rest of life 22

"A nest of lovesick birds, chirping and perching in the woods. We talked about three years together, and spent a few springs looking for each other. Now we are on a stranger's road, and we haven't heard of it for years. I don't know the thousands of miles of swallows, and I live here with my heart." This is a letter I wrote to Xu Qingyu Regardless of whether the poem itself is good or bad.However, I think I roughly wrote about the things and feelings between them, after all, he admitted it himself.

He was tall and had a good build. He still had a few muscular muscles, but he wasn't violent.Just, a little erotic.Speaking of those colorful words, it is extremely inconspicuous.Moreover, he has always claimed to be a doctor in that industry, so he is well-informed and has his own set of theories!In this regard, I am not less influenced by him.Of course, some things can only be understood by heart, which is self-evident.I know, but don't say it, this is a very common attitude in life.

They were classmates in high school, and she called him brother.Presumably most girls like to have a tall, mighty, considerate boy as their elder brother.Or, "brother", a title originally based on kinship and blood, is still a breakthrough for the further development of emotions. "Why doesn't anyone call me brother!" I had to sigh to myself.

She is a very strong girl, but at the same time, she is also a little "distressed" girl.I suddenly felt that, in fact, the word strong is not very good.Because if it is emphasized that a person is strong, there are often things that have to make him strong have happened or are happening.And most of those things are not good. "Her mother passed away when she was eight years old. Her father was not very well. She lived with her grandma," Xu Qingyu said.Mencius and his elders said that everyone has a heart of compassion.Maybe he was moved with compassion at first, of course, there are many reasons for one person to be kind to another person, and it is more likely to be a combination of many reasons.

"That is to say, you treat her as your own sister, and they treat you as your love brother," Zhang Kai said with a strange expression.He can always hit the nail on the head. He is a person who is good at discovering and summarizing.

"Haha, you can say the same. Otherwise, it would be hard to explain why she suddenly became indifferent to me after I fell in love." Xu Qingyu smiled and said a little embarrassedly. "I actually guessed her thoughts about me later, but I really treated her like a younger sister at first, so I can't change my original intention all of a sudden!" He continued with a wry smile.

"Oh? Then what about your current 'love sister'? I remember that she also called you brother at first. As the saying goes, rabbits don't eat grass by the side of the nest, but you 'grass by the side of the nest' I ate more than once." I stood aside and interjected at the right time.We have all witnessed his current relationship.From the very beginning, his "sister" came all the way to visit him, and the two played and lived together for a few days.In the next few days, they confirmed their relationship, and then began a long-distance love affair that lasted for several years.We are all very clear about these general processes.

"This, in fact, is really unexpected. I remember that when Liu Xuan was in high school, it was probably because of his heavy studies, and he was in puberty, so he had a lot of pimples on his face, and on weekdays he was just trying to make up for his nutrition. How taboo, the figure looks very bloated. Based on this, I classified her as the last girl in the class. She rarely talked on weekdays. In the first few months, I didn't even know that there was such a girl in the class. Alone." He said with relish, thinking about the past and comparing it with the present, he also thinks these things are very interesting. "Although I was also fat at the time, I was tall after all, so I didn't look bad. In addition, I was able to study well. Being a sports committee member in charge of the class was generally very attractive. I know Yes, there are many people who like me." He said with a high self-esteem.However, I don't doubt his "high self-esteem". After all, if I were a girl, I couldn't help but have a good impression of him.

"That's it. When I was in high school, I had a good relationship with her, but I never thought of anything else. And in high school, I couldn't talk about romance, but I talked about serious love two or three times." He was a little nostalgic Said.

