Self-knowledge

Sun Xiao Extra Story 1

Sun Xiao sat alone on a bench in the park.

The spring sun is shining warmly, and there is a green lawn opposite the stool.

On weekday afternoons, only some retired uncles played chess near the stone benches in the park, and a few sparse people surrounded the stone benches to point out the next step; Thin windbreaker while talking on the phone while eating the whole family's bento.

Occasionally a few pigeons landed on the lawn, pecked at the grass twice and then jumped away without interest.

Sun Xiao stared blankly at the pigeons, watching them spread their wings and fly away until they could no longer see them.

The sun hanging in the sky is not dazzling, and it still hurts a little after looking at it for a long time.

Close your eyes, the light spots in the darkness cannot fade away.

He hasn't sat in the park in a daze on weekday afternoons, doing nothing like this for many years.

It is very close to his company and not far from the home where he lived for a while.Sometimes when the office doesn't have much to do, he will walk through the park at noon and return home for lunch.

At that time, he was very envious of the uncles and aunts in the park, who didn't have to worry about the trivial things in the company, the endless plans, and the uncertain Party A.

Later, the landlord of that house said that the house would be taken back for his son's wedding, so Sun Xiao and Gu Cheng moved farther away, and he no longer had the opportunity to go to this park.

I didn't expect the wish at that time to be realized in this form.

He doesn't like the work of a law firm, but he doesn't hate it; it's nothing more than supporting his family, except that it's a little too hard and sometimes it's too difficult for Party A to handle. The income and relatively simple interpersonal relationship are the bonus points of this job .

After all, he was able to find this job only after he worked so hard to obtain the qualification of a lawyer.

Now he has lost his job too.

When he desperately sent those photos to Mrs. Gu, he didn't expect the end of today.

He didn't particularly hide his sexuality, but he didn't use it as a talking point either.The etiquette among adults is maintained among colleagues in the company. They speculate and discuss behind the scenes, but they will not embarrass people by asking these things in person.

Now the company should have spread those photos of him like crazy.

Although those intimate bed photos and daily photos did not reveal key parts, it is obvious that he and Gu Cheng are a couple.

And he, an elite lawyer with a pious appearance, privately had photos of his bed with a married man flying all over the company's mailbox.

He had seen the screenshots of the emails sent to him by his acquaintances. Mrs. Gu used an anonymous mailbox, and somehow got the mailboxes of most of the people in their group, as well as the mailboxes of some colleagues who did not know him in other groups. .

Both the title and the body of the email have the feel of a gossip tabloid, with bold fonts, underlines, and exclamation points. All in all, this employee surnamed Sun Mingxiao is so morally depraved, seducing married men while other people's wives are pregnant.

He is not only a disgusting homosexual, but also a shameless third party.

As for her husband, he was completely seduced by this male vixen. After all, the male vixen is clever in bed and has a chaotic private life (the ABCD men who were hooked up are listed here). Who knows if he is carrying some unspeakable infectious diseases?Therefore, I implore the company leaders to punish this employee severely. He has such a poor sense of morality that he is not qualified to be a lawyer at all!

Sun Xiao did not receive this thunderous email because he had already resigned at that time.

At first, Sun Xiao didn't know what kind of mood he sent those photos to Mrs. Gu, he just thought she should know all about it, especially after she was pregnant.

He also admitted that he was mad with jealousy, and he was in pain to death. He once thought that the luck and happiness of his life were stolen by another person in this way.

So he did the most vicious thing in his life, he sent the photo of him and Gu Cheng to Mrs. Gu.

However, what caught her off guard was the news of her hospitalization, and dozens of text messages that followed.

In the text message, she cursed him with the most vicious language, calling him a shameless stinker, a sewer scum, and same-sex love would not be accepted or blessed by anyone.

She told him how anxious Gu Cheng was when she entered the hospital, and how Gu Cheng was asked by his parents to kneel at the door of her ward all night, begging for her forgiveness.

She said that she won, she knew that Gu Cheng was dirty before marriage, but she never thought that he would have the guts to challenge Zheng Gong.

She said arrogantly, you asked for it, I want you to be ruined.

