don't ask about those years

The next day Lin Fan woke up to the sound of cooking in the kitchen. Seeing that Qi Tian was still asleep, he got out of bed and went to wash first. Three or four dishes, and his mother is still busy there.

"How do you do so much early in the morning?"

My mother smiled and flipped the frying spoon in her hand and said, "Your classmates came here for you. You must treat them well. Besides, it's Chinese New Year. I didn't do anything in the morning because I was afraid that you wouldn't be able to eat."

Looking back at Lin Fan, he said, "Your father went to your grandma's house to pick up sauerkraut, and I'll make you a good meal at noon."

After Lin Fan's surgery and chemotherapy that year, although she was not in good health for a while, she gradually recovered well. The doctor said that as long as there is no problem with regular reexamination within five years, the chance of recurrence in the future is very small.

My mother has worked as an accountant for many years. Although she can't compare with the professional women in Beijing, Shanghai and Guangzhou, she still has a restless temperament. After her health recovered, she went to work again, and her spirit also improved.

"Our house is not big, so you two won't be crowded together?" Mother Lin asked.

"Not crowded, quite spacious."

"That's good, I'm afraid you two young men won't be able to sleep." He smiled while talking, and then asked, "What's your classmate's name?"

"...Qi Tian." When he said this name in front of his mother for the first time, for some reason Lin Fan's heart beat violently, as if he was about to be found out, so he turned around and walked out of the kitchen and said, "I'll call you first." Let him get up and eat..."

Back in the bedroom, looking at Qi Tian who was still curled up sleeping there, Lin Fan smiled and couldn't bear to call softly: "Get up." After calling twice more, Qi Tian opened his eyes dimly.

Qi Tian glanced around at first, and when he saw Lin Fan sitting on the bed, he stopped there and said with a smile: "Morning!"

"It's getting late, it's almost 9 o'clock."

"Isn't that too early?"

"My parents usually get up at 6 o'clock..."

As if suddenly thinking of something, Qi Tian sat up suddenly, then quickly got out of bed and put on his clothes and pants, "What are they doing? They can't be in the living room, I haven't washed yet."

Seeing Qi Tian's flustered look, Lin Fan couldn't bear to lower his head and smiled before saying, "My dad is out, and my mom is cooking in the kitchen."

"It's okay, I don't want to give people a sloppy first impression."

In fact, Lin Fan wanted to say, you are handsome no matter what, but he didn't say this because it was too bitter.

I saw Qi Tian gently opened the door, poked his head out through the crack of the door to make sure there was no one in the living room, and then quickly flashed into the bathroom.

……

After less than 10 minutes of work, Qi Tian tossed out of the drawer a small mirror to take a good look around, then turned to Lin Fan and asked, "Is it ok? Is it ok?"

Lin Fan got up with a smile, pushed him out of the room and said, "It's very good, don't dawdle, the meal is almost ready."

When he came to the door of the kitchen, Lin Fan first greeted his mother and said that his classmate had woken up, then Qi Tian appeared from behind him, and said to Mother Lin with his signature sunny boyish smile, "Hello, Auntie!"

Lin Fan's mother probably always thought that her son was handsome enough, but when she saw a taller and more handsome son, she couldn't control her expression for a while, and her shovel stopped rolling, she widened her eyes in surprise and said, "This boy is too energetic. gone."

Lin Fan lowered his head and chuckled, thinking that Qi Tian's goal had been achieved.

Qi Tian hurriedly laughed and said: "Auntie is so young, I said who does Lin Fan look like, so the roots are here."

"This kid can really talk..." Mother Lin turned to Lin Fan with an embarrassed smile as she continued to turn the shovel and said, "It's just right for me to get up, and the dishes are all ready, or I'm afraid it will be cold, Xiao Fan, put the Put all the dishes on the table."

Qi Tian also wanted to follow along, but Lin Fan pressed him on the seat by the dining table and said, "You just wait, or my mother will feel uneasy watching the guests busy."

……

As soon as the food was set, Lin Fan's father also came back from outside.

Lin Fan took what was in his father's hand and introduced it to his father, "Dad, this is my classmate, Qi Tian."

The first meeting between men always has a formal element and has nothing to do with seniority. Qi Tian restrained the ingratiating smile just now, stood up straight and greeted Lin's father seriously: "Hello, uncle! I'm Qi Tian, ​​come here Your family is disturbed."

He has worked in the government for many years, and Lin's father has always been very carefree in receiving people and things. When he saw his son's classmates, he was even more easy-going and said, "Okay, okay, don't disturb. We are glad that Xiaofan has a classmate coming over. Please sit down quickly."

