The road of chasing his wife by being attacked by scumbags

Si Xinyan stood there in a daze for a while, then walked towards the third floor.

He turned around and went upstairs, Lu Zhi hesitated for a moment, but still followed.

The third floor was the bedroom of the two of them. Si Xinyan might have been distracted, so he didn't notice that the room he walked into was Lu Zhi's room, and it was also the room where they had slept in the old house for the past eight years.

Lu Zhi followed behind him, seeing him skillfully opened the door and entered, his heart skipped a beat, and the originally dull light in his eyes began to jump for joy.

Although it has been ridiculous all these years, Lu Zhi at this moment knows what Si Xinyan is thinking.He may be the person in the world who understands Si Xinyan the most, even though he has hurt him so deeply.After clearing his mind, Lu Zhi suddenly understood many things. This incident was a growth and transformation for him.

Only after losing can one know how to cherish, and only after losing can one understand what that person really wants.

Si Xinyan just wanted a love that belonged to him, a love that would not disappear for any reason, a love that could accompany him forever.

Lu Zhi once promised to give it to him, and he believed it, but the ending was bad.

Lu Zhi didn't want the lives of both of them to be ruined by that bad ending. Although he didn't leave for a long time, he thought about it carefully.

Whether to really let go and leave, or take that step again, and strive to have a new start with Si Xinyan.

Before that, he was confused and entangled, but when he saw Si Xinyan who was a little lost just now, he suddenly became firm.

He didn't want Si Xinyan to show that kind of expression, at any time, anywhere, where he could see it or not, he didn't want his sadness like that.

If it has brought him harm, can you use good memories to cover the scars of the past?The past has already passed, no matter how you regret and reminisce, those things can't be changed, if you just get stuck in the past and never get out, then he really doesn't have the ability to accompany Si Xinyan.

The eldest brother told him that if he wanted to continue, he would not stop it.Instead, he thinks of himself a little higher.

Because he has the courage to face past mistakes honestly and make amends, even if Si Xinyan is not willing to forgive him, he is prepared to never be forgiven for the rest of his life.

I want to give Si Xinyan the love he wants.

He once told his eldest brother that love is letting go, but if that person will not be happy after letting go, why not try to give him a piece of happiness by himself?

What would Si Xinyan's future be like without him?No one can imagine the future, but Lu Zhi wants to try to walk into Si Xinyan's future.

In the past, he never thought about what kind of role Si Xinyan would be in his future life, but now Lu Zhi wants to reach out his hand and hold it when he is very old. Those hands belonged to Si Xinyan.

The past cannot be traced, so let's look to the future. He will never forgive himself for the mistakes he made in his life, but he still loves Si Xinyan, he has always loved Si Xinyan, and he wants to give Si Xinyan this kind of love. This love, I hope this time it will not bring him any more harm.

He wanted to protect him so that he wouldn't have that expression on his face again.

The nightmares that kept coming back were not because Si Xinyan didn't let him go, but because he didn't let him go, he couldn't get out, he was stuck in it, and even for a few moments, he wanted to die.But he quickly realized that if he hurt himself to save the other party, it would be another injury to Si Xinyan.

He has already been bruised all over by himself, why make him sad and heartbroken again?Wouldn't it be good to surround him with more love and more happiness?

Lu Zhi knocked on the door.

No one in the room made a sound.

Lu Zhi thought for a while, opened the door, and leaned half of his body in. Si Xinyan sat on the sofa, staring at the night scene outside the house in a daze.

There is a very old tree in front of their window, which grows straight and has luxuriant branches.Shen Min didn't know what she thought, so she installed a few green spotlights under the tree. After the lights were turned on, the tree turned green at night, which was very strange.

Si Xinyan was staring at the tree in a daze, Lu Zhi closed the door and sat down beside him.

Si Xinyan turned his head to look at him, and pursed his lips.

Although Lu Zhi's mind was full of thoughts and he wanted to say a lot, but he didn't focus on his boss's letter, and suddenly he didn't know what to say.

So the two stared blankly at each other until Lu Zhi stretched out his hand, half hugged Si Xinyan, and coaxed softly: "Don't worry, no matter what happens, you will always be a part of the Lu family. Dad Mom, grandpa, big brother and me, everyone loves you. So, this will always be your home, and it won't change."

Si Xinyan was stunned, he didn't expect Lu Zhi to be able to guess what was going on in his mind.

He is actually a bit bored, he likes to keep many things in his heart, and rarely speaks out.

It's probably a habit since I was a child, so it's still hard to change now.It's just that in these years, he has been focusing on Lu Zhi alone, so he doesn't think about other things. Now that they are separated, his heart is empty, and he doesn't know where to put it, and he doesn't know what to do.

He wanted to do his own thing, and he did. He has his own career, friends, colleagues, and his life seems to be full. There are many things to be busy and think about every day, but in fact those are It was only used to paralyze himself, he knew clearly that his man had already been empty.

A person's character has been cultivated for so many years, how could it be possible to change overnight, he worked hard to be strong, but when facing familiar people and familiar environments, everything went back to the far point.

So he was at a loss as to what he was doing and where he should go.

What Yu Qiuyun said was right, he would never be as rational and free and easy as her, stick to his heart, build a thick city wall, and prevent people from entering.

His heart was floating in the air, trying to find a landing point, but he couldn't find it.

But Lu Zhi said that this is his forever home.

Take it easy, no matter what happens, we will always be your family.

