Leap past the confused days of life

On rest days, I am too lazy to clean up the room. The messy items in the house are piled up randomly. I will clean up the sundries if I can’t stand it. After a long time of doing this, the owner of the house is lazy and unorganized. impression.

In fact, I know that the habits formed by a person are difficult to change. In my self-awareness, I am not willing to do the housework of cleaning the room. It is not that I am afraid of suffering, or lazy, but that I am unwilling to waste time on things that do not have much meaning. In this kind of housework labor, I think that the house is used to provide myself with a place to live, and I can live as I wish, but it is not for people to visit, and there is no need to clean up too clean.

Of course, due to the limitation of living conditions, the small living room looks messy, because there are no separate rooms for storing various types of daily sundries, such as the reception room, study room, dining room, and cloakroom for sorting items. .In addition, I think that in the living room, placing some small objects irregularly will give people a warm and romantic sense of life, especially the books and manuscript paper, stationery, daily necessities, etc., which are easy to use. .

I often do things that are disconnected from real life, living in vain, not flexible at all, short-sighted, unambitious and stubborn, immersed in self-consciousness, indifferent to things around me, and never talk much , completely immersed in the unrewarded self-struggle, unknown and unable to extricate himself to the point of ignorance of human fireworks.

I still spend my spare time on writing, and my unremitting efforts have not made my mind smart. My understanding of literature is still superficial, and I cannot enter into a deeper artistic conception.In the writing, the understanding of the visualization of things is not enough, the expression is chaotic, and the logical thinking is not clear enough. How to solve these problems depends entirely on the thinking.

That is to say, there is no problem with the individual's thinking ability, but because of the mistakes made in self-effort and cognition, especially the cognition of external things is not deep enough, can not understand in detail, and does not realize the connotation of the problem But it was only after seeing the surface that he made such a logical thinking mistake.

The same is true for my personal preferences. I can’t fully understand the essence of the love of flowers, birds, fish and insects, the romance and passion of writing, so it’s hard to improve myself. This is completely because I don’t know enough about things other than myself. Deep, lack of the habit of in-depth and meticulous research, which is related to the usual closed and conservative way of life, lack of careful observation of the surrounding things, lack of modesty and prudence to learn from others' strengths, although there is a strong desire to write, naturally If you can't capture the ever-changing materials, you won't be able to write creative and creative articles.

I know that I am not a genius, but I want to become a talent through my own efforts, and I am constantly struggling. However, things have changed for many years. Although the time spent on basic necessities of life and grooming my appearance is spent on reading and writing hard, I stick to the rules and learn literary creation. , is also always keeping promises, humble and eager to learn, but it is also difficult to become a talent.

At this time, the rain hit the object outside the window and made a ticking sound. The noise was so annoying that I had to look up with obsessive eyes. The endless rain line outside the glass window came into my eyes. I thought calmly Hey, let the troubles go away with the sound of the rain.

When I woke up in the morning, those shadows could not be resolved, and my wife's unpleasant nagging made me unable to resolve the loneliness and loneliness in my inner world, and I fell into numbness.Time flies, what is owed to his wife is really irreparable, life cannot be repeated, time is not forgiving, so life and reality remain the same, nothing has changed, it is still the same day, no door to enter, continue Putting a pen at the desk to meditate, decades of bad habits have not changed in the slightest. Smoking, making strong tea, and writing at the desk.

I got up before dawn, and I had already filled the paper with dense handwriting. I don’t care about 21, [-], only in this way can I feel happy.A single writing will also wear down one's will. Working hard like this not only wastes precious time and energy, but also delays being a human being and doing serious business.

Time has quickly entered into a beautiful season, and it is completely possible to indulge your feelings to appreciate the joy of life. Why do you have to carry the shell of self-consciousness like this?How stupid it is to always be bound by trivial housework and desk writing, and not have time to enjoy the beauty of the seasons.

The work in Mei's unit is labor-intensive. When I get home every day, I am exhausted and fall asleep. I don't have the time and energy to clean up the room.

Once Mei became a little more energetic, she would complain about my attitude towards life, saying that I was not organized, and that I couldn't even clean myself up, so there was nothing I could do.What my wife said was right. In fact, it was a spur to me. Although the nagging was endless, the reason for the nagging was that I couldn't help Mei transfer work.

At that time, money was omnipotent, and if you were willing to spend money, you could get things done, and the working class could still turn into cadres.At that time, colleagues in Mei’s unit spent money to transfer to work in the financial sector. Not only were they able to do their jobs as usual, but they also worked in a pleasant and comfortable way. Their wages were several times higher than those of workers.

During the period when I was able to spend money to transfer work, I did not try to find someone to help me. It is my lifelong regret that I did not find someone to handle this matter. Over time, it became a heart disease that weighed on my heart. , This made me regret it for the rest of my life, so I naturally felt sorry for Mei.

At that time, the monthly salary was tens of yuan. To be honest, I didn’t have so much money on hand. I was not rich, but how could others be willing to spend money on it? These people knew how to organize, but I was not flexible at all. There is no difference in income between high and low, but the division of revolutionary work is different. It does not take into account the huge gap in wages in the future. People are divided into ranks and ranks.Equal rights is just a joke.

Later, the disparity between people is simply worlds apart. If you have a long-sighted and can predict the future, there is such a big disparity, and you have to bribe the person in charge. Now I regret it, so I have to silently endure the dissatisfaction of my wife. Nagging and low-income life, you deserve the fucking scolding, you blame yourself, and who do you blame for your ears?