round spring

I was still unlucky, the dart needle wasn't going my way...

——An Yuan's Diary

(one more)

Shen Xingchun sat next to An Yuan, moved towards him, stretched his neck, followed An Yuan's gaze and looked out the window. The trees on the side of the road were receding. He said, "It's cold, I almost froze to death when I got off the plane just now. gone."

"That's because you've been in Beijing for the past two years." An Yuan smiled and turned her head, looking at Shen Xingchun, "but this year is indeed colder than last year."

Jiang Lan, who was sitting in the co-pilot, turned her head and asked An Yuan, "Xiao Yuaner, what is the coldest degree here?"

An Yuan turned her head to stare at the snow outside the window again, thought for a while and said, "The coldest I have ever experienced in the past few years is minus 37 degrees."

"So cold?" Jiang Lan thought that minus 20 degrees was already the limit, and minus 37 degrees, she couldn't even imagine how to live in that temperature.

An Yuan sat up straight, leaned against Shen Xingchun, put his shoulders against his shoulders, and replied to Jiang Lan, "When it's so cold, we don't go out. Grandparents' house is warm, with a kang, fire wall, and stove. We We stay indoors, playing poker and mahjong, and when it’s not too cold, we can play more, making snowmen, skiing, skating, it’s interesting, isn’t it brother?”

An Yuan gritted her teeth, tilted her head and raised her chin, looked at Shen Xingchun's side face, and thought of Shen Xingchun's injured leg. She bent over, lowered her head and poked his calf through her trousers, "Brother, your leg will be damaged this winter. Can't ski anymore."

Shen Xingchun moved his legs, "It probably won't work."

"If we can't, let's stop skating." An Yuan straightened up, closed her eyes, leaned directly on Shen Xingchun's shoulder and began to doze off.

Jiang Lan saw the interaction between An Yuan and Shen Xingchun from the rearview mirror, and interjected, "Is there a ski resort near grandparents' house?"

"It's not a ski resort," An Yuan said with his eyes closed, "it's just skiing directly on the bald mountain. Every year, the children in the village can open several ski trails, skating from the top of the mountain to the foot of the mountain, sitting on skates, or wearing Ski boots."

"Sounds very interesting," Jiang Lan asked after finishing speaking, "Where did Xiao Yuan'er go to school?"

"It's a high school in the town, but it's a bit far from the village. It's more than 100 kilometers away, and I need to take a long-distance bus."

The car kept shaking, An Yuan closed his eyes, leaned on Shen Xingchun's shoulder and fell asleep while shaking.

Shen Xingchun didn't sleep, and noticed Jiang Lan looking at him from time to time through the rearview mirror several times.

The car arrived at the entrance of the village at noon, Shen Xingchun woke An Yuan up, An Yuan opened his eyes in a daze, moved his neck, muttered twice, looked at the familiar things outside the window, lowered the window, a gust of cold wind directly He woke up.

An Yuan sneezed, wrapped his collar around his collar, pointed to the billowing white smoke from the chimney of the red roof of the first household in the village, and said, "Brother, we are home, our chimney is billowing. As for Yan'er, grandma must be cooking."

"Are you hungry?" Shen Xingchun asked him with a smile.

"Hungry," An Yuan rubbed his stomach through his clothes, "I want to eat the sesame shortbread and bean paste buns made by grandma."

"Grandma must have done it for you. These two things are never left behind."

Although Jiang Lan had made preparations in advance, when she arrived, she was still shocked by the environment in front of her. It was a place and life that she had never thought about and had never been in contact with, cold and remote.

What came at the same time was a very direct and specific guilt towards An Yuan.

After seeing Grandpa Shen and Grandma Shen, Jiang Lan could see that Grandpa Shen and Grandma Shen treated An Yuan really well, and then she understood why An Yuan liked this place so much and grew up so well.

What Jiang Lan could see at the same time was An Yuan's different feelings for Shen Xingchun.

When An Yuan looked at Shen Xingchun, his eyes were very direct, without any concealment, warm and straightforward, as long as he observed for a while, it was easy to find out.

After lunch, An Yuan took Shen Xingchun and Shen Rui to the yard to build a snowman. Rhubarb died a year ago in the summer, and now there is a little black dog lying in the den, and the cat is still there. The little black dog is just like Xiao Hua, with a real temper The dog and the cat are so docile, lying in the nest, basking in the sun with half of their body exposed.

Jiang Lan sat at the table with her grandparents. She took out a few paper bags from her bag and put them on the table. She bowed slightly to Grandpa Shen and Grandma Shen, "Thank you very much for taking care of Xiaoyuan all these years. , I was sorry for him before, but now his father is not by his side, I should have come back sooner, by accident, he is already so old, I can see that you are sincerely kind to Xiao Yuaner, and do not Don't care about these, here is 20, just a little bit of my heart."

The old man and the old lady have stayed in the countryside all their lives, but they have never seen so much money. They did not raise Anyuan for this.

