don't ask about those years

Lin Fan didn't go to eat as agreed with his colleagues, but came to the underground parking lot alone, opened the car window and lit a cigarette, smoked more than half of a cigarette before gradually his hands stopped shaking.

Because Qi Yaoyang brought a child by his side, he seemed less intimidating, but what happened at that time made the impression of this person in his heart solidified, and he couldn't change it in this life.

……

……

In my senior year.

In the second half of the semester, everyone was preparing for the intense postgraduate entrance examination or job hunting, but Lin Fan relaxed, because his grades over the past few years had already paved the way for him. Apart from the need to submit some materials and go through the formalities, the guidance The member has already told him privately that his quota for insurance research has basically been confirmed and will be coming down soon.

It seems that everything is developing in the established direction.

"Lin Fan, have you thought about going abroad?"

This day in Qi Tian's house outside the school, he was reading a book on the desk, and Qi Tian who was flipping through a magazine on the bed threw this question again.

"Why do you keep asking me this question recently? I've even taken care of graduate school. Why do I go abroad? The cost is not small."

"Actually I can..."

"Impossible," Lin Fan said without turning his head, "I know what you want to say, but yours is yours, I can't let you pay for my going abroad, besides," Lin Fan turned his head and stared at Looking at him: "It's not that you can't get a diploma in our school because of your relationship. You can do it in another place?"

As soon as he turned around, Qi Tian dragged him onto the bed from behind with his arms around him, and then turned over and pressed him down.

"You don't like me, do you? I didn't care. I gave you a chance to be a top student. Do you really think I'm not good enough? You can't cheat in the fourth and sixth grades, right? I passed the exam myself." Qi Tian looked at him provocatively from above and asked.

Seeing Qi Tian's vigor in the demonstration at the moment, and thinking about the mania he had when he was forced to learn English before, Lin Fan snorted and said, "Well, don't say it, you've really been fooled by rubbing the edge .”

"Been fooled? All right," said Qi Tian, ​​straightening his upper body and sitting astride him, taking off his shirt, "Study is considered foolish, I'll let you see my real skills."

……

After the number of insurance research places was basically determined, Lin Fan ran here frequently. He used to be afraid that too many people living off campus would cause suspicion. He only came once a week and sometimes he didn’t dare to stay overnight. Recently, he was caught by Qi Tian in two or three days Pulling and running here, maybe the big stone in his heart finally fell to the ground, and his college classmates were running around and separated, so he followed Qi Tian tossing, and he himself also likes this kind of second-hand life that no one disturbs. human time.

……

After a while, Qi Tian rested his elbows on the side of his head and panted and said, "Lin Fan, do you know that I used to look down on myself quite a bit, and felt that I was not welcome by others...but it's different now. , when I'm by your side, sometimes I feel pretty decent."

Then he looked at him and said affectionately: "Although food and clothing were provided in that house since I was a child, I never felt that anything belonged to me, but now, I finally feel that there is something in this world that truly belongs to me." My own things, Lin Fan, I will never be separated from you in this life."

Listening to Qi Tian's words, Lin Fan was moved in his heart. Qi Tian's attachment to him has become stronger in the past two years, how could he not feel it, and why not himself.The little bit of in-depth contact in the past two years has made the two of them like branches and vines on a tree. No one can do without the other, just like losing each other is like losing support, and no one can survive alone.

But he still slightly raised the corner of his mouth and said, "Are you talking about me? Oh~" Then he looked at the chandelier on the ceiling and said, "If you want to say this, first of all I have to be mine, and then it has to be my parents'. Then it will be your turn."

Qi Tian tilted his head and cursed with a smile: "Damn, every time I'm so affectionate, you break the atmosphere habitually." After speaking, he smiled and kissed, "That's fine, then I want the best share." Then The hand went under him again...

Lin Fan smiled and kissed back, that time was the best time for him, the person he liked was by his side, and the goals his parents expected of him were gradually being realized, even though sometimes he worried about the future, but because everything was too much It was so beautiful that he naively thought that things would continue like this forever, and he never expected that a tornado of life was coming towards the two of them mixed with mud and sand.

