love sinus late

With the summer wind blowing on her body, Zhao Siqi didn't feel hot, and even shivered slightly.

His emotional intelligence is not high, but he has no emotional cognitive impairment.He knew very well that if ordinary people found out that a friend was in love, they would definitely be happy for the other party, instead of being in a trance like him now, as if his soul had been sucked out.

He likes Gooch.

Realizing this fact, Zhao Siqi staggered and almost tripped over a stone on the side of the road.

The sky was dark and gloomy, with only a white crescent moon hanging in the sky.Zhao Siqi raised her head, looking at the dim moonlight, her eyes turned red unconsciously.

That night, I walked home for an hour.

As soon as she entered the house, Zhao Siqi quickly rushed to the bathroom and took a cold shower.

When he came out, Zhao Yuyan held a plate of fruit and stopped him: "Why are your eyes so red, did you cry at school?"

Zhao Siqi brushed her wet hair, covered half of her face, and said without changing her expression: "No, the shampoo just flowed into the eyes when I took a shower."

Zhao Yuyan didn't think much, just nodded: "Then be careful next time. Come and eat some fruit."

"Wait, my phone is out of battery, I'll charge it first." Zhao Siqi hurried back to the bedroom.

The mobile phone was turned off very early, and a 5-minute song was not completely recorded.

This is the second thing that broke Zhao Siqi tonight.

Like a wooden man, he sat motionless on the edge of the bed, staring at the charging mobile phone, and didn't blink until his eyes were sore.

A drop of tear fell without warning and hit the bed sheet, smearing a dark trace.

"Xiao Qi, I'm out to eat some fruit." Zhao Yuyan knocked on the door twice and asked, "Mama will bring it in for you?"

Zhao Siqi snapped back to her senses and said, "No need."

Zhao Yuyan said: "Eat a little, mom has already cut it."

Zhao Siqi raised her hand to turn off the light, and said, "I remember I brushed my teeth, let's eat tomorrow."

Zhao Yuyan was a little puzzled: "It doesn't matter if you brush your teeth, just rinse your mouth after eating."

Zhao Siqi huddled under the blanket, and said in a muffled voice: "It's really unnecessary. I watched the game all night today. I'm so tired and sleepy. I want to sleep now."

After Zhao Yuyan heard the words, she no longer forced herself, and said softly, "Then I'll put it in the refrigerator, and you can eat it yourself when you wake up tomorrow morning."

Fortunately, the next two days are weekends and I don't have to go to school.Zhao Siqi slept late on purpose, and didn't get up until Zhao Yuyan went out to buy groceries.

Standing in the bathroom, looking at the person in the mirror, a pair of clear water eyes were swollen like two big walnuts, and there were a few red bloodshot eyes.

Zhao Siqi sighed, and before Zhao Yuyan came back, she put an ice towel on her eyes for a while.

Realizing that she likes a person of the same sex, and this person is still a friend, Zhao Siqi didn't sleep well for two consecutive nights.

The day before returning to school, he sat in his study and did his homework.

After writing for a while, he accidentally turned on the desktop computer on the table, and entered the three words "gay" in the search bar of the web page.

Press the Enter button, but other related content is displayed - AIDS, psychological counseling, psychiatric treatment, or messy posts about making friends in the same city and dating.

Every post was clicked and read by Zhao Siqi. Some insulted homosexuals as perverts, some defended the dignity and freedom of homosexuals, and some, like him, felt confused and helpless about their sexual orientation.

The mouse scrolled slowly, and when she saw an English website, Zhao Siqi stopped her fingers and entered it curiously.

A video jumped out of the screen without warning, a dark and strong man pressed a slender man on the bed, his lower body moved wildly, and continued to make a striking movement.

Zhao Siqi was shocked.

Not only was he visually shocked, but he also heard violent moans and gasps.

This is something that Zhao Siqi has never personally touched, but it doesn't mean she doesn't understand it.

His eyes were glazed and his mind went blank.

At this moment, there was a sound of a key unlocking the door.It was Zhao Yuyan who came back.

