When can I be resurrected? [Zhongyingmei]

Erin left Captain America's house shortly after.

The old woman was too emotional, tears were streaming down her wrinkled face, and her stooped body was trembling uncontrollably.Her grandson, seeing her grandmother in such a sad state, did not want her to continue recalling that sad past.

Steve also learned from Irene why Irene had the pearl necklace that he had given to Flora and that Flora had always worn.Irene couldn't remember the day when Flora took off the necklace and kept it in the box and never put it on again.After Flora disappeared, Erin took Flora's necklace as a memory of Flora.

Now that the pearl necklace is back in Steve's hands, it can be regarded as returning to its original owner.

[Perhaps, when Flora chose to take off this necklace, she may have realized that you will not come back. ]

[As Captain America, you bear an inescapable responsibility. ]

[You are no longer just the Steve Rogers that Flora knew, you have become a hero for the people, for peace, for freedom.You are the banner of victory in the hearts of countless people who are eager to quell the war. You are the leader of all soldiers who charge on the battlefield. If you live, you will only go to the next battlefield, and that is a war with no end in sight. ]

[Perhaps Flora has foreseen that you will eventually sacrifice your life for this country. ]

Steve kept thinking about what Irene said, and stared at the box in his hand calmly. The pearl necklace lay quietly in the box.He had thought Irene had the pearl necklace because she actually left with Irene after Flora disappeared.Therefore, the pearl necklace that Flora cherishes so much is in Irene's hands. However, it turns out that Irene has always kept this necklace as a memory of Flora.

In Irene's memory, Flora's life has long since ended.

At first, even though all kinds of evidence pointed to the end of life, Steve still believed that the strong and optimistic Flora would never give up her life easily, but now he can no longer firmly believe in his original thoughts.Indeed, giving up life is not an [easy] decision, but if the pain and suffering of life are far greater than the faith that keeps Flora going...

Captain America knew clearly in his heart that what Irene said was not wrong.

When Flora took off the necklace—

She must have made up her mind and given up on his decision.

The secret that cannot be told to others, the countless times of darkness and loneliness endured alone.

The mental oppression day after day, the freedom and will that are controlled and deprived, the oppression that cannot breathe is on the verge of collapse.

The lover who went to the battlefield without knowing the date of return, and the mother who suddenly died of a heart attack.

Steve stared deeply at the long-haired ghost in front of him.

——In his eyes, he saw a nearly broken Flora.

——It is a flower that has not been exposed to the sun for a long time, and is withering and withering in the dark.

Freddy saw Steve, who had been silent after Irene left, staring at him with a bitter and bitter expression.

"..." Freddy was really suffering and couldn't tell.

What Flora did before, what she hid, what she was thinking, he had no idea.

However, he has to let him, who has lost his memory now, bear the gaze attack of Captain America.

"Flora, you really don't remember anything?" Steve asked with a frown.

Captain America suddenly wondered if Flora actually remembered everything, but because he didn't dare to tell him the truth about death, and to avoid the secrets that she had hidden in the past, he deliberately fabricated the lie of "amnesia" .

After Irene revealed the truth that had been hidden for many years, Steve believed that Flora could have such [acting skills].

Freddie realizes that because of Flora's "many secret" previous convictions, his ghost quality has also been questioned.

"I swear, I really don't remember anything." Freddy, who felt innocent, said hastily and seriously.

He really doesn't remember anything other than he remembers the name [Freddie], and his real gender.

"If I had memory, I wouldn't have asked Peter to investigate my identity before." Fearing that Steve wouldn't believe him, Freddy even specially gave evidence, "What Irene said today, I am the same as you It's the first time I know."

The blond man nodded, agreeing with Freddy's statement, and then remained silent for a long time.

"..." Freddy, who was sitting on pins and needles, suddenly felt that there was something terrible in the cellar, and this was the atmosphere that made him feel suffocated.

——How about, Captain, you should think about it for yourself first. Is it okay if I go to the bar to play around and then come back?

"Flora, you didn't tell me anything." At this moment, the blond man's expression was extremely gloomy.Those blue eyes that seemed to be full of light, which always made Freddie feel warm, seemed to have fallen into a sudden black night.

Freddie could hear Steve asking him, too, why he hadn't confessed these secrets to him earlier.

"..." Freddy was really desperate now.

Are you hoping to get the answer you want from a ghost who has lost his memory?

But Freddie is really thinking about this question seriously——

Maybe it was because he wanted to confess to Steve all the time, but didn't know how to say it.

Maybe it's because he wants to be the ever-bright sunny flower in Steve's eyes, and he doesn't want to expose those dark secrets.

Maybe it was because he thought his life wouldn't change even if he told it all.

Maybe it was because he was afraid that when Steve knew these secrets, the life he tried to live according to his mother's wishes would change uncontrollably...

At this moment, Freddy could think of many reasons why he chose to hide the secret.

In fact, since he had been trying to avoid Steve since he learned that he was Captain America's [fiancée], Freddie should have realized that he was a person who was good at [evading].Freddy thought, Flora is the same. When facing life, she always chooses the easy path, not daring to face it directly, but blindly avoiding it.

Steve was still staring at Freddy, and the long-haired ghost looked at him dumbly, as if he didn't know what to say.

Captain America thought of what Irene said, Flora had told her [she was used to it].It is precisely because Flora has long been used to a person's bearing and patience, she must think that she is strong enough, that's why she has been facing those darkness without saying a word.But whether this kind of patience will one day accumulate to the point of being unbearable.

"Steve, it's impossible for me to commit suicide." Freddy said suddenly.

Captain America stared blankly at the ghost, not understanding why Flora could give such words with such certainty.

"I don't remember the past, and I don't know if I was so desperate that I thought of giving up my life, but..." Freddy turned his head and looked at the door of the bedroom, as if looking beyond the wooden door. Seeing the painting placed inside, "Even if I really choose to die, I will not choose to die in that lake."

Freddie finally connected too.

The lake in the background of Steve's picture frame is the place where she last appeared and disappeared in Steve's investigation and Erin's narration.But that little lake in the southern woods is where Steve professed his love with that bouquet of daisies, and it's where he returned Steve's affection.

Freddie's body came through the bedroom door and stood firmly in front of the portrait of him.

Steve opened the door and looked at Flora in the painting and in front of him.

"Steve, when I saw this painting, I felt very touched in my heart." Freddie's eyes became very gentle, looking at himself in the frame with such a bright and beautiful smile, he Even though there might be unknown darkness hidden behind his brilliance, in front of Steve, he must always feel happy from the bottom of his heart, "This is not only your best memory, but also mine."

"Maybe, someone will choose to die where they feel the happiest in their memory, but I won't." Freddy slowly turned his head and looked at Steve and said with absolute certainty, "Even if I lose my memory, I'm still sure That lake is the most beautiful place in my heart. If I choose to end my life, I will never choose to dirty that place."

Freddy thought that the tranquil lake must be as clear and shining as Steve's eyes.

That place witnessed the most beautiful moment when the bouquet of daisies in his hand was in full bloom, witnessed the most sincere affection for him from the boy in his heart, witnessed his full of joy and expectations for the future, and also carried the common love between the two of them. The most beautiful time I want to stay here... There is absolutely no way for him to end here with his death.

Freddy was so sure in his heart.

The long-haired ghost slowly raised the corners of its lips, and showed the blond man a smile as bright as in a picture frame.

But the amber eyes overflowed with unparalleled brilliance in the painting.

"Even when I am really disheartened, I will definitely have the courage to live here when I come here."

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