Leap past the confused days of life

The unbearable sweltering weather, the condensed fog will not disperse for a while, the heat wave is rolling in, the stuffy people are dizzy, sweaty, one body after another is sweating, the clothes are tightly attached to the skin, I had to use my fingers to tear off the wet and airtight shirt that was sticking to the skin. While shaking my body, let the cool wind blow, I wanted to breathe, but the shirt stuck to the skin was annoying and I couldn't take it off.

Recently, I can't evenly allocate my time. I don't even have time to read newspapers and magazines. I'm completely immersed in the horns of my ideology. On the ecstasy of the desk, it seems that irresistible spiritual power has been injected into the mind.

But I also have spare time, make a cup of strong tea, take a sip, and then fall into meditation, thinking wholeheartedly whether human beings can tap their ultimate potential, so that you can enjoy the happy mood of challenging the limit , to experience a great feast of emotions.

But in my current opinion, success and failure are predestined. How can flesh and blood challenge those impossible limits? When I was young, I was impulsive and didn't understand things at all. If you work hard, you will not succeed in challenging the limit, especially if you want to achieve something, it will not be so easy and easy to succeed.

With such thoughts, these pessimistic thoughts made me very upset and depressed, because my brain could not carry out continuous thinking like normal people when thinking, and I was born with a lack of coherent thinking. Thinking about problems intermittently, the same is true for writing.However, writing can be constantly modified. No matter what, I am still excited to express my feelings about things, which ignites my confidence in pursuit.

"Idiot, what a fool." Mei repeatedly babbled angrily, venting her inner resentment and hatred. I heard people say that women behave in menopause. "I can't do anything well by myself, and I don't look at what others are doing, and then look at what you have done? I have long said that I want to buy a house, and I said it earlier than others. I should have said it ten years ago. Yes, but I don’t see you taking action, and I don’t know what you think, you lie on the desk all day writing, studying, and you didn’t even get a diploma, someone else’s postdoctoral fellow would have graduated long ago, but you still can’t do shit.”

Mei became more and more disgusted with me doing this futile thing, and then said: "I don't care about anything all day long, I only know how to write randomly at my desk, can I eat it?" I was speechless, so I had to ignore Mei. up.

I put on an accomplished image, and I seem to have a well-mannered posture and dignity. I don't want to hurt the relationship between husband and wife because of this trivial matter. I know that once there is a crack in emotion, it is difficult to heal, so I finally It is best not to have such innocuous rifts in the relationship between husband and wife that the small loses the big, and try to get along with the wife as much as possible, and even compromise with her.

At this time, it reminded me of Tolstoy, a great writer in the former Soviet Union, who suffered from schizophrenia after being tortured by his wife’s nagging.

No matter a man or a woman, once they start nagging, they will destroy each other's spirit. Listen to their words and watch their actions. If the wife loses her temper and quickly calms down, this is not a rational behavior. If it is endless, it is really Don't know how to end it.

When girls are young, most of the women will show the beauty of being quiet, virtuous, elegant, and small birds, warm and romantic, full of youthful vitality, so lovely.After going through marriage, becoming a woman, giving birth to a child, taking up the burden of the family, and becoming a full-fledged mother-in-law, she will be restless and even lose her peace in anger.

This is of course directly related to the beauty of the past. Women begin to worry about their aging appearance, and it is difficult to accept the psychology of being watched for a while, especially if they cannot be paid attention to by free and easy men. Vent the unbalanced feeling in the heart, and find the comfort of venting the anger in my heart, nagging.

I showed self-restraint and strong restraint, pretending to listen to my wife's confiding, and let her talk about the bitterness in my heart. However, sometimes I couldn't bear it and got angry, and at most there were quarrels.Needless to say, everyone has a dual personality, and people who are hardworking and kind can still make mistakes of being lazy and lying.

I'm so lazy that I don't eat breakfast, it's really hopeless, and I'm also infected with the bad habits of smoking, drinking strong tea, and overeating, causing gastrointestinal discomfort, all of which are self-inflicted, and I am like this a guy.

As time goes by, I try to overcome these bad habits, but I lack self-control, lack of self-reflection, and lack of tenacity. As a result, after trying to quit smoking, not only did I not succeed in quitting smoking, the result became worse. The point of three packs of cigarettes is simply hopeless, and nicotine can't relieve anything, and vice versa accelerates the slow suicide of the self.

Long-term bad behavior caused me to appear in a trance, the symptoms of obvious decline in memory, phantom-like thinking of something and immediately forgetting, and I am often in an unconscious state. This is caused by the misunderstanding and bad habits in my life The mind is in a trance, and the physical fitness will become worse and worse. In the hot season, the physical strength is exhausted, and the overwork is dizzy.

My energy is not as good as before. I want to rest for a while, lie down on my back, relax and stretch my limbs, and when I feel comfortable and happy in my whole body and mind, I pick up another book and open a page for a long time, but I can’t understand anything. It was a blur, and I couldn't read what was written in my head at all, so I had to throw away the book.Looking out of the window, through the glass window, I saw the blue sky, and then I had a stupid dream of compassion and detachment.

The very convincing successful person stands on the podium and talks eloquently: "Young people should be lively and full of vitality, build self-confidence and strong willpower, and only by persevering will they gain." Tell young people their successful experience in entrepreneurship, let young people Open up the market according to your wishes, and you can achieve a career.

The college students gathered in the audience are eager to start a business and do a vigorous career. They all swear that they have an extremely precious wealth, which is youth.

The young people who were instructed were greatly encouraged and felt the passion and ease of starting a business, but they forgot the reality that the success rate of starting a business is extremely low. There are only a few success rates. Most people end up as ordinary wage earners. It is also incomprehensible to talk about the success of entrepreneurship. In fact, just like stock trading, most of them are losers.

However, decades of writing experience tell me that it is difficult to achieve the level required for literary creation. Of course, I don’t know whether I lack passion or life experience. It seems that it is difficult to improve my writing ability.If you have no experience in writing, it is still not enough to write about the accumulation of language and emotion in which heaven, earth, and people are one.

I was young too, and I have been groping until today that I have been beaten to the bone and become old-fashioned, but he still insists on himself day and night, is there any possibility that writing will come to fruition?He didn't know, but he was no longer as excitable as a young man.

I am used to smoking and drinking tea before writing, and then I pick up the pen and write frantically on the manuscript paper. I can’t write successfully, but I can forget the troubles of life while writing. Writing can make the brain concentrate on thinking, and it can prolong life. effect.

In the dead of night, the sound of moving footsteps and moving tables, chairs and benches in the building can often be heard, and occasionally the rapid panting of human beings can be heard.Such a sound made people unable to concentrate and distracted, and everything returned to silence after a while.The lamp on the table is dazzling in the dark night, and I seem to have become a night traveler, letting my thoughts fly and gallop in the quiet night.

In order to make ends meet, you have to do those annoying jobs. Of course, work is the right way in the world. How can you survive without work?It is unimaginable that people who are tied hand and foot are happy even though they start a family and take on responsibilities.

Although a single-minded writer can become a creator, because doing many things requires a rigorous style of work. You must not be half-hearted and careless. You must put yourself in a desperate situation and embarrassment to sharpen yourself, so that your imagination can be more colorful. .

The ancient king's practice of restricting the age of marriage for the sake of the country's prosperity seems a bit unreasonable, but it is not the case. Ordinary people are full of food all day long and have no intentions. , Only at this time did I understand that such a cruel and inhumane approach is correct.