About my dream of being their mother

This is simply a big joke.

The child who inherited the mother's last love was born.

His father died at the hands of the curse.

And this child, the child left to his mother before his death, turned out to be an extremely rare and rare heaven and curse.

This kind of heaven and curse absorbs the energy of the mother, and starts to absorb the life of the mother from any part of the body.

[He is guilty. 】

[But the Goddess of Wisdom judged him—this kind of behavior is not guilty. 】

The Patriarch of the Chanyuan family brought a life-saving treasure.

The servant fed Sakurako.

saved her life.

But, this thing can only save her life, so that she will not die early.

But, the lost, depleted part of the body is irreversible.

She is blind.

【She is blind】

After the initial panic and even fear, she returned to her usual tranquility.

She's back to normal.

Mother, softly and patiently groping all this out of the dark, and telling her children that it's all right.

Because she loves him.

She loves her children.

Don't care if you can understand the words, and don't care if the child can understand her emotions.

She wants to say these words.

She wants to touch her child.

Anything she wants to do, she will do.

No worries, no worries.

People who act recklessly and stay awake in madness are the most terrifying.

Please remember.

No matter which time you fell into a dream, no matter how you came to this world.

Sakurako has a very terrifying beauty.

This kind of beauty makes human beings, curses, and monsters—all crazy and excited about it.

*

After the initial fear... you can actually get used to it.

...I have never felt the darkness before, and I have never encountered a situation like today...I can't even imagine...such a terrible situation.

It's just horrible.

Can't see the road ahead.

Can't see what's in front of you.

I can't see other people's expressions...

I can't feel what the world is like...

I am like this, really very... very unacceptable to the current situation.

I can only feel a warm, steamy, fleshy creature hugging my arm tightly.

He groped his way into the dark.

He started drinking milk.

He stopped drinking milk.

He backed away, carefully resting his head on my arm.

my child.

Is he such a well-behaved and obedient child again?

He cries, he makes trouble.

He was vexatious.

I can accept such an ending, the only thing that makes me unacceptable is——

He was forced to mature too early, to feel the world too early, to be sensible and understand right from wrong.

I don't want that.

He should grow up happily.

Instead of growing in pain and despair.

I stroke the child's hair.

It's as if the child... is touching my eyes.

"What does my child... look like?"

What color hair is it?What color eyes?What color is your skin tone?

I have no idea.

I even stroked him without knowing it.

I might even regret dying for life.

Not knowing everything about my child, dying like this.

I.

It's so miserable.

I hate being blind to death...

Perhaps it is precisely because of this situation... the loss of the light of the eyes makes me feel the benefits of the eyes in the past...

"Madam, give your child a name."

Said the servant who took care of me.

Her voice is like a machine, completely... I can't tell if there is any connotation...

Once again I feel the misery of losing sight...

Hey.

"Call it... Shier."

The meaning of the winter solstice.

"He was born in winter..." Relying on my feeling, I touched the child's immature body, on his forehead...or eyes?Or mouth?

Kissed dearly.

Although I don't know what the child looks like, but I know that I gave birth to Shier on December 31.

December 12.

The last day of the year.

"On the last day of the year, I gave birth to a baby."

"It's like a god has blessed me."

This state of mind, I am afraid that few people will experience it.

*

After about two or three years.

My child, Chanyuan Shier is a very well-behaved child.

He would walk down and serve me tea and water.

She is so well-behaved, just like a daughter-in-law in the old society.

My child, Zenyuan Shier—what should I say, I can always smell the bloody smell of rust on him, no matter how I ask him, he won’t tell me, but just keep telling me that I smelled it wrong.

How could this be wrong.

The previous first child, Liangmian Su Nuo, would often come back covered in blood.

If you ask him, he will say that it is someone else's blood and has nothing to do with him.

Now this child, do you not want me to worry?

"If I don't say it, I will be very distressed..."

"I'm worried."

"..." I felt Shir was silent for a while, "Ah..."

"Can you tell mom something?"

"No matter what, I won't hurt you."

"..."

There was a long silence.

So long that I thought the child broke the door and left.

"Don't you hate me?"

He spoke suddenly.

There was no smell in the room, and then, I just felt a cold finger touch my eye socket over and over again.

"Why do I hate you?"

"Because my birth almost killed you,...your eyes are also blind...isn't it?"

"Then, can Shier be your mother's eyes?"

"..."

He froze suddenly.

"what are you saying……"

"I just want to know what Shier is thinking..."

"……don't want."

"Okay."

"Aren't you angry?"

"Why are you angry?"

"..." - why not angry?

"Hate you." The child suddenly became very irritable, "Hate you!"

"Hate... me?"

"Very, very annoying!"

I can probably understand a little bit.

"Don't appear in my life!"

I seem to be able to understand it.

"Why why - why are you bastard still in my life!"

Ah... this child...

"Why did you bastard give birth to me!"

"Probably...I'm guilty."

His rage stopped abruptly.

"Because you were born without your permission, and you came into this world..."

"So, I want to use my whole life to redeem my sins."

"...just atonement is not enough."

"……I know."

"You have to love me."

"Oh, that's for sure."

"Love me forever."

"Do not worry."

"Only love me."

"... Well, I will only love you in this life."

*

Sherlock and I had dinner today.

I am really happy.

After all, after he was weaned, he never wanted to be in the same room as me... Although it was very sad, I could still accept it.

I can't give him a very high-quality life here.

Maybe the outside can...?

No, Shier, who smells bloody all day, is definitely not having a good time.

Ma... Forget it, anyway, I will come back in the future.

I am so convinced.

"Your eyes, are you really blind?"

"Yes."

"Have you seen it?"

"The master took me there."

"A direct neighbor of the Buddhist monastery?"

"right."

I think Shire may have a look of disbelief, even if I can't see it, I can hear it.

"He would do that?"

"...Did Shier misunderstand something?" I thought for a while, "The Patriarch is the only conscience of the Chanyuan family."

"Pfft ha ha ha ha, are you trying to laugh me to death?"

"No, it should be said to be the last conscience."

Shir laughed out loud.

"If Shir doesn't like the family, then—"

"Then it's ruined?"

"No, take it away."

"...Take it away?"

"right."

"impossible."

"No, it is possible."

"I have no spells."

"It doesn't matter if you don't have spells... Ah, Shier originally wanted to see that the Zenyuan family was forced to watch you ascend to the throne, which is indeed a little difficult."

"..."

"However, Shier can have children!"

"Give birth to a child who can inherit the skills of the ancestors and fill up the skill points."

"Then Shi Er will kill all the competing opponents, so that he can justifiably ascend to the position of Patriarch of the Zen Academy."

"..."

"Hey... doesn't Shier like this plan?"

"..."

"Oh... what a pity..."

"..."

作者有话要说：下午还有一更……赶榜赶榜……qaq感谢在2021-09-2023:14:36~2021-09-2212:16:14期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angels of the irrigation nutrient solution: 10 bottles of Yoshi; 5 bottles of Shaoyi; 1 bottle of daily vest, grapefruit tea and loli, cuteness is justice;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!