Leap past the confused days of life

After Mei retired for a period of time, it was difficult to adjust her mentality, her face was gloomy and sullen, and she couldn't be happy at all. She was used to busy work and life, and was used to participating in group activities. Feeling confused and at a loss, she couldn't find something suitable for her to do, and didn't know how to pass the time, so Mei stayed at home lonely and gradually lost her psychological balance, and had to accept this reality.

If Mei came back from the house with a smile on her face, the whole family would suddenly be brighter, and the mood of the whole family would immediately be relieved and gratified.

But most of the time, when Mei sees me immersed in my own work, she will be upset. My concentration when doing things, and my almost indifferent expression towards my family, this makes me uncomfortable.I'm asking for trouble, I can't see the point of attack, I'm clearly trying to provoke a fire.

Putting aside a good job and life and not working hard, I sneaked into literary creation every day without doing business. This made my wife wonder why I did this, and I was so stupid that I was stubborn, which made Mei very angry.

So Mei always mocked her kindly. I know that my wife Mei didn't strongly oppose her, she didn't have any malicious intentions, she just wanted to vent her discomfort, and the best way to endure Mei's endless complaints was silence.

Why should I stubbornly stick to my literary dream? I can’t come up with anything. I have to be self-aware, but I don’t understand the purpose of doing so. Maybe this is a little spiritual pillar of life. If I don’t stick to it, I can do it. what?A person has a face, a tree has a skin, what would happen without such spiritual support?Knowing that there will be no results if you continue to do it, even if you persist for 100 years, you will not achieve results. However, the purpose is to defeat the biggest enemy yourself, to test your perseverance or to overcome cowardice.

Therefore, I often educate myself, don't care what others say, I must work hard to live out my personality, and when there is struggle, there is sacrifice.

Mei said with resentment: "Look at you squatting there like a monkey. You work so hard all day, and you can't make a bright future." At the same time, she almost said something ugly.

I couldn't refute, so I took my time and continued to do it without saying a word.I thought: monkeys are monkeys.

I'm used to Mei's rivalry, so I don't care much about it. If you don't want to be outdone, you and I will have unnecessary quarrels, intensify the conflict, and set off a family storm. Yue, in fact, this is nothing, especially for men, let nature take its course, such tolerance is a very wise choice, the result of the Cold War is necessary.

When the food was served on the table, the dull atmosphere eased, and Mei felt much more relaxed. Immediately, there was a modest atmosphere in the house, as if a ray of dawn appeared in the darkness. I, who was dumbfounded and silent, also had a smile on my face.

The child's grandmother timidly opened her mouth to eat, as if she was at a loss for reason. The modern world has changed, and filial piety is a matter of course. In the land of etiquette, the great country has quietly undergone subtle changes, which may be psychological. changes or conceptual changes.Whoever sees filial sons and daughters will feel sorry for the parents of the world. No one is willing to dedicate and serve the elderly without compensation, and the family is no longer willing to bear the obligation of supporting the elderly.

When the old man came home, I wanted to take good care of the old man and not let him work.Unexpectedly, it made things worse. The old man thought that I thought she was too old to work, and felt uncomfortable after staying here, and felt more and more awkward. In fact, I don’t hate the old man coming to the house at all. It is wrong to want the old man to live comfortably at home, because the old man's Xiao Jiujiu is afraid that she will eat for nothing.When I turned the corner, I regretted it. The old man should be asked to do more work, so that the old man will feel that she is not here to eat.

In the cold morning, the shivering cold wind is uncomfortable, the clouds in the sky are moving slowly, revealing the blue sky in the evacuation, the plants are bare like remaining specimens, and the body is trembling in the breeze.I also shivered and shivered.

The coldness of winter in the northern country is even more desolate. Walking on the cold street, I feel the melancholy and loneliness brought by the cold. In this state of mind, I walked quietly towards the place I wanted to go. My thoughts seemed to be stagnant and frozen. Thinking about it again, even the local people in this town can't adapt to the weather with sudden temperature changes, so they braved the cold and walked towards my unit.

