round spring

At that time, I was still thinking that there would be countless winters in the future, countless patches of white, and there would be Brother Chun in both winter and white.

——An Yuan's Diary

An Yuan sat the whole time, holding the glass of water in his hand, the hot water turned into lukewarm water, then turned into cold water, intermittently, he listened to the words of the woman he should call "Mom" sitting on the sofa.

Geng Bai returned to the room after pouring the water, only An Yuan and the woman on the sofa were left in the living room.

Linda's Chinese name is Jiang Lan. She didn't hide anything from An Yuan. She told a lot about the past. She and An Guoqing used to do business in their hometown. When they were on the rise, it was an accident to have An Yuan.

Jiang Lan left when An Yuan was two years old. She always wanted to go abroad for development, but An Guoqing wanted to stay in China. Over time, the two gradually had differences. Later, she left without saying goodbye, and first went to Guangzhou. Then went to Washington.

A few years ago when An Guoqing had an accident, I didn't know that Grandpa Shen and Grandma Shen had written to Jiang Lan when they adopted An Yuan. The letter was sent to her hometown, but Jiang Lan only received it from her relatives two years ago. Faithful.

Two years ago, something happened to Jiang Lan's foreign company, and the lawsuits continued. She was restricted and banned from leaving the country, so she couldn't come back immediately.

Jiang Lan finished talking for a long time, and An Yuan was silent for a long time. He really didn't know how to respond. It was too sudden for him. An Yuan's fingers holding the water glass began to turn white, and the fingertips were white. The neck and face are also white.

"My mother's name is indeed Jiang Lan, but what you said is different from what my father said to me..." An Yuan said something that is useless at this moment.

An Guoqing told him that his mother was sick and passed away when he was very young, and he didn't even have a photo at home. An Guoqing often said that he looks a little more like his mother. Looking at it now, his nose and eyes are still With a face shape, it is indeed very similar to Jiang Lan.

Jiang Lan was very frank and didn't make any excuses for herself, "I was too selfish back then, I was the one who let you down, and I abandoned you first. Your father said that because he didn't want you to be sad. It's better than saying "Mom I don't want you anymore, "Good."

An Yuan also knew this truth, An Guoqing didn't want him to be burdened with hatred for his mother since he was a child, even if he knew it now, there was nothing to hate.

One is because in the past ten years, his mother has been blank for him. After a long time, he got used to it. A two-year-old child has no memory. Although An Yuan was envious of other children when he was young, An Guoqing gave him He lives a good life, and he and his father live a good life.

Second, later, when his father had an accident, he had grandparents, and Shen Xingchun again. An Yuan always felt that he was very lucky, so now it is even more out of the question whether he hates it or not.

Facing Jiang Lan who suddenly came back now, An Yuan didn't feel quite right. It was shock, a little bit of confusion, and a little bit of confusion about how to get along with Jiang Lan in the future. Other feelings were gone.

The woman opposite was still unfamiliar to him, he still couldn't call out "Mom", but he couldn't call out anything else either.

Jiang Lan continued: "Xiao Yuaner, your father wrote me a letter when the accident happened, but unfortunately I didn't receive it. Now, are you willing to go to Washington with me?"

An Yuan's fingers pinching the water glass were a little sore. He put the water glass on the tea table, glanced at the phone that was still quiet, then turned his gaze to Jiang Lan, and asked, "Since you left at the beginning, why are you coming again all of a sudden now?" ?”

Jiang Lan was stunned by what An Yuan said for a long time before she opened her mouth, "I'm sorry, I have always felt that I owe you a lot for so many years. Dad was by your side before, but now Dad is not around. I think..."

"No need, I have my grandparents and my brother now, I'm really fine now," An Yuan interrupted Jiang Lan calmly, without any aggressive words, and his tone was very light, "And I'm going to At eighteen, I can take care of myself."

The phone rang at the right time, and the daze and confusion in An Yuan's heart didn't last long. It soon turned into a smile, stood up from the stool, and ran over to answer the phone.

Sure enough, it was Shen Xingchun who called him, An Yuan heard Shen Xingchun's breathing, and before he could speak, she anxiously called "Brother".

"Has Xiao Yuan'er arrived? Have you eaten?" Shen Xingchun asked on the phone.

"I haven't eaten yet." An Yuan wanted to tell Shen Xingchun about Jiang Lan on the phone, but felt that he couldn't explain clearly on the phone, so he asked him, "Brother, can I go to your school to find you tomorrow morning?"

The other end of the phone was quiet for a few seconds, Shen Xingchun spoke after a while, "I'll find you at noon tomorrow, don't come to school."

"Your legs are inconvenient, let me go to your school to find you." An Yuan said, he didn't want Shen Xingchun to toss back and forth.

Shen Xingchun said again: "You're here, and you can't get in without a student ID card. I'll ask Wen Le to take me there at noon tomorrow."

Hearing what he said, An Yuan could only answer "Yes", and said a few words to Shen Xingchun, telling him to pay attention to his legs before hanging up the phone.

Jiang Lan waited until An Yuan sat back on the chair before asking him, "Is that your brother?"

"Well," An Yuan nodded, "His name is Shen Xingchun."

"Your father said in the letter that Grandpa Shen, Grandma Shen, and your brother, it can be heard that you have a good relationship."

"It's very good. Grandpa, grandma, and my brother are very, very kind to me."

"You just said that you haven't eaten yet. It's getting late, and I haven't eaten yet. Would you like to go out to eat with me? The hotel I booked is on the street next to it. Three meals are provided, and the gift I brought you is also Put it in the hotel, and I'll take you back after dinner."

