Leap past the confused days of life

I once had a glimmer of hope and waited patiently for a turnaround in my life. However, before the fire of hope was ignited, it was extinguished by fake compassionate and warm-hearted people. So I knew it clearly, but I couldn’t do anything about it. The journey of life was just like this. It was completely shattered, and I was in a terrible mood. I really couldn't break free from the shackles alone. The feeling of loss for a while made me numb, I couldn't find the direction of life, and I didn't have the energy to do anything, as if the sky was falling.

I have come to the point where I am today, of course, this has something to do with my consistent performance, because I can't keep up with the times and play tricks and tricks, I can't engage in conspiracies and tricks, I can't draw inferences from one example, spend my days and nights with people, I can't flirt with others, let alone dare Doing a desolate city, wanting to break the wine into the army, and making money for horses in the world is difficult, and only today is the path of life that is sad and desolate.

In the short decades of life, if you don’t do your homework well in dealing with people, you will naturally fail. If you patronize and pursue idealistic literature and art, you will have no time to take into account the importance of interpersonal relationships. There is no reason not to regret life, but life It is impossible to start all over again, so I can only struggle and breathe in the absurd and hopeless failure.

Of course, I still don't know the reason, but I encountered such a failure, which directly affected my emotions, disrupted my life, and lost my previous mental outlook, but I didn't want to find out the reason for the failure. I, who have lost the meaning, want to recover from the failure as soon as possible, and start a new journey with empathy.

At this time, my wife resented even more unscrupulously. The angry words disturbed my mind and caused me a bad psychological burden. I lost the quality of life, felt tired, had no good food, tasteless food, lack of sleep, and couldn’t do anything. Concentrate, and if you don't pay attention, your mind will wander off, you can't lift your spirits, and you will be depressed and sabotage your work.

I want to get rid of the shadow in my heart as soon as possible. Although I have no ability to change my own destiny, I have no choice but to stop thinking about it and accept reality on a down-to-earth basis. Don't waste your feelings. No one will buy your account. It is best to hide in a corner and let the soul and thoughts Breed the future.

Since I chose to devote my whole life to literature, I often fall into the dilemma of life. The illusory life in the virtual world and the cruel reality confuse me, my thoughts are imprisoned, and I can only stay in the memories of the past.And unwilling to accept the baptism of new things, unable to integrate into the group, and let myself create loneliness. At that time, I swore to God that I would use my whole life to make a career. I used to talk about it, but now I know it is self-destructive. lifetime.

Often most people can adapt to the environment and the arrangement of fate, and cannot achieve the goal of life they pursue, but only a few people can persistently pursue their goals in life and keep working hard. Yes, work is just Hukou's Means are not the whole of life. Give yourself a clear position, and you will not give up halfway due to various reasons.

I belong to the kind of person who is never satisfied, who is not satisfied with the status quo, and who often feels pain because of the bad situation in reality.A stubborn person who thinks that he thinks that his views are correct, but he will not know who he is when he gets hit directly.

Time flies like an arrow in the road of life, from going to school, to determination, to continuous struggle, the final result is the vanity of human beings at work, and the benefits are temporary, no matter what you do, it is just for a better life, so look at those in life Workers, businessmen, scholars, and free people are contented and happy. They put their work and karma at the top of their list, and living a fulfilling life is really a great happiness.

There are few people in the world like me who regard hobbies as careers, work hard, work hard, exhaust themselves, have a sad face, and give people the painful impression of being tortured. They are overworked every day and have no energy to deal with others. Dress your own life and days that are deaf and dumb.

When I was depressed, I went shopping and took a walk to relieve my worries. I saw that under the street lights, there were colorful books of different thicknesses on the floor stalls covered with a layer of plastic film, attracting attention to pass the time.

Anyone passing by will take a peek, booksellers are great, realize that the book market can still be profitable, make a big fuss about the appearance of the book, do their best to decorate it as beautifully and beautifully as possible to attract people, and put the fascinating picture In front of people's eyes, each book has its ingenious composition, which fully demonstrates the talent of the designer.

I want to observe whether the men, women, and children who stay in front of the book stalls can tell the occupation or education level of these people through their clothes.However, I waited for a long time but did not see a book buyer appearing in front of the bookstall. There was no such real-life picture for me to judge. After a long time, a stupid guy appeared in a dirty short-sleeved white The man in the shirt picked up a thick book from the cardboard box at the bookstall, and opened the title page to ask the boss for the price. I judged that this person must be a person from the lowest class of society, so he would study and struggle.Yes, in life, few people who have a job go to study, and no one is willing to buy books.

The book seller is a young, middle-aged, short man, whose body has begun to become fat into a cylinder. He wears a dark-colored T-shirt with a check on his upper body, and a pair of black trousers on his lower body. Book flippers, I'm afraid someone will steal it.

The man in a white shirt who looked like a part-time job asked the boss, "How much is it?" and shook the thick book in his hand. "10 yuan." The migrant worker shook his head.Then he shouted: "8 yuan", bargaining, it is not easy to sell a book now, and finally after the boss made a profit, he sold a pirated book for 8 yuan.

I walked around the bookstall, browsing the titles, and my eyes fell on a book about how psychology communicates with children.I squatted down and picked up the book, opened the title page, and quickly browsed. The thrilling words jumped out of the paper. Introverted children are prone to paranoid, dependent, selfish, self-willed, etc., and the words of obstacles in my heart made me creepy. I lacked closeness and communication with my son. There was very little time, and a painful feeling came to my heart.

I dropped the book and returned home bored, my heart was empty, and the sense of loss was still tormenting me.

Home is a place to eat, rest and sleep. The windows are bright and clean, happy and warm. Whether there are valuables or not is not particularly important for the style and luxury of the decoration. Besides, I am too lazy to clean up. The walls are smoky, and the piled items are also messy. Items that have never been moved, or even never used, are covered in dust.

Life often makes me feel helpless and downcast, so I can only accept my fate.Because the mentality of not getting anything after working hard is not a taste. Disappointment, pain, and melancholy have devastated the spirit and felt the confusion of life.

Thinking about this kind of life, I have come to such a point that it is irreversible, and I have no sacrifices and no rewards in interpersonal relationships. Only then do I feel the loneliness of life, and I drink the bitter wine I brew by myself.At the beginning, I naively thought that if I devote myself wholeheartedly to the pursuit of literature, I can still survive without relying on relationships. Now I understand that I have made a big mistake, how can I realize my value through self-struggle Woolen cloth?Everything is wishful thinking.

In real life, there is no human relationship, it is difficult to do things, and it is still prevailing. I always leave myself a way out when I am smart, but I never want to leave a way out for myself when I am confused. I just want to do things that interest me. As a result, I am at a loss. Overwhelmed miserable life situation.

Affected by emotions, I was extremely sad, sitting on a stool curled up into a ball, shivering involuntarily as if I had malaria, my body slid down, and every mistake caused eternal hatred, I tried my best to control my body and emotions and lay down .