Zhao Siqi quickly turned off the computer, cleared the history, and stared blankly at the pitch-black screen.

That whole day, he didn't write a single word on his homework.

For the next week, Zhao Siqi deliberately kept a certain distance from Gao Chi.When encountering a question that he doesn't understand, he would rather think about it by himself than turn around and ask the people behind him.

He is very clear that he fell in love with someone who shouldn't be liked, and he should strangle this sign to death in the cradle in time.

This afternoon, the last class ended, Zhao Siqi packed her schoolbag as usual and prepared to go home.

Before he left, he felt a little urgent to urinate, so he put down his schoolbag again and planned to go to the toilet.

As school was approaching, most of the students had already left, and the corridors of the teaching building were empty, with no one there.

After using the toilet, Zhao Siqi stood in front of the sink and washed her hands.

The men's restroom was also empty at this moment.

However, the moment he stepped out of the door, an arm suddenly stretched out from the left side of the door, blocking his way.

Zhao Siqi raised her eyes, but before she could see the face of the person in front of her, her wrist was firmly grasped.

Immediately afterwards, the door was slammed shut, and he was pulled back into the toilet, while a gloomy voice came from above his head.

"Are you avoiding me recently?"

Zhao Siqi froze.

Xunsheng raised his head, and he saw Gao Chi with a serious face, staring at himself with concern.

"Or did I offend you?"

There was a fire hidden between Gao Chi's tightly locked brows, and his expression was a little frightening.

He looked at Zhao Siqi, the person who used to send text messages to himself every day, but he hadn't sent one since the singer competition ended.At school, I kept my head down on the questions, ignored people, and said no more than three sentences a day.In the afternoon, as soon as the school bell rang, I immediately carried my schoolbag and went home, as if there was a plague in the classroom, and I couldn’t stay for a second longer.

Seeing that Zhao Siqi didn't speak, Gao Chi asked again: "Why, you want to distance yourself from me?"

Zhao Siqi lowered his head, his slightly long bangs and glasses blocked his eyes, and also blocked the entangled emotions in it.

He shook his head and squeezed out two words: "No."

"No?" Gao Chi let go of his wrist, raised one arm to support the wall, and looked at Zhao Siqi from top to bottom, "Then what's going on with you these days? I didn't respond to talking to you, so why don't you just ask?" Back to a sentence. Oh no, not a sentence, you are jumping out word by word, the idiom cherishing words like gold describes you, right? "

Zhao Siqi's head lowered.

If possible, he would like to hide in the toilet cubicle and lock the door so that Gao Chi would not get so close.

"Talk." Gao Chi couldn't get used to the way he didn't speak and kept everything in his heart.He bent his fingers and flicked Zhao Siqi's forehead, so hard that Zhao Siqi cried out in pain.

"I thought I was talking to the mute." Gao Chi smiled and said coldly, "If you are not dumb, tell me why you are ignoring people during this time."

The light in the toilet is not good, only a ray of light can be seen through the thin crack of the door.This faint light just happened to shine on the upper half of Gao Chi's face, which made his browbones more prominent, his eyes deeper, and his whole person stronger.

Most of the time, Gao Chi is approachable and approachable, and he is rarely as "vicious" as he is now.

"I, I didn't ignore people." Zhao Siqi stammered, "I'm just in a bad mood and don't want to talk."

Gao Chi frowned and said, "In a bad mood? Why are you in a bad mood?"

Zhao Siqi turned her face away, avoided Gao Chi's gaze, and told a lie that sounded very real: "The midterm exam was too bad."

Gao Chi withdrew his arm and hugged it to his chest, with a suspicious expression on his face: "Is it because of this?"

Zhao Siqi nodded: "My grade rank has dropped by more than 30, and the head teacher has even talked to me."

Gao Chi clicked his tongue, "What's the matter? There are hundreds of people in our grade, and the fluctuation of dozens is normal. Don't take it too seriously, just wait until the end of the semester and go back for the exam."

