rest of life 22

Many things, only at a certain moment, for a certain person, feel extremely important, or extremely difficult to let go.But if this moment passes, or the original is directly replaced with another thing, then the so-called top priority becomes insignificant.Therefore, making money should be at the right time, and falling in love should also be at the right time.It's like, someone owed 100 yuan ten years ago, and he paid back the principal with interest ten years later, but the meaning of the 100 yuan has long been lost.Although, 100 yuan is still 100 yuan, or even more.It's as if, in those youthful years, I missed the girl with "smiling smiles, beautiful eyes and hopeful eyes". After many years, all this is just a faint memory and imagination after dinner or in sleep up.There are people by your side, and there are already people by her side.Maybe you once liked the other person, but compared to the love for the person next to you, all that is so insignificant.It only took a few years to go from vigorous to calm and breezy.

"You want to get married?" I stared at Zhou Tao in a very surprised tone and asked back.

"That's right! But if you don't have a wedding, get a certificate." He directly ignored my shock, and said lightly, as if he was talking about a very natural thing.

"Meet the parents? She agreed and what do you think?" I asked a lot of questions.

"Of course, if she doesn't agree, how can she get married? If her parents don't agree, how can she easily agree? You asked this question! As for what I think, how can I put it, I just don't want to play. There happened to be a People who can be with you for a lifetime, then make a decision immediately!" He was very disapproving of my question, but he still answered my question patiently.His tone has been light from the beginning to the end, making people feel that he is very determined in his heart.

"What do you think?" I asked Xu Qingyu and Zhang Kai who were sitting next to me.The two of them didn't say a word from the beginning to the end, they just listened quietly, as if they were used to such things.

"It's okay to get married, as long as you think about it, you're old! It's not illegal." Xu Qingyu said.

"We have to think about it carefully, make sure there is no problem, and both parties are willing, it's good to make an agreement early! It's a contract." Zhang Kai said. "And, these days, it's nothing to breach a contract in such a thing!" He added.

"Eh!" I took a sip of my wine, not knowing what to say. "Well, it's really nothing if you think about it. When will I get the certificate? Why don't you ask for a marriage?"

"It's the end of the year! It's just a holiday." Zhou Tao and Xu Qingyu went to graduate school, and Zhang Kai and I chose to work. "Well, I invite you to drink then! The small circle still needs to celebrate a little bit." Zhou Tao said.

"Haha, okay! When the time comes, Zhang Kai and I will come over, or you can go to our place. If you don't pour it out, you will never stop."

"Where's Qingyu? What's the matter with you?" Xu Qingyu had some emotional problems, completely unexpected problems.

"Long-distance love, if there is a comparable or better substitute, the relationship will change. Love is not very reliable, isn't it?" He said a little downcast.

"It's just that it's a pity, and it's also a little unprepared." Zhang Kai said. "After all, it's been four years!"

"It's nothing to regret. Just give me time so that I can do whatever I want. After all, there is not much time left for us to do whatever we want." He said seemingly flatly. "I've been a little too conformist these past few years, it doesn't make sense!"

"I feel very happy these few days. I don't have to worry about anything when I talk to my 'sisters'. Moreover, I don't have to use my mobile phone every day to say a few words like I'm done. It's over. She's busy, and I'm busy too. It's probably a relief for her not to be together, and she's had a good few days." He continued.

"Zhao Han is married, do you know?"

Zhang Kai said suddenly.

"Oh?"

"Just a few days ago, I was posting wedding photos in the space! That man is not as handsome as you."

"She deleted all my contact information, and I haven't contacted her for a long time. I don't want to disturb her anymore!"

"It was agreed at the time to be the closest friend. After all, it still doesn't work! It's a bit whimsical." I remembered our last meeting.She came to see a friend, and I picked her up.I sent her to the hotel, and the hotel required ID registration, so I didn't go up.Walking on the road, I pretended to be calm and talked about what I thought was humorous topics, and there was always a punch distance between us.After walking for a kilometer, I arrived at the subway station. I walked west, and she walked east.

"Don't you want a hug?"

I smiled and didn't answer.

She came over and hugged me, and I gently wrapped my arms around her waist.

"So reluctantly, don't you want to?"

"No, pretend!"

"Facing me, it's still so unnatural!"

I laughed dryly again and didn't answer.

"Then, goodbye!"

"goodbye!"

She went up the escalator, and I watched her until I could no longer see her.There were tears in her eyes, she was a crying girl.There are no tears in my eyes.I held back, since I saw her at the high-speed rail station, I held back! Until a week later, we went to drink, and I was so dizzy, walking on the road under the dim street lights, my tears seemed like Like a river that has broken its embankment, there is nothing to stop it from leaking out.However, there is no sound.I never make a sound when I cry.After all, only the weak cry, and I am not weak!

"She's a good girl, I hope she's happy!" I said, drinking a glass of wine.

"What happened to Wu Qingping?" Xu Qingyu asked.