We often organize groups to travel, but in fact, I don't like traveling very much.One is because I don't know the way very well, and the other is because I don't like driving very much.Of course, there is no need to talk about practical problems such as being shy in the pocket. After all, when there is no food and clothing, few people can have the idea of ​​wanting to travel.And since it is to travel, it is natural to go to some cities that have not been to, see some scenery that has not been seen, and do some things that have not been done before.I have always believed that travel should be done with several people. Although it is not bad to travel alone, and it may have a different taste, after all, there will be more loneliness in it. If it is a sentimental person, then he will naturally It will inevitably hurt the spring and the autumn, maybe on a lonely night, I will wipe a few drops of sad tears!I'm naturally not that sentimental, but I really don't like traveling alone.I have been thinking, what is the meaning of travel?Generally speaking, it is probably to broaden your horizons, "read thousands of books, travel thousands of miles" and the like.This meaning is universal. As for other things such as showing off by taking pictures, killing leisure time, relaxing, exercising, etc., different people may have different ideas.And I, but to pursue that feeling.It was a kind of illusory thing that people could not describe in words.I rarely take pictures, but I will look carefully with my eyes.I rarely speak, but I will feel silently in my heart.I don't even care about the history of that scene at all, and I don't care about the records and descriptions of those words at all.All I care about is what is in front of me, the mountains, the water, and even the bustling tourists. "You are such a strange person!" Zhao Han said with a wry smile.That day, I took her around my school.It's just that I didn't introduce much, I don't like introductions, and I don't know how to introduce them.We rode bicycles along the not very wide road in the school, walking and watching.

Xu Qingyu does not reject traveling alone.He also travels alone occasionally, or for a day, or for two or three days.He is a person who pays attention to the quality of life.He always packs his things meticulously, and every time he goes out, he also makes a very systematic plan for the itinerary. He is an orderly person.

"I wanted to find her, but after picking up the phone several times, I still didn't know what to say!" Xu Qingyu said with a wry smile while arranging his clothes.Whether intentionally or unintentionally, he went to her city.

"This, it seems embarrassing? You guys, have you not seen each other for a long time after graduation?" I asked.

"That's right! After graduation, I haven't seen him again." Xu Qingyu said in a low voice. "Actually, she was very kind to me at the beginning, just like my sister and brother. Sometimes, she would hold my arm, lean her little head on my shoulder, move from time to time, and act like a baby. It's like Like a child." He seemed a little sad, but he started to recall.

"Then she is quite decisive! It's hard to imagine that she can change her attitude towards you all of a sudden." I sighed.

"Otherwise, what can I do? It's good for her to be like this, and she won't make any big mistakes. It's just that such a confidante is missing! It's just that sometimes I feel uncomfortable when I think about it." He looked very happy Yes, but sometimes the sudden sadness is unstoppable.Human beings are animals with complicated emotions, and it is normal to have some complicated sadness.It's not just literati who feel sad for spring and autumn, but everyone. At a certain moment, when thinking of relatives and friends, or thinking about the past, or thinking about the future, there will be some special feelings.Of course, feelings are just feelings after all, and have no major impact on reality.After all, there is still a thousand miles between thinking about a problem and solving it!

"Oh? Then according to what you say, you have a lot of confidante?" Zhang Kai interjected at the right time.In an instant, the trace of sentimentality that had just sprouted seemed to have encountered some great enemy, and it disappeared in a flash.

"Yes! By the way, what's the matter with your big and small wives? It's a monogamous system now, be careful to commit bigamy. When the time comes, the wife will not marry, and you will turn yourself in." I joked.

"Tell me about the two of them! I'm just a friend who has a very good relationship with me. They are joking on weekdays. After all, with my physique, it's easy to hug from left to right. Haha!" Xu Qingyu replied vaguely with a smile Dao, it seems to be implying something, which makes people puzzled, but inexplicably produces some charming scenes in my heart.

"It's just that both of them have boyfriends now! Although the way they talk hasn't changed much, they still have some scruples. They have less contact with each other on weekdays, and even occasionally during the year when they are on vacation. I'll see you." He continued.It seems a little uncomfortable, and it seems that this should be the case. "Damn it!" He said a curse word, but he didn't specify who he wanted to scold.I think he might want to scold the world, scolding why people always change, scolding why people grow up, scolding why people always desire to grow up when they are young, and miss them very much when they grow up. as a child.Of course, swearing is still a way to vent your inner distress, and it doesn't have to have a clear target.

"People seem to be really strange. They always like to wrestle on the spot, and they fall several times, or even fall for a lifetime before they realize that the road is unreasonable. Some people don't even realize that they are walking on the same road. The road from the beginning to the end." He suddenly sighed.

"Hey, you said that suddenly, tell me quickly, did you remember a certain confidante of yours? Could it be that there are some ulterior secrets in it? You need to dig it out!" I guessed curiously. .However, I didn't expect him to be able to speak out honestly.After all, this might still be his privacy!Everyone has privacy, and everyone's privacy should be respected.

