rest of life 22

"Young chivalry, make friends with the five capitals. He has courage, hair grows, and in the middle of a conversation, life and death are the same." This is the sentence in He Zhu's "Six States Getou". He writes the youthful chivalry vividly and delicately. People's blood spurts, wishing to indulge wantonly and express their hearts freely.It also makes people feel a lot of sympathy, thinking of when they were young.

"I have a chivalrous heart, but I have no courage!" I sighed and said to the three people. "Huh? Have you ever fought?"

I asked.

Zhou Tao smiled, and said softly, "It seems that there was a fight, but I forgot the specific reason. I have practiced judo, and I will not lose to him for ordinary people."

Xu Qingyu said in surprise, "Oh, have you ever fought? I really underestimated you." He paused, as if recalling something. "I did too. I forgot when I was young. I beat up a kid in high school. He was too talkative and slandered people behind his back. I remember it was like making up an affair between me and a girl. Naturally, I wouldn't bear it." , was dragged into the toilet by me, and it was a good beating. After it was over, he yelled for sex, but in the end it was nothing."

"I seem to have never fought since I was a child!" I said. "At most, there are some quarrels with people, but not many." I added.I suddenly thought, "Could it be that not fighting is the way of a gentleman as Confucius said? Am I seeking benevolence and gaining benevolence? Or I can be listed as a gentleman. That's not bad."

Zhang Kai suddenly laughed, "What kind of fights are you guys? These days, who still fights alone. Fighting alone is a brat's business." So, a bloody river and lake past happened. In our sighs and sighs from time to time, in Zhang Kai's calm and soft narration, it reappears.

"No one is born willing to fight. Of course, we have to get rid of some people who are not very smart. As the saying goes, they are forced to go to Liangshan, the court persecutes them, their relatives persecute them, and the so-called brothers are persecuted in different ways. Humans, a certain amount of patience There is still strength, but there is always a limit. If it is too much, the rabbit will bite people when it is anxious, and it is not a problem to beat people when people are anxious. What's more, killing people is also possible Yes." What he said made sense and was even more persuasive.Because he counted it as a personal experience, and he is a living example.

"I was actually quite timid when I was a child, and I was considered a good kid. I was not big, and my body was not very strong. The only thing that could scare people was my eyes. It was quite scary to 'gaze'. But also It’s just useful for those who are younger than me, or family members. Fortunately, I’m not the kind of person who loves to cause trouble by nature. A low-key life can always save a lot of trouble. Therefore, elementary school came here without any danger. , did not hit anyone, nor was anyone beaten." He suddenly laughed, I think he must have remembered his childhood.

"When I entered junior high school, I began to live on campus. Without the restraint of my family, I also lost the protection of my family. I knew that I was not strong, I didn't have a lot of friends, and I didn't have much money. How could I dare to do those things?" Something out of the ordinary. There are six of us in a dormitory. We don’t get along very well with each other, but there are no major conflicts. Occasionally we will go to the Internet cafe together to play a few games! It’s like this in the first day of junior high school. Comfortable, reading and playing are not delayed. The only regret is that I didn't find a girl." When he said the last sentence, he suddenly sighed.I didn't ask in detail, but judging from his condition at the time, I can be sure that he had some charming stories with some little girl at that time!

"After the second year of junior high school, the dormitory has not changed, but the people in the dormitory have changed. Three people left and rented a house outside. Three more came in, one in the third year of junior high school and two in the first year of junior high school. There is a saying that goes well, a piece of mouse droppings ruins a pot of porridge. Our situation is probably like this." He paused for a while, as if organizing his words, thinking about how to reproduce the situation at that time through words.

He picked up the open porcelain cup on the table and took a sip of water.He continued, "It may be that when people are older and have more experience, they will consciously have the conditions to be better than other lesser ones, and will intentionally or unintentionally place themselves in the position of the superior. Of course, it is more likely that' The bad guys are getting old'. However, this old age is different from the general sense. For example, the comparison between the third grade and the first grade of junior high school is the result of the comparison. I have long forgotten the name of the third grader who moved in. But, he He is a very annoying person, so annoying that you want to knock him to the ground and beat him up." He said angrily, with some disdain and disgust on his face.I thought, what kind of person is that?It would make him think of it to this day, and he would have such a reaction.

