Self-knowledge

23

Waking up in Lin Jiaxu's arms, the dazzling sunlight poured into the room from the gap in the curtains, and Ye Xiang's thoughts finally came back.

Without glasses, he couldn't see the furnishings of the room clearly, but Lin Jiaxu and his scorching body temperature were so clear.

The astonishment and collapse of his life experience gradually calmed down as the dream passed.

It's nothing more than knowing that I have never been truly loved and looked forward to.

Looking at the sleeping face of the man in front of him, Ye Xiang couldn't deny that he was shaken. No matter who was with him when he experienced the biggest shocking event in his life so far, there would be throbbing similar to the suspension bridge effect, not to mention who was that person. Lin Jiaxu.

After thinking back, Ye Xiang rationally thought that the essential conflict between him and Lin Jiaxu had not been resolved.

It is true that Lin Jiaxu has changed more or less recently, but it is hard to say that similar changes are just because Lin Jiaxu is uneasy about breaking the status quo for several years and temporarily bowed his head. If he rashly agrees to be with him, life will repeat the same mistakes again, why bother to hurt each other again?

However, emotionally, he is indeed attached to the chest of Lin Jiaxu at this moment, the big boy he has loved since he was 21 years old, the only person he has loved deeply in this life.

It's been too long since this embrace, he can hear Lin Jiaxu's heart beating powerfully, as if everything was still the same as many years ago, they were lying on the big lawn of the school, he rested on Lin Jiaxu's shoulder, silently counting each other's heartbeats Voice.

Boom.Boom.Boom.

No matter what, he thought, he doesn't hate Lin Jiaxu, he doesn't hate Ye Ronggui, he doesn't hate Cai Zhuo.

As for his biological mother, Fan Qin, it doesn't matter whether he hates it or not, death has taken away all love and hatred.

In any case, since he grew up peacefully, Lin Jiaxu gave him love, Ye Ronggui gave him family affection, Cai Zhuo gave him a normal family, and Fan Qin gave him life.

He should live well, there is always love in this world...

Ye Xiang closed his eyes again, thinking in a daze...

His hands had been tightly clutching Lin Jiaxu's shirt, Lin Jiaxu didn't dare to move, Ren Yexiang rubbed his high-end shirt tightly, only hugging him even tighter.

"Don't be afraid, Ah Xiang, I will accompany you."

After returning from City C, Ye Xiang smoked even more fiercely. It was one thing to figure it out, but when he was alone in the dead of night, he would often go into the corner again.

Ye Xiang has not been so repulsive to Lin Jiaxu's text messages recently, probably feeling Ye Xiang's softening, Lin Jiaxu's text messages have also come more diligently.

That day, Lin Jiaxu said that he wanted to send a file to Ye Xiang, which was the information Ye Xin needed to refer to in his work, and asked Ye Xiang to pass it on to Ye Xin, so he needed to unlock the WeChat blacklist.

Ye Xiang smiled, not exposing the clumsy lie that could be sent directly to Ye Xin, he took a puff of cigarette, exhaled the smoke slowly, and flicked his index finger to release Lin Jiaxu from the WeChat blacklist.

He doesn't know why he did this, he knows that he is falling, but he can't stop the loss in time

Lin Jiaxu is the only poison in his life.

Until one day, Ye Xin excitedly brought a stack of brochures, saying that the company had distributed benefits, including a 5-day cruise to Japan and South Korea.

Deluxe double bed room with balcony, free meals on board, and some entertainment activities to participate in. I heard that there is also a small water park and swimming pool on this cruise ship. Even if you don’t do anything, you can lie on the balcony or deck The sun was in a daze.

Ye Xiang thought for a while that his work schedule has become irregular recently, and work has come to an end recently, why not go out and relax.The schedule is also suitable.Is it too lonely to go out alone?

Ye Xiang dialed Sun Xiao's phone number, and Sun Xiao didn't seem to be in a good mood on the other end. After hearing Ye Xiang's suggestion, he replied to the text message after 10 minutes, saying that he would go with Ye Xiang.