winter rose

The older a person is, the more fond of reminiscing about the past.The more you can't remember, the more you have to struggle to remember.

And me, Peggy Carter.Now I am old, and my memory is not good, so I can only remember recently.

Remembering the past is still a pretty good thing for me.Because compared with the drowsy present every day, except for some missed luck, my past can be called dazzling.

Oh, pardon the boastfulness of a wrinkled old woman.

But in fact, ha, it is.

I not only have a dazzling past, but also a gift from God.

I still remember the first time I met Perry.

That day happened to be my ninth birthday, and I was about to go home after having lunch at my grandmother's house, but somehow I walked into a... shop with simple decoration?

However, to this day, I don’t know what the house I walked into that day was. One day later, I asked Perry, who had gradually become more cheerful, and her answer was also a nonsensical “house of magic sticks”.

Anyway, when I pushed the door open that day, what I saw was a man in a yellow hooded gown.

He, or she, raised his chin slightly towards me, and said to the little girl with her back to me.

"This is the future you are about to open."

Then he disappeared.

It was a shock to me.Maybe it was because the little girl was the only one in the room at that time, or maybe it was because we were both about the same size and naturally pulled into the distance.

Anyway, I asked her.

"what is that!"

So, the little girl who had been turning her back to me turned around.

She wore a simple and elegant white petticoat with roses embroidered with red thread.

She has long black hair that falls naturally over her shoulders.

She also has a pair of beautiful green eyes, clear and crystal clear, like two dark green crystals.

But I didn't ignore one point, her face was pale, and there was still a slight bruise under her eyes.

She looked at me, and I looked at her.

"That's a person. My name is Perry," she said, her voice soft and clear.

"Perry? It means... Fairy?" I asked subconsciously, and her expression softened obviously.

"Just call me Peggy." I smiled, my shyness and nervousness made me feel like a little girl who walked into a wonderful house in a fairy tale.

"Peggy..." She repeated the name several times. "Peggy is Margaret's nickname, your full name...is Margaret?"

I nodded.

So she ran over and hugged me.

she called me.

"elder sister."

Perry thus was dubbed "Carter" surname.

When she was a child, she had a bad personality, extremely introverted, and very gloomy.It seems that everyone is not pleasing to the eyes except me. The naughty boy from the neighbor's house once played a trick on me, and Perry chased him for eight blocks with a fruit knife.

"Great, great." I said to Perry while applauding.

And she smiled shyly.

Later, she went to medical university with excellent grades and obtained many professional degree certificates.After the war started, because of my brother, I chose to attend the women's special training camp and went all the way to the Department of Strategic Science.

But what I didn't expect was that on the first day I followed Colonel Phillips to the Department of Strategic Science, I actually saw Perry following Dr. Erskine.

She winked at me, as if she knew I would be here early in the morning and came early to wait for me.

At the time she was Dr. Erskine's administrative assistant and a consultant surgical specialist in the Super Soldier Project.I was surprised that she could come, but I felt that everything was expected.

【"This is the future you are about to open."】

Said the man in the hood.

Later, we met the famous entrepreneur Howard Stark, and it was a bit funny to say that we met.Because he has been suffering from a bad cold and has been working in the Strategic Science Department anyway, he went to the infirmary to find someone to hang the bottle.

Then he approached Perry.

I have to say that Perry is the best-looking person in the entire infirmary, but she is not a nurse...of course the point is not that.

So I think this entrepreneur has bad intentions.

In the end, before I could say anything, Perry just stuck the needle in, and this Mr. Howard Stark said he was cured of a cold.

Perry hadn't tried me at the time, so I simply thought it was Howard's conscience.

Later, Perry gave me a tetanus hang and a bullet while I was semi-conscious. I was so painful that I subconsciously raised my gun and aimed at this "suspected Hydra undercover agent".

That really hurts.

Perry likes to sprinkle alcohol on the wound, and the needle technique is also very strange.Every time the soldiers came to the medical wing, they would scream a few times.