"We act independently every day, and usually only get together when we have to go back to the dormitory at night. I remember that when he first came, he kicked the dormitory door open with his feet. We were taking a nap at that time, and all of a sudden he The rough voice elicited woke me up. However, we didn’t say anything at the time. After all, we will live together in the future, and some things can be passed along. The next day, we cleaned the dormitory thoroughly, fetching water, and cleaning the windows windows, and work together with each other. However, he just lay on the bed and played with his mobile phone, turning a blind eye to our work. What's more, he even instructed the two first-year juniors to clean up their own land and organize themselves. Moreover, it was carried out in the tone of "order" like the superiors to the inferiors. After all, the two children have just entered junior high school. Although they complained, they finally did it. Naturally, I can't see it. I'm used to it, but, as the saying goes, 'it's none of your business, just keep it on high', he hasn't yelled at me, and it hasn't affected my interests, so I can't say anything."

"After that, he asked the two first-year students to do his homework for him. If they hesitated for a moment, they would be beaten and kicked. That's all, he asked them to buy him supper every night , to buy drinks. I am a junior high school student who lives in school, and my family is not rich, let alone go out alone, the family will not give you too much money, which is just a week's food expenses. Under his pressure In the end, the two of them could only survive by eating steamed buns."

When I heard his narration, I was already filled with righteous indignation, and my face was full of disbelief.Why do people like this still exist in the world? I suddenly understood what he meant when he said "no one is born willing to fight". Thinking about it differently, if I were those two junior high school students, I would naturally have to do something special . "Then, you couldn't stand it, and then you took them to beat up that man?" I asked.

"Well, I really can't stand it anymore. And he is also gradually becoming presumptuous. He makes a lot of noise every night. Although we don't study much, it affects our lives after all. After all, I still care about the quality of my sleep. .As the saying goes, "Teachers are famous", hitting someone has to be justified. Or be brave, do something chivalrous. Or revenge, to dissipate the resentment in the heart. Or "remove the hindrance , Eliminate the influence', how can you let go of the people who affect your life. That night, I went back to the dormitory very early. Others also returned one after another. And as I expected, he was the same as usual, They are always the last to come back. So, taking advantage of this spare time, I organized a few of them and implemented a practical self-defense plan." He was suddenly a little proud, probably because he was indeed in charge at the time, and he was indeed the leader. Do what a leader can do.After all, it is still very enjoyable to have a few people who are like younger brothers who obey their own words.

"I said to them, 'The current situation is obvious to all. I think you should have some thoughts in your mind. As the saying goes, rabbits bite people when they are in a hurry. I think we need some tough methods. After they listened, as I expected, a fire was finally lit by me. That night, several of us beat the kid together, and I remember that I seemed to use a pen, I stabbed him hard on the head with the pen, very hard. Because I know that fighting is all about the hard power. Some of them are either copying the bench, or they don’t know where to find it. The broken wooden stick from here, and without any explanation, he greeted that kid overwhelmingly." He stopped talking, as if he was nostalgic, but also seemed to be introspecting. "This is the first group fight I have ever fought. Since then, I always carry a pen with me. No matter when and where, only in this way can I feel at ease. And since then, I have a deep understanding I realize that blindly giving in will not solve the problem. The so-called Dao is one foot tall, and the devil is one foot tall. Sometimes it is necessary to be a devil. After all, this is a society where all kinds of power are paramount.”

"He moved out the next day, and he left in a disheveled manner, without the arrogance he had at the beginning. And he didn't take any revenge. I think he's just an empty shell!"