I came to the familiar working environment and sat down quietly. For more than ten years, there has been no major change, and it remains the same.Only the seasons change, the gusts of wind come and howl, the horrible sound outside the window makes people shudder, the temperature changes greatly, everything is shivering in the cold, and it is going to cool down again.After tempering my human nature, I have a unique understanding of things, and I am immersed in the independent thinking of autistic ignorance and isolation.

As the saying goes, people without long-term considerations must have near-term worries. I was entangled in immediate interests, and my thoughts became more and more chaotic. I couldn't find the orientation and goal of life. I was doing nothing all day long and my mind was in a trance. Everyone in the world is for a profit, and people will work creatively driven by profit. However, some people are shrewd and cunning. People who rely on their mouths to eat have fulfilled what the ancients said. Being ignorant and incompetent can also become the best. Human beings themselves like superficial things.

Silent people have shortcomings in some aspects, try to stay away from occasions where you rely on your mouth to eat, don't use your own shortcomings to fight for other people's strengths, people can use their strengths to avoid weaknesses.

It’s another year in a blink of an eye, and the time flies like an arrow. The depression in my heart is caused by the greed of human nature. The endless greedy thoughts make people feel tired in life. Sometimes I really want to give up, but life is always dissatisfied with the status quo. , is the ultimate source of suffering.

What is the difference between selfishness and a despicable villain?I feel more and more selfish and distracting, I am no longer ambitious, and honestly think that the ideals and beliefs are great, but in fact they are not, it is completely nihilistic and unrealistic cranky thinking.

I will slowly come to my senses, life is like this, if I take the wrong car, it is not so easy to catch up, so I can only deal with it indifferently.

Listening to the wind outside the window, writing randomly on paper, while writing, I wondered why I did such a futile, even desperate thing. What is the point of this?Doing the same boring thing every day to pass the time, writing so many things that people can't understand, also caused me mental depression. This is all to release the depression in my chest with the pen.

I wandered in ethereal hallucinations and never acted according to normal thinking.My wife objected to what I did, and attacked me with angry words of hatred. Only then could I relieve my hatred: "I have never seen anyone who is so overworked, who has not succeeded in doing anything for decades, and still works so hard." The balanced psychology is getting sick of me.

I don't care, it seems that God is also testing my will, my wife's angry emotions are brewing and changing quietly like a storm, invisible anger is burning in my chest, forming hatred, I know it, but I don't stop the futile pursuit immediately Instead of writing, she persevered amid Mei's nagging.

I asked myself if I was self-aware, and I did.Long past the age of achievement, fooling around every day, still stubbornly insisting on doing something wrong, this is called perverting.Didn't he say that he didn't know that he was making garbage?Whose wife wants to have such a useless husband who dreams all day long and wants to be a writer? What kind of person is a writer? He is born from the heavens, and success is not achieved through hard work. Such a saint needs to be smart wit.

In fact, everyone has a successful practice of their dreams, but the probability of realizing their dreams is extremely low, so Mei is very annoyed by what I have done, and she does not want me to continue to work in vain and insist on such low-level wrong directions.

But I didn't understand Mei's good intentions, so I went to war with her, calmed down and wondered if I had gone astray or been enchanted, and was controlled by magic in the central nervous system, immersed in self-awareness, intoxicated in the wonderful sensory area What about a wrong life with spiritual and physical comfort?

But I am stubborn and stubbornly believe that as long as I leave traces on paper, it is a good spiritual enjoyment for people to record emotional changes and behaviors. It is really not easy to go deep into people's hearts and understand human nature. Things should be pursued without giving up.

Mei persuaded me to do some practical housework, such as cooking, washing dishes, and cleaning, which is better than writing alone, not to mention the use of creating so much rubbish.And I always think that I am a healthy man of flesh and blood, I should do something, and I should not be a fatuous drunkard.

But people can't have unreasonable thoughts. Doing earth-shattering careers will be asking for troubles, which will undoubtedly add mental and psychological burdens to themselves.People should be down-to-earth and do every little thing well.Don't be too ambitious.

I ignored Mei's nagging, talking is what I say, what I do is what I do, it's hard to figure out who is right, and I don't want to admit failure prematurely. To be honest, I just went to extremes and forced myself to do what I can't do. The thoughts and practices of crooked things are wrong behaviors.