Leap past the confused days of life

I was born in an ordinary employee's family. In that era of relative lack of material, I was congenitally malnourished when I was born, and even developed some kind of deficiency disease. Fortunately, I was the first child, otherwise I would have been thrown away Dangerousness, the heavens will not destroy me later, and let me return to a normal person.

At the age of school, my parents, like most other people, don’t know how to invest in my intelligence. Many children lack basic education, and drop out of school naturally results in many people with low IQ and weak cultural foundation. I am one of them. One, they have not mastered the knowledge that should be mastered by that age group, and are basically half illiterate.

When I grew up, especially when I entered the society and got a job, I felt that I should study and study, and I couldn’t be looked down upon by others. I was unconvinced and thought that since God created human beings and gave them consciousness, they should not give up on themselves. , Hastily giving up on being a cultured, knowledgeable and noble person.

So I thought, to be self-improving, with perseverance, you must master the skills of writing, you must dabble in a lot of knowledge, which of course needs to stand the test of time, and you must insist on reading and writing exercises every day. After I have made up my mind, when there is no subject to write about, I will write about my own psychology and human nature. Even if I write about people and things that are lewd and immoral, I must persist in achieving the purpose of embellishing the pen for a long time.After I secretly made up my mind, there has never been a break. People must persevere and work hard.

The protagonist of the foreign film "The Painter" has been practicing painting skills since he was a child, with superb painting skills, and became a master of Chinese painting admired by the people of this country at that time.The painter pursued innovative techniques, and painted the scenes seen by the people one by one. The new painting method created by Caifeng contained scenes of sexual harassment.

The painter's curiosity prompted her to sneak to the brothel to capture the unsightly scenes, and use a brush to describe these novel sex scenes she witnessed. Naturally, realistic paintings are not elegant, but the artist himself is quite accomplished Most people think that such paintings are unhealthy and suspected of instigating and endangering young people, so they regard her as a demagogic and vicious woman and are cast aside by the upper class in society.

But the painter thinks that these high-ranking officials and dignitaries in the upper class of society who live a life of luxury and corruption, their after-dinner life is such a bohemian pastime, and they are afraid of being accused by others when they do it themselves. It's just a scene.The painter thinks he is expressing the painting style of critical realism.

Back to reality, I have practiced writing at my desk for many years, and my back is a little hunched, and it has become more curved with age, but I have persisted, and it is really not easy.Lyrically reading and writing some trivial chores, but also achieved the purpose of embellishing the pen, but I also feel very comfortable.

No matter how strong and unyielding a person's inner world is, a strong heart will reveal a fragile and empty side. Recently, my inner world has become so fragile that it is about to collapse, and it is about to be suffocated by life. At this time, I Looking up at the flickering lights under the night, sad and melancholy emotions penetrated my heart involuntarily.

Mei's complaints stimulated my nerves, and I tossed and turned on the bed in a displeased mood, unable to fall asleep. The lights outside the window were extinguished one by one in the dead of night, and I still didn't feel sleepy at all. completely chased away.

My thoughts were broken, and I was thinking wildly. After a while, I turned to a classic line that the friendship between gentlemen is as light as water. I don’t know how big the difference is between a gentleman and a villain. In the circle, you meet gentlemen who are friends of gentlemen, but often people are friends with equal interests, and there are very few people who are not for interests.After thinking about it like this, the drowsiness finally came, and he also fell asleep drowsily.

When I wake up in the morning, my head is a little numb, my eyes are dry, and I feel exhausted. In fact, I have enough sleep time. How can I still feel so sleepy? Due to the hot weather and the pressure of failing to do anything, I have The mentality of being unable to cheer up is out of balance, but he is unwilling to be lonely caused by failure, and he is unwilling to be laughed at by others.

I closed myself up and continued to practice writing crazily. I have more haste than I want. Every time I write, I hope to be able to write with ease and write wonderful pens and wonderful finishing touches. However, it is difficult to have shining verses and wonderful paragraphs. This may be because the kung fu is not deep enough.

Although I insist on writing and active thinking every day, I spend my time in the monotonous, closed and boring loneliness. I feel impetuous and can't calm down.

Everyone has hobbies. The literary hobbies I cultivated from a young age are certainly a good start, but they also cultivated my delicate psychology of sentimentality.Using my rich feelings, I want to write about human nature, but I can't understand that feeling, but I believe in myself, as long as I stick to it, there will be gains. unwavering efforts in the direction.

If you gain something in life, you will lose something. This principle is very simple. I spend my time dealing with books and making friends with books and pure spirits. I wandered with these people who have unique views on things and wrote chapters, so I understand these useful things. The inner world of a person who thinks is not a villain who seeks to socialize with others and only seeks profit, but a noble person.It will lose the time opportunity to meet real friends, so there are very few real friends.

What Mei said is right, you haven't even made a reliable friend, what a sad thing, you hide in castles in the air all day long, dreaming of a simple life, no one wants to be with people like you, in real life Not having a bosom friend makes me fall into loneliness, which seems to make me accustomed to it.

Don't you really want to have a bosom friend you can talk to?Mei can't understand me why I didn't make such a friend, I just feel sorry for my husband, but for me, I live in my own consciousness, and I feel fulfilled and peaceful, and I have my own dreams and pursuits, so I don't feel How lonely.

The topic is far away again, back to the main topic, holding the pen in hand for a while, pausing for a while, can't help but write the vocabulary that comes to mind, the writing is smooth and handy, and I have to fill several pages of manuscript paper every day.The handwriting is crooked, but it penetrates the back of the paper. The foundation of strong and powerful writing comes from the sharpening of dripping water and stone, and now I appreciate myself.

I like anecdotes and anecdotes. I recently read an article about the Spanish government’s ban on young people having sex on the beach in broad daylight, which sparked protests among young people. The beach has become a place for sex, in the public, listening to the sound of the waves, romantic sex games.

The third son of Kim Jong-il, the descendant of Kim Il-sung on the Korean peninsula, will become the highest and youngest heir to the leadership of North Korea in 2012, the leader of this centralized state, with absolute power.Facing the issue of sanctions against powerful US nuclear weapons, they have not shown any cowardice or timidity at all, and vice versa, they have a very tough attitude. It is the image of a tough guy, so the Americans have not dared to risk the world's dissatisfaction by attacking their island countries. .

The world economy has not fully recovered. The US economy seems to have bottomed out. This country is very smart. No matter what the international situation is, it will have a relatively independent operating system, and even affect the entire world economy. The US is ahead of other countries The economy began to improve, and after a foreign war, the domestic economy quickly recovered.

China's trillion yuan economic stimulus plan has been implemented, the economy has entered the right track, and the pace of economic infrastructure construction has been accelerated. Large-scale and rough economic construction has restored the real economy.

I was shirtless, wearing pants and squatting on an old stool, which creaked from time to time. There was a crack on the bench, and if I was not careful, I would be pinched, and my skin would be extremely painful, so I had to deal with it carefully. Willing to replace this stool I made with my dad.

Squatting on the bench made with my father is very exciting, often moving and twisting, it is difficult to control the thoughts of passionate outbursts, as the thoughts are active and emotional, I lie down and write crazily.

Mei saw my writing posture, always nagging on the same topic, which made me feel bored and uncomfortable. Patience has a limit, and I would also lose my temper. I responded with a few words: just do nothing, why work so hard every day , it's better to play mahjong with those people all day long and have fun, and occasionally say a few such angry words.

In fact, Mei is not completely opposed to what I do. It’s just that some men who hate iron and steel and feel sorry for themselves have put in so many years of hard work and have not paid off.

I jokingly said: "Gong will come naturally."