Absurd Comedy ABO

[5 month 4 day]

My dad died on the spot in a car accident, and my mom was still being rescued. I didn't know what to do, so I went to identify the body, and my mom is still lying in the operating room.

I didn't know what to write, and my mind was blank when I opened the book. I/did sit outside the operating room. It's May, but I feel cold all over and panicked.If you want to do something to divert your attention, your hands are soft.But when I closed my eyes and rested, I couldn't help but think about my parents, let's write something, after writing for a long time, I felt that there were some meaningless sentences.

Why does this happen to me?I never wished for luck, but that's not the way it should be.

The doctor called me again, let's continue later.

[6 month 2 day]

I finally finished my father's work and is still in the hospital. My mother is not in good condition and is still under observation.My dad's business was also handled hastily, and some relatives and friends came to help. Only then did I realize that I didn't seem to be good at anything, as if I only knew how to study, and I didn't even learn very well.

Forget it, let's not talk about this.I dreamed about my dad again. In fact, I had no real feeling after the ashes were burnt, and I didn't feel anything when I held them in my arms.I don't even have time to choose a cemetery, so I can only put it away at home first, and when my mother's condition improves later, when I have time, we can choose together.

My mother still doesn't know that my father is gone. In fact, I don't have a chance to say it. She woke up once in the middle. She was still in a very bad condition, and she didn't wake up for long. She was in danger again soon. I didn't wake up today.

I don't know what to say. The relationship between them has always been very good. I really hope that my mother can wake up quickly, but I am afraid in my heart. I don't know how to tell her when she wakes up. It feels like a blink of an eye. , because my mother hasn't recovered yet, the funeral is also simple, nothing can be done, and the mourning hall did not worship.Thinking of this, I feel sorry for my parents, because I didn't hold the funeral properly, because I'm not out of danger yet.Thinking about it again, I don't seem to be that kind of particularly outstanding child, and I feel even more guilty.

My dad didn’t know if he felt it. In fact, I have always disbelieved in these theories of ghosts and ghosts. I was absolutely materialistic. I thought dreaming was nonsense, but when it happened to me, I felt that it was all true. of.I usually wake up with no memory of what I dreamed, but this time I remember it clearly.

It was early in the morning, and I returned to the hospital after finishing my work. I sat in the corridor to rest, and fell asleep without paying attention, and then I felt like I was back. On the sofa at home, my dad was standing next to him, but he didn’t face him. I.I didn’t realize it at the time, but now that I think about it, I’m probably afraid that my appearance would frighten me. I just glanced at it when I recognized the corpse, and it was indeed a bit scary.

My dad turned sideways and said that he was leaving, let me take care of myself and my mother, don't be too tired, and don't blame yourself, saying that this matter has nothing to do with me.He also said that he was sorry for making me work so hard at such a young age, I am quite satisfied with him, don't blame yourself.

He even said several times not to blame himself, and I couldn't help wondering if my emotions were too strong for him to use this method to comfort me.

When I woke up, ten minutes had passed, but in my dream, I felt like I had been on the sofa at home for a long time.I thought about that dream, and while it wasn't that effective, it didn't bother me right away.But the mood is a little better, and I’m not as fussy as before. Maybe it’s just a dream, but from my point of view, I hope it’s true.

[6 month 5 day]

Some classmates came to see me today. In fact, in the past two days, people have come one after another. There are roommates, classmates who have a good relationship, and people from the previous club.In the past few days, my friends will take turns bringing me meals. Although they are not the same person, everyone will help me when they have time.

My mother's condition has stabilized a bit in the past few days, but she is still in a coma, but it is not as scary as the previous few days.

I actually think that my popularity is not usually good. Maybe someone helped me promote it. In the past two days, there are quite a few people who have come to visit me and helped me. Many of them I am not familiar with or even know. of.

The counselor also came several times. My current situation is more complicated, and I am not in the mood to think about going to school. I just took this opportunity to discuss with the teacher and take a leave of absence.

It's a pity to think about it. In fact, I should graduate this year. I have been preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination before, but now I just put it on hold.Let’s wait until this matter is over, but I probably won’t continue studying. After all, I have to rely on me now. It’s safer to come out and find a job after I get my diploma.

It's just that there are only two months left now, and if that time comes, it will probably have to be repaired from scratch.The teacher actually said that if I persisted, I wouldn't be able to finish it, but I really didn't have much energy.

When I went to the Academic Affairs Office to suspend my studies, I met Lin Shaoqiong. He also came to go through the formalities.

I didn't expect him to come to the hospital to see me today.

At times like this, I'm always in a daze, not sure what my relationship with him is.Is it okay?No, my only confidence is that he should be able to remember my name.

But if you think about it, you won't be flattered. There are quite a few people who know about me, and there are also many students at the same level who are not familiar with me at all.Lin Shaoqiong probably counts as this kind, a well-intentioned and well-connected alumnus.

He also brought some things, and he didn't know what to say after greeting me.Only then did I realize that when he was still at a loss, he sat in the ward first, but that was just nestled in a chair, staring at the ground with his head down.

My mood unexpectedly improved a lot because of his cramped performance. Seeing that he was unwell, I asked him if he wanted to sit outside.

Still a little overwhelmed, he asked if it was okay.Of course I said yes, and sat in the corridor with him.

It was after three o'clock in the afternoon, there were not too many people, and there were still vacant seats in the corridor.He still didn't seem to know what to say, he just said his condolences.Too many people have said this to me in the past two days, and I am numb to hearing it.

So I turned to him and asked him how he knew about this.

He said that he heard from people in the club, and that most people in the school knew about it, and that everyone was worried about me.

What I was thinking at that time was whether I could be regarded as a well-known person, but it was pitiful enough to become a famous person by this method.

I feel like I'm split, a part of me is sad, and a part of me is still cynical about how sad I am.

After I listened to Lin Shaoqiong's answer, I didn't continue to say anything. In fact, it was almost the same as what I thought, but I actually had expectations when I asked, hoping that he would say that he cared about me... But that little disappointment is actually not enough to let me know now. I'm sad, I'm almost numb after everything I've been through.

We were speechless, and I was the first to speak, asking Lin Shaoqiong if he was still busy, and if he was busy, he could leave first.He seemed to be at a loss for the situation, and he didn't try to shirk it, so he nodded and prepared to leave.

I sent him to the door, looked at his back, and for some reason, suddenly called him.I was extra bold this time, and I didn't feel the nervousness before.May be too much stimulation, numb it.

Lin Shaoqiong turned around when he heard me calling him, and asked me what was wrong.In fact, it's nothing, I just want to call her, or to see if he will respond to me after I call him.

But of course I wouldn't tell him that, I said I wanted to say thank you, thank him for coming to see me.

That sympathetic expression appeared on his face again. He seemed to want to comfort me but I didn't know how to comfort me. In the end, he just patted my shoulder and said that it's hard work. If you need help, you can contact him .

I know this is just a polite remark, but even so, the moment I heard this sentence, I felt happy from the bottom of my heart.

Of course, my friends were very happy when they came to help me before, but it seems to be different from this time.