don't ask about those years

At the end of the first half of the sophomore year, the students in the Department of Computer Science were surprised to find that their department students fell in love. They used to be alone or followed the boys next to them. Recently, no matter where they went, there was a girl who followed them. .

It's just that the female classmates complained about the girl's appearance, and felt that walking with Xicao lacked pleasing appearance, so whenever they passed by them and saw the girl holding his arm kindly, they would follow him with envy and jealousy. The person next to him whispered: "It's too cheap for this girl..."

This girl is Feng Miaomiao, a freshman in their school. She fell in love with Xiicao, known as the Ice Prince, at first sight. After learning about his history of rejecting girls, she still decided to break through the barrier on her own.

But when she was fully armed and ready to launch an offensive, she found that the Ice Prince was not as difficult to chase as she imagined. During that time, she moved forward, and the man would not hide. She went to the library and sat next to him. He just let her be next to her, she said she wanted to take a walk, and he also walked with her in the school...

As long as this person's study time is not disturbed every day, as if he has no opinion on everything, everything will start naturally and logically, so we have been getting along like this for more than half a month.

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In the evening, Lin Fan was walking on the school playground with Feng Miaomiao's arm in his arms. He heard her talking about who was having conflicts with whom in the class today. During the teacher's roll call, two people yelled for others at the same time and were kicked out... Time acts as an audience, occasionally chiming in with an "um".

Feng Miaomiao looked at the moon full and full, and suddenly his romantic mood increased sharply. He walked up to Lin Fan and stood face to face and asked, "Why do you like me?"

Lin Fan looked at Feng Miaomiao's nose that was not high, but his round black eyes, and thought, why?

After returning from Qi Tian's house that day, he never met Qi Tian again.Although he didn't contact him, Lin Fan couldn't forget the throbbing in his heart at the moment when Qi Tian kissed him. Although he pushed and refused, deep in his heart he seemed to agree and greeted him proactively.

He doesn't want to admit that his feelings for Qi Tian have changed from vague to gradually clear, maybe he just hasn't tried to talk to a girlfriend, maybe he can be like a normal person.

So one afternoon, this girl named Feng Miaomiao walked up to him and asked, "Lin Fan, can I make a friend?"

Looking at her clear eyes, he was suddenly envious of this kind of behavior that showed his kindness to others without hesitation even under the sun, so he said "yes".

So for more than half a month since then, he let this girl named Feng Miaomiao surround him. Although he was a little absent-minded about what she said most of the time, walking on campus, he felt that he was the same as the people around him.

It's just that Lu Feng watched him look a little tired after he came back every day, so he put his chin on the upper bunk and said inexplicably: "Why do I feel that your dating is like running a program, first pre-order the results to be output, and then press The logic is coded backwards. Why can't we follow the normal order of which girl we fall in love with first, and then start chasing after?"

Seeing that Lin Fan didn't respond silently, Lu Feng kicked the ceiling twice again and said, "Qi Tian hasn't come to us to make confession recently, did he recruit some little girl again?" Then he sighed: " This kid probably had a window of time when he was with us." After cursing him for being ungrateful, he got out of bed and ran to another dormitory to eat.

Lin Fan also discovered that he used to think that Qi Tian was everywhere in the school, the dormitory, the library, the cafeteria... that person seemed to be always by his side as long as he looked back, but recently he suddenly disappeared from the surroundings.

Only once, when he was walking with Feng Miaomiao on campus, he heard the sound of a motor behind him, and then the BMW brushed beside him and drove past quickly. That was the only time he came into contact with Qi Tian after returning from Qi Tian's house.

How long has it been so long, and I have gotten used to the existence of a person. It is said that it takes 21 days to form a habit, but it takes 3 months to quit a habit.I don't know if I can get rid of Qi Tian's surroundings like a habit, Lin Fan doesn't know, but he is willing to try.

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One day, Feng Miaomiao said that he was tired of school and wanted to go outside to improve himself, so Lin Fan was dragged to a very stylish western restaurant that looked like a dating place for young couples.

After Feng Miaomiao changed the set meal for the fifth time and finally confirmed it, Lin Fan also breathed a sigh of relief and handed the menu to the waiter and said, it's the same.

After taking a few mouthfuls, a familiar and hearty voice came from above his head, "Lin Fan, why are you eating here?"

Lin Fan looked up and saw Qi Tian who had no city mansion and was smiling at him in the sunshine, so he also put down the tableware and said that he would come out for dinner today.

"Is this your girlfriend?" Qi Tian smiled and asked Lin Fan.

Lin Fan didn't want to answer and didn't bother to explain, but after Feng Miaomiao saw this handsome boy, he kept staring at him intently, and then he walked away and said, "Hello, I'm his girlfriend, and my name is Feng Miaomiao."

