Self-knowledge

26

The fairy wand is burned out, and the fireworks are over.The two watched the sea quietly for a while.

The sound of the doorbell broke the beauty of the balcony in time. Outside the door was a drunk Sun Xiao. He was supported by a tall, tall and handsome man who was driving a pair of black-rimmed glasses. Only mask.

The man put his hands on Sun Xiao's thin shoulders, and his eyes were unabashedly cast on Sun Xiao's faintly visible collarbone.

"Hi...it's Lin Jiaxu...hip...hmph, Ah Xiang is mine now, don't even think about looking back..."

Sun Xiao bumped into Ye Xiang's arms, Lin Jiaxu's face was stretched, he was very dissatisfied that the specially arranged honeymoon package was spoiled by Sun Xiao, and the atmosphere was interrupted just now, and now it is adding fuel to the fire .

Ye Xiang didn't know whether to laugh or cry, so he could only respond repeatedly.

Thanks to the husband who sent him back, and brought him into his arms, Ye Xiang was keenly aware of the flash of disappointment of the strange man.

After sending Lin Jiaxu away, Sun Xiao went to the bathroom to wash his face, his expression became much clearer, "They left?"

"Let's go. Are you not drunk?"

"Well, a little bit." Sun Xiao took off his white shirt smoothly, "So who, it's a bit troublesome, I want to come back soon."

"Who is that?" Ye Xiang leaned against the door frame with great interest, "The one who sent you back just now? By the way, did you tell the little milk dog when you came out this time? You two..."

"no way."

Sun Xiao yawned and prevaricated, the corners of Yin Hong's eyes were a little wet, he put his hands on Ye Xiang's shoulders, tilted his head and looked at Ye Xiang, showing a wicked smile, "Ah Xiang, you still want to watch me take a bath Huh? Are you really going to be responsible for me?"

"You are beautiful."

Ye Xiang smiled and shook his head, closing the bathroom door.

Forget it, Sun Xiao will figure it out sooner or later, let Sun Xiao decide for himself.The only thing that can be confirmed is that there will be no Gu Cheng in the future.

The next day was spent cruising at sea. Ye Xiang felt that he was living a life like a pig—eating and sleeping, sleeping and eating. There were more than 30 restaurants on board, half of which were free and half charged. The two of them planned to eat in the first two days A few free restaurants with good reputation, and then book a charging restaurant in the next two days.

Ye Xiang had just basked in the sun on the deck for a while in the afternoon when Sun Xiao dragged him to the duty-free shop.

"It's not gay to go abroad without buying skin care products."

Sun Xiao excitedly dragged him to shop one by one, and finally stopped in front of the SKII counter.

Ye Xiang recalled the experience of going abroad a few times before, and felt that he was expelled from the gay status for no reason. The skin care products he and Lin Jiaxu had always been relatively simple, and the two of them even used them together in the past.

"Tsk tsk tsk, don't you think that your skin becomes darker when you work overtime, and you don't wear sunscreen when you are in the sun, do you have the self-consciousness of being a little zero?"

Sun Xiao made a 360-degree turn around Ye Xiang and came up with such an evaluation.

The cabinet sister quietly looked at them not far away, with probing and excited eyes, Ye Xiang's face turned red.

"Do you know why that mask is called an ex-boyfriend mask? You want to apply this mask one day before meeting your ex-boyfriend, and make him regret leaving you the next day!"

"Last time you said there was a vixen around Lin Jiaxu? Let's dress up and make Lin Jiaxu regret it."

Under Sun Xiao's indiscriminate bombardment, Ye Xiang was too lazy to complain about the definition of vixen and dressing up.

Thinking back to the years after graduation, Ye Xiang’s life was occupied by endless overtime work and daily necessities at home. He looked at the bright makeup mirror at the counter, and his skin was indeed much darker than when he was in college. He has lost a lot of weight recently. It's all a bit out of phase.

No wonder it turned Lin Jiaxu's appetite.

He nodded to Sun Xiao, and Sun Xiao introduced enthusiastically, "SKII has a special men's suit, and the fairy water also has a men's version, but I have used it and think the regular version is better..."

"Also, cleanser, water, and the big red bottle have to be bought together. Well, you shouldn't need a small light bulb if you are so white."

"Hey, look, there are 20 pieces of ex-boyfriend masks exclusively for duty-free shops..."

During the indiscriminate bombardment by Sun Xiao and the cabinet sister, Ye Xiang dazedly took out the credit card to pay the bill, and Sun Xiao also bought some fairy water and facial masks, and the cabinet sister stuffed them both with sample sets with a smile.

Carrying the red bag and staggering away from the counter, Ye Xiang remembered to look at the bill, more than 5000 RMB...

...The cost of seeing an ex-boyfriend is really high.

The two walked around the perfume area, there were only a few men's perfumes, Sun Xiao picked up one and sprayed it on a test paper for Ye Xiang to smell, the familiar cypress fragrance was diffused.

Ye Xiang's pupils narrowed sharply, and he glanced at the bottle, and it was indeed a familiar black square bottle.

It is the fragrance that carries the memories of Ye Xiang and Lin Jiaxu's love, and it is also the fragrance that Lin Jiaxu took home from the entertainment field during the waiting nights. The aroma that emanated from Lin Jiaxu.

Too many bad memories flashed back in an instant, his body was stiff, and he instinctively turned his back and didn't want to smell it again.

