When can I be resurrected? [Zhongyingmei]

Freddy only felt that he had been frightened too much in a short period of time, and his feelings were already numb.

The long-haired ghost remained dumbfounded, not knowing what to say.

However, Steve's guess... was indeed the guess that Freddy hadn't spoken about.

Freddy had said very positively to Captain America——

[Even if I did choose to die, I would not choose to die in that lake. ]

When Freddy said this, he had already expected it.From Erin's account, Freddie clearly knew that although his mother, Mrs. Orwell, died of a heart attack, he was the one who indirectly killed her.Freddy also knew very well that even though Flora finally got rid of her mother's control, she still couldn't escape this heavy sense of guilt.

Leaving Brooklyn was a choice [Flora] made, but it was definitely not a choice to go to freedom with a yearning heart.

—and [Freddie] was his choice.

This must be a choice he has never regretted, because the name [Freddy] is more deeply imprinted in the depths of his soul than [Flora].

Even if Freddie loses all his memories, his past life is still an unsolved mystery to him.However, after all, he is the ghost involved, so he can figure out how [Flora] thinks.In [Flora's] life, mother Mrs. Orwell and lover Steve are undoubtedly the two most important people.After losing Mrs. Orwell, there's a good chance he'll be looking for Steve.

However, Mrs. Orwell died because of him, and he couldn't feel at ease that he was finally out of the cage, thinking that he could just go to Steve's side and live a happy life with him.Although Mrs. Orwell is no longer the obstacle between [Flora] and Steve, but the inferiority complex, pain and guilt accumulated in her heart, and the war with no end in sight, Captain America's reputation resounds throughout the country. ...which puts them even further apart.

[You're still thinking about Steve, aren't you?Oh, no, he is already Captain America, originally you were the only one who admired him, but now he is surrounded by the best women, do you really think he will come back? ]

This sarcastic and indifferent female voice came to Freddy's mind again with a sharp sting, and Freddy knew it must be what Mrs. Orwell had said to him.

[Perhaps, the man may still be obsessed with your looks for a while, but eventually leave you behind when he realizes you'll never be able to bear him children.What's more, the much-anticipated Captain America's wife turned out to be a man disguised as a woman, and you will become his dirty stain that everyone talks about and laughs at. ]

Even if he knew in his heart that Steve's love for him was not limited to his appearance, he would not choose to give up on him just because of how outstanding women surrounded him.But he couldn't deny that his mother's words were correct, no matter how much he wanted to be this man's wife in his heart, he couldn't bear children for this man.And once the secret of his gender is exposed, the existence of such a man in a woman's costume [Mrs. Captain America] will become a stain on Steve, and he will also receive overwhelming attention and disdainful ridicule.

What's more, it was an era full of wars, an era that needed Captain America——

Even if he can pluck up the courage to cross all obstacles and run to Steve, the pace of war will not stop for his love.

Freddy quietly stared at the blond man in front of him, at this moment his mood seemed to overlap with that of [Flora].

He wanted so much to go to the world of Steve Rogers, but in front of his eyes, there were so many insurmountable and insurmountable obstacles between them, so he chose to escape.

—he can no longer run to Steve as Flora, so he becomes Freddie.

As his mother said, he could never be a real woman, but he could be a real man.He could choose to walk on the same path as Steve, go to the same battlefield, he could choose not to commit suicide in the lake full of the best and brightest memories, but to die in... the place closest to him.

This was what Freddy hadn't said before, but Steve had already guessed it at this moment.

The azure blue eyes of the blond man were gloomy, like the depths of the sea where the sinking light cannot penetrate.

Steve hopes that his conjecture is wrong, Flora is the person he wants to protect forever, and he sincerely hopes that Flora can have a happy life.What he hopes, as Flora's letter said, is that Flora can find a lover who is willing to confess his gender and fall in love with him. That lover will become a husband who loves him deeply for the rest of his life. They still have adoption. A well-behaved and sensible son.And the name of Steve Rogers will become a person who has an important memory in Flora's life, not the one who prevents Flora from getting the happiness he deserves.

If his guess is correct——

Then after Mrs. Orwell's death, in the most helpless, sad and desperate situation, Flora chose to go to the battlefield alone.It is precisely because Captain America deeply knows how cruel the battlefield is, it is even more difficult to imagine how Flora, who has been protected like the most delicate flower, has experienced those pains.It is even more difficult for him to think about how the life of [Flora] and [Freddy] ended with such a tragic ending, without his knowledge...

"I don't know, Steve," Freddie said softly, "I don't remember."

Freddie could only feel Steve's stiffness, and this time it was his turn to squeeze the blond man's hand tightly.

Even if there is no conclusive evidence pointing to the fact that Freddy did become a soldier after leaving Brooklyn, in Steve and Freddy's minds, their choice of Flora has been finalized.

"Steve, that's all in the past." Freddy didn't know what to say. When he said this, he wanted to comfort Steve, not to be obsessed with things that happened long ago, but this The words seem to be ambiguous.

Because those that have passed are not just dusty secrets.

—and the lives of [Flora] and [Freddie].

Freddy as a ghost still doesn't know why he appeared in Captain America's eyes.

Steve took a deep breath, and stared at the transparent long-haired ghost in front of him with a heavy expression on his resolute and handsome face. His heart was filled with profound emotions for the one he loved.Almost a century of time could not take away his love at all, but they could never go back to that time.

The blond man nodded slightly, as if responding to Freddy's words.

Those are all in the past, but that doesn't mean it's not important.

But even so caring about the past, what they have now is even more hard-won.

Steve suddenly took Freddy's hand and brought it to his lips.

Gently press a kiss on the ghost's ring finger.

"I'm back, Flora." The man said so solemnly and gently.

Freddy's pupils trembled slightly, and when he heard the man say this, his body trembled uncontrollably again.Trance is the wish buried deep in his soul, finally realized.

Flora, who had been waiting all this time, finally waited until this man fulfilled his promise.

"There's nothing binding you anymore." Steve said with a smile.

Steve didn't want Flora's love for him, or his love for Flora, to bind [her], or [him].

"I want you to feel free."

No matter what the reason for Flora to reunite with him, no matter how much time they can have between them, Steve hopes that Flora can "live" here freely and happily, "live" in his in front of the eyes.

"Even if I want to be Freddy, not Flora," Freddy said softly.

Even with the memory loss, Freddie knew he had more identification with the name [Freddie] and male identity.At the very beginning, he was surprised by his long hair, shocked by his clothes, and even felt conflicted by it.However, this is very contradictory, because he subconsciously knows how to play a perfect lady, and he is also very open to show the beauty of his appearance, especially in front of Steve.

— as if [Flora] was still an important part of him.

It's like a temptation.

However, it is not to test whether Steve can accept Freddie cautiously and anxiously, because he finally knows that no matter whether he chooses to be [Flora] or [Freddy], this man will choose to be unconditional and Support him without prejudice and tolerate everything about him without reservation.

This is a test of yourself.

To test whether he can take this first step in front of Steve honestly and bravely.

"Let Freddie come before my eyes."

Steve nodded seriously, his eyes were focused and affectionate, and he gave a very positive answer.

"I want to know more about him."

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