When can I be resurrected? [Zhongyingmei]

[Yes, Flora, I know. ]

Steve's calm and affirmative words instantly set off a storm in Freddy's heart.

The pupils of the long-haired ghost tightened, and he looked up at Steve in disbelief.

--you know! ?

——What do you know?

——Do you know what I want to ask!You just say you know?

Subconsciously, Freddy only felt negative. He thought that Steve must have misunderstood his question, how could he possibly know his biggest secret.Also, Steve never seemed to be on the same brain frequency as him.Although it felt impossible in his heart, Freddy only felt his body tense to the extreme at this moment, and the fear that he didn't know why at this moment made him want to run away from Steve's sight immediately, but The strength of the blond man's grip on his hand made him feel that there was nowhere for him to escape.

At this moment, Freddy didn't even realize that there was a look of [fear] on his face.

It was clearly a ghost that had lost its breath, but at this moment it felt the pain of suffocation.

Freddy opened his mouth dumbly, but his throat was so dry that he couldn't utter a word, as if countless sponges had absorbed his voice, and it took several seconds for him to regain his lost voice, " You mean to say, what do you know?"

—Steve has absolutely no way of knowing that I'm actually a man.

Freddie felt so relieved in his heart.

"Flora, I know what you want to ask me." Steve held the hand of the long-haired ghost with a little force. The ghost's body was originally cold, but the blond man still tried to use his body temperature to warm her. Reddy's cold hand.Compared with the trembling voice of the ghost, the man's tone was calm and with a gentle sense of comfort, fearing that the ghost would not accept it, he said very gently, "You once told me that your gender is male. "

Freddie felt as if he had been shot in the heart suddenly, but it wasn't a fatal wound.And it seems that the heart is just putting together the core of his body. After this core is destroyed, his body is also disintegrating bit by bit.Including his fragile and sensitive spirit, he was experiencing unimaginable trembling, and even almost lost his mind.

——It didn't occur to him that he really knew.

This secret that he tried so hard to keep hidden, Steve knew from the beginning.

At this moment, Freddy didn't feel relieved at all, but was filled with a sense of collapse on the verge of death.

—So, he always knew he was a man.

He knows that he is a real man in a pure white dress pretending to be a woman; he knows that he is a contrived man who pretends to be a lady; freak of...

"So you already knew." Freddy couldn't hear his own voice trembling and light to the extreme at this moment, he felt his thoughts completely cracked, and the feeling of inferiority that had been suppressed exploded to the extreme at this moment, making him just I feel like I'm at a loss here.Freddie couldn't meet Steve's gaze, he struggled to wrestle from the blond man's grasp, but the man didn't give him the chance to escape.

"Flora, I don't care about this!" Steve said in a very firm and eager voice, "I told you a long time ago, you just don't remember, I really don't care about your gender What is it?"

The long-haired ghost's eyes are blank, and his beautiful face is full of fragile fragility at the moment.

—Steve may not care, but Freddie does.

The important secret that he has been carefully hiding is no longer a secret.

In a trance, countless sharp female voices broke into Freddy's mind unexpectedly——

[Do you think he will always love you? ]

[Are you sure Steve loves you?I understand men, what he loves is that innocent girl, what he loves is that beautiful girl who attracts all men to chase after him, what he loves is just you on the surface. ]

[I am your mother, and I am the only one who will always love you sincerely. ]

[Think about it, Flora, what will everyone think of you when they know that you are a man who grew up wearing women's clothes?A pervert with a special quirk?A disgusting sick freak? ]

[You're still thinking about Steve, aren't you?Oh, no, he is already Captain America, originally you were the only one who admired him, but now he is surrounded by the best women, do you really think he will come back? ]

[Perhaps, the man may still be obsessed with your looks for a while, but eventually leave you behind when he realizes you'll never be able to bear him children.What's more, the much-anticipated Captain America's wife turned out to be a man disguised as a woman, and you will become his dirty stain that everyone talks about and laughs at. ]

……

Freddy only felt that these female voices that frightened him from the bottom of his heart were frantically expanding in his brain, occupying the blank positions in those memories, arousing a deeper level of panic, as if they were tearing him apart crazily soul.

"Flora!" Steve frowned and called Freddy's name. He also saw that the ghost was completely immersed in his extremely suppressed emotions, and he couldn't listen to what he said at all.

"Flora, do you still love me?" Steve frowned and asked in a deep voice.

Hearing such a question that was almost questionable, Freddy's empty eyes gradually became focused. He stared at the blond man with frowning brows in front of him, thinking that if he didn't have such strong feelings for him in his heart, what would happen to him? After such a secret is exposed, he will not bear such inferiority and embarrassment.

