winter rose

"I told Tony."

This was the first thing Perry said when Steve came to break the prison.

At that time, Steve was still surprised that Perry was in a wheelchair, but after hearing this sentence, it seemed that he had expected it a long time ago.

In the helicopter, Steve said to Perry.

"I thought I was hiding this secret to protect Bucky and Tony, but in reality, I was protecting myself."

He looked at her, and now, those blue eyes, as clear as Bucky's, were full of calm.

"Perry, Bucky already knew, he wanted to meet you."

Wakanda

It was a little cold when Steve pushed Perry into the Wakanda laboratory, and Perry shivered from the cold, thinking that he had come to winter all of a sudden.

Perry really hated winter.

The Wakanda princess named Su Rui was very interested in Perry's paralysis, saying that Yunyun would be cured soon if she was here.

"Thank you for your kindness, Princess." Perry didn't seem interested in whether his leg could be cured. "But if I met you when I had a physical fracture before, my lumbar spine still has secondary damage from magic... so forget it, it's fine like this, anyway, I'm lazy and don't like to walk .”

This is really a bad joke.

She sees Bucky.

Metal left arm truncated.

It's just the two of them in the lab.

Perry looked at his leg, then at Bucky's right arm. "In this case, will it be a little trouble for you to hug me?"

After saying that, he laughed first.

Bucky was wearing a white cotton vest, and he looked nothing like a patient with a broken arm.He smiled back, then walked over, pushing Perry's wheelchair to the window.

He knew that Perry especially liked the position by the window.

"So Bucky, would you blame me?"

"You think it's your fault?"

"After all, I was the one who swore to hide this secret forever...Although I didn't seem to tell you that, but that's what I thought and decided, and I told Tony." Perry's eyes flicked off "Your metal arm can be used because it is connected to the spinal nerve. You must not feel nothing when it is broken... I thought I was sabotaging the fake doctor's plan, but in fact my purpose was extremely selfish. I'm always just going to screw things up, and maybe I'm not fit to be around people, but better to die in the Tower of London."

"It's because you grew up in that kind of isolated place that you don't want to be in a place with people." Bucky stretched out his right hand and patted Perry's head.

"Perry, you didn't do anything wrong, and you shouldn't feel guilty about it."

"Bucky..." She looked at his expression, pulled his leg and leaned towards him. "I think it's good to be a person without a conscience, but I can't. You didn't find out that I was a very bad person before, and that's because everyone was young at that time. You thought I had a breath of peace, but It’s not actually a breath of peace, it’s just that you don’t care about it.”

"Given enough time, I think I'll tell Tony."

Perry froze for a moment.

"I didn't even think about hiding those secrets."

Bucky continued, "Avoiding is never the best option, so... Perry, you just did what I wanted to do."

She didn't speak, just looked at him, but as she watched, her clear green eyes gradually became hazy.

Perry wanted to divert his attention, but as soon as he turned his head to the side, he was attracted by the rough modification marks on Bucky's left shoulder connected to the mechanical arm.She subconsciously wanted to reach out to touch it, but when she reached halfway, she remembered that if she couldn't stand up, then this height was really difficult.

"This method...is not as good as an intern doctor?" Perry said.

Bucky followed her gaze and smiled after hearing the familiar opening line.

"Not every doctor is as patient as Dr. Carter."

"No."

For both of them, suffering is not a good joke, it is like a subconscious rejection of the past.Like Bucky didn't like Perry's jokes with that code.

But things seem to be different now.

But what kind of difference, neither of them can say clearly.

Perry reached out and landed on his waist and abdomen, and she could still feel the scar almost a century ago through a layer of pure white cotton.

It was a deeply embedded piece of shrapnel that Perry had removed from him during their reunion in the medical wing at the front.

Her sewing stitches have never been so meticulous, and they are even more classic than those buckled in textbooks.

She clicked her tongue, and pulled the hem of Bucky's little white vest out of his trousers.

The subordinate froze, "Perry..."

"Don't talk, don't talk." Perry supported his clothes with one hand, and stretched out his hand to stroke the stitched scar on his lower abdomen.

"The last time I sewed a wound was many years ago."

Bucky didn't say anything, just stared at Perry from this overlooking angle.

She ran her fingertips over the pale scar, just as Dr. Carter had done to Sergeant Barnes on the operating table in the hospital wing.

