Looking forward to the stars

Zhan Chen was seriously injured this time, and Feng Fan didn't dare to take him back to the villa for treatment. After the operation in the hospital, he slept for a day, and when he saw Feng Fan again, he rested and felt much better. I also take care of myself, heroic and handsome.

"I think you looked very handsome yesterday."

Zhan Chen said something out of nowhere, and Feng Fan's pouring hands shook, yesterday was his most embarrassing day, and he stared at this child who was a poisonous snake just after waking up.

"Unfortunately never again."

"Huh? Maybe I can see it again sometime, I think."

Feng Fan sat down and looked at him seriously.

"You're angry?"

"No, it wasn't you who hit me."

Zhan Chen stared at him with blinking eyes.

"Are you mad at me for breaking up with you?"

"Ok!"

The answer was short and neat, Zhan Chen's eyes turned red instantly, and Feng Fan hurriedly leaned over to wipe the tears on his face.

"Don't cry, don't cry, it's my fault."

Feng Fan hurriedly apologized in a panic, Zhan Chen looked at him maliciously, and was satisfied in his heart, right, this is just like a normal person, in fact, he can still change, but he was still afraid in his heart, and cried tearfully.

"After you disappeared, I worried for so long, and finally came back and told me to break up. I just said it, and you took it seriously. You didn't even look at me, knowing that I was standing outside the door and didn't open the door. In the next few days I don't care about it, I thought... I thought we were really like this."

Zhan Chen was full of grievances and finally cried out. He couldn't control it. He thought he would never cry again, but when he saw Feng Fan's nervous face, he cried more and more and wanted to cry.

Feng Fan kept wiping his face, this action was repeated countless times.

"Tear bag."

Can't help but say it, Zhanchen stiffened his neck for a while, forced back the tears, wiped his face with his own hands, didn't cry or make a sound, just opened his eyes and looked at him.

Feng Fan was taken aback by his change, his dark eyes were dark, Zhan Chen knew what he was going to say, and said solemnly:

"Don't try to dump me. No matter what life-or-death matter you are going to solve, I will follow you, unless you really don't want me and think I will only hold you back."

Feng Fan's eyes became darker, as if stained with thick black ink, endless darkness, he stood up and said:

"He's here, I don't want you to have an accident with me."

"Haohui didn't want anything to happen to me either, so he took me away, as you can see, I almost died."

Zhanchen was indignant, everyone thought this way, everyone imposed their will on him, he was like an object, when danger came, anyone could pack it up and send it away, why no one asked him What do you think, is he willing or not.

"Zhanchen, listen to me, this is not the time to be arrogant, you may die at any time by my side, I don't want to be worried every day, I don't want you to take risks with me."

"So, you want to wait until the dust settles on this matter, either you will die or he will die. If he is killed by you, you will come back to me, and then pretend that it is for my own good, or you will never die with me for the rest of your life." Get in touch, don't you?"

The corners of Feng Fan's mouth were stretched into a straight line, his eyes were sharp but his energy was lost. Persuasion has never been his strong point. The more he talks about this person in front of him, the more reasons he will have to refute.

Zhan Chen held the hand tightly.

"Feng Fan, you're so unfair. You didn't ask me what I thought. You never asked, and you never said. You shouldered everything alone. But that was before, and now you have me. I am willing, I am willing to do anything, We can share it, trust me, okay?"

I believe, I have always believed, that's why I tell you to stay away from me, just because you will get involved without hesitation, you shouldn't have this part of your life, you should live in the sun, there is too much darkness on this road , destined to end in blood, you understand?

"That night in the woods, the man came rushing to grab my gun and I shot him and his blood was all over me and I was so scared I didn't know where I was doing I felt like I was stuck A sea of ​​blood, where the eyes can see is red."

Feng Fan knew about this matter. Tong Yuanfei once said that Feng Fan looked at him almost desperately. He was afraid that he would really be persuaded by him. no return.

"After I came back, I often had nightmares at night. I dreamed that the man looked at me with hatred before the moment, and he pulled me down. I found that I was stuck in a sea of ​​blood and couldn't resist. Whenever I woke up, I I felt like I was going to die, but later, when I thought about it carefully, was there a better way to let him go so that I didn’t have to die myself.”

The panic in his eyes fell into Feng Fan's eyes, he held Zhan Chen's hand behind his back, Zhan Chen raised his eyes and smiled helplessly:

"Unfortunately, no, because his goal is to kill me. Even if he left at that time, he will come back to kill me. As long as he kills me, I have to resist. In this resistance, maybe he will still be killed by me. Death, so I figured it out, if it wasn't me at the time, anyone would not wait to die without resisting when facing life and death, but I was lucky and I was the one who lived, so my resistance is forgivable."

The clear and shallow pupils are as bright as light, and the stars are twinkling. Feng Fan is a little thankful and a little envious. His Zhanchen has not been polluted in any way, it is still so clean, and he lives so brightly. He is very powerful, so powerful that Feng Fan feels ashamed .

"I don't know how many times these people have stood in the position of life and death hostility with others. Under the dark forces without law, dead is dead, alive is alive, no one judges, no justice to restrain, they rely on themselves strength, or a little bit of luck, no matter what, only the result of life or death is doomed, and it’s not wrong to be involuntary, it’s just that you can only do it when you do it.”