"Girlfriend..." Qi Tian repeated without knowing his emotions, then smiled and looked at Feng Miaomiao and said, "It happens that I'm alone today, so I have a table with you, don't you mind?"

Feng Miaomiao finally recovered from the emotion of being amazed and said, "I don't mind, I don't mind, there are so many people." As he spoke, he asked the waiter to add another set of tableware.

Lin Fan found that as long as Qi Tian restrained his irritable and violent temper, he could become liked by everyone. Fortunately, Feng Miaomiao quickly turned to Lin Fan and said, "Let me introduce you."

Glancing at the dinner plate opposite, Lin Fan raised his head and said to Feng Miaomiao, "This is Qi Tian, ​​from our school's Department of Economics and Management."

Feng Miaomiao immediately put his hands over his mouth and exclaimed: "Oh my God! You are actually Qi Tian. I finally saw the real person. Today is really the right time to come out." Then he started talking to Qi Tian like he was chatterbox. How famous she is in school is simply a legend in the hearts of girls.But because we are not in the same department, the chances of seeing him are relatively small...

"Why didn't you say you were friends with Qi Tian before?" After chatting with Qi Tian for a while, Feng Miaomiao looked at Lin Fan excitedly and asked.

"Thinking about introducing you slowly in the future." Lin Fan said casually after taking a sip of juice.

Qi Tian glanced at Lin Fan, and suddenly mentioned: "It's rare to see your girlfriend today, it's a coincidence, open a bottle of red wine."

Before he could stop it, Qi Tian had already called the waiter, "Take the best."

"It should be very expensive..." Feng Miaomiao whispered.

"I'm happy to see a beautiful woman today. I'm fine. I'll treat you."

Qi Tian's current appearance reminded Lin Fan of the domineering boy he met when he first met, but since Feng Miaomiao was here, he could only bear with it.

After the waiter filled the wine for them, Qi Tian raised his glass, "Come on, let's have a drink first, just because we have a chance to meet today." After taking a look at Lin Fan, he took the lead to drink it all down.

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That night Lin Fan was drank a lot by Qi Tian. He didn't drink much at first, and felt his head was a little light after a few drinks. When he came out of the restaurant, Lin Fan felt that he was slipping when he walked.

But when he got to the entrance of the restaurant, Lin Fan still insisted on sending Feng Miaomiao back to the dormitory. In a trance, he glanced at Qi Tian and seemed to stare at him. got in the car.

Feng Miaomiao didn't drink much and was still sober, looked at Lin Fan who was stopped by Qi Tian outside the car and asked, "Why doesn't Lin Fan come up?"

"If he goes back to the dormitory like this, he will probably be stopped by the administrator and punished. I'll take him to sober up first." Then he assured Feng Miaomiao that she would rest assured that the escort would be in place, and Qi Tian let the car drive away first.

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After Feng Miaomiao left, Lin Fan felt that he was dragged to a dark place by Qi Tian, ​​and then pushed back against the wall by a force.

After knocking his head lightly, Lin Fan asked in pain, "Qi Tian! What are you doing..."

Then the hot lips pressed down.

Because he just opened his mouth to speak, that dexterous tongue poked in without warning, entangled him and danced vigorously.This time was no different than last time, although Lin Fan was rational and clear-headed, his body was so weak that he couldn't exert any strength, he tried hard to push back, but Qi Tian just pressed him firmly and would not let go.Just when he felt that he was about to suffocate, Qi Tiantian finally let him go.

Qi Tian grabbed his shoulders tightly with both hands, and almost growled, "Lin Fan, you bastard, you fucking think that this will be all right? You think you can just find a girl and solve this problem? Let me tell you, This thing is fucking endless, don't you admit it? Don't you admit that I was in a car accident and you were so nervous? Don't you admit that you are fucking hard when you touch me? These things count if you don't admit it!"

Panting heavily, Lin Fan looked into this man's eyes by the bright moonlight, it was only a dozen days, it felt like so long, but he still wanted to push Qi Tian away from his side Said: "You let go!"

Qi Tian pushed him hard against the wall again: "You fucking have to explain things clearly today, don't even think about leaving if you don't understand."

"Say what? Don't you know everything? What do you want me to say?" Finally unable to bear Qi Tian's persecution, and finding an outlet for his long-standing grievances, Lin Fan looked at Qi Tian and said this. sentence.

"Yes! I just want you to say it yourself, tell me Lin Fan, can you still fall in love with that Feng Miaomiao like this? You can hide like this? It's easy?!"

Lin Fan suddenly laughed: "It doesn't work? How do you know it doesn't work if you haven't tried it before? With whom? You? It's obvious that we are two men. This is abnormal and shouldn't be like this!"