It was a youthful age, and every hot-blooded teenager could not help but yearn for or admire the people in the rivers and lakes in "Young and Dangerous".What is this based on?I think this should be caused by the desire for power in everyone's heart.Or, at least the desire for power played an irreplaceable role in fueling the formation of this phenomenon.The most direct manifestation of power is domination.And the supreme domination is the domination based on worship and authority.However, in the arena of young people, the generation and division of the most important power is like this.As for the interests, it is a kind of vassal instead. "Actually, fighting is secondary, the key to enjoying is the feeling of being supported by others." He said.

I've seen a group fight that didn't start.Although it is a group fight, there are not many people. One side probably only has a van, a dozen people.I looked curiously at the small young man wearing a black windbreaker who was smoking a cigarette and came down from afar.Suddenly it occurred to me, "They are quite handsome, but just looking at his physique, I don't know if they will be knocked down in two or three blows in a fight."They gathered at the gate of our junior high school, and as a result, the students who came and went home in the evening stopped one by one, or sneaked a glance at them as they walked.But precisely because they gathered at the school gate, it turned out that the school teacher called the police, or for some other reason, these people left quickly after a while.However, just like what was said in the movie "Sunny Day", those who often participate in group fights with more people will not be able to fight, because there are too many involvements between the two parties, most of the people also know each other, each other After coordinating, the original tension died down in the communication, and some even turned hostility into friendship after a drink, and became friends with each other.This group fight that didn't get into a fight was probably the same.I often think that group fights are so different from the conflicts between individuals or a small number of people. The reason why the conflicts are getting bigger and bigger in the end is that there is no chance to communicate with each other. Taking advantage of the enthusiasm aroused by a little conflict, he ignored it until it got out of hand.It can be seen that sometimes it is better to be calm when dealing with things.

"We have an older brother. He is a member of the society. He is in his twenties and married. Speaking of him, I have to talk about his heroic achievements. It is said that one day, he drove out in a car, In the end, he was stopped by a group of 30 people before he had gone far. He was not afraid of the two fists and four hands. He picked up a gun that was placed in the back of the car, opened the car door and walked out. As a result, under his chopping, the group of people scattered and fled in all directions, and he even chased him for more than a mile with a knife in his hand. Fighting is about being ruthless, being ruthless to oneself, and being ruthless to others Regardless of the situation of life and death, there is no one who is not afraid. The one I was with, he was more in-depth, unlike me who just took advantage of it, and generally never participated in those social activities. I only met my eldest brother. Once, he didn’t talk. He also stayed at the elder brother’s house for one night, sleeping on the sofa, and the elder brother and his wife slept on the bed. As a result, the two of them had sex at night, and my buddy didn’t dare to look at it, let alone Dare to make any noise, just like this, I didn’t fall asleep all night. It’s ridiculous, but it was a ridiculous thing from the beginning to the end. My eldest brother died, and it was said that he was hacked to death by the enemy when I was in my third year of high school. , Those people also ran away, and they haven’t been caught yet.” Speaking of this, he suddenly sighed.I don't think he has any "loyalty" to that elder brother, but there are always some unspeakable hesitations.To people, to things, to that world, to this society.

"There are also girls involved. The one I remember most is a girl named Yan Yan. She is very kind, especially to me. I know she likes me. Every morning, she will bring me some breakfast. Or some snacks, our relationship is very good. She is very straightforward, and she does not have the shy feeling of a girl when she speaks. But she is long and very good-looking, and she should have the physical beauty that a girl should have. Yes. I usually call her 'big sister'. I know she has some contacts in the society, and she is unambiguous when fighting. The boys in the class dare not make fun of her at all, let alone I yelled at her, and even touched her hands and feet. I remember one day, when I came home at noon, my brother accidentally scratched the cheek. It was just the surface of the skin. I didn’t do much to deal with it. I was fine. As a result, after I went to school, Yan Yan saw the wound and said loudly to me, almost yelling, "Zhang Kai, tell me, who beat you! Tell me, I will handle it for you." !'. Her reaction was very strong. She didn't know about my "fighting". But, to tell the truth, she actually thought that I was deliberately making excuses to refuse for fear of trouble. Alas! I suddenly thought, why didn't I be with her back then, did I like her? There was no answer, everything happened after a year After going their separate ways, they disappeared naturally." He smiled wryly and took a long breath.