……

That day, Lin Fan was leaving school to be a tutor, and a Bentley slowly drove up beside him, because he had a general understanding of cars after being in touch with Qi Tian for a long time, so he took a look at this top-of-the-line car, and then a People in their 40s got out of the car and walked to him.

"Are you Lin Fan's classmate?"

"...Yes, I am." Lin Fan replied, but wondered who this person was.

"I'm Qi Tian's father's assistant. He wants to talk to you. Do you have time?"

Being discovered was Lin Fan's first reaction. There was no other explanation possible. Even though cold sweat was seeping from his back, Lin Fan tried his best to avoid it calmly and said, "I have another lesson today. There may not be time for tutoring classes..."

"Director Qi is in the car. If it's convenient, push him over there." Although the man spoke with a smile, there was no element of discussion in his tone.

Lin Fan couldn't evade any more, and after calling his parents to ask for leave in front of this person, he followed him into the car.

After getting in the car, Lin Fan took the initiative to say hello to Qi Yaoyang, but the other party had a cold face and did not respond, so the two of them remained silent all the way.

For a college student who has not yet entered the society, sitting with a businessman who has been in the workplace for decades forms a sharp contrast in aura. Even if Lin Fan behaves normally, his stiff hands that are always on his knees are still Sweating.

The car stopped at a place that didn't look like an ordinary tea house. Lin Fan didn't speak, and was taken to a private room and sat down.

I remember that the last time I met Qi Tian's father was when Qi Tian got into a car accident, in order not to look too cramped, Lin Fan raised his head and asked with a hint of luck, "Uncle Qi, what do you want me to do today? "

Qi Yaoyang leaned on the back of the seat and did not answer right away, but stared at him for a while, and then said the first sentence in a low voice: "Save time, you and Qi Tian should separate."

The hands on his lap trembled a bit, Lin Fan thought that he had been discovered, he lowered his head and dared not look at Qi Yaoyang, but no matter how frightened he was and did not dare to face it, there was only one thought in his mind at that moment, and he must not separate, He can't do it.

About a minute later, he used the greatest courage in his life to say: "We are serious." He had never said this sentence before, not even with Qi Tian, ​​but he still said it now.

Qi Yaoyang snorted coldly with disdain, and then asked: "Do you want money? Tell me the number."

Lin Fan clenched his hands tightly. He didn't know that the scene of a wealthy family dismissing Cinderella on TV would happen to him. Trying to ignore Qi Yaoyang's insult and disrespect towards him, Lin Fan raised his head and said firmly again: "No As you think, we really want to be together."

"No money...?" Qi Yaoyang seemed to think for a while before continuing: "You are doing well in your studies, have you been admitted to graduate school, right? Do you know why Qi Tian can go to school here? If I call you, you will never be able to stay in this school anymore down."

"I don't have to go to graduate school, I can also take other schools, if it doesn't work, I can work directly." Lin Fan said anxiously, these are nothing compared to Qi Tian, ​​as long as they can be together.

"Ambition," Qi Yaoyang continued after nodding his head, "Your parents are from public institutions, right? Do they know about you?"

This is Lin Fan's Achilles' heel, he immediately froze there, he can ignore all the insulting words and threats just now, but this is the only thing he can't ignore.

Unexpectedly, Qi Yaoyang continued to press and said: "If your parents' colleagues and colleagues know about it, if your relatives know about it, what do you think they will think?"

"Uncle Qi, I respect you because you are Qi Tian's father, but don't involve my parents in this matter. If it really pushes me, aren't you afraid that I will make the matter with Qi Tian public?" Lin Of course, Fan would not do this, but now he must seize everything to protect something, and not let his parents be implicated, this is his bottom line, and he must not back down.

"That's what you mean, dragging Qi Tian into it." Father Qi lowered his head and smiled, then suddenly raised his head and stared fiercely at Lin Fan and said, "Childish! Since I can destroy you, I can naturally protect him!"

Lin Fan's gaze weakened, he knew it was true, how could he fight this man as a college student who didn't graduate, he was too overconfident.But he is not reconciled, he doesn't want to be separated from Qi Tian, ​​they are so good now...

Just when he was in a daze, a stack of photos was thrown on the table, and then Lin Fan saw the photos of him and Qi Tian all over the table, kissing involuntarily in the car, and they were photographed in the living room through the gap between the curtains Tangled on the couch...

