Infatuation is the most boring

That night, I stared at the medicine all night.

It was only at dawn that I felt sleepy, and fell asleep groggyly on the sofa in the living room.It was already afternoon when I woke up again, and the knocking on the door by Zhao Erhou and Li Ji woke me up.

I quickly put away the medicine and went to open the door. The two people at the door brought me food, Malatang, fried rice, noodles, and rice porridge. They seemed to be afraid that I would be picky eaters.

They left after eating. I put the medicine under my pillow that night and slept soundly. What's rare is that my dream was also clear.

I have Lin Qingyi's number in my mobile phone.

In the first year of high school, the class teacher would leave his phone number for the students.I used to call Lin Qingyi to ask for leave, but I didn't ask for leave much after that, and I didn't take it too seriously.Looking through the address book now, I saw his phone number.

I called him, and he seemed to recognize my number, and after connecting, he asked, "Xu Jiayang, is that you?"

"Are you with my dad?" I asked.

"No, he went abroad. There is a very important art exhibition, and he will come back in about three days." Lin Qingyi seemed to think that I couldn't get in touch with my dad, so he called him, "When will you find it? You Look for him, he will definitely come back, after all, what art exhibition is important to you."

What art exhibition is important to you?Hearing this hypocritical statement, I sneered.For those who haven't seen him for two consecutive holidays, he said that he went to the art exhibition, but only he knew where it was.

How long has it been since I had a good conversation with him?No art exhibition is as important as Lin Qingyi.

"I'm looking for you," I said.

"Find me?"

"Yes, I'm looking for you, let's talk."

Lin Qingyi couldn't believe it, "What are we talking about?"

"Isn't there a lot we can talk about?" I said, "Talk about how you and my dad will be happy forever together in the future, and talk about whether you will live with me in the future, or don't want me to disturb the world of the two of you, even if Don't talk about this... Teacher Lin, your student didn't take the college entrance examination because his mother jumped off the building. As a teacher, don't you have anything to talk about?"

"About the college entrance examination, I do want to talk to you," Lin Qingyi said, "But as for the relationship between me and your father, it has nothing to do with you, it's between us."

Nothing to do with me?I was so angry that my heart ached.

"Do you want to talk there?" Lin Qingyi asked.

I was silent for a while, and said: "I want to... go back to Minyu to have a look. There is a coffee shop on the back street of Minyu, you know?"

"Yes," Lin Qingyi said, "Now the second-year high school students are taking tutoring during the summer vacation, and there will be fewer people after school in the afternoon."

I nodded and made an appointment with Lin Qingyi at seven o'clock tonight.

There are sophomore students in Minyu who have to take tutoring for half a month. At four or five o'clock in the afternoon, there are quite a lot of students around the school. After six o'clock, there are no people there. There are a few scattered and late returnees. Students go home together.

I was waiting for Lin Qingyi in a coffee shop, you must know that I basically didn't go into these places before, because I didn't drink coffee either.But I always feel that such an environment is more suitable for chatting, even if chatting is just a cover.

I ordered two cups of latte, I don't like to drink it, but I know Lin Qingyi likes it, when he came to my house for extra-curricular tutoring, the thermos contained latte, I am very familiar with that taste.

Lin Qingyi hasn't arrived yet, it's because I came early.

The waiter brought the latte, and my gaze slowly fell to the coffee cup opposite.I was sitting against the wall, and I was the only one in the coffee shop at this time. The afterglow of the setting sun spread on the floor, reflecting the shadows of the tables and chairs.

The capsule in the palm of my hand has been deformed by myself. I stared at the cup of coffee, and the demons and hatred in my heart finally defeated all reason.Finally, I opened the capsule and sprinkled the white powder inside into Lin Qingyi's coffee.

Li Ge said that the medicine will take effect in about an hour, and the medicine will be very strong as soon as it comes up, basically losing all reason and will, and it will have a strong psychedelic effect.

As soon as I withdrew my hand, Lin Qingyi came over, my heart skipped a beat, the eyes I looked at Lin Qingyi began to dodge involuntarily, I silently put the capsule shell into my pocket, put my hands on the table, to make myself look confident enough.

As soon as Lin Qingyi took his seat, he was a little surprised when he saw the coffee that had already been ordered. Then he smiled lightly, and after saying thank you, he took a sip, looked at me, and said in a serious tone: "Xu Jiayang, your mother's matter, I will terribly sorry."

"What did you say to her that day?" I wanted to know why they walked forward and my mother jumped off the building.

Lin Qingyi thought for a while, and said: "That day... your father wanted to talk to her face to face... about the divorce. You knew before that your mother has always refused to face up to this issue, and we have no other choice. Then... ... She disagreed, and we broke up. I didn't expect that she would be overwhelmed."

"You...why do you insist on forcing her to divorce?" I clenched my fists and held back.

"Marriage is a matter between two people," Lin Qingyi said. "A loveless marriage is also extremely sad, isn't it? Your father has been suppressing himself for these years. This kind of life is not what he wants."

How sad is a marriage without love, there is nothing wrong with this sentence, but why didn't I feel that there was no love between my parents' marriage before he appeared?How well did my dad act, and how hard did he suppress himself?

How unwilling is it to pursue illusory love and unpredictable freedom when the family is happy and happy?

"When were you together?" I said, "I have the right to know the truth."

Lin Qingyi was silent for a while, and then said after a long time: "Your summer vacation in the second year of high school."

"The time when he didn't come back for a whole summer vacation?"

"Yes," Lin Qingyi admitted very frankly, "I have always admired him, because I bought a few of his paintings anonymously before... During that summer vacation, I went to other provinces to participate in an art exhibition, and he was one of the painters who participated in the exhibition. one."

I asked a question that I was very curious about: "One year, don't you feel guilty when you see me?"

Lin Qingyi took a sip of coffee lightly, "I never feel guilty about loving someone."

I listened to his words, looked at the coffee cup in front of him, and sneered silently.

"I hope you can repeat the study," Lin Qingyi said, "your father is very worried about you, and you don't want to go abroad, so you have to repeat the study. If you want to repeat the study, it doesn't matter if you are not in Minyu. Didn't you used to be in No. [-] Middle School? Yes. Go back to Seventh Middle School and repeat."

I laughed at myself: "With my grades, do you think repeating the exam will save you?"

Lin Qingyi: "Then what are your plans?"

I don't know what to say.