"What a fun girl!" I said. "What's she like? Why does she get involved in the 'fighting and killing' thing?" I thought.Of course, there is no answer.Or, she likes this life.Or, she has suffered some injuries, and this is just her way of self-protection, or, she just wants to protect the people she likes and wants to protect in this way!

"Then have you ever been beaten?" I asked with a smile.

"Well, of course I have. There is no one who doesn't get his shoes wet when he often walks by the river. But, it's only once." He seemed a little embarrassed, after all, this was a very embarrassing thing. "It was in the third year of junior high school. I was still living in the school dormitory. One night, as soon as I walked to the door, I was called over by the neighbor next door. I didn't have any conflicts with the one who called me. Big, with a kind of self-confidence that is invincible in the world, I never thought that they would attack me. As a result, when I just walked into their dormitory, the door of the dormitory was closed, and the four people inside stood up and beat me Surrounded all of a sudden. Then, he looked at me with malicious intentions, his eyes full of ridicule. When I saw it, I felt a chill in my heart, and knew that I was probably going to be punished. However, my mentality was not bad. After they started At the moment, he squatted down and hugged his head. I don’t know how many times I was punched and kicked, and I didn’t feel the pain. It’s just that the clean clothes I just changed were full of footprints, and they were so dirty that I couldn’t Wear it again. I didn't say anything, just listened to their threatening words, and then went back to the dormitory silently." When he said this, he seemed a little angry, but also seemed a little happy.Of course, having such joy does not mean that he likes to be abused, it is just because of the refreshing feeling of directly expressing the depression in his chest after "revenge and revenge". "Of course I couldn't swallow my anger. That time it was just because I was alone and was taken by others. The next day, I told my buddies about this matter, and we surrounded their dormitory alone that night. Those people were subdued one by one, and they didn't have the same aura as before. We didn't beat them all up, but beat the troublesome kid severely. First, the others had a good attitude of admitting their mistakes, and Bought us cigarettes to make amends. Both of them, I don’t want to make a big deal. Let’s just let this matter go.” He continued.

After he entered high school, he no longer participated in the affairs of the rivers and lakes.He said, "I had a few fights. Once my parents found the school, and my dad insisted on taking me to the hospital for an examination. In the end, it cost nearly a thousand dollars. Since then, I have rarely Fighting, it’s all about money in the end. After I entered high school, I got older, and I needed to devote more time to my studies, so I stopped participating in those things.”

Where there are people, there are rivers and lakes.I don't know who said this sentence, but it makes sense.And as long as there are people, all kinds of contradictions will inevitably arise, which is unavoidable.However, if someone can calm down when encountering a problem, sort out some problems clearly, consider some interests, and finally put himself in the shoes of others and think about it, then the situation will definitely be very different.Or, passion is synonymous with youth!In this case, it is normal to do some passionate things in youth.

"Do you feel bored when you think about the past now? Or, do you think it's a waste of time?" I asked.

"That's not true. Sometimes it's quite interesting when I think about it. As for wasting time, how can it be regarded as not wasting? The general answer is probably studying. But isn't studying a waste of time? People do One should learn, and must learn, which is one of the main characteristics of human beings. However, learning is not limited to books and schools. The word learning has far-reaching meanings!" He said with a smile.

I suddenly thought that everyone seems to be doing the same thing in their whole life: living for the sake of living.Birth, growth, learning while growing up, then work, passing on to the next generation, and then until death.Learning is for growth, for better work, even if it is nobler, for the country, for all mankind, but in the final analysis, it is for the word of life.Learning is for life, work is for life, and the continuation of the next generation is only for the continuation of life.Until the end of life, no life.It's like a line segment, with a head and a tail, and then goes straight down. "So, is it interesting? Does it make sense?" I had to ask myself.Or, the meaning and meaning of life lies in life itself!Then we need to be able to enjoy ourselves.If so, it is necessary to do something you like.