was above the hairline, and a small piece of hair was shaved during the bandage.

When I came out of the hospital, I didn't go home, so I sent Zhao Erhou home by myself, and then went to the night.It was the bar opened by my cousin Jin Xu. Many people couldn’t help but look at the injury on my head a few more times. They probably didn’t know why the injury was like this and why they ran to the bar.

Li Ge and I have an appointment.

I didn't stay in the bar for long, Li Ge pulled me out after seeing my face, and went to a nearby coffee shop with fewer people.

I called him before I came and explained my intentions. He didn't say yes or no, he just said let me come out and we'll meet first.

"You said you would help me once," I remember him saying.

Brother Li looked at me, his eyes stayed on the wound on my head, his eyes darkened, and he said, "You talk nonsense after drinking."

"But that's what you said yourself," I said.

Brother Li smiled, "Didn't you lie to me too? Is that little girl really your girlfriend?"

I clenched my hands under the table tightly, looking at him with helpless eyes.

Brother Li then smiled again, looked at me for a long time, and said, "Xu Jiayang, I'm not afraid of causing trouble, nor is I incapable. I'm... afraid of ruining you. After all, I have liked you before, so, I I hope you are doing well, it doesn't matter if you can't go to college, as long as you are doing well, you will be fine."

I got up, "I'll go to other people to buy, there should be many people in the bar."

Seeing that I was determined, Brother Li compromised and said: "Come on, you will know how to provoke me. You, you, if you find someone else, it will be easy to find you in the future. Only if I give it to you, you will not be able to find it. Don't you Just because I can't refuse you?"

After speaking, Li Ge put the medicine on the table, a small, white capsule, very inconspicuous.I glanced at it, grabbed it anxiously, and held it tightly in my hand.

"Brother Li, thank you."

I was leaving after I finished speaking, but Brother Li stopped me and said: "Xu Jiayang, if you can't clean up by yourself, come to me at any time, I am willing to help you with everything, as long as you ask."

I didn't answer, I pulled away the chair and took a step, he said again: "Xu Jiayang, everything I said to you before was not a joke."

When I walked to the door of the coffee shop, I still heard him say the last sentence.

"Xu Jiayang, as long as you are willing to come back with me, no matter what time, I want yours."

I quickened my pace and left here.