Self-knowledge

24

That day, Ye Xiang and Sun Xiao arrived at the cruise ship terminal in the suburb with their travel bags.

The cruise ship can accommodate nearly 5000 people. At a glance, it is as high as a dozen floors. The blue sea and gentle sea breeze gradually relieve the tense nerves. Anyway, travel is always pleasant.

The boarding security checkpoint is crowded with people, and it may take an hour to queue up. Fortunately, Ye Xiang's room type is a deluxe room with a separate security check channel.

There were too many people. He dragged Sun Xiao to the security check passage of the deluxe room to squeeze. It seemed that someone had an argument at the security check gate.

Ye Xiang inexplicably felt a sense of familiarity, looked at the security checkpoint, and saw an unexpected but reasonable face, it was Lin Jiaxu.

Coincidentally, Lin Jiaxu also turned his head around, and the two of them looked at each other so embarrassed that they didn't know what to say.

Seeing Ye Xiang tightly holding Sun Xiao's right hand, Lin Jiaxu's face darkened for a while, and he muttered to the security inspector, "Okay, don't bring it, you can take this, I won't need it anymore."

After finishing speaking, he carried the bag and left. An opaque bag was left on the inspection table. Ye Xiang felt curious and wanted to go over and ask, but the crowd behind started pushing and shoving again.

During the whole process, Sun Xiao was absent-minded and remained silent with a blank face, nor did he make any comments on the weird rose decoration and iced champagne in the deluxe balcony double room they were in.

In fact, Ye Xiang understood the whole story the moment he saw Lin Jiaxu.

——Where did the employee benefits come from? I'm afraid it's only Ye Xin's benefits, and Ye Xiang must use them.

He shook his head and didn't bother to beat his younger brother who was working hard for an internship dozens of kilometers away. Ye Xin didn't understand the twists and turns between the two of them, so when something happened to Ye Xiang, he immediately went to Lin Jiaxu.

Compared to Lin Jiaxu who was somewhere on this boat, Sun Xiao in front of him was more worrying.

Sun Xiao lay alone on the deckchair on the balcony and watched the sea quietly. He didn't hold his mobile phone to play expensive mobile games, and he didn't drag Ye Xiang to ask to visit various duty-free shops.

The sea breeze blew slowly, and Ye Xiang noticed that Sun Xiao's eyes were a little swollen, and the bangs on his forehead had grown, but he didn't cut them, and they were a little messy by the noisy wind.

Ye Xiang sat down beside him, before he could figure out how to ask, Sun Xiao said it directly.

"Ah Xiang."

"Well, what's wrong with you?"

Ye Xiang scratched Sun Xiao's head.

"I quit."

"Huh? Why did you resign?"

Although Sun Xiao often complains about how capitalism exploits labor, Ye Xiang believes that he is not a person who will resign because of a whim.

"I'm tired," Sun Xiao turned his head and showed a weary smile, "Remember, I didn't like this line of work at first. Now I just don't feel the need to insist on things I don't like anymore."

"Well. I understand."

"Also, I may have done a very bad thing, and I might lose my job if it happens." Sun Xiaoyun continued calmly.

"what's up?"

"Xiaoxiao, what happened?"

The cruise ship began to whistle, and slowly sailed away from the shore. Amidst the sound of the engine setting sail, Sun Xiao silently looked at the farther and farther shore. It was clearly spring, and the days were still so short. The long shadow of the cruise ship is cast on the sea.The spring breeze was no longer gentle, but instead became bitter with the fishy smell of sea water.

Sun Xiao lit a cigarette. Ye Xiang had never seen him smoking. Smoking is not good for vocal cords. Although he gave up his music dream, he still has the self-consciousness of being a musician.

His lips were not stained with cigarettes, he just watched the sparks slowly burn and devour the tobacco.

Sun Xiao sighed, and smiled self-deprecatingly. Ye Xiang was a little scared, even when he broke up with Gu Cheng, he had never seen Sun Xiao like this.

I forgot where I saw a hypocritical sentence. The ultimate sadness is not crying with your head in your arms, but not being able to shed tears, silently swallowing everything in your stomach, and then destroying all the cherished things in the past.

This expression seems to have swallowed glass shards inside, piercing his heart and body.

"Gu Cheng is going to be a father."

"..."

"Like the villain in the story, I sent the photos and videos of me and Gu Cheng to Mrs. Gu."

"..."

"I heard that he was sent to the hospital on the spot."

The smoke was about to burn out, so he finally took a puff, and then slowly exhaled the smoke, "At that time, my first reaction was to be afraid. I was afraid that it would really hurt his child because of me."

He smiled self-deprecatingly, "Look, I'm not even good at being a cannon fodder."

"Why am I so useless?"

Ye Xiang only felt extremely bitter in his heart, and couldn't be more distressed.At least in his heart, Sun Xiao is not a "bad person". If it were him, it would be difficult for him to keep calm in that situation and have a better way to deal with it.

The relationship of more than ten years has long allowed the two of them to play a pivotal role in each other's life, kneading both of them in their own bones.

If Sun Xiao just recognized the reality when Gu Cheng got married, then this time he really gave up.

This feeling is tantamount to cramps and bloodletting.

Ye Xiangcai found out that Gu Cheng and Sun Xiao had kept in touch intermittently after they got married. Although the two did not cross the line, this move undoubtedly made Sun Xiao have illusions.

The sweet dream will eventually wake up, even if it takes the form of a bloody forest to give someone a blow in the head.

Sun Xiao's knot is not about Gu Cheng's departure, but because the ending of this relationship is so unbearable. I am afraid that if Gu Cheng recalls him in the future, he will only think of his hysterical ugly appearance at the end.

What happened to get us to where we are today?

Why can't I turn around with a smile and say goodbye to the past?

It turns out that love not only makes people happy and beautiful, but also exposes the ugly side of human nature.

"Xiaoxiao, no matter what happens, I will be by your side."

If you want to be a villain, I will do it with you.

He smoked two more cigarettes with Sun Xiao, and Sun Xiaofu put on a smile again, as if he had returned to the grinning way before, waved his hand and said don't worry about him, this time he came out to relax.

"Well, it will get better."

Ye Xiang replied.