Xiaohan's red and falling swallows are heavy

The rain is accompanied by the fragrance of the soil

fluttering in my mind

The breath of autumn

stone bridge across the countryside

once met in the rain

The muddy path under the big banyan tree

same season

The wind blows away your shadow

your fragrance

leaving only the sad melancholy

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------ "Parting Feelings"

In the first class of the new year, Ruhua sat there early, when she saw Zhong came over, she moved the book to the left, and said with a smile: "Happy New Year!"

Receiving the warmth from this ice beauty, he took out the postcard and put it on Ruhua's table.Ruhua held the postcard in her hands, and stood there in a daze, without speaking for a long while.

I feel that the door has been shut down, is it because I don’t understand?So he said, "I don't understand, I'll translate it for you later."

Ruhua said: "Okay, look for an opportunity. Did you write it?"

He said again: "No, no, that's Tagore's poem I copied."

The bell rang, and the professor spoke about foreign literature.He didn't listen to a single sentence, but just waited for the opportunity to translate the poem to Ru Hua.He thought again, how could she not understand, was she just tactfully refusing?After class, I must tell her alone.

After class was over, Ruhua called Chong to the outside of the teaching building, pursed her lips and said, "Chong, I know what you think about me, I am very excited and touched. Do you know? Let me tell you a secret. You and I The previous boyfriend looks exactly the same, and he also likes to write articles and calligraphy. The first time I saw you, I was sure that he came to find me. I am both excited and scared. I am excited that we can continue our love I am afraid, afraid that you will no longer remember me, afraid that you are not you, you do not belong to me. But when I wake up, you are not him. Because you never came to me, you have been waiting by Han Xiao’s side, I watched All of this is heart-wrenching. For some reason, you approached Li again, and my little hope was extinguished by you again. But that encounter in the library, you returned to my side. But after a few days of contact, I found that You are not him, you just look like him. You are calm, gentle and kind to others, but he has a quick temper. I am used to his rhythm and I can't slow down. "

He said again: "What's the matter? I can get up quickly! Although I am not him, I will love you more than him."

Ruhua said: "I believe in this, you will definitely be able to do it. Think about it carefully, can you always tolerate me treating you as his substitute?"

He said again: "I am willing, one hundred willing. The first time I saw you, I chased you crazily. You walked so fast, I was obsessed with you for a while. However, everyone is gossiping, especially the existence of Yan. I I don't have the courage to approach you."

Ruhua said: "He, I don't have feelings for him. When my boyfriend passed away, I would never fall in love with others again. But he never gave up, and even pestered me in every possible way. I have been distressed for a long time. I persuaded him to give up , he just insisted."

He said again: "He is fascinated by you."

Ruhua said: "I'm an ordinary person, I don't want to be rich and powerful, I just want to die with my lover. But God's will tricks people, I can only live alone forever."

He said again: "Don't be so pessimistic, I will be with you forever."

Ruhua said: "I have always believed in eternity, but the facts tell me that there is no eternity."

He said again: "I think the burden you are carrying is too heavy, it's time to unload it. Let me melt the ice in your heart!"

Ruhua said: "But I really can't fall in love. My heart has turned into quicksand, so let him go."

Chong sighed and said: "I really admire him, you love him so deeply. Maybe, I can't become him, but I am willing to be his substitute."

Ruhua said: "That's too unfair to you."

He said again: "I promise to take good care of you and do my best."

Ruhua said: "Don't make promises too early, sometimes promises are really fragile. I don't want to hurt you, and I don't want to suffer from life and death again."

He said again: "You can't deny this world just for one loss."

Ruhua said: "I really can't gather together anymore. Quicksand, you know? It will never gather."

He said: "Then I will turn into a breeze, become invisible, and accompany you to the ends of the earth."

Chong also didn't know where he came from so many sweet words, maybe looking at this pitiful ice beauty moved his heart of compassion, or his fraternity began to overflow.

Ruhua cried without choking, just like dewdrops rolling in the morning, crystal clear.Chong looked distressed and put his hands on her shoulders.Ruhua leaned forward slightly, leaning against Zhong's arms.He put his arms around her slender waist with one hand, and patted her back with the other.Ruhua is like a frightened white rabbit, hiding in the nest and trembling.Zhong Duo wants to protect this poor ice beauty forever.

At this time, looking up at the sky again, the white clouds were stacked layer by layer, like a ladder leading to heaven.A pair of white doves flew past lightly, reflecting the morning light, their wings shining brightly.

Suddenly, someone shouted, "Professor, what happened to her?"

Zhong raised his head suddenly and saw Han Xiao standing beside him, his face was pale and expressionless.Ruhua lowered her head and hid to the side a long time ago.

Zhong said softly: "Han Xiao, hello. It's nothing." For some reason, Zhong was like a child who made a mistake. His mother found out, and he didn't know what to do. "

Han Xiao kept silent, looked at Ruhua, then fixed his eyes on Zhong's body, and tied him up tightly from head to toe.