"What should it be? What's the matter with the two men? Is it wrong to like it? It's a big mistake to put a girl like you who doesn't like it by your side!"

"Yes, I was wrong, so what else? Like we are now? Can we just stay in this corner and never see the light?" Lin Fan said even more desperately, "Qi Tian, ​​I don't know how you I thought about it, but I don't know, I really don't know, I'm not, I'm not..." Feeling that he couldn't continue, his voice gradually dropped.

He didn't want to admit it, kept denying it, the problems that had been haunting him for the past few days had no way out, just stuck there, unable to swallow or spit it out, the pressure was so heavy that his chest was tight and he couldn't breathe.

Qi Tian seemed to hear his despair, and slowly pulled Lin Fan into his arms, caressing his back as if convincing him, and said, "Don't be like this, Lin Fan, don't be afraid, I will I have also experienced it, I understand, but there are some things we can't lie to ourselves..."

When Lin Fan's breathing gradually calmed down under Qi Tian's pat, Qi Tiancai went on to say: "Lin Fan, you actually like me too, right? I can feel that you are also very happy when we are together. Wrong? Since we both like each other, stay together, okay?"

After being silent for a long time, Lin Fan slowly said: "Qi Tian...I didn't think about it, I really don't know..."

"Don't say you don't know, Lin Fan," Qi Tian looked at him while looking at him by the shoulder and said, "How can you not know if you like someone or not! You haven't thought about me these days? Not at all. Did you pass the gods for me, didn't think about the two of us, didn't you torment yourself?"

Lin Fan didn't answer. He knew what Qi Tian said was true. After not seeing Qi Tian for so many days, his heart has been uneasy. Before that, he could finish dozens of pages of reference questions in the afternoon. , thinking about what was going on between him and Qi Tian, ​​thinking about whether Qi Tian would drive if his arm was fine, would he be in a bad mood and find fault with others outside and fight.Even though Feng Miaomiao was walking on the road and talking to him all the time, his eyes were always involuntarily looking towards the parking lot and the basketball court... If this doesn't explain the problem, then he really doesn't know what it means to care. Call like.

Seeing that he didn't speak, Qi Tian buried his head in his neck and said, "Lin Fan, you can't hide your liking for someone, even if you don't want to face it, it doesn't count." Holding Lin Fan tighter, he said : "Listen to our heartbeat, can you feel it? Is this a lie?"

Lin Fanzhen listened to Qi Tian's words and felt it quietly. The hearts of both of them were beating fast and powerfully, as if the rhythm was out of order and they seemed to be in resonance with each other.Surprisingly, for the first time in so many days, Lin Fan felt that he was at ease and calm, and it turned out that this person was by his side after all.

"Don't look for messy people, and don't try to get rid of me, okay?" Qi Tian said to himself, "Seeing you with other people these days, I'm going to fucking go crazy..." Speaking At the last sentence, Qi Tian almost choked up.

Having known Qi Tian for so long, Lin Fan had never seen such a weak side of Qi Tian, ​​and suddenly his heart softened, and these few words pulled away the last trace of resistance in his body.He looked at the dark front without focusing his eyes, and murmured as if talking to himself: "Is it really okay for us to do this?"

Then the man let go of him, and then covered his lips with those soft lips. Instead of the impatience of the previous two times, he slowly traced the shape of his lips with his tongue, and said while kissing him: "Lin Fan, the future is so long, don’t think about what will happen, no one knows what will happen, no one knows what will happen tomorrow, let’s go according to our own thoughts, okay?”

When these words reached Lin Fan's ears, he felt that his blood froze at that moment, yes, the future is still so long, why think so far, he doesn't know so many uncertain things, what is there to be afraid of? Woolen cloth?At this moment, he doesn't want to think about other people's opinions, he doesn't want to think about where the future is, he only knows that now, at this moment, facing this person, is the most comfortable and practical time for him in the past few months, and he doesn't want to let go easily, thinking Just indulge once.

When the desire in his heart tore a hole, the swollen stuff slowly overflowed like a dike, so Lin Fan closed his eyes, and with a sudden heart attack, he took the initiative to gently cater to Qi Tian for the first time.

The other party seemed to be encouraged, and increased the intensity of his demands, across every part of his mouth, exploring over and over again as if declaring his sovereignty, devouring bit by bit like a hungry beast...

When the two were panting and separated, Qi Tian stroked his back with his hand, stroked his ear with his lips and said: "Lin Fan, I like you, maybe for a long time, don't run away, just stay by my side, okay?" ..."

The words "I like you" were imprinted in Lin Fan's mind at that moment, so that for many, many years to come, he could not forget that scene at that time, that dark corner, and the words that person said. sentence.

Then he remembered hearing himself answer curtly, "Okay."

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