After sitting down at the table for four, Qi Tian looked at the six main dishes on the table, and whispered to Lin Fan embarrassedly: "This breakfast is too rich..."

Lin Fan knew that this scared Qi Tian. Beijingers always have soy milk and fried dough sticks as standard in the morning, but they don’t know that breakfast in the north is as formal as lunch and dinner.He suddenly wanted to tease Qi Tian, ​​so he withdrew his smile and said solemnly: "During Chinese New Year, we eat breakfast and lunch together, and we don't eat dinner until 6 o'clock in the evening."

Qi Tian first looked at the 9:[-] clock on the wall, then looked down at the dishes on the table, and then nodded in understanding.

Seeing that Qi Tian was staring hard at the dishes, he was already ready for a big meal before the battle, Lin Fan tilted his head and smiled and endured it with all his strength.

"Don't listen to his nonsense, he's just teasing you, this kid..." Mother Lin glared at Lin Fan, then turned to Qi Tian with a smile and said, "This is breakfast, and I'll make something delicious for you at noon, so let's deal with the food first." Take a bite, I don’t know if you are used to it.”

"I'm used to eating, I'm used to it, it looks delicious." Qi Tian nodded with a smile and glanced at Lin Fan before he picked up his chopsticks and began to eat.

I don't know if it was too cold or because he didn't eat at all last night, when Lin Fan's mother asked him to serve Qi Tian a meal for the third time and Qi Tian didn't refuse, he finally couldn't help but said: "Don't wait until it's too late." ..."

"Auntie's food is really delicious. I haven't eaten such a delicious meal for a long time, why do you think so?" Qi Tian asked naively, as if puzzled.

Lin's mother smiled happily when she heard it, and said, "If you like to eat, eat more, there are better ones for lunch."

During the meal, Lin Fan told his parents about his idea of ​​going to scenic spots with Qi Tian. His parents knew that Lin Fan was always popular and had many friends, so they naturally happily agreed, and asked them to find a better place after they got there. Don't be fooled by the black hotel.

……

After leaving home, Lin Fan took Qi Tian to the best shopping mall in the city center and bought him an outfit from inside to outside.

When Qi Tian looked at himself in the mirror, he couldn't help but tried to move his limbs before saying: "It's warm to be warm, even if I haven't worn such a thick one in my life, I feel like I can't move."

Lin Fan was amused by the side, and joked, "It's pretty good, I'll show the miniature girls on our school website, is the bear version of Qi Tian more attractive?"

"Why do you think I'm attractive?" Qi Tian approached him and asked.

"Do you need me to think? Are there any girls at school who don't know you?"

"Jealous?" Qi Tian asked with a smile.

"...You're thinking too much..." Lin Fan pulled him forward, "Let's go, don't you still have to pick out gifts?"

As a result, from the first floor to the top floor and back to the first floor, the two went back and forth for more than an hour, but Qi Tian didn't pick one he liked. Lin Fan couldn't help complaining: "Why didn't you realize that you were so ink-stained before?"

"It depends on why, this is the first time you bought me a gift, or a Valentine's Day gift, so I have to pick and choose?" Qi Tian said plausibly.

Later, when he finally wandered into a shop specializing in sandalwood jewelry, Qi Tiantian pointed to a pair of oval pendants on the counter with bright eyes and said, "This one!"

The waiter smiled and took it out from under the counter and handed it to him, saying: "The handsome guy has really good eyesight. This is ebony wood with an extremely dense structure. It will not wear out and deform after many years. It is also anti-corrosion, and the outer ring is inlaid with silver. Young people wear it It's also very fashionable...Our family is self-operated and self-sold, and we do not make too much, and this pendant is the only pair in the country."

Lin Fan took one of them to have a look. The front is a piece of black sandalwood with a slightly glossy texture, and the outside is seamlessly surrounded by a silver hollow pattern. The pattern of three-dimensional branches stretches from the bottom to the top, like a tree sprouting new branches. It also exudes vitality. Turning over the back, the sandalwood is completely wrapped in plain silver, with smooth lines and carefully polished edges. It is tied with a very textured leather rope. It is indeed a good thing.

Look at the piece in Qi Tian's hand, except that it is slightly black, it is exactly the same as the one in his hand.

The waiter explained: "This piece is pure silver, and the piece in his hand is Qianzutai silver, both of which have a silver content of 999, but that piece has more antique effect, and it is also very popular now..." said Wan added: "These two pieces are made from the same wood. It is very suitable for couples to wear. You can give it to your girlfriend. We can also engrave it for free."

Hearing this, Lin Fan's face turned green. Although he really wanted to turn his head and leave, but seeing Qi Tian standing there, he could barely pull his eyes out, so he said to the waiter, "Just the piece in his hand..."