Turning around, I saw Lin Jiaxu standing alone in the corner, wearing a gray shirt, looking straight to this side, he didn't look like he was shopping, he seemed to be following them for a long time.

"...Why does this Lin Jiaxu linger on?"

Sun Xiao put the perfume back and planned to take Ye Xiang out of here.

"Wait a moment."

Ye Xiang turned around and instructed, then walked straight in the direction of Lin Jiaxu.

"Lin Jiaxu."

"Ah Xiang."

Lin Jiaxu looked overwhelmed and felt uneasy, so he could only respond dryly.

"I ask you a question, can you be honest with me?"

"Have you ever had a relationship with Ji Zeye?"

Hearing this question, Lin Jiaxu's expression changed suddenly, and he hastily explained, "Of course not! I was the one who made a fool of myself at the time and said it on purpose to provoke you. I don't have any feelings for him at all!"

Ye Xiang exhaled lightly.

"Then, have you ever touched him, kissed him, or made love to him?"

The question that should have been denied immediately, Lin Jiaxu's face turned ugly. Seeing Lin Jiaxu's hesitant expression, Ye Xiang's heart that he thought had been healed and indestructible felt the tearing pain again.

He didn't understand what he wanted to prove by deceiving himself so much, didn't he already decide to leave?Haven't you already decided not to care?

Looking at the other person's expression, everything I did was really embarrassing and humble.

He turned his head and left, but Lin Jiaxu grabbed his arm forcefully.

"Wait a minute! Ye Xiang!"

"I know I'm a jerk...I kissed him once, it was at the wine table, everyone was having fun, it was a game."

"I'm an asshole. I didn't know that he had this kind of thoughts on me. I thought it was just a game. Everyone drank too much. There was no way to control the situation at that time."

"It's my fault, you can blame me or scold me or beat me, Ah Xiang, you, don't go..."

forgive me?What capacity does he use to forgive?

Are you lucky?Fortunately, you haven't been betrayed completely?

Give up?Didn't he give up already?

Ye Xiang's heart was in turmoil, the scene from last night was still there, he also remembered Lin Jiaxu's hug in C City, and the memories of the seven years.

Sun Xiao saw the tug-of-war here from a distance, came over and gave Lin Jiaxu a look, and left with Ye Xiang.

Lin Jiaxu stood where he was, watching the two people go further and further away, and the hand that held Ye Xiang trembled slightly.

The moment he turned around, Ye Xiang took a deep breath and slowly exhaled the stale air.

He couldn't bear it anymore, his dependence and love for that person made him want to throw away his armor and be an ostrich like before, pretending to tell himself that everything was fine and everything would be fine.

In the past few months, he seemed to be unrestrained, thinking that he had cut off his feelings maturely and rationally.

How many times Lin Jiaxu's approach made him hesitate and struggle.

His question just now subconsciously wanted to prove it. If he got a firm denial, maybe he could give himself and Lin Jiaxu a step up at the same time, as if everything that happened in the past was just a misunderstanding.

However, when he heard Lin Jiaxu admit to the "joke" with Ji Zeye, besides the heartache, he felt that he was ridiculous. Look at this is the step you want to give. Do you admit that you are cheap?

He is cheap, so he wanted a step up and whitewashed everything;

He is cheap, he still fell into Lin Jiaxu's restless eyes after hearing these ridiculous things.

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new year extra

New Year's Eve

In the first year after Ye Xiang and Lin Jiaxu got back together, they still went to Lin Jiaxu's house for the Chinese New Year according to the old habit.Lin's father and Lin's mother prepared a large table of dishes, from the two of them entering the door to feeding them to the Spring Festival Gala.

Ye Xiang and Lin Jiaxu sat on the sofa, and Lin's mother kept bringing yogurt, fruit, melon seeds, and peanuts. Ye Xiang was a little embarrassed, and stood up to help clean up as usual.

Seeing this, Mother Lin quickly stuffed him into the sofa, and made another cup of red dates and longan tea.

"Xiao Xiang, you've been busy with work recently, don't move and take a rest, Jiaxu, take good care of Xiao Xiang."

The older generation's care for the younger generation is always most directly reflected in food.

Lin Jiaxu was also very full, and lazily complied. He took Ye Xiang's two long legs and put them on his thighs, beating his calves.

Ye Xiang narrowed his eyes. When they went on a trip in college, sometimes they walked a lot. Lin Jiaxu would help Ye Xiang relax his muscles by pinching his feet like this. After graduation, he seldom went on a trip together, let alone give him a massage.

Lin Jiaxu was massaging while watching the Spring Festival Gala, and was amused by cross talk shows from time to time, turning his head to talk to Ye Xiang.

"Honey, is there any reward for being so good today?"

Lin Jiaxu leaned forward, sniffing hot and humid against Ye Xiang's ear.

"......"

Ye Xiang frowned helplessly. Someone said yesterday that he would celebrate the Chinese New Year and fucked up until midnight. Ye Xiang felt a little pain in his waist.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Lin Jiaxu moved his hand slightly back, and then started to scratch the soles of Ye Xiang's feet!

"what--"

Ye Xiang was so stimulated that he almost jumped up!

"Hmph, little Xiangzhu, be good, open the door at night..."

As he spoke, his fingers lightly slid across the soles of Ye Xiang's feet, and he chose the tenderest sole to scratch repeatedly.

The night is still long, and outside the window are bright red lanterns, and inside the window is the joy of family reunion.