Grandma Shen stood up and pushed the paper bag containing the money in front of Jiang Lan again, fearing that the wind would blow it away, she said tremblingly: "Mother Xiaoyuan, we didn't raise Xiaoyuan for this, you quickly pretend ,hurry up."

Jiang Lan smiled again and pushed the money to Grandpa Shen and Grandma Shen, "This is what it should be."

Grandma Shen and Grandpa Shen said that they would not take the money, and finally got a little angry after pushing and pushing. Seeing this, Jiang Lan had no choice but to put it away first.

She said, "Actually, when I come this time, I want to take Xiaoyuan to live in Washington."

Upon hearing this, Grandma Shen took a look into the yard through the window, listened to An Yuan talking and laughing with Shen Xingchun, thought for a long time before speaking.

"Actually, when you came, I knew that there would be a time like this. You are Xiao Yuan'er's mother, and the conditions you can provide for Xiao Yuan'er are unmatched by our family. We raised him for nothing. An Yuan is now Already seventeen years old, he has good grades in studies, he can get a scholarship from the school every year, he hasn't made us worry about it for so many years, he is obedient and sensible..."

As grandma talked, she couldn't bear it, her voice was choked, and tears began to fall. Grandpa Shen took Grandma Shen to sit down, wiped her tears, and answered, "We are writing a letter to the National Day, we have to ask Ask for National Day's opinion, after all, it was National Day that left the child behind."

"It was the letter that Xiaoyuan'er's father wrote to me at the beginning." Jiang Lan took out the letter to her before An Guoqing from her bag and showed it to Grandpa Shen, "He also wanted me to take care of Xiaoyuan'er, but at that time I didn't get the letter right away."

Grandpa Shen took the letter and read it. It was indeed written by An Guoqing. Grandma Shen also read the letter. When she thought that An Yuan was going to leave, she began to cry again. Jiang Lan was in good condition. Auntie is different, after all, she is her own mother.

An Yuan knew nothing about Jiang Lan's conversation with her grandparents. She, Shen Xingchun and Shen Rui were making a snowman in the yard. The snowman was missing a nose. She ran back to the house and asked her grandma for a carrot. When she turned around and left , Noticed that grandma's eyes were very red.

He turned back again, wrapped his arms around grandma's shoulders, tilted his head and leaned against grandma's neck, "grandma, what's wrong with you? Are your eyes so red?"

"It's okay, my eyes were smoky when I lit the fire just now." Grandma raised her sleeves and wiped her eyes, then took An Yuan's hand and shook it vigorously, "Xiao Yuan'er's hands are so big that they can cover her eyes." Granny's hand."

"Isn't it because grandma raised her well?" An Yuan pulled her grandma out, smiling, "Xiao Yuan'er has grown up."

Shen Xingchun quickly noticed the lingering look in his grandmother's eyes when he was looking at An Yuan. He took a look into the room and guessed the general situation, so when Jiang Lan found him alone, he was already mentally prepared. .

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Shen Xingchun felt it when he saw Jiang Lan for the first time. The woman in front of him looked gentle and gentle, but the aura she had cultivated in the mall for many years was very different from her appearance. Her eyes showed that she would not give up until she reached her goal. The firmness invisibly releases the pressure.

He didn't beat around the bush with Jiang Lan, and asked directly, "Auntie, what are you going to talk to me about today?"

Jiang Lan sensed Shen Xingchun's defense, smiled and said, "Just chatting casually, you don't have to be so defensive about me, I can see that An Yuan is very dependent on you, you are more special to him than grandparents , I wonder if An Yuan has told you that I want to take him to live in Washington."

Shen Xingchun was not surprised, and said: "An Yuan didn't tell me, but I guessed it. I guessed it from the time you went to Beijing to meet An Yuan and proposed to come to my house with him."

An Yuan thought purely, thinking that when Jiang Lan said to come and see, she really just wanted to see, but Shen Xingchun had expected it long ago. Although Jiang Lan's attitude had always been soft, her eyes seemed to know that An Yuan would definitely Just like her.

"I know, I was the one who felt sorry for him before..."

Shen Xingchun interrupted Jiang Lan, "You are An Yuan's mother, I will not say anything in front of him about you abandoning An Yuan for more than ten years, but as a mother, you are indeed sorry for him Yes, this is not something that can be made up for by saying sorry. Your conditions are very good, and you can give An Yuan a good life, but since he grew up in my family for so many years, I am his brother, and I have to be responsible to him. All I care about is An Yuan, and what I care about is his feelings, he has disappeared suddenly for more than ten years, and now he comes back and says he wants to take him away, it's a bit unreasonable."

Jiang Lan kept a decent smile on her face, and listened to Shen Xingchun's words very seriously, her tone was still gentle and gentle.

