After the stand-in resigned

"In the National Day of the third year of high school, I went home for vacation and met you at the door of my house. I thought you were very beautiful. Later, I learned that you liked An Qingyi, that is, my sister. I think you are even more beautiful.

I don't know if it's love at first sight, but it's such a coincidence, the more you like my sister, the more I like you, I must have you at that time. "

"I thought you would be together soon, but you haven't. I don't know if it's your problem or her problem. I couldn't think of this at the time. What I thought was, if you are not together, then I still have a chance."

"The opportunity did come. On the day the results of the college entrance examination were announced, the class teacher called home to congratulate me, saying that I had the best grades in the city and was the number one scholar in the city.

In my impression, it was one of the few times my parents were so happy because of me. Even though I heard my mother go to the room to comfort my sister later, saying that if she took the college entrance examination, she might have the provincial champion, but I was still happy.But I was not happy for long, that night, my sister passed away, congenital heart disease. "

"Some people say that she got sick because of me, because I robbed her of nutrition when I was born. Others say that she died because of me, because my grades stimulated her.

I actually don’t understand, I’ve never argued with her, she’s always been the one who gets the limelight, from childhood to adulthood, whenever we stand together, they always mention her.I used my college entrance examination results to leave my name with my parents, and she wiped the name away with death. "

"I don't understand. I obviously didn't grab anything from her, but many people think that it's because of me that I caused her to be like this."

"The only thing I've ever snatched from her is you."

"But you don't like me. Even if she dies, you still don't like me. After she dies, you will still come to my house, stay in her room, touch the piano she talked about, without saying a word. I will do all this secretly Seeing it in my eyes, sometimes I think, do you really like her that much?"

"One day, I was sitting in her room practicing the piano, and you broke in, panting, and stared at me for a long time.

I know you mistook me for her because the disappointment in your eyes was so obvious.

But I only know that when you stared at me, the blood in my whole body boiled so obviously, and my heart was slightly hot, so I said to you, "Don't be sad, if you want someone to accompany you, I can accompany you, you take It doesn't matter who I am." "

"You rejected me that time. But every time you come to my house later, I will stay by your side, just quietly. "

"Until one time, like this, we were sitting quietly, and you suddenly pressed me on the floor of her room, kissed hard, tore my clothes like a wild beast, and left wanton scars on my body. marks, wounds.

At that time, I didn't know the reason why you did this. I thought it was sweet at the time, but then I found out that it was September 9th, the day you first met her.You are venting, venting your love for her to me, do you think I am still sweet? "

"I thought it was sweet at that time. I became my sister's stand-in, but now that I'm with you, I think it's sweet."

"On October 10th, my sister's first birthday, we stood side by side in front of the cemetery separated by a large group of relatives and friends.

At that time, I was ashamed.It's weird, even though she has a congenital disease and I don't, I still have the idea of ​​"I'm the one who gets it" and I've never been ashamed of her, big or small, but because I fucked in her room with you Ashamed of her about the floor.I think I really like you. "

"So even if you come and go as soon as you call me, I am willing to do so. I asked for it, I know, but if someone is mean, I can't stop it.

The more you love and ignore me, the more I want you to fall in love with me, and the more I hate you for liking her so much.The living can't compete with the dead, but unfortunately I didn't realize this until very late. "

"I don't want to talk about the substitute in the past few years. You have seen what you looked like in the past few days. It's annoying for you to say a few words to a business partner. What will happen to me, a substitute? One can imagine.

Lu Yun, that is, my friend, once said to me, if I spend one tenth of my perseverance and patience with you to make money, I might already be the richest man. "

"You can't believe a joke, but when I think about those years now, I really admire myself, and I also admire that I can endure your low pressure and continue to be cheap."

"In my junior year, my parents found out about the fact that I was with you. I always thought that I kept it a good secret. I didn't tell anyone. I only told Lu Yun. Even though she kept scolding me, I also told her.