"I'm not the Steve Rogers in your first memory. That Steve was just a very ordinary thin Brooklyn boy who was often ridiculed and excluded. After being bullied, you need you to protect me in turn." The blond man He continued, "But the me you see in your eyes now is Steve Rogers who has become Captain America."

"Am I no longer the person you loved in the past?" Steve asked seriously.

Freddie stared blankly at Steve, and there was confusion in the ghost's expression.

"You, it's still you, Steve." Freddie said hesitantly, even if Steve Rogers became Captain America, he was still the same Steve, from the Brooklyn kid to the current superhero, this man His original aspiration and quality have not changed in any way, he has only become more mature, stronger and more trustworthy and admirable.

"To me, you are the same." Steve nodded affirmatively, the man's blue eyes fixedly fixed on the ghost in front of him, "No matter what your gender is, I love you, It won't change my love for you."

"You once told me that you were adopted by Mrs. Orwell. Mrs. Orwell had a daughter before you. After losing that daughter, Mrs. Orwell regarded you as her own daughter , devoted all my love to you, and raised you as a girl since childhood.” Captain America revealed the secrets of Flora that no one knew, “Tell me, you also think you are a Girl, you love all the things that girls like, you are used to and like to live as a girl and in a way, and you said that you don't want the secret of gender to be revealed."

Freddie looked at Steve in shock; he hadn't thought he'd ever say such a thing.

"Flora, I don't mind, I don't think there is any problem with this." This is Flora's secret that Captain America has known for a long time. He has considered whether to tell Flora about this, but He also knew that the exposure of this secret might hurt Flora, so he hesitated to speak, "You don't need to feel inferior or think that you have any flaws. In my eyes, this is just a choice. You Just be free to follow your heart and make your choice. And no matter what your choice is, in my heart you are still the one I love."

Freddy's mind was blank at the moment, and in the blank space seemed to be filled with countless knots of pure white silk thread disturbingly.So, Steve knew his real gender was male a long time ago, but also because he thought he longed to be a girl, so he always considered [her] as his [fiancée].

The blond man was so focused that he was his only gaze, and the trembling of the ghost's body gradually calmed down.

After the most panicky and frightening burst of negative emotions just now, Freddy finally didn't want to escape so much.

Freddy lowered his eyes, watching the man's generous hand that had been holding him tightly all along.

——As if no matter what happens, this man will not choose to let go of his hand.

"Then what if... I don't want to be a girl anymore?" Freddy raised his eyes and asked softly.

When Freddy asked this question, he immediately felt absurd.

Obviously he is already a ghost who has lost his life, yet he still asks such a hypothetical question.

It's as if...he still has a future with options.

"I'm still your Steve." However, the blond man said without hesitation.

Such a firm answer, unexpectedly blurted out like this.

Like a promise that never changes——

He could be everyone's Captain America, but he's [Flora's] Steve.

Freddy stared dumbly at Steve in front of him, he didn't know what expression he should make now, and he didn't know what was going on in his heart now, he still just felt dazed, as if his whole body was exhausted.It's just that the fear that filled his soul just now is dissipating, and he feels unspeakably at ease because of the unreserved affirmation and undisguised love given by the man.

"After hearing your letter to Erin today, I've been thinking about one thing." Steve continued.

At this moment, Freddy lowered his eyes, and finally had some thoughts to think about what Captain America was about to say. Steve was thinking about what kind of charming gentleman [Freddy] was, to make me choose to abandon you and invest in him. his arms?

"Is Freddie another name of yours?" Steve asked the question in a steady voice.

Freddy looked at Captain America again in astonishment.

Another sudden revelation of a secret came so unsuspectingly.

"Why do you have such an idea?" The confused Freddy didn't know whether to admit it or deny it.

Long hair cut short, headband thrown away, traces of disappearance.

There are no more clues to Flora's life.

Steve has always had an unproven guess in his heart, until today's letter appeared.

When he finished listening to the content of this letter, Steve knew very clearly that this letter was not only written by Flora to Irene, but also to him.Between the lines, Flora tried her best to reveal the information of a complete and happy life, but Steve already knew very well in his heart that Flora is a person who is good at hiding.

Steve had heard the name [Freddie] from Peter before, because Flora, who had lost all memory, only had an impression of this name.This meant that the person with this name was extremely important to Flora.

—Perhaps, as the letter said, Freddy would be Flora's lifelong husband after him.

Captain America also had this idea, and even hoped that this was the real fact.

However, there is another answer that Steve thinks holds a greater possibility.

——[Freddie] is [Flora] herself.

"Did you start a new life as Freddie after you left Brooklyn?"

At this moment, Freddy felt that Steve's hand, which had been holding his hand tightly, trembled slightly.

The man's blue eyes are full of struggling contradictions and unbearable anxiety——

"Did you... also go to the battlefield?"

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