Self-knowledge

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Ye Xiang was in a good mood, he was full after eating hot pot, and he was still a little full after arriving in the community, so he took a walk in the community to digest his food, and at the same time he called Lin Jiaxu.

Lin Jiaxu's voice was a little tired, low and hoarse.

"Are you busy recently?"

"Well. I've been too tired lately in preparing for the listing. When I'm done with this work, Ah Xiang, I'll definitely see you in a while."

Ye Xiang laughed silently, and he raised his head to look at the sky. The light pollution in the sky of the city is very serious, and only a few sporadic stars can be seen.

"Lin Jiaxu." Ye Xiang said softly.

"Well, Ah Xiang."

The other party answered in a low voice, Ye Xiang liked Lin Jiaxu's low and gentle voice the most, especially when whispering in his ear.

"I kind of miss you."

There was five seconds of silence on the other end of the phone. Ye Xiang knew that the signal was not interrupted, and thought he could still hear Lin Jiaxu's rapid breathing.

Then there was a loud bang and the call was cut off.

"..."

Ye Xiang looked at the black screen of the phone, covered his face and laughed.

The spring in City A is very short. After a few days of sunny days, it is the rainy season.

It's been almost a month since Ye Xiang and Lin Jiaxu got back together.

The phone was hung up suddenly that day, and an hour later, Lin Jiaxu appeared at the door of Ye Xiang's house out of breath, holding Ye Xiang in his arms after a long absence with care and surprise.

Ye Xiang is not a hypocritical or entangled person. He chose to leave Lin Jiaxu at the beginning because he felt that he could not see love and was in pain.

Now he chooses to accept Lin Jiaxu's overtures and pursuits because he knows that he still loves Lin Jiaxu and is willing to trust him again.

He didn't know how far he could go in the future. If he started over again with this disruption, it would just continue the next seven-year itch, or it might not last even seven years.

Those problems between them may still be there, but once the relationship is pulled in, it will be revealed.

But he still wanted to try again.

After all, he is also greedy for Lin Jiaxu's embrace, whether it was seven years ago or seven years later, the small house he and Lin Jiaxu shared is the only place he can call home.

Ye Xiang hasn't moved back to Lin Jiaxu's place yet.

There are many reasons. One is that the current rent contract has not yet expired, and the other is that Lin Jiaxu has been very busy recently, and he is busy preparing for the listing.

The two of them tacitly did not talk about moving back. They just talked on the phone every day, and the two of them took time to meet each other every few days.

Ye Xin's internship is about to end, and it is said that she performed very well and will basically be retained.Before that, I have to go back to school to complete the graduation procedures, and then formally sign a contract with the company.

Ye Xiang didn't tell Lin Jiaxu what Zhang Yi had mentioned to him before, but just reminded Lin Jiaxu to pay attention to Zhang Yi in a subtle way.

At that time, Lin Jiaxu squinted his eyes to look at him, then raised his chin and leaned forward to give Ye Xiang a deep kiss. His tongue penetrated into his mouth and swept around. After being kissed, Yan Hong's mouth was lightly pecked, and finally she turned her head and rubbed Ye Xiang's nose with her nose.

"I haven't settled accounts with you yet. When did you get so close with Zhang Yi? If you don't ask me for Xiaoxin's work, go to him."

Ye Xiang smiled at him, of course he wouldn't mention such absurd things as blind dates, but he also thought of playing tricks, he stuck out his tongue and licked Lin Jiaxu's lips, watched his eyes darken a little bit, and murmured with a smile ,"you guess."

In the end, he was kissed until his face was red and his eyes were full of tears.

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After the broken mirror was reunited, Ye Xiang rarely experienced a touch of sweetness.

It seems that people only know how to cherish or change after losing.

In the past, there was always no reply to the WeChat chat box, but now it is basically replied within 5 minutes.

He asked Lin Jiaxu before why he didn't reply to the message. Lin Jiaxu said that he was too busy to see it.

In fact, he knows the answer, not because he was too busy and didn’t see it, but because he was too busy to see it and didn’t have time to write a message; even sometimes he saw Lin Jiaxu replying to other friends’ unimportant gags in other groups, so he couldn’t wait. There is an echo.

But now, even for the most boring messages, such as links and funny videos, Lin Jiaxu will reply with a hahaha.

Lin Jiaxu didn't have any topics related to Ye Xiang's mention of Ji Zeye, so Ye Xiang didn't ask.

Once, Ye Xiang went out to the supplier's office to do errands, and went out of the factory to buy a cup of coffee. At the coffee shop, he met Lao Wang who was working nearby and came to buy coffee.

