Infatuation is the most boring

Zhou Mingkai stayed in the hospital for two days before his body temperature returned to normal.

He was discharged from the hospital on the morning of the third day. His body had almost recovered, and Zhou Mingkai didn't want to stay in the hospital any longer.During the period after my death, Zhou Mingkai didn't take good care of himself at all. He has been in the hospitals in C City, Imperial Capital, and Liucheng.

Probably because I realized that I might not be able to stay in this world for long, I began to worry about whether Zhou Mingkai would be fine in the future.I just hope he doesn't suffer too much and don't forget me.

Zhou Mingkai went back to the hotel after he was discharged from the hospital. He didn't like the smell of the hospital's disinfectant water. As soon as he got back to the hotel, he went to the bathroom to take a shower. After washing for more than half an hour, he changed into a casual sweater and came out.

Zhou Mingkai's cell phone has been switched to airplane mode since he came to Liucheng, probably because he doesn't want Feng Tao to bother him with work matters.

After a short rest in the hotel, he put on a thick coat and went out.I followed him to a flower shop, and he bought a bouquet of white lilies, which were beautifully packaged and surrounded by a circle of baby's breath.

I probably know where he wants to go.This is the one thing I am most grateful to Zhou Mingkai for doing for me.Zhou Mingkai went to my mother's grave.

My mother's tomb is in a cemetery on the outskirts of the city, and there is still a long way to walk after getting off the taxi.I don't know why, the snow in the suburbs melts much less than in the urban areas, and it is still white in the sun.

The road was very slippery, and Zhou Mingkai was wearing a pair of Martin boots. He couldn't walk fast, but he walked steadily.It took more than half an hour to walk to my mother's grave.

I just knelt down and kowtowed in front of her grave.I always want to cry in front of my mother, but knowing that I have no more tears, my eyes feel dry when I look at the tombstone.

There is a covered scar in the hair above my forehead. It was the day my mother sealed the tomb and fell straight on the new stele.If people will stay in this world for a short time after death, has my mother also seen my miserable appearance?I am distressed, will she be distressed by me?

Or maybe, my situation is an example.Where are so many ghosts lingering, I have been dead for so long and have encountered other ghosts.

I am kneeling here now, but my mother can no longer see it.

In fact, after all, it is difficult to appease and hate. I never regretted my revenge on Lin Qingyi at the beginning. Although all the hardships I suffered later were related to that incident, I still have no regrets.People always have to pay the price for what they do, Lin Qingyi does, and so do I.

I was still kneeling, and when I looked up, I saw Zhou Mingkai put the flowers in front of the tomb, he squatted down casually, lit a cigarette, and started to smoke without haste.

Zhou Mingkai smoked a lot, and he smoked several cigarette butts in a short time. He looked up at the tombstone, took another puff, and after exhaling, said, "Auntie, I'm sorry, I didn't take good care of Jiayang."

"Auntie, shall we talk?"

Zhou Mingkai said: "When did you like Jiayang? I really don't know. I always thought that he killed Teacher Lin because he hated Teacher Lin, or because he failed the college entrance examination. Unexpectedly, I didn't know anything about it. I love that Xu Jiayang who lived with me for three years. He was kind to me, but I wanted to cheat his feelings to get revenge. Now that I think about it, why is it so ridiculous? I, Zhou Mingkai, am a fucking fool! I always feel that the Xu Jiayang I lived with for three years is different from the Xu Jiayang back then, I can’t tell where, but it’s just different.”

"Back then, Xu Jiayang didn't tidy up for three days and had to go to the house to expose the tiles, but when we were together, he basically didn't make trouble. He accepted my mother's intentional difficulties. Back then, when Xu Jiayang was angry, he had to show his face Tighten up, otherwise it is easy to laugh. Later, he often smiled, as if the smile was painted on his face, but his eyes did not smile. Tell me, how did he make himself into a That ghostly one?"

"But I just fell in love with his ghost like that," Zhou Mingkai laughed at himself, "but I can't forget Mr. Lin's death. I heard what Xu Jiayang said at the door, and I always remember his framing and Slander... I thought, Xu Jiayang doesn't deserve happiness, doesn't deserve the person he loves. But isn't he the one who loves me? If I said, if I knew he would commit suicide, I wouldn't break up with him. Now it's like this Is it annoying? A few days after he died, I had a dream. I dreamed that when we broke up and quarreled, I fought with him and beat him... But I remember that he used to fight fiercely Yes, how did I know he wouldn't fight back..."

Look, in the dream I couldn't bear to fight him.

Zhou Mingkai lit another cigarette and said, "When did I fall in love with Xu Jiayang? Maybe I won't be able to tell in my life, because I really don't know. All I know is that after he left, my heart... seems to be I also died. Auntie, you may hate it, but I still want to talk to you, do you know when I fell in love with Teacher Lin?"

I paused. When did Zhou Mingkai fall in love with Lin Qingyi? This question has troubled me for a long time. I always wanted to know which step I made a mistake. Obviously, Zhou Mingkai and Zhou Mingkai faced each other day and night for three years in high school. I, the person he likes is Lin Qingyi.

Zhou Mingkai seemed to be recalling, with a cigarette between his index fingers, "Once when I was out of an Internet cafe, I was followed by someone. When I realized that someone was following me, I wanted to run, but within a few steps, I was hit on the head with a stick, and my eyes were blurred." Hei, I didn’t realize anything when I was pressed down on the ground. I didn’t know anything, and I didn’t feel any pain. Later, I just heard a voice, and I was protected by someone. I heard him say that with him, It's good to have him here..."

"Probably the first time I was protected by someone since I was a child. It was the first time someone told me that they would protect me... When I was 17 years old, when I heard someone say that he was there, I didn't know where to go... "

Zhou Mingkai stopped, didn't smoke, just kept silent.

I am a worthless ghost, at this time I still want to cry for Zhou Mingkai, or, I want to cry for myself.Why is it so sad, it turns out that the only chance between me and Zhou Mingkai to love each other has been missed.

Zhou Mingkai, why don't you think about it, besides Xu Jiayang, how many people in this world can protect you regardless of their lives?

I hurt, my heart really hurts, Mom, Zhou Mingkai, do you know that I hurt so much?