Sun Xiao already regretted it when she learned that she was hospitalized.He admitted that he was vicious and shameless, but he didn't want to really hurt Gu Cheng's child.

He saw her say triumphantly, Gu Cheng is kneeling at the door now, and their family will not let Gu Cheng go tonight.

His heart was gripped heavily, and things developed in a direction he never expected.

His wanton behavior hurt the people he loved the most.

Sun Xiao asked himself, why did I do such a stupid thing?

He loved Gu Cheng so much that he would go crazy because his wife was pregnant.

He also hated Gu Cheng, but he couldn't bear to kneel down at all.

That is the big boy who grew up with him.

They rode bicycles for outings together in spring, played games and wrote songs in front of the air-conditioning fan in the rented house in summer, set up a stall outside the subway station in the city center in autumn, played guitar and sang, and were chased by urban management. In winter, Gu Cheng bought a pair of gloves for each of them. , and the other two hands were tightly held in the pockets.

They have spent ten springs, summers, autumns and winters together, Gu Cheng is his friend, lover, relative, everything in his life.

He wrote a text message with tears in his eyes, saying that he was wrong and sorry; they did not have a relationship after Gu Cheng got married, and those photos were from the past; it was all his fault, he was too impulsive, and had nothing to do with Gu Cheng.

He begged her not to let Gu Cheng kneel down. He had fallen on a bicycle before and his calf bone was cracked, and now it still hurts even when the weather is bad.In the future, they will have nothing to do with each other, please live a good life, and he will not bother you again.

There was no reply from the other side. He didn't sleep all night. When it was daylight, he received a MMS. The figure in the photo was a little blurry. The picture was taken from top to bottom through a piece of glass. There was a corridor outside, and there was a figure kneeling in front of the door. , lowering his head, Sun Xiao knew it was Gu Cheng.

Sun Xiao cried loudly holding the phone, tears streaming down his face.

He has always been optimistic and cheerful, and is very popular. Every time, male or female friends come to talk to him about anything. He will wait quietly to finish listening, then smile and show his canine teeth, and try to comfort him in a calm tone, "Don't worry about it." Sad."

He has never known how to comfort others, and his friends feel redeemed when they see his smile. Some people are like a dazzling warm sun just because they exist, because he is simple, happy, and good emotions are always contagious to others.

Sun Xiao had never cried so heartbreakingly, tears and snot stuck together, his body was so heavy that he seemed to be imprisoned, unable to move a single bit.

He was so uncomfortable, a hundred times more uncomfortable than the day when Gu Cheng told him that they had to score.He had never regretted anything so much, and it was the first time he hated and hated himself so much.

That day, he handed in his resignation, went to the hospital to see the woman quietly, and then left an envelope at the nurse's desk, which contained half of his savings over the years.

The money was demanded by the woman, who cited a large and obviously unreasonable cost of hospitalization, nutrition, and mental damage.He wrote a long text message to apologize sincerely again, and stated that everything was his fault, and if you want revenge, come to him.

It took a day for him to receive a reply, only three words "you wait".

Then he received an invitation from his friend Ye Xiang to board the cruise ship. There was no communication equipment on the cruise ship. He sorted out his mood on the cruise ship. After disembarking, he smiled and waved to Ye Xiang, saying that he would try his best to walk over.

When he got home, he saw the screenshot of the email sent to him by his colleagues in the company, and the slap waiting at his door.

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Sun Xiao patted the ashes on his clothes, planning to go home and put away the documents and change his clothes to eat hot pot by himself.

It has been a month since those incidents, but the incident did not end with his apology. Whether it was the huge amount of spiritual compensation, the slap of Gu Cheng, or the gossip in the company, it made people feel tired.

He was going to another law firm for an interview today, but before he arrived, he received a call from HR. The other party vaguely said that there were some problems with the background check.

When Sun Xiao asked what the specific problem was, the person in charge of the other party said vaguely: "It's just...some things about your private life, Lawyer Sun.