"I suddenly remembered..." Perry paused, curling up the corners of his mouth, as if he was saying something funny.

"I remembered, Bucky, the time we were together in the true sense was less than half a year. But in fact, we have all lived for a long time."

"Whether a person is important or not has nothing to do with the proportion of company time in life." Bucky clasped her hand that tickled him, with a gentle tone.

"So even if it's just for one day, you mean a lot to me."

It really matters, dear Perry.

He had never noticed before how small Perry's hands were compared to his own.

It's so small that if you don't hold it tightly, it will slip away soon.

Perry looked at his hands.There are thick calluses on the palms for holding guns, and there are abrasions and redness on the knuckles.It's not that she's unfamiliar with Bucky's hand, it's just that when she dances in the tavern, it's the hand that belongs to Sergeant Barnes, not the hand that belongs to... the Winter Soldier as it is now.

Bucky looked at Perry who fell into silence again, and suddenly hoped that it would be fine for Perry to remain silent like this.

If this moment can be extended infinitely, it can be extended to eternity.Then I don't have to say those words about leaving again.

"Perry, I have something to tell you—"

"Can you give me a hug?" Perry suddenly looked up at him, his clear green eyes looking at him expectantly.

So the words that were not spoken were swallowed back into the stomach.

And Perry took Bucky's momentary hesitation more as a kind of embarrassment and hesitation, so she added another sentence.

"Just bend over and hug me, it's not like asking you to hug me." She deliberately said the difference between the two hugs, and added a little self-deprecating joke at the end.

"I know I'm fat, so you shouldn't hesitate for so long."

Bucky smiled and leaned over to wrap her in his arms.

Perry shook her head against his chest, maybe the setting sun from the window was also glaring, she always felt a little uncomfortable.

So, how long will it be before the next time you can hug Perry?Bucky thought.

"Why does the King of Wakanda suddenly seem to have a good relationship with Steve?" Perry asked in a muffled voice.

"...Maybe because we helped him catch Zemo when he was in Siberia, that fake doctor, the real culprit of the Vienna bombing." Bucky mentioned what happened in Siberia again.

"Tony Stark had a bad face when he came, and I thought you might have said it. It wasn't until Zemo played that... video that it really angered him."

Perry moved in his arms.

Bucky let go and looked at her legs.

"The technology here is much more advanced than outside, and your legs can still be cured." Then he reminded me to remember to bring sugar in my pocket.

"The secondary damage of magic is almost irreversible. I think it's fine as it is. Anyway, I don't bother to move."

"Secondary damage?" Bucky seemed to have grasped some important words. "What happened that time?"

"...It's nothing, it might have been bitten by a three-headed dog." Perry quickly changed the subject. "As for the thing about remembering to bring sugar, it's fine if you remember it?"

It seems that the more time passes, the more reluctant to tell the truth.The words in Bucky's mouth went back and forth a few more times, but in the end he still couldn't get it out.

Perry looked at his unspeakable strange expression, smiled, and directly pulled his clothes and pulled him down again.

"Closer," she said.

Bucky obediently complied.

Then Perry smiled and kissed him.

It seems that Perry will always have the sweet smell of strawberry candy. Now Bucky, who has recovered his memory, tastes the familiar taste and thinks of something, but remains silent.

The tip of his tongue brushed against the soft lips, and Perry suddenly laughed out loud, Bucky grabbed the back of her head, forcefully suppressing Perry's sudden laugh.

Kissing this kind of thing, about the Winter Soldier<><>

In an ambiguous posture and distance, Perry, who was originally active, also actively pushed Bucky away.

"When can I go to LWL, they seem to be in arrears with my rent again."

As he spoke, he rubbed the corner of his mouth.

When Bucky heard this, it seemed that it was time.

"Perry, you know, what Hydra instilled in me is still..."

He spoke slowly, as if he was stalling for time.

"...and then?" Perry didn't quite understand what he meant.

"So, Perry." Bucky finally raised the eyes he chose to look directly at Perry and said that.

"I'll have to freeze it for a while before I can figure out how to un-"

"How long is a period of time?"

"...Perry."

"One week? One month? One year? Or two or three years?" She wanted to stand up and ask carefully, but even though she tried her best to support her arms on the armrest, she still couldn't feel her legs.Perry's voice trembled a little, as if he could shout out in the next second.

"Bucky Barnes, how long is a period of time?"

