When can I be resurrected? [Zhongyingmei]

"You should have told me when you found out, Erin."

Irene's arrival has indeed revealed those long-sealed secrets that have never been known.

The blond man's brows have never been stretched, and his handsome face has a heavy expression. He is constantly recalling the past between him and Flora in his memory, and deeply regrets those details that he has neglected unintentionally.

"Steve, I'm sorry. I swore to Flora not to tell anyone, especially you, what I know." Irene looked at Steve, the eyes of an old woman The heart is full of apologies, and the debt that has been accumulated in my heart is especially for Flora who has passed away. "Now that I recall that time, I realize how ridiculous this promise I insisted on is."

"Irene, I know you've done your best to help Flora." Steve shook his head slightly, indicating that Irene didn't need to feel sorry for him, "It's just me... I don't know anything, Did nothing."

Steve was tormented by his ignorance and inaction.

He had thought that he was the one who knew Flora best.

Yet he knew nothing of the darkness behind Flora's vigor and brilliance.

The blond man stared at the long-haired ghost in front of him, so close yet so far away.He suddenly realized that what he and Flora missed were not only the 70 years of separation due to ice, but also those secrets that he hadn't understood even though they met every day.

"I tried to help Flora, but I didn't know how to help her. All I could think of was to spend more time with Flora. Even if Mrs. Orwell didn't welcome me, I was very stubborn. Go to Flora's house as a guest. Later, Flora finally told me some secrets that no one knows." Irene continued, "I think you guessed it, the small cellar is a punishment room, its existence It is to punish Flora for being "not well-behaved". Once Flora does something against Mrs. Orwell's wishes, she will be locked inside."

The blond man listened, frowning.

It was hard for him to imagine being locked up by his mother in such a small and dark place, lonely, fearful, helpless, depressed... Flora spent such an incomparably torturous time alone in the absence of light.And Mrs. Orwell loathed his existence so much, and how many times Flora, who fell in love with him, accepted Mrs. Orwell's [punishment] silently.

Steve remembered that he once asked Flora why she liked to go to parties so much, and the long-haired girl with a flowery smile amidst the laughter around her said to him with a smile——

[Because I just like lively places. ]

Today, this answer seems to have a deeper meaning.

——It is precisely because I have experienced the loneliness that no one can tell since I was a child, so I am more afraid of loneliness.

——It is precisely because I am afraid of being alone that I always run to places where there are many people.

Steve stared blankly at Freddy, the man's incomparably strong heart was throbbing with intense pain at this moment.

—Flora, who was afraid of loneliness, became a lonely ghost.

Before I met him, I was wandering aimlessly in the huge New York so alone.No one can see her existence, no one can hear her voice, no one can feel her helplessness and loneliness.

Such a vast world is another [cellar] to Flora.

"I really can't imagine that Mrs. Orwell, who clearly cared for Flora in everyone's eyes, has educated Flora in such a ruthless way since she was a child. The more I go to Flora I went to the house, and the fear of Mrs. Orwell deepened in my heart. She is like a devil, controlling Flora's life." Irene didn't notice Steve's gaze, and the old woman was still immersed in In his own memory, "But Flora told me that she was used to it."

Freddie listened to Erin's story, and suddenly... he thought of Carrie.

At the very beginning, he met Carrie because he heard Carrie's helpless cries in the prayer room.

He befriends Carrie and chooses to stay with her, not just because Carrie is the only girl who can see him.It was because for some unknown reason, Freddy always cared about Carrie, and there was something about Carrie that attracted him, making him wish from the bottom of his heart that he could help this poor girl.

Perhaps, it is precisely because of similar experiences.

That's why Freddie was so persistent.

"Flora is still dating you, and she is still being punished by Mrs. Orwell, but she doesn't seem to care." Irene sighed deeply, "I was thinking at that time, when you got married, would you Flora can escape from Mrs. Orwell's control. But I am deeply afraid that Mrs. Orwell will explode completely at that time, and will be even more hysterical and crazy to prevent Flora from going to freedom and happiness life."

"But in the end, my concerns didn't come true." Irene looked at Steve.

But it wasn't because Mrs. Orwell let go, it was—

"Because, I left." Steve said dryly.

"Yes, because the war broke out, you went to join the army." Irene nodded, "Mrs. Orwell's mood improved after you left Brooklyn. Even facing me, Mrs. Orwell even You can greet her with a smile. After you left, Flora was the most well-behaved in Mrs. Orwell's heart, and she seemed to have returned to the most perfect and considerate mother to Flora. But, I know , even if Mrs. Orwell stopped punishing Flora, Flora would be even more unhappy. After you left, her eyes seemed to lose their luster."

"That's when I realized—"

"Perhaps in Flora's life, you are the ray of light she tried her best to grasp."