"In the past ten years, I have indeed been sorry for An Yuan, so I want to make up for it now. I have enough ability and enough time to accompany him. Xiao Yuan'er is now a sophomore in high school. I heard that Grandma Shen's daughter-in-law She is pregnant, and she has to help take care of Shen Rui. Grandpa Shen is a village doctor, and she can't do without him. You go to school in Beijing, two places away, so Xiao Yuan'er goes to school by herself more than 100 kilometers away from home, and picks up the doctor. It will be a year and a half, a very crucial high school study life, he is still a child after all, in this way, it is actually the best choice for him to be with me now."

Shen Xingchun was silent for a while, and said, "Whether to go with you or not depends on Xiaoyuan'er's own wish."

"Xiao Yuan'er won't take the initiative to come with me," Jiang Lan paused after speaking, looking into Shen Xingchun's eyes, "Because he likes you..."

After listening to Jiang Lan's words, Shen Xingchun's expression changed, and he looked back at Jiang Lan with a frown.

Jiang Lan smiled and continued: "I didn't come here to break up or anything. Boys like boys. I've seen many, many, so Xiaoyuan likes boys or girls. I don't have a problem. It's his I will respect his choice, but I can see that you only have the feelings of a brother for a brother to him."

Shen Xingchun lowered his eyelids halfway, did not speak, did not refute Jiang Lan's words, just sat quietly on the chair, looking at the corner of the table.

Jiang Lan continued, "Have you ever wondered why Xiao Yuan'er likes her brother? It's normal for a teenager to fall in love with a boy or girl. He has been living with you all these years. , you are older than him, you are outstanding in appearance, you are very good, and you are kind to him. It is normal for him to depend on such a brother in life and emotion. He gets along with you day and night, and the emotional dependence has undergone a qualitative change. This is still normal. , you are four years older than him, so you should know this truth. What I can provide Xiao Yuaner is not only a better and better environment and life, but also his future choices. Xiao Yuaner should go out more Take a look, see the outside world, and meet more people.”

Jiang Lan stared at Shen Xingchun's eyes that gradually became deeper and farther away, and said: "Sometimes, the feelings caused by dependence are very fragile and vulnerable to a single blow. It's impossible for Xiao Yuaner. I only know you for a lifetime... ..."

An Yuan thought that Jiang Lan would not be able to stay for more than three days, but until Xiaonian, Jiang Lan never said that she wanted to leave. Although the environment was simple, she still maintained her glamor every day, going out with him, sleeping on the same kang, Eat the same thing, or go skiing in the mountains.

As in previous years, Grandpa pasted two red lanterns with red paper. In the morning of the young year, Shen Xingchun and An Yuan each carried one and hung it on both sides of the gate of the compound. The red lanterns were very red and the tassels were yellow, swinging back and forth .

The firecrackers sounded from morning to night, and the red debris kept being scraped on the red lanterns, and then fell down again.

Shen Xingchun said an opening remark seemingly casually on a very ordinary night.

"Does Xiaoyuan'er want to live with her mother?"

Shen Rui slept with his grandparents, Jiang Lan slept in Shen Xingchun and An Yuan's previous room, An Yuan and Shen Xingchun slept in a small side room, the side room was refurbished in summer, repaired the kang, and installed two layers of glass.

An Yuan was lying next to Shen Xingchun, listening to Shen Xingchun's question without any warning, his head buzzed, and after a long pause, he swallowed hard before asking: "Brother, do you want me to go? "

Shen Xingchun moved his neck and said after a while, "Jiang Lan can give you a better life."

"Brother, Washington is far away." An Yuan calmly said what Shen Xingchun once said to him, "Cross the ocean."

"This place is too small." Shen Xingchun said.

An Yuan quickly followed up: "This is Xiao, but there are grandparents, and elder brother."

"Grandpa, grandma, and me, will always be at home. In the future, when you want to come back, you can come back anytime." Shen Xingchun's voice was very low, and he only said to An Yuan, "Go out, and you will see a big world. Met a lot of people."

"Brother, you told me this before," An Yuan opened his mouth numbly, and smiled silently at the beams above his head through the moonlight leaking through the glass window, "You don't like men Yes, so you want me to stay away from you now, don’t you? I actually know the reason why you don’t let me go to your school, because of me, there are many people in school who say you are gay, that you and your brother are a couple Son, say you are disgusting, so brother, are you chasing me now?"

Shen Xingchun sighed, "I'm not trying to drive you away, nor do I want you to stay away from me. It's a fact that Jiang Lan can give you a better life."

"What is the fact, the fact is that you want me to go..." An Yuan's voice suddenly became hoarse, and he tried to bite the tip of his tongue.

After An Yuan finished speaking, he turned over, facing Shen Xingchun, his eyes traced the vague outline of his side face, starting from the very short hair stubble, to the bridge of the nose, to the chin, and then to the long neck, he turned over Lying on the stomach, the voice was directed at Shen Xingchun.

"Brother, you want me to go, I don't want to go, we seem to have disagreements again, then let's follow the previous rules, shoot darts, if I hit the red heart, I won't leave,