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Listen to songs, watch videos, read comics, take a walk, practice calligraphy, and be in a daze.

Ding Shuo tried all kinds of methods, but the feeling of anxiety and extreme self-loathing in his heart still didn't dissipate, like a pestering little ghost, he couldn't get rid of it no matter where he went.

"Huh..." I tried to take a deep breath for the nth time to relax my mind and mind, and I kept telling myself "it's not a big deal" in my heart, but the next second I would be wrapped up in that terrible anxiety.

failure.

Ding Shuo slumped down on the sofa, staring blankly at the funny variety show on the TV, but couldn't laugh at all.

It has been such a long time since they realized their relationship, and this is the first time that Ding Shuo and Yang Wei had such a fierce conflict.But actually it wasn't intense, just a few arguments and then, he slammed the door and left, that's all.

But this state is the most terrifying.

More than once, Ding Shuo replayed the scene in his mind, but in the end he would always blame himself. If his attitude could be eased, just a little bit, don't be so decisive, maybe their relationship will not be so strange now.

Or maybe, if they could have just ignored the big fight back then, it wouldn't be as inexplicable as it is now.

What happened between them...

Ding Shuo has never been in a relationship before, and he is very at a loss when encountering such a thing.The white shirt is still the same white shirt, he is still so kind and gentle to himself, but he always feels that something is wrong.

Maybe the one with the problem is me.Ding Shuo thought.

He wants to open the blog, write one or two diaries like before, talk about what happened recently, and write down the things in his heart that he dare not tell others.

But that blog is not what it used to be, everyone around me knows it, there are no secrets, and I can't secretly vent some unknown things.

What should I do then?Ding Shuo was suddenly at a loss.

After slamming the door and leaving that day, Ding Shuo walked aimlessly on the road.It felt like a big ball of wool was tangled in my mind, which was thorny and I couldn't figure it out.

The streets at two or three o'clock in the afternoon seemed a little deserted, and the only people who came and went in a hurry were the takeaway boys in yellow and blue trench coats.

Ding Shuo glanced at the empty buses passing by him, picked one up at random, and stopped and went.

Ding Shuo couldn't help but think of things that happened a long time ago.There is a familiar smell on the bus. When I was in school, I always took the bus to and from school. No matter whether it is winter or summer, there is always an indescribable smell. It is not good, but it is unique and exclusive.

"Heh..." Ding Shuo smiled expressionlessly as he watched the small science popularization broadcast on the media player of the bus.

In the short video, the science popularizes whether wisdom teeth should be extracted. If they are not extracted, the teeth will gradually deteriorate, and eventually the entire gum will have problems; if they are extracted, it may affect the nerves and the teeth will not work well.

The video lasted for more than ten minutes, but did not answer the original question.Ding Shuo couldn't help thinking: What about coming out?This matter seems like a wisdom tooth to homosexuals, should it be pulled out?

If you come out of the closet, you will hide and hide for a lifetime; if you come out, you may be just like him—no parents, no family, no friends, only him.

But he had a quarrel with that "he", "Hey..." Ding Shuo looked at the scenery whizzing by outside the window, feeling worried in every possible way.

The phone vibrated suddenly, and a WeChat message came, and Pei Lin voiced him, "Brother GV, are you coming to dinner?"

At that moment Ding Shuo didn't know how to describe the feeling in his heart, he was surprised, but very sour.It was as if someone suddenly reached out and pinched his heart, and it was squeezed tightly, making him uncomfortable.

Yang Wei said that he would take him to have dinner with his parents in the afternoon, but why was the person eating with Yang's parents a woman, and why did he send him a message to tell him about this? !

Ding Shuo: "I still have something to do. Enjoy your meal."

Palin: "What are you doing? Are you arguing?"

Ding Shuo: "No, I still have to buy goods, I don't have time."

Palin: "Excuse! You must have a problem! I asked Weiwei, but he didn't say anything, and you are the same."

Ding Shuo didn't know what to reply, he didn't even want to say any more, he didn't want to see Pei Lin's WeChat profile picture, and he didn't want to hear the voice of the text message again.

But Palin seemed to have finally found an outlet to confide in, and sending messages to Ding Shuo seemed like an addiction.

"What do you say you two are having trouble with each other? I am the one who suffers when you have trouble. I am not a human being inside and outside. Is it easy for me?..." You can do this "replacing the dead ghost" with ease.

"Auntie cooked a bunch of dishes tonight, steamed eggs with clams, sweet and sour pork ribs, steamed scallops, perilla snails, all of which you like, I remember Weiwei said that you like to eat these shellfish seafood, the result is good If the Lord doesn’t come, it’s going to be cheap for us...” Eat whatever you want, and behave yourself if you get the cheap.

"Although, I don't know what's going on between you two, but I also told him about coming out. I don't agree with him coming out with his family, but I can't deny that he really wants his family to accept it. You all have done your homework in advance, and it is always good to want you to get in touch with his parents more..."

"Hey, I've said so much, but you're reacting a bit!"

Peilin is still thinking about it, she doesn't know where she found out that he and Yang Wei had a dispute over coming out, maybe it's a guess, maybe Yang Wei told her, but Ding Shuo really doesn't want to Discuss this issue.

He is like a jealous husband now, Ding Shuo feels uncomfortable when he sees that Pei Lin is showing how close her relationship with Yang Wei is between the lines.Although Yang Wei explained to him, his relationship with Palin was not what others thought.It's not like this, Ding Shuo doesn't understand, he's just an ordinary gay guy, he doesn't understand what else can happen between a man and a woman.