In fact, your qualifications are not bad, and we are really short of people recently, but we found some negative incidents related to your private life during the background check. The leader said that it is better not to waste the time of both parties, and you will not use it today. "

The other party hung up the phone in a hurry, as if talking to him a little more would cause germs to spread from the phone along the radio waves. Sun Xiao was still standing by the side of the road, his heart was beating fast, and he could feel the blood rushing to the top of his head.

He sat for a while in the park he used to pass by, and thought to himself whether this was the fulfillment of his wish. He wasted time sitting in the park like those chess-playing uncles on weekday afternoons.

He felt angry but helpless. His nature was good, and he knew what a bad thing he had done. He was a lawyer himself, and he also knew that a woman's behavior constituted legal slander and blackmail.

However, he does not intend to take the legal route, and he accepts such retribution with the mentality of being punished for atonement.

He thought of Ye Xiang's enlightenment to him, and felt that he couldn't be depressed, so he decided to eat a hot pot to change his mood.

But he didn't expect to see Ding Wanda at the door.The little milk dog squatted at the door aggrieved, carrying a Nike backpack, with Bluetooth headsets on his ears, and was quietly swiping his phone.

Sun Xiao smiled the moment he saw him.Probably because he looks pitifully like a Labrador waiting for his master to come home, oh no, he needs to be stronger, maybe a husky or a sled dog?Are huskies and sled dogs the same kind of dog?

He poked the top of Ding Wanda's head, he was taken aback, looked up and saw Sun Xiao's expression at that moment was like a lit match, his expression suddenly became vivid, and his eyes were filled with light.

Ding Wanda quickly took off the earphones and stood up at once—maybe his feet were a little numb after squatting for a long time, and he wobbled when he got up. He smiled happily, "Brother Xiaoxiao."

"Hey." Sun Xiao also nodded with a smile. A good mood can be contagious. He felt that the dark cloud that was entrenched in his heart today seemed to have dissipated a little bit.

The husky kid followed Sun Xiao into the house, but they hadn't been in touch for a long time.

At that time, the kid was a resident singer in the bar, and Sun Xiao was a frequent visitor to the bar, and was also one of the first batch of resident singers in the bar. Sun Xiao became famous in the online cover circle many years ago, and the kid said he was his fan at that time. Listen Sun Xiao's song grew up.

"I grew up listening to your songs", "I grew up watching your plays", no matter how you hear these words, there is a sense of generation gap!

Then the children appeared in every corner of Sun Xiao's life.

Ding Wanda and Gu Cheng are two completely different types of people. Sun Xiao didn't think about love at all. Ye Xiang reminded him several times. Ye Xiang felt that Ding Wanda looked at Sun Xiao with love besides admiration. meaning.

Sun Xiao felt that there was too much age difference between the two of them, and he always regarded Ding Wanda as his younger brother, so he didn't take it seriously.

In his mind, the definition of a lover is a calm, tall and gentle type like Gu Cheng.

He didn't expect that one day he would receive a straightforward WeChat message from Ding Wanda, saying that he liked Sun Xiao and wanted to be Sun Xiao's boyfriend, asking him if he would agree.

Sun Xiao thought it was a hot potato and didn't want to reply at all. Unexpectedly, the phone came after him. Ding Wanda said it again on the phone, and admitted that this was not any big adventure game. He didn't dare to say it in person, so he could only Appeal to affection through mobile phone.

Sun Xiao was silent for a long time, and then replied that he had to think about it, and he would wait for an answer later, and then he never contacted him again, and more than a month passed like this.

It wasn't that he was so vicious that he deliberately hung on to other people's appetites, it was because too many things happened this month.

"Brother Xiaoxiao, did you get off work so early today? I thought you would come back late, your phone was fully charged and you brought a power bank with you, but you came back before the power bank was used!"

Sun Xiao paused, hummed, thought for a while and said, "Wait a minute, I'll change my clothes."

Ding Wanda sat on the sofa and waited obediently. Seeing Sun Xiao enter the room, Ding Wanda raised his voice and asked, "Brother Xiaoxiao, are you free tonight? If we are free, let's go eat hot pot?"

The hand that unbuttoned the shirt paused, and Sun Xiao lowered his head and smiled.