An Yuan didn't care about the gifts, but she still agreed to go out for dinner with Jiang Lan.

An Yuan knocked on the door of Geng Bai's room, and after talking to him, she followed Jiang Lan out the door.

The two walked along the side of the road, Jiang Lan didn't deliberately get close to An Yuantao, there was a little distance between them.

Jiang Lan wore high-heeled shoes and couldn't walk fast. An Yuan also slowed down her pace and kept her head down. There was still snow on the road, and there was a creaking sound when she stepped on it.

"When are you going back to Washington?" An Yuan asked Jiang Lan about something.

"I have plenty of time in China this time, and I plan to open a branch in Shenzhen, so I have a lot of time. I can stay with you in Beijing for a while."

"My brother will be on vacation in a few days. My brother and I won't stay in Beijing forever. We have to go back for the New Year." An Yuan said.

Knowing that An Yuan would say this, Jiang Lan followed his words and asked, "Would you mind if I visit the place where you have lived these past few years? I also want to meet Grandpa Shen, Grandma Shen, and your brother."

An Yuan pressed down the collar on his neck, opened his mouth and exhaled a few times, white air rolled around his mouth a few times, and he said after a while, "If you want to see it."

When Shen Xingchun knew that Linda was An Yuan's mother, he was no less surprised than An Yuan. An Yuan told Shen Xingchun a lot, but he didn't tell him that Jiang Lan wanted to take him to Washington, because he never thought about it from the beginning to the end. He wants to leave, so there is no need to mention it, just say that Jiang Lan is here to see him.

"Her Chinese name is Jiang Lan, and now she lives in Washington. She told me a lot about her childhood when she had dinner yesterday, but I don't remember those things."

Shen Xingchun saw that An Yuan spoke calmly, but he could also see An Yuan's uneasiness, so he raised his hand and patted him on the back a few times, "It's good, our Xiao Yuan has a mother."

"It's hard to say whether it's good or bad. It's impossible for her and me to be like ordinary mothers and children. It's out of the question to maintain intimacy, and it's out of the question to repel each other." An Yuan spoke slowly, pausing for a while and then said, "But Brother, I still feel a little awkward and unbelievable."

Shen Xingchun has no good experience on how to get along with his parents, so he can't give An Yuan any advice. He only cares about An Yuan's feelings, and told him: "Don't be awkward, and don't deliberately ask yourself how to get along with her. Getting along is the right thing to do, you can come here as you feel comfortable, and you don’t have to force yourself to accept or reject it, it’s okay to be friends.”

An Yuan didn't sleep well all night. Her mother who thought she was not there came back suddenly. No one could accept it so quickly. Now that she met Shen Xingchun, she felt a lot better after talking to him. up.

"Washington is quite far away." Shen Xingchun said suddenly.

An Yuan tilted her head and smiled at Shen Xingchun, "I'm not going, it doesn't matter if it's far or not, by the way, she also said that she wants to go back with us for the New Year."

"To our house?" Shen Xingchun asked.

"Yes, she also said that she wanted to see her grandparents and brother."

Shen Xingchun looked at the expression on An Yuan's face that didn't change much, smiled and said, "Okay, if you want to go and have a look, go and have a look."

During the period before Shen Xingchun's holiday, An Yuan was never allowed to go to his school again, Wen Le sent him to see An Yuan every time.

Jiang Lan booked the plane ticket in advance, and Shen Xingchun went to the hospital to remove the cast the day before he went back, and took An Yuan to buy a lot of things for his grandparents.

An Yuan had already talked to his grandparents on the phone in advance, and told them that Jiang Lan would go back with them.

Grandma has already brought Shen Rui back to her hometown, and when she heard that An Yuan's mother was going, she yelled on the phone for someone to kill a pig in advance, and said, "I'll let you two dry the quilt for a few days, and sleep soft when you come back Huhu quilts, but the time is too short, otherwise I will go to the town to buy some new cotton and fabrics, and waft two new quilts for you."

"Grandma, Xiaorui has to be taken care of. Don't worry about it. Just stay at home with grandpa." An Yuan felt that Jiang Lan would not be able to stay for a few days. She might not be able to adapt to life in the countryside. Too many choices of food, kang, and cold winter.

Taking a plane is much faster than the green leather train, but after getting off the plane, you still have to take a car for a long time. Jiang Lan rented a car directly outside the airport. An Yuan wanted to tell Jiang Lan several times that he would take a coach. There are also direct ones, but after seeing the clean long skirt and bright high-heeled shoes on her body, they couldn't say anything in the end.

An Yuan was still awkward when he was with Jiang Lan, but because Shen Xingchun was by his side, he kept talking to Shen Xingchun, and occasionally would argue with Jiang Lan.

The car was driving on a very straight road. An Yuan lay down by the window, looked at the endless whiteness outside the window, and said, "Brother, this winter seems to be colder than last year, do you feel it? But the snow is still so beautiful."

This reminded An Yuan of the year when he and his father came here for the first time, An Guoqing was driving in front, and he was wrapped in a coat by himself, wrapped himself tightly, and sat in the back of the car with his eyes exposed. On the seat, curled up, lying on the glass window, curious about the pure white that kept retreating and advancing outside the window.

It's so beautiful, I can't tell what's good about it, but everything is good.

The coldness of that year was also very different from the coldness of the present. The coldness and snow of that year were all engraved on the bones. Thinking back on it now, An Yuan still couldn’t help shivering all over his body. He still finds it unbelievable. , Later, because of an accident on An Guo Day, he stayed, and every winter after that, he was immersed in this whiteness.

An Yuan thought, there will be countless winters and countless patches of white in the future.