Steve's pupils constricted and his heart trembled.

For a long time, in his memory, Flora was always the most radiant girl.She is so attractive to him, energetic, laughing, passionate... In his heart, this girl's world must be full of warm and bright light.

Yet Irene says that [he] is the light that Flora is trying to catch on to.

"But, Steve, do you know? When you chose to become a soldier and became Captain America, you also became a light that she couldn't catch." Irene said in a vicissitudes of life, "You are so thin How many days and nights can she survive on such a fierce battlefield? What she can wait for is your return, or the news of your death?"

"However, who would have thought that you would become Captain America. I think you must have thought that after becoming Captain America, Mrs. Orwell might look at you differently and finally agree to Flora's marriage with you." Irene Continued, "However, the truth of the matter is that no matter who you are, Mrs. Orwell will not allow anyone to take Flora away from her. And although Flora won't say it, I know that for Flora Said, as Captain America, you are getting farther and farther away from her."

Freddie listened quietly to Erin's words.

Inexplicable emotions also began to surge in his heart, and even a strange picture appeared in his mind.

——The person who was close at hand, after embracing him, went to the road far away.

——He stared at the firm back of the person leaving, and stood still and watched.

——The light of that person's figure is getting brighter and brighter, but the distance from him is getting farther and farther.

——that was the light he... couldn't grasp.

"But at that time, I was actually still very optimistic." Irene said, "Mrs. Orwell didn't pay attention to Flora's marriage, and Flora was willing to wait for you. We can be together. But an accident happened suddenly, and Mrs. Orwell died of a heart attack."

"What happened?" Steve also realized that Mrs. Orwell's sudden death had something to do with it.

"I don't know what happened." Erin shook her head. "When I knew about it, Flora had disappeared. But I learned that on that day, someone saw Flora cut her hair short." Hair, Flora said she wanted a new hairstyle. But Mrs. Orwell, she has very extreme requirements for Flora's appearance. You may not know that every time Flora cuts her hair, Orwell The lady cut it herself, and Flora has always had long hair. I have wondered countless times what happened that day, and I think that if there was a strong stimulus for Mrs. Orwell's heart attack, it must be Flora's short hair."

Steve was stunned, if it was true what Erin said.

Then Flora must think that it was her cutting her hair that killed her mother.

"Maybe I'm an indifferent person. Mrs. Orwell died. I don't feel sorry for her death. I even feel that Flora is finally free. However, I never saw Flora again. " Thinking of this, the eyes of the old woman gradually turned red, "Even though Mrs. Orwell is such a radical and crazy woman, she is still the mother who raised Flora, and she is Flora's only relative. If Flora really wanted to escape from Mrs. Orwell's control, she would have left long ago, but she has always endured, and has even lived according to Mrs. Orwell's wishes for her."

Freddy was silent.

Although he has no memory of Mrs. Orwell, he knows one thing in his heart——

He can't choose what kind of person his mother is, but he still chooses to love his mother.

"Steve, I don't know what to say to you." The old woman's voice trembled slightly. At this moment, her heart was full of sadness and regret. Tears were streaming down her cheeks, and she stretched out her vicissitudes of life to hold Steve tightly. "The Flora you see is the real her, but not all of her. Think about Flora's life. A girl has been controlled by her mother since she was a child. Once she does something wrong, she will be controlled by her mother." Locked in a dark cellar, she is always cursed by her closest relatives. She is more sensitive, depressed, lonely, and even inferior than you imagine, and she is far less strong and brave than you imagine .”

At this moment, Steve's firm belief that Flora would not commit suicide was finally shaken.

Captain America knows very well that the collapse of a person is not an instant.

It was a messy pile of countless dark moments, which collapsed suddenly at the last moment.

Flora, who has never escaped from the oppressive torment, has been walking on the crumbling single-plank bridge as hard as she can.And when her mother died in front of her eyes, her world must have suffered a devastating collapse and fall.

"I've always felt regretful. If I had been by Flora's side that day, she might not have left. Besides, Steve, you weren't by her side either." The old woman choked up and said, emotionally Extremely fluctuating, "At that time, you had been away for two years. If you had been here, perhaps Flora would not have made such a choice."

Captain America's breath was suffocating, and his sad blue eyes were full of pain.

When Flora was helpless, in pain, and in despair, he was never by her side.

Steve raised his eyes and looked at the long-haired ghost standing not far away with deep and complicated emotions.

——She still met him with the most beautiful appearance in his memory.

——Is it because of unfulfilled promises and obsessions that made her soul wander in the world.

What Irene knew afterwards was what Steve had already investigated.

Witnesses saw Flora walking south alone, and found Flora's hairband in the woods and lake.

—After that, no one saw Flora again.

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