Leap past the confused days of life

My head is empty, I can't think of anything, I am completely lost in the confusion of my life, and I catch up with the gray weather, I can't help but feel melancholy, I am even more confused for a while, and I can't see the hope of life in the future , There is no passion and desire for life, but in desperation, there is only suffering and waiting.

I don't care about other people's affairs at all, I only care about what happens to me, and I also don't get care and help from others. When I encounter problems, I have to let nature take its course and solve any problems by myself. I have self-knowledge about this.

With the continuous rainy weather, there was a sudden cooling in the north, and the temperature quickly dropped below zero. At this time, the northern country will enter the cold winter again, the season of thousands of miles of ice and thousands of miles of snow.

The morning wind carried a bit of biting coldness, attacking the pedestrians on the street wrapped in tight clothes, and the passers-by looked very funny when they were avoiding the cold wind.

The weather is also unpredictable. The originally blue sky suddenly became windy and cloudy. After a while, the clouds and mists were blown away by the wind, and the clouds disappeared. , the sky is extremely cold, the colder it is, the more wind-blown the blue sky is.

The driver honked the car horn, the harsh sound was full of anger, and used it to disperse the hurried passers-by. In broad daylight, arrogantly shouting at passers-by was undoubtedly a provocation to human nature, but the driver's behavior was counterproductive. Facing the loudspeaker, passers-by not only did their part, but pretended not to hear them at all, and even resisted deliberately. The irritated pedestrians walked more slowly and resisted silently, making the cars line up in a long steel queue.

Opening to the outside world, the concept of human nature was introduced. People spread it to ten and ten to hundreds, and learned the new humanized concept of foreigners driving to give way to pedestrians, while the concept of Chinese people is just the opposite, that is, people give way to motor vehicles.The traffic police mediate the congestion at the intersection according to their duties, blocking the passing pedestrians and giving way to the cars, one after another passing by in front of the eyes of passers-by.

I observed this very interesting phenomenon, which shows that people's concepts are completely caused by the behavior of law enforcement officers under the guidance of the government. The flow of people is blocked, and more and more passers-by gather in groups after a while, and the traffic police again. Blocking cars and allowing pedestrians to quickly pass through the intersection, as a bystander, I felt a certain thought of the ancients: unimpeded water flow is beneficial to the country and the people, and the hidden dangers of blocked waterways are endless. From this, I got a lot of emotion. I realized that the image of people flowing is like water.

At this intersection, I also realized that the quality of the crowd needs to be improved, including myself. While thinking about how to awaken the concept of human order and observe discipline, while observing the expressions of tall, short, fat, thin, handsome and ugly men and women among the passers-by. While thinking about something.

Passers-by are tightly wrapped in heavy cold-proof cotton-padded clothes. In the crowd, you can still see morning exercisers with bare heads and thin clothes, exercising their willpower. Vigorous and powerful.

Standing in front of these exercisers, I feel ashamed of myself. Like the old, weak, sick and disabled, I have lost the vigor of the young, the strength of the middle-aged, and the dignity of the old.A tired and sickly look, panting when walking, how can a person be so exhausted physically and mentally, what happened to this, I asked myself in my heart, I have no vitality at all, as if the life is precarious, the misery of being exploited by the years is unspeakable and mentally exhausted , I don’t know how to take care of my body and mind.

Recently, I have insisted on continuing to practice pens, and I have to write even if I can’t write. Giving up halfway will be useless. If you don't give up, you may still have the hope of success. There has been no shortcut to success since ancient times. There is only one way to go, and you must work hard to climb it.

Now I am faltering, this is the appearance of aging, I no longer have enough courage and energy to do other things, really, relying on the comprehension of characters, I still need to master the skills and knowledge of writing, so It is doomed to continue to pay the price and grit your teeth in the cocooning word game.

Although this is an unacceptable idea, it is unfair to me. My inner world is full of self-blame, and I have become a masochist. I have fallen into a deep, unable to extricate myself. After being isolated for a long time, a person hides in self-consciousness and suffers from pain.

Recalling the past, life has become so bleak, I have tasted the taste of unsatisfactory everywhere, and I still can't understand where the problem is. This kind of thinking makes me feel dull and depressed, and I feel very psychological about the future of life. Pressure, where is the problem?Is it because I can't fit in with the crowd, or is it because people just don't fit in with me?I still can't figure it out.

My obsession with books has made me fall into the predicament of dealing with people and become a nerd.However, I also benefited a lot from reading, so I never gave up this hobby.

I pick up books with small fonts and read them many times. The novel novels are easy to understand, and I can't put it down. But now I can't read a few pages, and my eyes will be blurred, but I still often insist on flipping through them.

For a long time, I have been able to enjoy leisure and leisure, and I have increased my confidence in literary creation. I realize that literature and art do not happen overnight. It takes time and energy to have such an elegant mood. Alienated, feeling autistic.

In the lines of a movie, the heroine of the movie said: I am willing to keep the festival for the one I love for the rest of my life.There is no shortage of such people in the ancient Chinese traditional concepts, and there is no lack of such moral values. Nowadays, the concept of equality between men and women has been impacted, and the concept of love is questioned, and people have selfish distractions.

My temper gradually increased day by day, and I lost my temper with my family members unreasonably, which was unpopular. For a while, I didn't know what to do.