After realizing what was going on, Lin Fan's eyes were red, he raised his head and glared at Qi Yaoyang and said, "He is your son!"

Qi Yaoyang waved his hands disdainfully and said, "I don't need to use such methods to deal with you. This was sent by someone else, and the asking price is 200 million."

Lin Fan was dumbfounded, it was like this, no wonder Qi Tian's father would find him, no one would be able to calm down even if he was threatened with such a photo.

"I want to send him abroad." Qi Yaoyang didn't give Lin Fan a chance to think, and then said: "I was going to send him away in my junior year. It was agreed when I was just in college, and it has been delayed for more than a year." Then, for the first time, he finally withdrew his disdainful eyes and looked at Lin Fan and said, "If you are really looking out for him, let him go. He is just dawdling in China, and he has wasted a lot of good times in the past few years... I contacted him with the best business school, and he will take over when he comes back, do you want him to live in that hut with you for the rest of his life?"

Finally, Qi Yaoyang stood up and gave him a business card, "I have limited patience, I will give you a month to separate from Qi Tian, ​​if you change your mind and think about something, come to me directly, but," Father Qi looked down at him and said: "Don't let Qi Tian know that I came to look for you, otherwise, you will be at your own peril." After speaking, he strode away.

Lin Fan stared at the photos on the table in a daze for a long time, until it was dark, he slowly put away all the photos on the table, got up and walked out with the last bit of strength.

I came here by car just now, and I don’t know if I’m really lost or I just don’t have the energy to think. Lin Fan stood on the road for a while and didn’t know where to go. He habitually took out his mobile phone and called Qi Tian. I didn't react until it was connected, and quickly pressed it off.

Is there really only one way?There wasn't even anyone to ask for advice, just to preview the separation from Qi Tian, ​​I felt the pain in my heart was unbearable.And how can he ask for it?They are so good now, and that person is so dependent on him, how can he do this kind of thing?

Thinking about Qi Tian's phone call, he hesitated for half a minute before answering the phone: "Hello?"

"When will you come back? The meal is ready and I've been waiting for you for a long time."

It seemed that Qi Tian was sitting on the sofa waiting impatiently for him, and suddenly, tears flowed from his laughter, let's go back again, isn't there still a month left, we all need some time.

So Lin Fan wiped his face carelessly and smiled, "Okay, I'll go back right away."

He took a taxi and rushed to the community, and as soon as he opened the door, Lin Fan hugged Qi Tian tightly.

"What's the matter, Xiaofan? Did something happen?"

I didn't let go for a long time, I just let my chin rest on this person's shoulder, and finally said: "... I'm hungry."

"Damn!" Qi Tian smiled, "I thought the world was ending." Then he patted his back and said, "Hurry up, it's been ready for a long time, it's all your favorite food."

Looking at the braised pork ribs, tomatoes and eggs, and fried celery on the table, they were all his favorites, and there was even pork in a pot.

"You know how to cook meat in a pot?" Lin Fan looked at Qi Tian and asked.

"Family husband, why don't you learn it!" Qi Tian said poorly, "Try it quickly, is it the same as your mother's cooking?"

After Lin Fan picked up the chopsticks, he began to eat in big mouthfuls. He wanted to let the feeling of taste buds and agitated cheeks crowd out other emotions. He smiled and said, "Not bad, it's delicious."

"Why are you acting like a child?" Qi Tian looked at him with a satisfied smile, "Eat slowly, no one will grab you."

That night, he unknowingly ate three bowls of rice. When he got up to serve the rice again, Qi Tian said in shock, "What's wrong with you? I haven't seen you eat so much."

"I told you I was hungry."

Qi Tian stood up and held him back, and then let both of them sit down and said: "Okay, ancestor, I will be afraid if you eat again."

As he spoke, he snatched the bowl in his hand, then turned around and went to the kitchen to pour him another glass of water, "You are in a hurry to eat and you didn't realize it, you should last until later. That's it for today, someday you want to eat I'll do it for you again."

Looking at the bottom of the plate on the table that he had swept away, Lin Fan thought to himself, is there really a next time?