Only Gao Chi can confidently say such words, but Zhao Siqi can't. His state is really bad recently, and whether he can maintain his level in the mid-term is a problem.

Thinking of this, Zhao Siqi reached out to touch the doorknob.He pushed open the toilet door, as if he was talking to himself, or as if he was saying to Gao Chi, "I'm going back. I have a lot of homework today. I want to go home early."

Gao Chi stepped aside and stared at his thin back. After a while, he asked abruptly, "Last week, I asked Li Han to come to the celebration banquet with you. Why didn't you come?"

Zhao Siqi paused, but didn't stop, "I don't have time to play, I went home to study that night."

Gao Chi followed behind him unhurriedly, and said, "Are you short of time to study?"

Zhao Siqi knew Gao Chi couldn't see her face, so she showed a slightly bitter smile, "Stupid birds know how to fly first, of course I have to work harder."

"You mean you are not as good as the stupid bird?" Gao Chi said, "I don't know if the stupid bird flies fast, but you walk pretty fast."

That being said, Gao Chi was tall and had long legs, so he caught up to Zhao Siqi in just a few steps.

The two returned to the classroom together.

Zhao Siqi picked up his schoolbag and was about to leave. When he passed by Gao Chi's table, he thought for a while and said to Gao Chi: "I'm going home, see you tomorrow."

Gao Chi looked at him, resumed his usual joking tone and said, "Little nerd, pay attention to your eyes, don't try too hard when you wear glasses."

The title of "little nerd" made Zhao Siqi's ears tingle.

He raised his eyes and saw the familiar smile on Gao Chi's lips again, full of ruffianism.And the irritability between his eyebrows and eyes disappeared completely, and he looked completely different from the appearance in the toilet just now.

Suddenly remembered, how many girls in the class said that Gao Chi looked like a Hong Kong male star, Huang Zongze or Edison Chen?I can't remember, but they all have thick eyebrows and black eyes anyway, and they look more aggressive.

However, Gao Chi loves to smile, and the corners of his mouth are always hooked in a vague way, which makes many girls in the school blush and heartbeat.

"Don't call me that." Zhao Siqi withdrew her gaze and tried to maintain a calm tone, "I'm not young, I'm two months older than you."

Gao Chi was a little surprised: "Are you older than me?"

As soon as the words fell, he seemed to think of something again, and said with a smile: "No, how did you know my birthday, and who did you ask?"

Zhao Siqi shook her head and said nothing.

If you care about a person, how can you not even know his birthday.

Zhao Siqi has been paying attention to Gao Chi's every move, every talk and smile, and keeps it firmly in his heart.

Although during this period of time he tried his best to keep a distance from Gao Chi and avoid contact, but he likes this kind of feeling, which can't be easily suppressed.

It is like infinitely proliferating cancer cells, spreading crazily in the body, making people caught off guard and powerless.

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The excuse that he made up that afternoon was taken seriously by Gao Chi.

Zhao Siqi admits, and this unilateral attempt to keep a distance ultimately fails.

In the middle of the night, they were texting each other as before, discussing the day's homework.If you can't speak clearly, Gao Chi will call and say in a sleepy voice: "It's too late, go to bed first, and I'll talk to you tomorrow."

There is no need to face each other, just hearing Gao Chi's voice, Zhao Siqi feels very satisfied.

School life is boring and boring, but the time spent with Gao Chi is happy and short.

But besides being happy, there are also regrets and self-blame. Gao Chi regards him as a friend, but he has other thoughts about Gao Chi.If Gao Chi knew that he liked him, would he still treat him so well?

Certainly not.

These days, Zhao Siqi has read a lot of posts on the Internet. There are gay netizens sharing their emotional life. Many people have reached a consensus on one of them, that is, "Don't provoke straight men".

Sexual orientation is different, the relationship is doomed to be fruitless.

But if people's feelings can really be controlled freely, if they can really stop and stop liking someone, will there still be so many idiots and resentful women in this world?

Zhao Siqi felt both funny and sad.