Si Xinyan suddenly remembered that because he was young and lost his parents when he was very young, when he came to the Lu family, everyone actually cared about him and gave him a lot of love. He deliberately ignored Lu Zhi's feelings.

In fact, Lu Zhi didn't feel well either. He was originally the youngest son in the family, and he enjoyed everyone's unconditional love.But one day a person moved in, he took his place, took away the first place in the hearts of parents, everyone cares, everyone revolves around him, that kind of feeling must be very bad.

Si Xinyan didn't want to bring up the past, but he still asked: "When you were young... after I came home, did you ever hate me and feel that I took away the love that should belong to you, and snatched it away?" Gone are your parents?" Just like when they broke up, everyone unconditionally stood by Si Xinyan's side, and Lu Zhi seemed to have betrayed his relatives.

Even if he is a scum, he should have his family and someone to give him a hand.But everyone wanted to teach him a lesson and warn him not to bully Si Xinyan. Ever since the two of them got together, everyone felt that Lu Zhi would bully Si Xinyan. Not recognized.

Because Si Xinyan actually didn't trust him either.

Looking back on their relationship, Si Xinyan felt very surprised. Why did they walk for so long before reaching the end? They obviously never thought about the problem from each other's perspective.

Si Xinyan never asked Lu Zhi if he wanted to give his all, but he just tried his best to give Lu Zhi what he wanted.And Lu Zhi never understood what Si Xinyan wanted, and they never discussed these issues, never had a heart-to-heart relationship.

So they separated at the fork in the road, walked farther and farther, and finally were divided by mountains and seas, and could not return to the original road.

"We have been together for eight years, are you tired?"

Lu Zhi let go of Si Xinyan and looked down at him. Si Xinyan was asking him seriously.

They have been together for eight years and haven't talked about these issues, but after they separated, they sat in the room they used to think about life. "When I was young, I never hated you."

"I was very proud when I was young, as you know, very noisy, very rebellious, I don't care if my parents love me or not, maybe it's because of their different temperaments, I won't care about those small things like you." Lu Zhi Holding Si Xinyan's hand, he smiled for the first time in so many years. Although the corners of his mouth were only slightly raised, it also showed that his condition had improved a little. "Of course, I'm not saying that you think too much is the problem. I should pay attention to your mood. It's just that I'm too careless, so you have worked so hard these eight years."

"Maybe in your opinion, I should hate you, as if you have taken away a lot of my things. Without you, I would be the little bully at home, and the entire third floor would be my paradise, and I have everything. But in fact I I didn't think about this, when I realized that you seemed to have taken away a lot of my things, you were already my little follower, so I thought, anyway, this is my little follower, if you give him more things, you will get more Well, he has nothing anyway."

"If he wants, he can give him everything, after all, my little follower is so cute."

"As for these eight years..." Lu Zhi thought for a while, but still told the truth: "Actually, I am very tired most of the time."

They had never been so heart-to-heart. After they separated, Lu Zhi tried to convey his feelings over the years to Si Xinyan, but at that time they had a very tense fight, and Si Xinyan was not willing to sit down and listen to him at all.At that time, Lu Zhi's attitude was also wrong. If they said it like that, they would just make a mess, without any real meaning.

"I've been thinking about it for a long time." Lu Zhi closed his eyes, and slowly recalled the time when his mentality changed at first. "I know he is good, I know he is good and shining, you don't need to stress to me. I know I don't deserve him and I should treat him well, why does everyone think I will treat you badly? Why no one Believe me, I sincerely want to make you happy."

"Even you don't think I can bring you good things. You tried everything to help me. I hope I won't be too tired. I know it's your intention, but I'm just very upset. Don't I Can’t people do it? You have to sacrifice your time and energy to do things you don’t like.”

"Do you remember? There was a time when I was always hesitant to speak. I wanted to tell you at that time, don't work so hard, put it down, just leave it to me, I can carry this family, you don't need Put everything on your shoulders."

"But at that time, I wouldn't listen to you at all." Si Xinyan took his words, and he also remembered the days when he was so busy that he didn't even have a couple of love words or daily conversations with Lu Zhi. "We lived together during that time, and I talked about work, projects, quotations, documents, and entertainment."

"I couldn't speak, so I thought angrily, let's not talk about it. Since you like work so much, then let's just talk about work." Lu Zhi felt that his thoughts at that time were really ridiculous. "I want to see when you will find that there is only work left between us, and I want to know when you will protest with me. But you didn't."

"Even if you realize that we need to communicate outside of work, you won't say it because you like to keep things in your head. So I am even more angry, why didn't you tell me? Am I so unworthy of your trust? "

Si Xinyan groaned, it turned out that they were drifting away like this, gradually losing sight of each other's voice.

They all waited for the other party to speak, but in the end they said nothing.

They were able to be together for eight years. Thinking about it now, it was really a miracle.

The author has something to say: In order to prevent someone from scolding me for whitewashing, I need to make it clear that this is not whitewashing! ! !It's not whitewashing! ! !

Wrong is wrong, no matter what you think at the time, doing wrong things is wrong, they talk about this matter, they just talk about it frankly.

In fact, this relationship has been rotten from the inside. After wearing some masks for a long time, you can’t remember why you wore this mask in the first place. When you hurt each other, it’s a real stabbing in the end.

When I talked about the relationship between the two, I always talked about the past eight years from the perspective of words. Here I wrote some of Lu Zhi's thoughts, not to whitewash! ! !

The above is the author's strong desire to survive.

Don't ask me why I didn't blame Xipi recently, because Zha Xipi wanted to read new articles and urged me to write something else, so I let her go.