But she doesn't seem to care about it at all.

In fact, there are very few people or things that Perry cares about.After all, no matter who it is, as long as they go through that long and longer time, they will become indifferent to everything.

She is obviously a surgical expert consultant, but she became an ordinary nurse after the Super Soldier Project. She has a medical degree that can be hung on a wall, but she is questioned because she is not good at being a nurse.

God, even a layman like me knows that not all medical students have to learn the Nursing Society, but they are so self-righteous, they just passed the verdict on Perry.Say she can't.

So the cold reception I received after the war, Perry had already experienced.

Still, Perry would be pissed off after hearing about all the cold reception I'd received in the Strategic Sciences Department, and would go to the Minister with a fruit knife in his hand... Theory.

She doesn't even care about herself, but I can be the person she cares about so much.

Later, because of Howard, Perry and I had a real chance to fight together.Those days were beautiful, but they were just too short.

It was short compared to the days when I was young, and it was short compared to the good times I had.

But I'm honored, truly honored, that fate gave me such a gift as Perry on my ninth birthday.

Next to my bed is a photo Perry left me the last time he left.

She reproduced in color a black-and-white photo of us, two young women who didn't look like real sisters.

She's straight brunette, and mine has a little golden brown in it.She has green eyes, but I don't.

However, Perry is my sister.

This is a fact.

I've been sleeping more and more lately, and every time I think of Perry, there's something that the hooded man said to us when we first met.

【"This is the future you are about to open."】

He looked at Perry when he said that, but now that he thinks about it, maybe he was looking at me too.

When Steve came to see me the other day, we were talking about Perry.Said that she didn't know where she went recently, and if this continues, SHIELD is about to issue an arrest warrant for her.

I said, that's not okay, so Perry will only run further.

Steve said he knew, so he would take care of Perry for me.

I look at my old lover who is still young, and there are many unfinished words in his blue eyes.But we all know that those words don't need to be said.

Steve and I always got along like that, back in the barracks.Now, 70 long years later, the same is true.

I've been having a dream lately.

In the dream I boarded a long train, and the station sign said that the train was coming from warm and humid England to cold Siberia.The faces of the surrounding passengers are blurred, but they seem to be very familiar.

Until I saw Howard.

wake up.

I don't know when I fell asleep again, and it was still dark when I woke up.I thought of Perry and called her.

On the other end of the phone, Perry was eating something, gurgling.

I glance at the clock.

"Are you eating takeaway in the office again?"

"No!" There was another swallow. "Surveillance video as evidence!"

Years of experience as an agent made me subconsciously say something.

"You must have asked your shared roommate from the electronic information department to help you cover up and find a blind spot."

half an hour-

"Just once... Margaret chirping... the director's unscrupulous secretary made the clerks work overtime and didn't let them eat in the office... your little fairy Perry is going to starve to death..."

I seem to hear mosquitoes screaming in my ears.

"Perry." I sighed softly. "Then what do you do after that?"

A moment of silence.

She is always like a child.

She seems to be a child forever.

If one day -- and I guess it won't be too late -- I'll be gone.

So what should Perry do?

Falling asleep again and again, falling into dreams again and again.To this day, Howard started talking to me.

"Little Pei!"

Sitting next to him is his wife Maria, and Howard gestures to the piping hot melted cheese on the table.

"Cheese fondue, come on?"

The figure reflected in the car window, the woman is wearing a silk red dress with delicate makeup.She was young, with beautiful curly hair.

I stared at myself in the mirror.

Perhaps the answers to many questions, I have no way to know.

But this is their path, after all, they still have to walk by themselves.

Another urging.

I looked at Howard and smiled.

Then he bowed and sat down.

Today, when Perry went to the staff lounge to pour coffee, his hands trembled accidentally, and he knocked over all the scalding hot water in the kettle.

Not only did he splash himself all over, but his right hand was also very hot.

She was in so much pain that she wanted to rush out to scold the street.