I can only talk to her.There's no way, it's such a joy to be with you, I wish I could tell the whole world, but I can't say to anyone, who can accept a person who becomes my sister's substitute. "

"My parents can't accept it, even though they don't care much about my daughter. My dad pointed at my nose and said, "I won't have good results with you." In fact, he usually doesn't speak so rudely, so I guess I was so angry that I couldn't understand it, and made a lot of swear words. In the end, he asked me to choose between you and them, and if I choose you, don't step into the house again."

"I chose you. I didn't enter the house again."

"This choice is not all because of you. I really don't like that family. If there is no me in that family, it will be a very happy family of three. I am redundant. This is the conclusion I have observed since I was a child."

"But it was because of you that I returned to that home. In the National Day of my senior year, you approached me and said that you wanted to get rid of my sister's birthday. After I broke up with my parents for you, you and I Let me put it this way. I can not enter the house for you, or even break up with them, but you ask me to compromise with them for An Qingyi. "

"You make me feel like everything I do is meaningless. Everything, nothing."

"You treat me as my sister's substitute, and you want to maintain a friendly relationship with my parents. After my affair with you is exposed. Do you think this is possible?"

"Impossible, I can't do it, and I don't want to do it. So on the day of my birthday, I deliberately staggered the time and didn't let you see my parents. I can imagine how angry you will be. You asked me "what do you mean?" After I confessed to you, you told me "don't argue here".

"Where is "here"? This is An Qingyi's tomb. At that moment, I felt that I had completely lost, but you couldn't even answer the simple question "What am I?", you said it was over."

Yes, it's not a breakup, it's the end.Because in your heart, we never started.How can we break up without holding hands. "

"Actually, that day is also my birthday. An Qingyi's birthday is my birthday every year. It's a pity you never realized it."

"It's my fault to be involved with you again. I thought I could last for a long time, but I was coaxed into elation because of your public "girlfriend". I was so happy that I even forgot what my name was. I only knew that I was Became your girlfriend. You finally admitted that I am your girlfriend, and we are going to start a relationship."

"I have almost forgotten what happened in love. Those few months were like bright bubbles in the sun to me. It looks colorful on the outside, but it will disappear without a trace when I touch it. Even if I miss it and want to find it, I can't will know where to start."

"I brought up the breakup this time. You mentioned your girlfriend, so I am qualified to mention the word "breakup". The reason for the breakup is very simple. I know the truth about September 9th.

I can't stand it, you use me as a substitute again and again, I can't stand it!

Who can bear to be someone else's substitute all the time, not to mention that person is someone I hate, no matter how much I like you, I can't be An Qingyi's substitute for the rest of my life. "

"I see, I have no hope, you'll never like me, so I give up."

"The story should have ended here, but you came to the door again, and even chased you to Jiangshi. Actually, I don't know what you were thinking at that time, what's the point of making such a fuss..."

An Fan looked at the people around him: "Can you tell me?"

The lights are off, the room is dark, the blackout curtains are drawn, all the light outside is completely blocked, and the room is pitch black.

Darkness is the best protective color, allowing An Fan to express his emotions to the fullest on such a night.

She is even slowly calming down.As she approached emotional climax time and time again, her heart gradually calmed down.

Ling Ran's voice was hoarse, hoarse, she said softly, almost breathlessly: "I lost my memory."

An Fan agreed: "Yes, you lost your memory."

"What a wonderful thing amnesia is, it can forget all the unhappy things you want to forget..."

An Fan laughed at himself: "So you definitely don't remember. It turns out that on September 9th, when you torment me every year, the person you caught a glimpse of was not An Qingyi, but me."

Ling Ran gasped suddenly and violently, the sound was like an old cattle trailer going uphill, the panting sound was heavy and long, as if struggling and feeling out of breath.

So An Fan paused here for a long time before asking softly: "Our past is like this. Cruel or not, it's all the truth. Now I don't think about the question of "what are those years?", but I I want to know, can you still easily say "my fiancee" in order to deal with others?"

Ling Ran didn't make a sound.