Zhan Chen stared at Feng Fan's eyes, the dark eyes were slightly less hazy, and it seemed that he could see hope.

"Feng Fan, this is what I want to say. I am the same as you. I am in a position where I can't help myself. You don't have to worry about me. I am willing. I don't think what we did was wrong and cannot be measured by justice. Hostility, our resistance is a matter of course and we have a clear conscience, so you don't have to hide the past from me, I will accompany you in the present and the future."

Zhan Chen was so anxious that his wound hurt and he was sweating coldly. If he couldn't persuade him now, Feng Fan would never give him another chance.

He looked at Feng Fan anxiously, waiting for his answer.

Feng Fan stared at him and didn't speak for a long time.

Zhan Chen's heart cools down a little bit, he and Feng Fan, is it just like this, one is always hiding, the other is always exploring, no honesty, no trust, he suddenly felt that there is no hope for this kind of chasing life, because Feng Fan never Don't give him hope, he's bummed out of his world, and all he can offer is comfort.

If Feng Fan didn't let him in, he could only stand outside the door forever.

"Eisen, Chinese name, Murong Cong, you already know it."

Feng Fan gave up. In this confrontation, Zhan Chen's persistence forced him to stop and rethink. He concealed the past and present from him, thinking that the protection was tightly sealed and airtight, which might be a cruel torture for him. It turns out that I have been forcing him until now, and he has been looking for a breakthrough. When he saw him call up his past files from the computer, Feng Fan suddenly felt that he had been wrong all along. If you don't tell him, he will You can check, as long as he is by your side, as long as there are people who know about your past, he will know.

This child suffered a lot for him, Feng Fan was shaken, tell him, just as he said, I will accompany you now and in the future.

"Liu Da is a spy, the 'silver hook' of the mafia gang in Malaysia. My disappearance is a hoax, in order to lure him out."

Originally, he had already given up, as long as Feng Fan loved him, he could let go of the past and be honest, and just live like this with Feng Fan, but now he said it, he was telling him.

Zhan Chen sat up, and threw himself into Feng Fan's arms happily. He could finally confess to himself, did it mean that he would trust himself.

Zhanchen never thought that being trusted by him would be such a mood, like sitting alone by the sea, watching the sun's brilliance cross the horizon, suddenly turning around, only to find him smiling behind him, never going far .

"Okay, you rest first, are you tired after talking so much?"

After hearing his words, Zhan Chen felt that he really wanted to sleep, but he had been tense just now, and now that he was recognized to untie his knots, he was so sleepy, he rubbed his arms around Feng Fan's neck, and found a comfortable position He just fell asleep, and when Feng Fan pushed him away and tried to put him to lie down, he had already drooped his head little by little and fell into a sound sleep. He probably couldn't hear Feng Fan saying that he loves you in his ear now. .

Too many things happened this month, he was physically and mentally exhausted to the point of exhaustion, and the biggest problem with Feng Fan was solved face-to-face. In the next few days, he slept in the dark, and when he woke up, he looked at Feng Fan and smiled silly at him. After eating something, he went back to sleep, Xiao Yu, when Xi Di came to see him, he also fell asleep unconsciously, as if he would never wake up.

Fighting to catch up on sleep, he woke up with Feng Fan not by his side. Looking through the opened curtains, he saw a person he didn't know very well. He got up from the bed and followed.

Qi Bo boiled the tonic soup, Feng Fan went back to the villa to get it, and Jing Ming pestered him to ask about Zhan Chen's situation, he was delayed for a while, came back late, saw no one, and was about to look for him,

"Where did you go?"

Zhan Chen came in from the door and said with a smile:

"Go out for a walk, the room is too stuffy."

After getting the doctor's permission, Zhanchen returned to the villa for treatment half a month later.

"How did you tell him?"

Zhan Chen excitedly asked him, the young attending doctor was very rigid, he insisted on staying in the hospital until he could say he was discharged, Zhan Chen begged for a long time, every time he had a livid face,

"You are my patient, and I am responsible for you!"

"secret."

Feng Fan whispered in his ear, and when he said that, Zhan Chen's ears felt itchy, and he stared at him blankly, blinking his big and exquisite eyes.

Caught off guard by his stare, Feng Fan's face showed a suspicious blush, he turned his head away unnaturally, and stared at the scenery in a serious way.

Just kidding, if you don't take you away again, if you live in the hospital with a rival in love, you have to think for Feng Fan, he already has enough rivals in love, you little flower, don't bother him anymore.

"Oh!"

Zhan Chen nodded half-understood, stood up secretly, and approached Feng Fan's face from behind, the moment just now was like an instant kill, his face blushed so rarely, his soul gave him It was taken.

Feng Fan was too focused on his mind-wandering, Zhan Chen didn't notice it when he was standing beside him, he just felt someone approaching him from behind, leaning his head on his back and rubbing his head affectionately, Feng Fan didn't turn his head, his palms covered those warm and thin On the back of the hand, let him hold it quietly, this moment is so happy, as if relieved after going through all the twists and turns, the surrounding existence gradually distanced away, becoming the background, only you and I really exist and depend on each other.

But, "Master, Master, I want to come in."

Jing Ming's little classmate's childish voice sounded outside the door, Zhan Chen sighed bitterly in his heart, forgetting to be a little saboteur.