"She went to graduate school and broke up with her ex-boyfriend not long after, but now she has a boyfriend." Zhang Kai replied calmly.It was as if he was telling a story that had nothing to do with him. "Without obsession, it's a lot easier. Talk to her occasionally, and you don't have to try to please her. It's a lot better."

"Then you, do you still want to be with her?" I asked.

"I don't want to! It's getting farther and farther away, why should I be persistent. I have already done what I should do, and I can't do anything else."

"Aren't you sorry?"

"Unfortunately, of course there is! But so what, she has her life, and I have mine. Her life prevents her from choosing me, and my life prevents me from completely hanging on her tree. It would be better to let each other go! And, who knows, maybe resignation is the right thing to do!"

"Haha, this mentality, compared with yours before, has really changed a lot."

"People have to grow up. Do what you have to do, cry what you should cry, what else can you do? That's the only way to go."

However, whenever the night is quiet, drinking some wine, eyes are dizzy, and the mind is particularly clear.But I can always think of these people and things in the past, very clearly.Who can tell whether it is really letting go, or pretending to let go.After all, man is a complex animal, so complicated that it is difficult for him to fully understand himself, and it is difficult to control himself.

I haven't seen Han Hongyu for a long time. I remember that the last time I saw him was a year ago. He was riding an electric bicycle, crossing the road at high speed, and recklessly in the cold winter wind in the north.As if he was not afraid of the cold, he drove the electric car out of the momentum of a motorcycle.He saw me standing in front of the house, stopped the car and greeted me, and we chatted for a while.

"So anxious, do you want to see your girlfriend? Could it be that your girlfriend is going to run away?" I joked.

"Haha, no way! I'm going to my aunt's house, I have to leave tomorrow, and go to Xinjiang." He breathed on his hands, and covered his face that was flushed from the cold with his hands.

"Why are you leaving so early?" I asked.

"Oh, there's no way. There's a rush over there, and I'm bored staying at home, so I just go out early." He responded.

"Can you come back next year?"

"I don't know, maybe I won't come back!"

"Well, I don't know when I will see you next time, but I still want to have a drink with you to see if your drinking capacity has improved!"

"Haha, there is always a chance! Let's go!" He waved his hand, put on his gloves, and buttoned his earmuffs.Stepped on the electric car and left in a cool way.

"Growing up is parting!" I couldn't help sighing.

He's a nice guy, very warmhearted and passionate.Every time I drink with him, I always say "Hongyu, if I get drunk, you have to find me a hotel." He can always fulfill my request perfectly, even if he drinks a lot.He often talks to me about things in the "jianghu".He refers to those who are in the "jianghu" as "miscellaneous". "Xiaosheng, do you know? I know a guy called 'Old Man', who's a social mess. If someone bullies you in the future, tell me that I'll find a place for you!" He patted his chest and assured him. "He Zixin, you just like her, but unfortunately, she seems to have already had a man!" He asked me back in disbelief, and then slowly revealed this news that he had heard, but I have been brooding about it for a long time.What does it mean to have a "man"?I know that in his expression habits, the difference between a "man" and a "boyfriend" lies in whether he has sex or not.Of course, these are irrelevant, and they have nothing to do with me from the beginning to the end.It's just that I always feel a little lost in my heart. "Do you know? I saw two gangs fighting last night. They were holding steel pipes and nunchucks. Some even held machetes!" He told me excitedly.Although, he was just an outsider who was easy to inquire from the beginning to the end.He likes to keep pigeons. He has been fond of pigeons since junior high school, and he is almost obsessed.Until now, whenever I talk to him, he always has to say something about the pigeons and the pigeons he is keeping.It is an excellent thing for a person to have some hobbies in his life, especially this kind of love that will last for ten years or even a lifetime.

...the one who makes people miss him, and the Sophora japonica along the way.I still remember when we rode bicycles and traveled all the way.There are wheat fields on both sides, and trees are planted along the road.There are poplar trees, pine trees, and locust trees.Summer is here, and the locust tree is full of white flowers, which are very dense in clusters.We stopped the car, I looked at the car, and he climbed up the tree and broke off many branches with clusters of flower buds.Then, each of us carried a few bunches of white flowers and rode away.While riding a bicycle, I still don’t forget to take off a handful of Sophora japonica flowers, stuff them into my mouth, and chew them randomly.Sophora japonica is very sweet, and we eat it without restraint.And the road we walked was sprinkled with pagoda flowers all over the place.It takes about half an hour to drive from school to home.During these half an hour, we either talked nonsense or sang, and we always had a good time, and we didn't want to waste a single moment.His singing voice is not good, to put it directly, he is tone deaf.However, he loves to sing.And the most helpless thing is that he didn't know that he sang badly.Every time I sang, he would always come in and throw me off the tune.Looking at his half-closed eyes intoxicated, I naturally couldn't point it out, so I had to let him go.After all, our singing is just to release our emotions, and there is no requirement for quality.I don't know if he has clarified his singing level now

I called Su Cheng.He is still the same, he doesn't talk too much, only when talking about his love history, he will respond with a smile.

"I heard that I talked to an 18-year-old girl recently. You are really old and young. How about it, is it delicious?" I joked.