Maybe silence is the best answer, or maybe night is suitable for silence, just like every previous conflict between them, it all ended in silence.

The quarrel cannot go on forever, nor can the dialogue. There is always someone who stops first, and Ling Ran acts as the person who stops.

truce……

An Fan silently flattened the quilt, ready to sleep.

But she had just finished her "long speech", so how could she be able to fall asleep for a while.

She was full of thoughts, Ling Ran for a while, Li Xiang for a while, and Lu Yun who scolded her came out to join in the fun.

The battle in his mind was fierce, and suddenly a heavy panting cleared the clouds and mist and broke through the sky, like a cessation of war, flashed in An Fan's mind.

An Fan opened her eyes suddenly, remembering Ling Yun's nervous appearance when Ling Ran had a low fever, she felt that something was wrong at the time, and when she contacted Ling Ran's state just now, she felt that something was even more wrong.

An Fan called Ling Ran a few times, but the room was empty and no one answered, she panicked for no reason.

I pressed the wrong button a few times when I turned on the light on the remote control, but I finally pressed it correctly. The light suddenly lit up in the room was very dazzling, but it was like the rising sun, giving Anfan a backbone. She turned to look at Ling Ran beside her.

His complexion was fairly normal, but his lips were pale, and he couldn't tell whether it was normal or abnormal.

The state of Ling Ran's tightly closed eyes somehow reminded An Fan of a time when Ling Ran fainted in front of her.

That time she was deliberately angry.

After Ling Ran published her "disgusting syllogism", she retaliated by saying that while hugging and kissing Ling Ran, she also had sex with Li Xiang, which made Ling Ran faint from anger.

An Fan didn't know if this counted as a repeat of the case, but she really didn't have the subjective intention to deliberately annoy people this time.

Recalling the method he learned from Ling Ran's personal doctor last time, An Fan pushed Ling Ran, but there was no response.

She increased the stakes, called Ling Ran's name while pushing, and even pinched Ling Ran's wrist like last time, but there was still no response.

The case didn't repeat itself completely, Ling Ran didn't hug her as weakly as last time.

An Fan stretched out his hand to check his pulse, it was weak, like a body slowly losing vitality.

Anfan panicked instantly!

She laid Ling Ran down properly, lifted the quilt out of bed, didn't even have time to put on her shoes, and called the hospital as she walked out quickly.

It was already one o'clock in the morning when we arrived at the hospital.

The transfer arranged by Ling Yun was halfway through, so there was a delay.

As soon as Ling Ran entered the hospital, he was arranged to undergo various examinations. The familiar doctor Shan gave An Fan a sense of security. She and Ling Yun waited by the side, silently waiting for Ling Ran's examination to end.

Doctor Shan retracted the weapon, the meaning was over, Ling Yun and An Fan stood up, watched him unwinding the thread slowly, and said, "Coma, I don't know how long it will take to wake up this time, the preliminary estimate is the aftermath of a car accident, but..."

He suddenly raised his head to look at Ling Yun: "What exactly did you stimulate her for? I told you not to stimulate her, now it's all over, it's a waste of time, this body will return to before liberation!"

Ling Yun was confused: "I didn't stimulate her."

Dr. Shan added: "What happened at the birthday party? Did she meet her former rival in love or met her old rival in business? But she doesn't remember it. What's so exciting about it..."

Doctor Shan muttered, and then said, "Okay, think about it slowly. People will come out later, I'll go over there first to see if it's packed."

Once Doctor Shan left, there were only two people left.

An Fan said at this moment: "It's because of me, I told her about the past."

"But I didn't know she would be like this..." If she had known, she would not have spoken tonight.

"My aunt was in a coma for a while after the car accident. The doctor told her not to be stimulated, mainly because she was afraid of going into a coma again, and the situation would be very bad."

Ling Yun's simple statement overwhelmed An Fan. She covered her face with her hands and muttered, "I'm sorry I didn't know..."

"I don't blame you..." Ling Yun patted her on the back lightly: "No one blames you. This is all an accident, aunt will be fine."

