winter rose

"Margaret is my sister to me."

Perry paused, drank the wine in the glass, and she simply picked up the bottle.

"But it's not the same for you, Sharon. I... I'm not a Carter by blood, but you are... so, so... I don't know what the fuck I'm talking about..."

She raised her head and took a gulp of strong drink.

"Okay, that's it, that's it." She sniffed. "People would think, how could Peggy Carter's sister have lived so long, and my S.H.I.E.L.D. identity is still hidden so I can't speak at her funeral."

"I'm sorry, Sharon. But it's up to you...I can't, I can't...No, I can't."

In the already empty nursing home room, Perry sat on the balcony with his head bowed.The wine bottle dangled in her hand as if it was about to fall in the next second.It was clearly the midday sun, but when it shone on her body, there was a dead silence.

Sharon Carter opened her mouth, but nothing came out.

"I might not even be able to attend her funeral."

Perry smiled. "It's not good, is it... But I really can't go. Forgive me, Sharon." She added. "Marguerite doesn't like me smelling of alcohol."

"Then put down the bottle—"

"A funeral is a very complicated thing." She jumped off the balcony.

"Don't focus on me."

Then she walked around Sharon and walked out of the room.

Perry took many, many days off from S.H.I.E.L.D.

In fact, this kind of false theory cannot be invited down, but Perry's attitude is very clear.That is: If I don't give leave, I will either run away or resign. If I have the ability, I can be shot, anyway, I have nothing to fear.

The new director glanced at her and scolded her countless times in his heart, but he couldn't say anything in the end.

At three o'clock in the morning, the drunk Perry yawned all the way back to the apartment.

After drinking too much wine, my stomach turned and felt uncomfortable, and I wanted to vomit but couldn't vomit anything.

I heard from Ian that a big case happened in Vienna recently. The Electronic Information Department cooperated with the German riot organization and worked overtime without touching the ground.He hadn't been back to the apartment for several days, and when Perry entered the house, remembering that Ian wasn't there, he didn't even turn on the light.

She opened the refrigerator, and the cold air from the refrigerator rushed to her face, and she became a little more awake.Borrowing the light in the refrigerator, she rummaged for something to eat, her fingers flicked over a row of fast food, but finally stopped on a can of cold beer.

Perry chose beer, and the tab of the tin can was as troublesome to her as the tin can. She pulled the tab with great effort and clicked her tongue lightly.

After drinking the ice-cold beer with fine foam, the overwhelming feeling in my stomach calmed down a little.

Perry closed the refrigerator, turned and walked into the living room—

Something seems wrong.

It is the breath of man.

On the sofa, there is a vague figure.

Perry had an extra dagger in his hand.

"Ian? Is that you...?" She asked tentatively.

no respond.

She raised her hand and turned on the light.

The living room was suddenly bright, and Perry squinted his eyes because of the harsh light.

On the sofa, beside the floor lamp, the Winter Soldier looked up at her.

He whispered her name.

"Perry..."

Before he finished speaking, Perry threw a can of cold beer over.

The Winter Soldier raised his hand to catch the can of beer. The strength of his left hand seemed to be a little stronger, and the tin can was pinched and deformed.

"You drank too much."

"How long have you been following me?"

silence.

"I'm stupid too." Perry laughed self-deprecatingly. "But it's also Jasper's fault. He sealed my magic power, so I don't even know I'm being followed. Oh, and it's also because you're following me, after all, the Winter Soldier."

At the end of the sentence, she couldn't help crying, and she closed her mouth wisely.

"Before I misunderstood what you meant..."

Perry suddenly crouched on the ground, burying his head in his arms.

She felt that she needed to be quiet.

The uncomfortable feeling from the cold beer surged up again, there was a burning sensation in the stomach, and the head was dizzy.

A muffled voice came from the squatting woman on the ground.

"I'm uncomfortable... I'm really uncomfortable." She paused, as if she was going to change the meaning of a sentence abruptly.

"So, can you go out?"

The Winter Soldier froze for a moment, then walked towards the door.

Perry sat on the ground limply.

He turned to look at her.

"Are you hypoglycemic?"

She wanted to refute and wanted him to go out quickly, but her body's reaction proved what he said.

Dizziness, fatigue, hunger.

And of course, the nausea of ​​a hangover.

Perry was helped to sit on the sofa in a daze, and a strawberry-flavored fruit candy was stuffed into his mouth.

She suddenly remembered those years when she watched Margaret train soldiers in the barracks.She sat with her in the jeep, one looked at the soldiers with their arms folded, and the other looked at each other with their notebooks in their arms.

She likes to sneak a fruit candy to her, and Margaret will quietly put it in her mouth after looking around.

That was also strawberry flavored.

Suddenly I couldn't stop crying.

What melted on the tip of his tongue was obviously sweet, but Perry felt it was terribly sour.The hard fruit candy is stuck between the teeth and the tongue, and any slight sob will make the sugar rub against the teeth to make a creaking sound.

She had never noticed this little thing before.

This kind of boring and uninteresting little thing.

But in the past, when eating candy, why did I cry?

"what do I do."

Perry went to the funeral anyway.

She chose to sit in the last row, the most remote corner.

For a funeral, black formal attire should be worn.But she has little or no black clothing.

Then she remembered the box of Margaret's old clothes at the bottom of the closet.

There is a black dress inside, the style is very simple, without extra embellishments.The waist was a little looser, and Perry managed to modify it.

This dress was given to Peggy by Howard, and Peggy only wore it at Howard's funeral.

Therefore, Perry will more or less find it ridiculous.

Wearing Margaret's old dress to attend Margaret's funeral, and the last time this old dress attended was the funeral of her only old friend.

I don’t know whose funeral it will be if I wear it next time.Or, who wore this dress to his own funeral.