He glanced outside the door, and Steve opened the door and walked in after receiving the signal, pushing Perry's wheelchair to go out.

"Bucky?!"

Perry was a little flustered, she seemed to understand the meaning of Bucky's silence, but she didn't really want to know.

She pressed the wheel hard, turned around and grabbed Steve, who had his head down and said nothing, and asked him in an almost questioning tone.

"Steve Rogers, what the hell is going on with this bloody farewell to the bloody body just now?"

Steve opened his mouth, but nothing came out.

Su Rui came in from the door, holding a needle in his hand.

"Bucky Barnes?" Perry looked at him. "What did you mean by that sentence just now!" She patted the armrest angrily, and finally realized that the long conversation just now was just farewell.Steve was still pushing the wheelchair out, and she couldn't stand up, but that didn't mean she couldn't stand for a while.

There was a flash in Perry's hand, and the orange light flashed across her unconscious legs. When she passed the door, she stood up on the threshold, then pushed Steve away, and staggered a few steps back to Bucky. before.

Excessive overdraft magic made him feel uncomfortable with a splitting headache, Perry almost threw himself on Bucky, and he immediately caught Perry.

"So how long is it?"

Seeing that Bucky didn't respond, Perry looked at Su Rui again.

"How long will he be frozen?"

"Well... this question." Su Rui glanced at Steve as if asking for help. "Maybe it depends on the specific situation..."

"So even you don't know how long?"

Perry closed her eyes and calmed down for a while. She had a severe headache, and the light surrounding her legs was dimming at a speed visible to the naked eye.

"No, I don't agree." She said when she opened her eyes again.

"Just go to LWL, we'll be safe, safe! Bucky, I swear, I swear, no one will know that broken code, just go there. You, you don't, stop freezing like an old Popsicle I , I, I've been looking for you for many years, and it's been less than 24 hours since we reunited. You can't do this, you can't...you can't want me..."

At the end of the sentence, the tone fell, and her tears fell along with it.

Bucky looked at Perry whose eyes were red, but still shook his head.

"James Buchanan Barnes!"

Perry screamed out.

"Are you deaf! I said, I! No! Agree! Agree!"

"I've been looking for you for years and now you're telling me you're going to freeze again? Are you fucking crazy!"

"I'm not safe, Perry. I'm an insecure, dangerous being. That's the only way."

"Bucky!"

"Perry, but it's my choice."

When the cold air filled the cryogenic chamber, Perry was already waiting outside the door.

At that time, she was ready to cut her wrist and use force to solve it if she couldn't.However, the huge energy consumed in the melee before made her exhausted, and her legs lost their magical support. Perry fell to the ground and was taken out abruptly.

She remembered that she said a lot of threats to Bucky in a panic, but basically they all revolved around herself.

But Bucky knew her too well, and his answer was just——

"Remember to prepare sugar in your pocket."

fuck it!

Perry frantically wiped away the tear that was hanging from his chin.

I don't know how long it will be until the next meeting.Just the thought of such a thing is unbearable, and more and more tears flow down my chin and finally fall on my hands.

Perry heard the sound of the instrument shutting down and knew it was over.

Waiting takes an infinite amount of time.It's only less than a century of separation, but I feel it is longer than the 520 seven years I have lived.

It seems that a lot of words have not been said, and many promises have not even had a chance to be recalled.

According to legend, there is a thorn bird that sings only once in its life.

That song was more beautiful and sweet than that of any creature in the world.

From the moment she leaves the nest, she seeks out the thorn tree until she finds it.

Then she thrust herself into the longest, sharpest thorn, and sang among the savage branches.

This is an incomparably beautiful song, and the end of the song is exhausted.

Yet the whole world listens and God smiles in his firmament.

Because, the best things can only be exchanged with deep pain and great trauma.

But Bucky.

If my best thing is you.

So even if it is a long and painful wait, I think it is not impossible.

The wait was long, painful and difficult.

Bucky

But I don't even know if there is really a future ahead.

The author has something to say:

A chapter with a lot of words

In fact, all the conversations between Bucky and Perry in these chapters are running-in

Different attitudes and life experiences

This chapter is a bit cruel, reunited after a long absence but separated again

But Perry, you really have a bright future.

ps, look, those readers who appeared when I stopped watching, they all disappeared again!

Coincidentally, this is the last chapter I have saved. I will go home today and I will touch my computer in the evening. I will have to wait a day or two for an update.