"Both!" Qi Tian looked at him and said.

Lin Fan put his hand to his mouth and coughed lightly, "Just buy a piece, I don't have this for a man..."

"I didn't tell you to buy it. You bought one for your girlfriend, and I happened to buy one for my girlfriend." After speaking, he winked at Lin Fan, then turned to the waiter and said, "I want this."

The waiter hurriedly smiled and said yes, and when he handed them the receipt, he also said, it is really happy to be your girlfriend.

……

When Lin Fanqing came out of the shop with a sullen face, he said to Qi Tian next to him, "Can you stop making trouble?"

"What's the fuss about this? You already bought me a piece, and you have the heart to let others buy that piece, and bring the same couple's style as me?"

I don't understand why this person is always very reasonable, so Lin Fan turned his head angrily and asked, "...Don't you want a key chain?"

"I wanted to change the rope into a keychain, but I'm a bit reluctant right now." Then he said to Lin Fan excitedly, "Can you tell me what to engrave on it?"

Lin Fan stopped in his tracks, "You really reminded me that you are absolutely not allowed to say engraved names later, the risk is too great!"

"You can't name it?" After thinking about it, Qi Tian smiled and said, "Let's spell it..."

"Pinyin is not good, you are afraid that others will not find out what happened!"

"Is this all right?" Qi Tian rubbed his hair and pondered for a while and said, "Then let's start with the initials, one T and one F, this is my bottom line, and I must be satisfied."

Thinking that there should be no risk in this way, it is estimated that most people would not think of it even if they saw it, so Lin Fan acquiesced.

Coming out of the shopping mall, Lin Fan took a deep breath, feeling that the shopping mall was too hot just now, his back was sweating, and looking at Qi Tian, ​​he had already hung the slightly blackened pendant with F engraved on his neck.

It was only now that Lin Fan realized that he was ignoring a serious problem. It would be too far-fetched to say that the two of them have such a bright and identical pendant. Carefully hide it.

Qi Tian happily pushed Lin Fan and said, "Don't be dazed, go home quickly, you are still waiting to eat the big meal made by your mother!"

……

At night, when he saw that the table was full of eight dishes that were completely different from the morning and noon dishes, Qi Tian supported his stomach and said, "I figured it out, how did you gain weight in just a few days?" ..."

After dinner, Qi Tian yelled for Lin Fan to find him a photo album, but he couldn't stand his fuss, so Lin Fan had no choice but to find it for him.

Lin Fan's family has a habit of taking a single photo and a family photo of Lin Fan every year on his birthday. This habit has continued since he was one year old.

Seeing Qi Tian flipping through the photos lined up one after another, from the beginning with a bit of teasing eyes, gradually turned into sincere envious eyes.

Lin Fan saw it, so he stretched out his hand to grab it and said, "What's so good about such a small photo, you won't be able to recognize any child's photo if you give it to you..."

Qi Tian hid and continued to flip through: "Of course I've seen enough of your own photos, I haven't finished flipping through this yet... Look at how skinny you were when you were young, and you looked like you were malnourished. I'll put two of them on our school website later. , to see if you can maintain your school grass image."

I don't know what Qi Tian saw, he suddenly laughed and said, "I thought you were kidding me when you said you were 1.5 meters high in high school, hahaha, it's really hard for you to be able to jump so high, hahaha..." He pointed at Show him photos of Lin Fan when he was still a child in high school.

Seeing that Qi Tian's mood had recovered, Lin Fan was also happy, stepped forward and shouted, "I don't want to show it to me, who begged you to see it..."

The two were laughing and joking, Lin Fan's mother came in, Qi Tian quickly got up from the bed, suppressed his laughter and called out: "Auntie."

"What are you talking about? It's fun for you two..." Mother Lin smiled and handed Qi Tian something, "Auntie saw that the waist of your shoes is too short in the morning, it's not as cold as Beijing here, you are going tomorrow The place is colder and the snow is thicker... I was afraid that you would freeze your ankles, so I found a new wool and knit a pair of ankle wraps, which will keep me warm and I won’t be afraid of snow getting into my shoes.”

When seeing Qi Tian slowly reaching out to take it, Lin Fan still smiled and thought that Qi Tian probably had never heard of anything before, but when he turned his head, he found that Qi Tian's nose was slightly inflamed, and there seemed to be something in his eye sockets. Transparent things are about to overflow...

Lin Fan hurriedly got up and said to his mother: "Got it, Mom, I'll take care of him so he won't freeze... You're tired from working all day, so go to bed early." Then he let Lin's mother out.

After closing the door, Lin Fan didn't say anything, just sat quietly next to Qi Tian.