"It's okay! However, the time will soon be divided."

"Oh why? I think you really care about her." I asked.

"Too young! She is still playing at an age, and there is a generation gap. I can't keep up with her rhythm."

"So, how do you feel about her?"

"It feels like a little sister! It's pampering, but it's just too willful."

"It seems interesting!"

"Oh! Why can't I meet it." I sighed.

"You are impatient. Besides, you don't play much, and you have few opportunities to get in touch, so naturally you won't meet them." He said to the point.

"Then, apart from her, are there any other affairs this year?" I continued to ask.

"Well, I guess I did! I went back from the holiday a few days ago, had a drink with some friends, and met a girl who must have just broken up. I drank a bit too much that night. I originally opened two rooms, but in the end anyway We went to live together. Then, some things inevitably happened. However, she can tell the difference, and I can also tell the difference. Originally, we are sex-sex men and women, but when we put on clothes the next day, it’s nothing!" He always told me the truth.

"No emotion? Impossible?"

"No!"

"I'm not as good as you in this."

"What else could it be?"

"At least, I will always remember it in my heart. Feelings will also sprout secretly. It is very possible to entangle each other, or even go on forever!"

"But it's very unlikely, isn't it?"

"Yes, very unlikely."

"There's nothing to be sure about, so why bother?"

"We're always doing things we're not sure about, aren't we? Or, things that aren't sure are more challenging to do, aren't we?"

"Yes, but I don't like it! I'm tired enough, why think too much and do too much."

"It just adds to the fun of life."

"It's just sex, I think it's interesting enough. So, I won't add more trouble."

"The pursuit of life is different, or the perception of fun is different. I don't think it's too much trouble, maybe trouble itself is very interesting!"

"Maybe! But I'm not as deep as you think."

"Haha, who cares. When are you going to go home? Let's drink together, I have to get you drunk once."

"Let's celebrate the new year. But I'm sure I won't get drunk. Don't worry, I'll take you back." He smiled heartily.I think he must have thought of me drunk.

The days pass by quickly, and there will be something new every day.However, not many can be remembered.Everyone is changing silently, but some inherent things such as nature cannot be changed.But there are some things that I come into contact with inexplicably, and even become obsessed with them for a short time.It was as if Zhao Zijun had learned to smoke.

"I learned to smoke, and I am very addicted to it. What should I do? I can't quit!" Zhao Zijun said.

This is really breaking news, because I saw him during the Chinese New Year, and he doesn't smoke.In just four or five months, he actually learned to smoke, and became obsessed with it to this extent.

"Why are you smoking?" I asked.

"Studying for postgraduate entrance examination, being rejected by the girl I like, not supporting by relatives and friends, etc., etc., etc., the pressure is too much. After smoking, I can't quit now." He said these excuses neatly, as if he had been in his mind I have said countless times, "My exams are very hard, it is very hard for me not to catch up with girls, and it is very hard for me not to be understood, so it is only right for me to smoke a cigarette to relieve myself."

"Don't make excuses!" I said a little angrily.

"I haven't seen you in three days, Zhao Zijun." Liu Ming said sarcastically.

"Okay, I admit it's all an excuse. But, I can't quit!" Zhao Zijun said as if resigned to his fate.

"Why? It's all an excuse, and not being able to quit is also an excuse." I asked angrily.

"According to what you say, if you have the conditions, you still have to take drugs." Liu Ming continued to sarcastically.

"Then tell me, what should I do?" Zhao Zijun asked.

"Of course it is quitting. Otherwise, what do you want to do? Find some interesting things to do, such as chasing girls, reading books, watching dramas, playing ball, etc. There are so many interesting things!" I responded.

"A lot of money, right? Use the money to buy cigarettes to buy girls to watch movies, eat, and rent a room." Liu Ming said bluntly.

So, a month later, Zhao Zijun fell in love. "Shivering in the cold wind, quit smoking from now on, quit!" He wrote in Moments at the station when he sent his girlfriend home.Just the night before, he was no longer single or a spinster.

"My girlfriend dislikes the smell of cigarettes in my mouth and refuses to kiss me."

he said.I think this should be the main reason why he made up his mind to quit smoking.He found something more interesting and addictive than smoking.

"Old virgin!" Zhao Zijun and I said to Liu Ming in unison.

"I have a girlfriend!" Liu Ming replied stiffly.

"Old virgin!"

"I, am I serious, okay?"

"23 year old virgin!"

"Damn it, stop arguing, wait, it won't be good to go home during the Chinese New Year!"

"Tch, I'm still an old virgin now, is there a problem? No problem! Hahahaha."

……

All the ups and downs, all the ups and downs, can't escape the final calm.It's like, people will grow up eventually, and people will eventually leave.However, at least for now, everything is still changing step by step.At least, life is still very interesting.If the cloud is calm and the wind is light is the highest state of life, then I will spend my whole life pursuing it. "Lifetime", what should be done should have been done, and what can be done is estimated to be done, at least I will not regret it.Makes sense, doesn't it?