It seems that everything is not going well today, and I have been restless since the morning. I can't do anything.Last night Ian said that there has been a strange man hanging around the apartment recently, and it couldn't be more scary.Perry comforted him and said, you are an agent of S.H.I.E.L.D., so there is nothing to be afraid of. Can the door be locked?Then when she went out this morning, she accidentally locked Ian, who she shared with her, in the room. When she got to the office, she found that there were more than 30 missed calls from Ian in her mobile phone.

So she hurried back to the apartment and opened the door for Ian. As a result, both of them clocked in late, and the bonus at the end of the month was cancelled.

It was the same thing when I went to the director's office to pick up the paper documents in the morning. I didn't know what was going on in my mind, but I threw a super British registration bill called Corso into the paper shredder in front of the director.

The director's eyes widened and his mouth opened wide in an instant, almost catching Perry on the spot as a Hydra agent.

It's even better now, and he actually poured boiling water on himself.She suspected that she didn't bring her brains to work today.

At lunch, she secretly brought takeaway into the office.As she was about to eat, she got a text from Sharon Carter.

Perry only glanced at the sender, and then rolled his eyes when he realized it was her, then buckled his phone and continued to unpack the takeaway.

She remembered the phone call Margaret made to herself yesterday. She said that she was still a child and couldn't learn to take care of herself.It's so big, so what should we do in the future?

Perry said at the time, it’s okay, it’s okay, if you don’t understand how to take care of yourself, please ask you more, if you are wronged, you can hold you and cry, anyway, it’s been like this since childhood.

Paige didn't answer at the time.

Now, Perry looked at his gauze-wrapped right hand and sighed softly.

Childish and ignorant, I'm talking about myself.

Margaret was 97, and Perry felt like a fool every time he held her and cried.

So what to do next?if……

The phone vibrated again to remind me that there was an unread text message.

Perry glanced at lunch, thinking Sharon Carter was annoying.

But in fact, she also understands... Her dislike for Sharon is just jealousy.

She was jealous that Sharon's real surname was Carter, and that Sharon was really related to Margaret by blood.

She remembered that she once had a blood relative named Margaret.But that was a long, long time ago.

The phone rang again, and she simply swiped the text message away.

But the heart suddenly jumped violently, and a familiar feeling of dizziness passed.

Perry suddenly remembered what happened after leaving the Tower of London that year.

She quickly turned over the phone and checked the text message.

There are very few words, only two sentences.

【"She is gone, in a dream."】

Perry paused for a moment, his mind slowed down for a while, as if he didn't understand what she meant.So she patiently read another side.

"She's gone...in a dream?"

who left?what's in the dream

Perry seemed to know, but wasn't quite sure.She suddenly felt her heart start beating and uncomfortable, and it was difficult to even stand.

With trembling hands, he dialed Sharon's phone.

"What does the text message mean?"

On the other end of the phone, the female voice had a nasal tone after crying.

"I'm sorry, Perry. But Auntie—"

Perry simply threw the phone out.

Her legs went limp and she slid straight to the ground.

She began to tremble, her chest heaving violently.Heart pounding and dizzy.

Tears welled up from his eyes unscrupulously, and he couldn't breathe evenly from crying.

She opened her mouth as if to say something, but in the end it turned into a baffled whimper.

And what to do after that, if I need to hold someone and cry after being very, very wronged, what should I do, Margaret?

my sister?

Can anyone else tell me what to do.

Tears fell on her lips, and she licked a salty mouthful.

On that day, Perry Carter cried like he was seven years old when he left the Tower of London for the first time.

She stood in this magnificent and magnificent world, but found that it was very big but also very empty.

Margaritas said the world was beautiful, but when she finally came out to take a look, there was no one behind her.

The author has something to say:

Today's Gentle Knife, you put it away

The third volume opens biubiubiu!

This is probably - "capitalist sisterhood"!

The author is very sad. When I wrote it, my head was full of sadness, and my tears were crackling, but it was not cruel enough when I wrote it.

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