"Lin Fan, let me tell you something serious." Qi Tian pulled the chairs for the two of them in, "Go abroad with me to study in graduate school."

Seeing that he didn't respond, Qi Tian continued to say: "You have got the scholarship at your level, I checked it, so the basic tuition fee is enough, if it is not enough, I will borrow it from you first, and you can pay it back later if you want. "

Lin Fan looked at Qi Tian, ​​and suddenly many things were right. No wonder Qi Tian said he didn't like going abroad before, but he repeatedly mentioned it several times in the past half a year.

But after he put down the cup, he still asked knowingly, "Why do you have to go abroad?"

Qi Tian scratched his head: "Hey, it's not that I have to go abroad, it's just that my dad wants me to go to some business school like my brother. I'm tired of mentioning it during this period. Seeing that I disagree, the old man said a few days ago Freeze my card." Feeling embarrassed, Qi Tian lowered his head and smiled again: "It's not that I have to use money, but I'm used to it, I should have prepared some cash before I knew it."

Then he raised his head and explained to Lin Fan: "But as long as I agree to go abroad, it will be back to normal immediately, so there is no problem with the money for us to go abroad."

Lin Fan suddenly thought that Qi Tian didn't even drive the car these days, and when he asked him why, he faltered and said that he was contributing to environmental protection.It was then that he realized that he had actually been ignoring a very important issue all along, saying that sentient beings had enough water to drink, but this man was Qi Tian, ​​who was used to having ample food and clothing since he was a child, so he really wanted to drag him down from the altar and bring him to the same level as himself , can he hold on?Even if he can persevere, can such a proud son of heaven, like himself, do tutoring and part-time jobs for three buckets of rice, can he bear it?And if one day Qi Tian turned against his family because of him, can Qi Tian afford what he lost?

Seeing that he didn't make a statement, Qi Tian hurriedly said: "That's what I said, you should listen to it first, and you don't have to go, anyway, I will be there where you are, if not, I will find a job, I still don't believe it is possible Suffocated to death by the old man."

Not wanting to spoil the atmosphere tonight, Lin Fan said, "I'll think about it first, let's talk about it later."

But when Qi Tian heard his words, he seemed to see the light of hope, "Really?!" Then he stepped forward and kissed him on the side of the face and said, "Think slowly, don't rush, anyway, we are the two of you everywhere. Together."

……

That night Lin Fan was very proactive, making Qi Tian a little overwhelmed, and giving over and over again brought the two of them to the peak...

Lying on Lin Fan's back, Qi Tiantian gasped and said, "Xiao Fan, you are different today, I like it so much..."

Turning his face to meet Qi Tian's lips and kissing him, Lin Fan said, "I like you too."

After saying this, Qi Tian paused for a few seconds, then suddenly turned his body, looked at him face to face and asked, "What did you say?"

Lin Fan looked at the eyes that made him obsessed all the time, wiped the sweat from Qi Tian's head with his hands and said, "I said I like you."

Without giving him another chance to speak, Qi Tian kissed him all at once, with such force that he wanted to push his tongue out, and then slowly, Qi Tian followed the bottom and pushed in again, raised his head while moving and said: " Lin Fan, waiting for your words is really not easy."

"Didn't I...haven't said it before?" Lin Fan couldn't say a whole sentence intermittently.

"I've said it maybe a hundred times, but it's really the first time for you, sir." Qi Tian moved even harder.

Lin Fan frowned tremblingly, and couldn't help grabbing Qi Tian's neck with his hands and said, "Then let me say it a few more times and you remember... I like you... I like you... I like you..."

Every time he said it, Qi Tian responded to him with a strong rhythm, and the sound of the two people panting continuously came from the room, until once again, the two climbed to the peak...

When he woke up the next morning, before Qi Tian woke up, Lin Fan packed up his things, but actually there were not many things to live in every time he came here.When he finished packing and was about to leave, looking at the sleeping Qi Tian's side face, he still couldn't help bowing his head and kissing him.

When he came to the door, Lin Fan turned his head and looked at the hut again. He knew this was the last time, as if he wanted to imprint every item deeply in his mind, he looked at it again, and finally opened the door and left reluctantly.