Old Wang saw that he first raised his hand vigorously, and blurted out Ye Xiang's name, and then his expression was a little subtle as if he remembered something.

Ye Xiang smiled at him, nodded, and moved to the end of the line to line up with him.

"Ye Xiang, long time no see, how are you doing?"

Lao Wang touched his nose.

At the beginning, Ye Xiang and Lin Jiaxu broke up too decisively, and withdrew from all of Lin Jiaxu's WeChat friend groups.

Lao Wang and the others must have seen and guessed the reason for the withdrawal.The friendship between men is relatively straightforward. Afterwards, Ye Xiang only received a WeChat message from Lao Wang, which probably said that he was still friends no matter what, and we would often get together in the future.

At that time, Ye Xiang was suffering from stomach problems and was overwhelmed with self-care, so he didn't reply.There was no communication after that.

So today's meeting seemed a little awkward.

Ye Xiang roughly stated the purpose of coming here. After visiting the supplier, there is still some time before get off work, and he does not plan to return to the factory.

I plan to buy a cup of coffee and sit here and read the meeting materials.

Lao Wang said that he hadn't sat down for a long time, so we can chat together.

Ye Xiang nodded.

Lao Wang's work is also related to the automobile industry. Although Ye Xiang and Ye Xiang are not in the same system, there are still some industry trends in common. The two chatted for a while about industry gossip. Said, "It's been a long time since I got together with you, how are you doing recently?"

"Hi, what news do we have? Oh, it seems that there is a little Xu. Last time you attended the wedding, his wife seems to be pregnant. But you only met him this time, so you probably don't know him well."

Ye Xiang nodded and quietly took a sip of coffee.

"Well, I remember him. Everyone in your circle gets married very quickly. There seem to be few single ones. I remember... It seems that one came back from abroad last time? Is he married?"

Ye Xiang didn't want to admit that he was secretly inquiring about Ji Zeye's news. Although it was dishonorable, he was really concerned and awkward in his heart, and he resisted not wanting to ask Lin Jiaxu, as if he would lose if he asked.

"He came back from abroad... You mean Ji Zeye?" Lao Wang pondered for a while, then sighed, "I don't know what's wrong with him, I haven't heard that he's in love. Last time we went out with a group of friends to sing, he alone He ordered a lot of wine and finally vomited, grabbing Lin Jiaxu..."

Having said that, Old Wang stopped abruptly, carefully looking at Ye Xiang's color.

Ye Xiang smiled, "Lin Jiaxu and I got back together."

"?! Then you didn't say it earlier! I just said, you two have such a good relationship..."

Lao Wang laughed happily, immediately took out WeChat and added Ye Xiang back to all the groups, and then chatted endlessly about how surprised they were when they broke up, but Ye Xiang couldn't find the part that Ye Xiang wanted to hear the most Another chance.

That night, Ye Xiang didn't go back to Lin Jiaxu's house. He originally agreed that he would end his visit to the supplier early, so the two of them would have dinner together at Lin Jiaxu's house.

Lin Jiaxu rejected all the arrangements for the evening, took a bunch of documents and computers home, and went home excitedly, thinking about Ye Xiang who hadn't seen him wearing an apron for a long time, and the beautiful body under the apron.

It's a pity that when he opened the door, there was only a dark and empty room waiting for him.

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Ye Xiang had just finished dinner when Lin Jiaxu came to him.

Ye Xin went back to his hometown. He was alone at home, and he didn't like to cook complicated dishes. He fried a tomato and egg on the noodles, added a little green onion and sesame oil, and ate it alone with relish.

He charged his phone and turned a deaf ear to Lin Jiaxu's call.

Someone came, went to open the door, then turned around and continued to sit on the sofa and watch TV.

When Lin Jiaxu went to the living room, he first saw the uncleaned noodles on the dining table, and then looked at the kitchen—it wasn't for him.

"Baby", he sat next to Ye Xiang, put his arms around Ye Xiang, and rubbed Ye Xiang near his neck.

Seeing that Ye Xiang ignored him, he leaned closer again, muttering, "I'm hungry..." He held Ye Xiang's lower lip and teased it slightly with the tip of his tongue.

Ye Xiang avoided it.

"Baby, what's the matter? What's making you unhappy?"

In the past, seeing Ye Xiang's cold expression, Lin Jiaxu might have left the table a long time ago, but now, Lin Jiaxu looks at the person in front of him with a cold expression, and his eyes are fixed on the TV screen without any distinction at all. For himself, Lin Jiaxu felt that he might be a bit masochistic. The more he looked at it, the more he felt that the person in front of him was beautiful and attractive, and the cold expression also outlined a beautiful arc just right, and he felt hot just looking at it.