Ling Ran was pushed out at this time, Ling Yun and An Fan followed, the corridor turned to the ward, and they faced each other silently in the suite outside the ward.

Ling Yun suddenly asked: "Why are you talking about the past? Sister An, have you let go of the past?"

An Fan was puzzled by the question, Ling Yun explained: "I thought you had to let go of the past before you could talk to my aunt."

An Fan didn't make a sound, maybe she talked too much at night, she doesn't want to speak much now, and she doesn't want to answer.

Many clips flashed in her mind like a movie, but she couldn't capture a single frame, and the pictures were blank, and she didn't even know what she was thinking.

Ling Yun said: "Maybe it sounds like a moral kidnapping, but I still want to say, Auntie likes you very much, can you spend as much time with her as possible in the future?"

An Fan really didn't want to speak. She felt very tired now, but she still asked, "Did Ling Ran tell you what happened when she was studying abroad?"

Ling Yun shook her head, she hadn't heard of it, and she didn't know why she brought it up at this moment.

An Fan said: "At that time, there was a girl who liked Ling Ran very much and stalked her so badly that she was in an abnormal state. Even though Ling Ran kept ignoring her, she always liked her.

The girl died later in a car accident. Some people blamed Ling Ran for the car accident, but she thought so, "Her liking has nothing to do with me, and I don't need to be responsible for it." "

"To a certain extent, my views are very similar to Ling Ran..." An Fan said, "When I liked Ling Ran, she didn't like me, and I didn't think there was anything wrong with her. It wasn't her fault that she didn't like me." , I’m not wrong to like her, it’s just a coincidence.”

"Unfortunately, it's now. She lost her memory in a car accident. She likes me, but I don't like her. Do you think I, or her, or your point of view, should be responsible for this?"

Ling Yun hurriedly defended: "No, no, sister, I definitely don't mean to ask you to be responsible for this matter! I just want you and aunt to be together..."

An Fan interrupted her: "But you did that. How many times have you considered my feelings for the things that have happened since she lost her memory?"

"You guys." An Fan added another person.

Ling Yun was silent and mournful: "I know what I did was wrong, but please don't blame my aunt. She has lost her memory, and she only remembers you. She only likes you.

She doesn't understand a lot of things. If she likes you, she doesn't consciously want to cling to you. Only by clinging to you will she be comfortable and she will have a sense of security. She has no malicious intentions. "

"How good amnesia is, it can be used as an excuse." An Fan smiled wryly: "If I told Ling Ran that I was pierced by the soul of my dead sister, and that I was her soul inside, would she treat me better as a substitute? "

Ling Yun was dumbfounded, unable to speak any more.

The atmosphere was tense, and Anfan didn't want to make a fuss like this. She felt that she was really crazy tonight, took a deep breath, and said, "I didn't mean to target you, I was just talking about these recent things. Ling Ran lost his memory in a car accident, maybe you have So a little bit of thinking that there is my reason, and I am indeed making up for it. I will do my best to satisfy many of your demands, whether reasonable or unreasonable. I think I have done enough, but why do you Can you still ask me to be with Ling Ran?"

Ling Yun pursed her lips, the tips of her ears were already red, and her complexion was even redder, as if she was ashamed.

An Fan's heart softened: "Take a step back, if one day, I will only be with Ling Ran again because I like her, not because these random things are forced on me to make me do what I should do."

Ling Yun nodded: "I see."

If one party does not speak, the fire will be turned off, followed by silence.

An Fan endured it for a long time, and finally said again: "Obviously you have been embarrassing me, why is it that I am bullying you now?"

Ling Yun regained his energy and denied it: "No, no, absolutely not! I was not bullied!"

"Then you have such an expression?" An Fan said.

Ling Yun couldn't say she was ashamed, so he held back for a long time and said: "I'm worried about my aunt..."

An Fan sighed, frowned, and said, "I'm worried too." After all, she was really angry this time.

The author has something to say: just now, in a blink of an eye, I saw the name as a substitute and resigned. I am quite happy