After casually sending an emoji to Peilin, Ding Shuo immediately turned off his cell phone, wanting to be quieter.

Lao Yu never went there, and Ding Shuo was so angry that he didn't want to go anywhere, he just wanted to go back to the apartment and have a good sleep.After getting off the bus and took a taxi, Ding Shuo thought, anyway, Yang Wei went home for dinner, and there was a lot of trouble in the afternoon, so he might not go back to his apartment at night, so he might as well sleep until tomorrow and put all these Let go of the unpleasant things and sleep away.

It's just that he didn't expect that this "cold war" lasted only a few hours, and finally ended at the moment when Yang Wei got under the quilt.

Yang Wei's breath smelled of alcohol, he got under the quilt without changing his clothes, wrapped his cold hands around Ding Shuo's waist, and stuck his whole body on Ding Shuo's back, wanting to hurry up the gummy candy, and move Moving around, trying to tie Ding Shuo up with his legs.

Waking up in a daze from his sleep, Ding Shuo couldn't figure out what was going on for a while. He turned his head and saw Yang Wei's tightly closed eyes, and his breath smelled of drinking too much, "Have you been drinking?"

"They said long ago that they wanted to celebrate my discharge from the hospital and my promotion, and they wanted me to go to a bar for a drink, but I have a family, so I can't go fooling around outside, so I might as well go home and have a meal..." Yang Wei hugged Ding Shuo tightly. Waist, said indistinctly, "But you didn't go, my mother cooked a lot of dishes..." I don't know if I was really drunk or on purpose, I leaned my head and wanted to kiss him.

Ding Shuo was sulking all afternoon, this time listening to Yang Wei's drunken nonsense, his brain was not working well, something flashed by, but he couldn't catch it, and flew away like a meteor. .

Struggling to sit up from the bed, Ding Shuo, like a good man, went to the bathroom and twisted a towel to wipe his hands and feet for Yang Wei, whose face was flushed from drinking.Seeing his inexplicable smiling face, Ding Shuo also fell asleep with his arms around him in a daze.

During the half-dream and half-awake period, it seemed that Yang Wei murmured drunkenly: "Ding Ding, I love you so much."

I thought this matter would be over like this, but some things are quietly changing.

"Shall we have dinner together tonight?" The phone rang on the sofa, and Ding Shuo connected the phone in a daze. It was Yang Wei's voice, which sounded a little tired, "We have to have a meeting tonight, and I guess we won't be able to go back until very late. ..."

Yang Wei has been like this for the past few days, very busy, too busy to be seen.Pei Lin said that the project in Southeast Asia is about to acquire land, and now it has started to build a team. The regional leaders plan to arrange a few people with preparation experience to come to the site. It seems that Yang Wei has an idea and recommends himself.

Ding Shuo couldn't say anything about this matter, after all, it was Yang Wei's work, and it was not easy for him to intervene.But remembering that he was injured when he supported the opening of the new venue in Guicheng, he couldn't help but feel a little psychologically shadowed, always worried that he would be injured again.Every time I mentioned this to him, Yang Wei just smiled and kissed him on the mouth, saying "I will be careful."

After coming and going, Ding Shuo couldn't mention it too much. He could tell that Yang Wei attached great importance to this opportunity.He doesn't understand the business circle, nor is he very good at it. He only knows how to do his own sales. As for business management, he doesn't know anything.

Yang Wei mentioned something to him before, such as promotion, such as career development planning, but Ding Shuo was at a loss.What about operation management, investment promotion planning, marketing... He is ignorant and half-knowledgeable, so he can only summarize it in a general way: Yang Wei's career.

It seems that Yang Wei is going to work hard to develop his career, but that's it, they meet less often and get along with each other for a shorter time, Ding Shuo can't help thinking wildly, is this the bottleneck period of their relationship?After all, this state started from the day when Yang Wei wanted to take him home to meet his parents, but he willfully and nonsensically refused.

Even though Yang Wei was drunk that night, he still went back to Ding Shuo's apartment to find him. Even though the sentence "I love you" was vague, Ding Shuo still listened to him.Regarding the matter of coming out of the closet, it seems that this is the end of the story, but the honeymoon period between them, which they wished to stick together every day, suddenly turned into a dull period when they didn't see each other once or twice a day. Ding Shuo couldn't figure it out.

The desire to find a tree hole to vent is getting stronger and stronger. If he doesn't find a place to talk about his thoughts, it is very likely that he will run to lose his temper with Yang Wei in the next second.

What's the matter?He'll complain to him like a bitch.I don’t go home in the middle of the night, I often get drunk on social gatherings, and I’m too busy to see anyone every day. Do you have any opinions on me? If you have any opinions, just tell me, why hide from me...

Ding Shuo understands this matter, but even if he understands it, he can't control his feelings of getting more irritable, uneasy, and anxious the more he thinks about it.

Ding Shuo couldn't sit, stand, or lie down. He felt very uncomfortable all over his body.

Finally, he picked up the phone angrily, and muttered, "Blog you can spy on the screen, but no one knows about Weibo, right? If you can't post a blog, can't I post Weibo..."

So, after Ding Shuo had been anxious for almost a week, he finally had a new blog post on his Weibo.

@黄色的鸭鸭very cute: Because I refuse to come out, my boyfriend seems to be cold to me, what should I do, wait online, urgent!