Ye Xiang was taken aback by the man's sudden interest, he pushed away the man who was sticking to him, frowned and scolded what are you doing.

"What about you, wife."

Lin Jiaxu really didn't think that Ye Xiang, who was so clear and cold, was so lovely.He used to always hope that Ye Xiang would be more obedient, so that he could satisfy his machismo and possessiveness.

But after he lost it, he realized that Ye Xiang does not belong to anyone, he is independent, and love requires mutual respect rather than possession or conquest.

Lin Jiaxu, who slowly accepted this change of view, saw a completely different Ye Xiang.

Having been together for seven years, Ye Xiang has grown up from the young man who was ignorant and didn't know how to behave in the world.

He learned to arm himself with armor and maintain adult etiquette externally, but he was still sensitive and lonely inside.The only person who can let him reveal his heart is Lin Jiaxu.

Seven years ago, Lin Jiaxu liked Ye Xiang's straightforwardness and enthusiasm; seven years later, Lin Jiaxu liked everything about Ye Xiang, his indifference and alienation, his obedience and enthusiasm in the face of Lin Jiaxu, and now, his petulant temper Unknowingly.

Yes, time has been changing, they are no longer the original ones, but his love is stronger than before, like a pot of wine that has been witnessed by time, the more it is hidden, the more fragrant it becomes.

Lin Jiaxu still couldn't hold back, and gnawed the saliva all over Ye Xiang's neck.

"Baby, I'm starving to death, be good, let me eat."

Seeing Lin Jiaxu's eyes getting darker and darker, Ye Xiang was speechless.

He pushed Lin Jiaxu away forcefully, and cursed indiscriminately, "Go find Ji Zeye yourself!"

Surprised after scolding, he turned his face away with a flushed face, unwilling to give Lin Jiaxu another wink.

Lin Jiaxu giggled, and then brazenly licked Ye Xiang's earlobe, "Our baby is the cutest when he's jealous."

I don't know what is going crazy.

That day, Ye Xiang didn't ask Lin Jiaxu to confront his relationship with Ji Zeye, nor let Lin Jiaxu make it to the end.

He originally wanted to be angry or cold war, but recently Lin Jiaxu has been too kind to him, making him a little carried away, a little indulged in this tenderness, he wants to slowly test whether he still has the capital to be more self-willed.

But later, Lin Jiaxu hugged him tightly and fell asleep on the sofa. He couldn't break free, so he looked at Lin Jiaxu's dark circles under his eyes, a little bit of stubble growing out, and fine lines at the corners of his eyes.

He thought of Lin Jiaxu, whom he met for the first time more than seven years ago. It was a club activity. At that time, he was radiant, and he was surrounded by a group of students. I can't take my eyes off the risks.

Later, I fell in love with him, and slowly approached him with careful thinking. When I had no plan, I confessed with excitement, but was unexpectedly accepted.

This big sun that radiates heat everywhere fell from the sky to his side, the passionate love on campus, the confession under the stars, it was the first time that Ye Xiang gave himself so completely, both physically and mentally.

Later, they had a family and Lin Jiaxu had his own business, but they drifted further and further apart.

His proud wings were broken, his self-esteem was trampled to the soles of his feet, and a chain in the name of love was fastened around his neck.

In the heart-wrenching pain, he paralyzed himself, pretending that the gentle Lin Jiaxu was still there.

Then he smashed the chains and left desperately.

Turned around and returned to the original place.

Lin Jiaxu is no longer the same as he was seven years ago, and Ye Xiang slowly began to understand that people can never be the same as before.

Lin Jiaxu is now more mature than seven years ago, and shines brighter in the crowd.

He also learned how to cook, send flowers, and do some things that the male protagonists in vulgar youth movies do.

Lin Jiaxu accompanied Ye Xiang through the most difficult day in his life in the distant Xiangcheng. From that day on, his heart that had been rubbed to pieces was gently pulled together and glued together bit by bit.

People are always changing, getting better, getting worse, becoming cloudy and incomprehensible.

At this moment, the only thing Ye Xiang can be sure of is that there is a heart wrapped in the chest through the cotton shirt, and Ye Xiang lives in that heart now.

He doesn't know how long the future is and how far he can go.But feelings are nothing more than eight characters——

only the guy drinking water knows it's cold or hot.

Light rain fell outside the dark window again, moistening things silently on the window, the room was slightly hot, forming a puddle of water.The rain will stop one day, just like melting water and rushing rivers, everything in the world has its destination.

Ye Xiang took care of the warmth in his arms, embraced the warm body, buried his head in Lin Jiaxu's chest, and fell asleep together.

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