"A confidante, be it! In fact, she is still my ex-girlfriend. However, I can't say how much I like her. It's just that I always tutored her in my spare time, and she is also quite good-looking. After being chased by her like that, I started talking about love in a daze." He said with a wry smile, without any hesitation, as if he originally wanted to share these things with us.I am naturally happy to listen to ready-made.

"I don't like it, but I'm in love? I don't understand!" I shook my head and said incomprehensibly. "That's right, what is liking? This seems to be another question. Why do I feel that I have never liked anyone since I grew up? Strange, strange!" I said to myself.

"Her name is Chen Ziqi. She is not tall, but she has an excellent figure. She is carefree on weekdays, and she speaks very straightforwardly. She is a bit rebellious, but it seems to have something to do with her family life environment. She is not very smart, a bit She looks like a single-minded person, and she doesn't think much about the consequences when she does things. Now that I think about it, I have discovered so many problems in her, it seems that I still understand her." He didn't pay any attention to my inexplicable question, he said to himself.

"She also had a boyfriend, maybe in the first year of high school. She was pregnant, and then she went to buy medicine by herself, and more than once. I had a good relationship with her at the time. At that time, I felt that she was not worth it. She was quite Lovely! After a while, they broke up. I don't know the specific reason, but it seems that the man has a new love. Alas!" He sighed and said helplessly.

"Then, we got together inexplicably not long after. In fact, we said that we were together, but we just had such a relationship with a boyfriend and girlfriend. On weekends, I will go to her home to give her a lecture , Her family is quite fond of me! That's it, until I entered university, we are far away from each other." He paused, as if he was considering whether to continue talking.

"She and her ex-boyfriend seem to be in the same school. We spent a little time on the phone and video during college, and the daily life was very monotonous and boring. Soon after, she reconnected with that ex-boyfriend. Okay man. Speaking of it, I suspect that I am suspected of being cuckolded. Of course, without a marriage relationship, it is not really a "cuckold". After all, this stage is just a process of selection and re-selection. .” He said with a wry smile.

"Oh? This is a funny story that we can make fun of you for the rest of our lives! Haha." Zhang Kai and Zhou Tao stared at him maliciously and said with a smile.

"Then are they still together now? How does it feel, she is so stupid!" I asked curiously.

"When I went home last year, I heard from friends that the two of them just got better for a while, and finally separated for some reason. As for her now, I don't know." He said as I said Materially replied. "Okay, don't mention this again, annoying! How about going to the bar for a drink later?" he suggested.

So, we ended this topic that I don't know how to describe.I found a quiet bar close to the school and had a drink.We often come to this kind of bar, listening to music, tasting the wine that has been mixed with various flavors, and talking about our own experiences, until we are slightly drunk, we take advantage of the dim streetlights and return to the school building to go.This may be one of the few quiet moments in our life!Pedestrians are scarce, and vehicles are scattered here and there. Occasionally, there are one or two small businesses with stalls on the corner of the street, taking advantage of the night, to do small business.The outside world is very quiet.The inner world is even quieter.This may be the effect of alcohol, but in fact we don't drink much alcohol.Or maybe it's because of people!When some people get together, on a quiet and peaceful night, and say something without any scheming, it is a calming thing in itself.Of course, after adding a little wine, all this will be more natural and more indulgent.

"I don't know how it will feel when I think of these things when I get old?" I suddenly thought of this question.Especially, when I am old, even when I am dead, I think of those former Yingying Yanyans, those former feasts, some people, some things.Will the last thing left be a sigh, a smile, or remorse?This seems to be a question that takes time to answer, and the answer to this question is known only to oneself.

"Hey, Tao, sing us a song!" Xu Qingyu said with a smile.

"Ah, no, I won't sing even if I'm killed!" Zhou Tao sternly refused.

"Come on, let's have a song. The song you sang to your girlfriend is pretty good! Let us listen to it too. Your babbling voice is quite exciting to listen to!" I smiled and said .

"No, I'm only singing to my girlfriend. You old men, stay wherever it's cool!" As he said that, he ran to the front of us as fast as he could.

"Hahahaha..." On the road, only a few of us were left with hearty smiles.