It was hard for her to imagine that someone like Howard...a playboy would give Margaret a black dress.

Maybe I don't know Howard well.

Because of his long life, he only participated in one-third of it.

Even Margaret knew only half of it.

Perry went to wash himself off the smell of alcohol.She pulled her hair down and chose a pair of black strappy high heels.She looked at herself in the mirror, except for the dark circles under her eyes after a sleepless night and her pale face after a hangover, she always felt that something was wrong.

The Winter Soldier sat on the sofa, and after seeing that Perry was not dizzy, he began to tidy himself up silently.She still didn't eat anything, except a candy.

The memory of Peggy Carter is very vague, and the Winter Soldier only remembers that he seemed to have said something to Perry——

"Do you know what Steve said after Instructor Carter left?"

【"Do you know what Steve said after Instructor Carter left?"

"what?"

"Steve said, 'Don't lose heart, maybe she'll introduce you to another girl.'"

"...so you asked me the other day if Margaret helped me lure Steve away?"

"Right."]

There is another paragraph that is more clear.

【"What is your relationship with that Instructor Carter? Is it a coincidence that you both have the last name Carter?"

"Margaret is my older sister, and I am Margaret's younger sister. My half-sister."]

He still remembers the sparkle in Perry's eyes when he said "half-sister".

At that time, I thought she was joking, but now it seems that she was right.

Half father and half mother, but her own sister.

The Winter Soldier feels that this is entirely her truth.

Now, the look in Perry's eyes when he mentioned "half-sister" has disappeared.

So I shouldn't have left at that time.

He frowned.

Perry was afraid that he would accidentally cry again and lose his makeup, so he just smeared on a little lipstick.She stuffed everything from her phone, wallet and keys into her handbag, checked the time again, and turned to go out.

"Perry."

The Winter Soldier stood up and called her back.

"Before--"

"Long story short."

His right hand clenched slightly inadvertently.

"I'm sorry I left at that time. Also, one more sentence."

The Winter Soldier looked directly into Perry's eyes, the same eyes as the fragmentary memory.

But it's not just the green in memory.

"You're not as bad as you say-"

"—Then you may have been tricked by me—"

"—but I feel the same about you as you do."

"..."

In truth, the Winter Soldier hadn't expected Perry's reaction.But Perry's reaction in the next second, he felt that even if he thought about it, he would never think of it.

Perry paused, there was no expression on his face, just calm.

"Thank you."

Then added another sentence.

"Now that you're done talking, you can go now."

That's all her response.

Then Perry turned, opened the door, and left.

The Winter Soldier stood where he was, not moving for a long time.

She went very early, and it was only dawn when she arrived early, and the national flag had not yet been stamped on the coffin.

Perry said hello to Sharon, who said she knew Perry would come, but Perry just gave her a look and said nothing.

Steve Rogers also went early. He was one of the coffin bearers. His eyes looked red and swollen, and he probably cried a lot in the past few days.

He also saw Perry, and the two of them looked at each other from a distance of more than half of the church, nodded, and said nothing.

After the choir, Sharon spoke as a family representative, and she mentioned a lot of what Peggy had said before.

Perry thought he was going to cry, what's more, the tears couldn't be stopped.But in fact, she only has an inexplicable sense of familiarity and security.Other than that, nothing else.

Words like going forward and being steadfast are indeed like Margaret would say.

However, even though she knew the other person like Perry, if she wanted to sum up the words her sister said to her that impressed her the most, she also thought that she would never be able to open her mouth like Sharon.

She seemed to be somewhat unable to remember exactly what Margaret had said to herself.

Looking carefully at Margaret in memory, it seems that there is no image of the righteous and fearless agent Carter and the founder of S.H.I.E.L.D., but only a representative nagging.

After chasing a jeep in the barracks and getting shot in the femoral artery, Margaret would nag.

【"Who told you to chase that jeep? Who told you to have your thigh shot through and still hanging on it? Who asked you to deal with the wound alone? Who asked you to..."]

After escaping from S.H.I.E.L.D. to join Captain America's side, Margaret would nag.

【"Who told you to jump high on a broomstick? Who told you to intercept an unstoppable enemy by yourself? Who told you not to run away after being stabbed..."]

In the eyes of outsiders, this is really not Peggy Carter.But for Perry, it was Margaret.

Perhaps this is why Peggy will always be "Margaret" in Perry's eyes.

I have only two relatives, they are both my sisters, and they are both named Margaret.

Perry looked at the black-and-white portrait hanging in the middle of the church. The woman in the photo was young and beautiful, with dark brown hair curled and coiled neatly behind her head.

She is looking into the distance, she is smiling softly.

"Goodbye, sister."

She said it last.

The author has something to say:

Today's author has something to say you need to see the last sentence

Otherwise you will miss a winter baji

:)

Happy to see the Winter Soldier's confession rejected

In fact, his timing was completely wrong.

Perry's mind is full of Margaret's death and I have no family.

How do you have the energy to deal with shit?

But soon, she has to have the energy to deal with things

:P

ps, I can’t even write without fairy comments... You guys don’t cherish my previous daily updates at all

and so……

Winter Soldier (everyday deadpan face):

"Without commenting on her, there is no motivation to update, without updating Perry, there is no energy to deal with my affairs, and I can't live without Perry. So—"

He paused, his bright blue eyes blinked, and there was still some urgency in them.

"—Could you please comment more...Thank you in advance for this, er, ma'am? Miss? I mean, you. Thank you."

He looked away hastily, with a funny blush on his cheeks.

So you opened the comment code and posted a long comment.

pps, in fact, it’s good to just give it a “squeak” after reading it... Read the comments on “Arkham and Azkaban” next door, and I’m very satisfied with “good”.