There is no other way but to wait and see.Ruhua said: "Heavy, let's let nature take its course!"

Zhong stared blankly at the back of the ice beauty going away, thinking to himself, can the lover of my dreams just stay in the dream? "

Han Xiao pulled his heavy arm and said, "Professor, why have you ignored me for so long?"

I was shocked by this amazing question again and didn't know how to answer it.

Han Xiao continued: "Is there anything wrong with me, can you tell me? Before, Brother Kang introduced me to a boyfriend, don't you know? I thought it was you, where did you go? Later, you My heart hurts because I got so hot with Li for no reason. Why are you getting involved with Ruhua again now? What do you want me to do?"

The center of gravity is in a mess, how can I explain it?I can't say it's for Kang.

He hesitated: "Han Xiao, I know your feelings, and you know mine too. It's just that there are some things that are difficult to explain clearly. But you remember that I have been waiting for you."

Han Xiao said: "Wait for me, you and Ruhua are already like this, why wait for me. I'm right here."

He said again: "Ruhua, he is a miserable person. She cried only when I told him about her past. I just wanted to help her."

Han Xiao stood there stunned, and asked softly, "What's wrong with her?"

He said again: "Her boyfriend passed away unexpectedly a few months ago. She found out that I look a lot like her boyfriend, so she thought about others and felt sad. I wanted to untangle her heart, she was a little world-weary. Could such an excellent person be destroyed like this?"

Tears overflowed from the corners of Han Xiao's eyes, he looked at her seriously and said, "Professor, I misunderstood. Go and help her, I'm still waiting for you there."

Right now, Zhong also can't make a promise, and the time is sometimes really uncertain.However, he is sure that Kang has not confessed his love to Han Xiao, he is a coward.Han Xiao didn't fall in love with Kang at all, what she had been waiting for was Chong.This time it's a confession!However, think about what you have done these days.Am I going to rescue Ru Hua?Am I trying to rescue Kang?I think I am saving myself.Protected friendship, lost his true love.Pretend to be a gentleman in front of people.If you think about it all over again, things will become easier.It started naturally with Han Xiao and ended harmoniously.Achieve a pair of fairy couples.

Can everything go back?After reaching the Ruhua stop, will it be the end point?Chong felt that he had walked into the besieged city and couldn't get out no matter what.He was tortured by his own cleverness.

The next day, when he returned to the classroom, he was very afraid of hurting Han Xiao, so he walked past her. She was still sitting in the original seat, and the seat next to her was empty.None of this has changed, except that Han Xiao gave up the seat left by Han Xiao to Kang.Zhong Duo imagined sitting there and loving each other silently as before.He walked to Han Xiao's side, stopped for a few seconds, Han Xiao stood up, and said, "Hi, professor!" The greeting was still the same, but without the previous smile, but with some desire to give alms.Without the clear and watery eyes before, Han Xiao began to mature amidst the major changes.Chong replied: "Hello Han Xiao!"

Han Xiao looked at the seats inside, and then at the weight.He looked at the seat again, and then at Han Xiao.The two froze there.

At this time, Kang came to the side and coughed twice.Looking back at Kang, he smiled and left.Zhong clearly heard the vibration of Kang Yi sitting on the stool, and felt a little sick.Zhong gave up his seat, but he didn't dare to confess.A great opportunity was wasted, and Han Xiao's happiness was also wasted.If he was a little harder, he would go up and punch Kang a few times to wake him up.

Han Xiao sat there, unexpectedly kept silent.Rethinking Han Xiao's waiting, how persistent he is, and what kind of thing is he.Thinking of this, a deep sadness welled up in my heart.

Ruhua shouted: "Professor, come here."

He waved his hand again and walked over.It seems like nothing happened yesterday.Ruhua was still taking notes seriously, and she didn't make a sound.The two sat in silence like this.

Zhong secretly looked back at Han Xiao's position, she kept her head down, motionless.How cruel did he think he was, to torment such a weak and ignorant girl? Thinking of this, he wrote a poem "Knowing Your Heartbeat for the First Time":

accidental acquaintance

Feel a sense of reality?

In this troubled world?

Finding a truth is hard?

By chance?

Encounter a bit strange?

every day

longing for you far away

looking at your photo

Depressed

The blood in my heart expands wonderfully

I want to melt you

Guessing every bit of you

Although you already have a safe haven

i still fantasize

take your hand for a walk

Take a nap with your fragrant body

I seem to be able to feel your warmth

breath your fragrance

lover far away

more desire

more words

the urge to be near you

in exchange for staying away

I didn't expect to stay away this time

farewell

you disappeared in my world

Although we did not meet

But there's still a hollow feeling in my heart

maybe you don't know

love happens in silence

ends in silence

This is you and me in the vast crowd

meeting was a mistake

in a world without you

i live a normal life

Counting the poor things about you and me

Occasionally search for your information

no ending

Reminiscing about the heartbeat of the first acquaintance

sincere regards

how are you in a foreign country