After waiting for a while, Qi Tiancai took a deep breath and said with a smile as if he had recovered, "I haven't thanked Auntie yet."

Lin Fan patted him on the shoulder, "Tomorrow, there's still time."

……

Lying on the bed after turning off the lights at night, the two of them were so quiet and didn’t talk. The night in the north is very dark. There are not so many colorful neon lights of high-rise buildings and car lights that line the road. I feel that everything is so quiet in the dark. Makes you feel very safe.

"Lin Fan, your family is really nice." Qi Tian said suddenly in the darkness.

Lin Fan knew that Qi Tian was not talking about this 90-square-meter ordinary furnished house, so he asked Qi Tian, ​​do you want to chat?

After a long silence, it was so long that Lin Fan thought Qi Tian was asleep, and then he heard him say: "When I was young, I thought my brother was very good and could do everything very well, so my mother is very good at everything." He is very nice and always praises him. Do you want to learn from him? I also want to learn from my brother, and I also want to do well..."

"I remember once, maybe in the kindergarten, the teacher said that I would make a gift for my mother on Mother's Day... I did it in the kindergarten for a whole week, and made a bunch of flowers with colored clay, each with the color of the petals They are all different, and I found a beautiful bottle and put it in... When my mother came to pick me up from the kindergarten that day, the teacher sent me out and said to her, 'This is a Mother's Day gift made by Qi Tian for you. The class got No.1'".

"I remember her expression was very beautiful at that time, she said she was so beautiful, and she knelt down and told me that she liked it very much. I was very happy at that time, because I didn't seem to be praised by her much since I can remember. I was so busy... But when the nanny was packing up the things the next day, I saw that the bouquet of flowers and the vase were still in the garbage bag. He looked at me strangely and said, Madam told me to throw it away..."

"You know, there are a few very big boxes in my house, and they are still there. They are all things my brother made when he was a child, the pictures he drew, the awards he won...all of them are kept well."

After he finished speaking, he paused, as if to calm his breathing, and then continued: "I later found out that she treats me the same as my brother outside, and she treats my brother the same when she returns home, and she treats me just the same." ...Just ignore it, she doesn't care what I do anyway."

Then he laughed at himself and said: "Later I started to do it, fighting and causing trouble. I didn't understand it when I was young, but I understood it later when I grew up. Maybe I just felt that I couldn't see it when I was done. Every day, I always made some noises." Right. But it’s not very easy, I feel like I can do anything as long as I don’t tear down the house..."

Even though he didn't believe it himself, Lin Fan still wanted to find an excuse for Qi Tian's mother's attitude: "Maybe she just favors your brother."

"I thought the same way when I was a child," and then seemed to think about how to say it, and then said after a while: "Until I went to my grandma's house for the New Year in high school, the old lady was still alive at that time. Originally, my brother Let me go upstairs to ask her to eat, and when I passed by the door, I heard her say inside..." Qi Tian paused for a long time before speaking again: "She said that a child born to a wild woman can be compared to our Xiaosheng... ..."

After saying this, Qi Tian pretended to be relaxed and said as if he had finally let go of his burden: "So all the truth is revealed, but it's because I haven't fully understood it since I was a child..."

Lin Fan thought about the indifference and alienation of the relatives in Qi Tian's family, and thought about his parents' neglect of him due to busy business and other reasons, but he never thought that it would be this reason.

His heart ached a little bit, Lin Fan didn't know what Qi Tian's expression was like in the dark, he only knew that his tears overflowed slowly uncontrollably.

After a pause, Qi Tian said as if to comfort himself: "But my brother is so kind to me, I feel he should know, but he still helps me to carry things. When I grow up, I sometimes work hard. He was the one who went for me, but he was five years older than me. I was in elementary school and he was in middle school. He went abroad when I was in middle school. My dad was busy with his career and couldn't go home, so I didn't want to be at home. Stay and move out later.”

Lin Fan looked in Qi Tian's direction, wondering if Qi Tian would be able to tell other people's stories if he hadn't come to his home to see his parents, even if they were close at hand and couldn't see the other party's expression. say these words.

Suddenly, at that moment, he fell in love with every aspect of Qi Tian's personality, irritable, sensitive, clingy, and deliberately alienated from others... everything stems from the one that made him unable to experience warmth and love. , even hypocritical, repelling his home.

Not wanting Qi Tian to feel his emotional fluctuations, he didn't care about the wet pillow towel, Lin Fan slowly stretched out and grabbed Qi Tian's hand under the quilt, trying to convey something, suddenly he felt that hand turn his back He clenched it so tightly that his hands hurt so much that he didn't let go for a long time...