Looking back and smiling

Chapter 1: Heart knot, heart solution

After He Li left, Yang Zhou changed the bloody clothes and wiped the tables and stools in the dormitory by himself.It's not far from home to school, but he walks very slowly, and his mood has indeed stabilized a lot.

After wiping the last stool, he took out the book to review what he had learned this semester.

Books can always exude a unique charm, and that magical light envelopes itself.Yang Zhou didn't know how long he had been reading it, he had already entered the book, looking at the magnificent architectural designs in the book, he couldn't help but take out a pen and draw on the paper.

Just when Yangzhou was devoting himself to the Gothic architecture in the book, he heard someone shouting outside the dormitory: "Yangzhou! I was wrong, don't do this...Yangzhou!"

The pen in Yang Zhou's hand suddenly stopped, and the voice - Li Xiao!

"Yangzhou, Zhouzhou...don't do this, I really can't leave you!" Li Xiao yelled at the whole boys' dormitory downstairs in the dormitory.

Suddenly, Building No. 2 of the boys' dormitory of C University was blown up, and the other boys in the dormitory poked their heads out to look, this is good, a big man ran downstairs to their dormitory and said that he couldn't do without you.And that name sounds familiar, right?Yangzhou?ah!Concubine empress!

Building No. 2 of the boys' dormitory is the dormitory for construction students. Li Xiao doesn't know which dormitory Yangzhou lives in, so he can only call downstairs.

Li Xiao's voice not only upset the students in the dormitory building, but also attracted other passing students to watch and discuss.It's normal to fall in love in college now, and it's even more normal to show love and courtship.

It's just about the same sex...

The life teacher didn't do it anymore, she came out with her waist that was almost three feet twisted, and when she saw Li Xiao, she waved her hand to push him away, and persuaded him: "I said this sir, this is the dormitory... Are you Li Xiao? "

The life teacher has been working here for more than ten years. She was the life teacher in Li Xiao's dormitory back then.She had a deep impression of this man. At that time, she had just become a life teacher, and a sensational incident happened in C University. The man in front of her hacked the school's computer and stole the final exam questions.

Later, his cultural subjects in the final exam were also high scores, and the correcting teacher felt that something was wrong. Li Xiao is a rare computer genius, but his cultural subjects have always been on the verge of passing.

The correcting teacher found Li Xiao's counselor. Later, the counselor knew that Li Xiao had hacked into the school's computer with a program he had compiled. The counselor couldn't laugh or cry, and didn't know whether to praise him or criticize him.The counselor took Li Xiao to the school leader, and briefly talked about Li Xiao's intrusion and stealing of the questions.

The school leader looked helpless. He knew that the student in front of him was a computer genius, which was a good seed for the school, but he was afraid that the seed would be crooked, so the school gave Li Xiao a warning.

At that time, everyone knew that most of us C were awesome computer experts.

Moreover, in the impression of the life teacher, although Li Xiao was a bit untidy at school, it may be because he stayed up late and played too much computer games, and he looked a little decadent, but he was not like now, with disheveled hair, disheveled clothes, pale face and expressionless expression. Nervous and anxious.

At this moment, Li Xiao can only use one word to describe it - embarrassment.

"Teacher, which dormitory does Yangzhou live in?" Li Xiao grabbed the living teacher and asked eagerly.He ran all the way here, and he knew that if he didn't look for him this time, he would lose him forever in this life.

"What... what's going on with you? Yangzhou is covered in blood today..." The life teacher was stunned, what are these young people doing?

"I'll explain this later. Where's Yangzhou? Yangzhou...Zhouzhou..." Before Li Xiao finished speaking, he saw Yangzhou slowly coming out of the dormitory building.

After simply tidying up and changing his clothes, Yang Zhou looked a little more energetic, at least not as pitiful and helpless as before.

Yangzhou glanced at Li Xiao indifferently, said nothing, then looked at the life teacher, "Teacher, I'm sorry."

"It's okay, young man." The life teacher said with a smile.

"Zhou Zhou, I was wrong." Seeing Yang Zhou, although his complexion was much better than before, he still carried a bit of weakness that I still pitied.He really wanted to hold him in his arms, but when he saw him looking indifferently, he knew that Yang Zhou was angry with him.

Yangzhou didn't look at him, he walked out of the crowd and walked outside the school.

"Zhouzhou..." Li Xiao hurriedly chased after him, and said cautiously. "I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, don't be angry."

"I'm not angry." Yang Zhou said lightly.

Seeing the two walking farther and farther, passers-by A, B, C, and D began to gossip.

Passerby A, female, excited: "Is that the boyfriend of the imperial concubine? I feel so good!"

Passer-by B, male, depressed: "Originally there are more males than females in Big C, and finally there are a few noble concubines who can benefit all male compatriots, and they were abducted by outsiders! Cut!"

Passer-by C, female, calmed down: "It's really time for mandarin mandarin and mandarin mandarin couples to explode, and the mandarin ducks are watching the fun."

Passer-by Ding, male, despises: "Damn gay!"

So, as soon as the passer-by Ding finished speaking, he felt countless pairs of eyes with thick flames staring at him all around him. He turned his head slightly, and suddenly found that there were quite a few girls from C University, and... a lot of rotten girls.Then, under the furious gaze of the rotten girl, he quickly left the stage scrambling.

The life teacher sighed, and waved to those who hadn't left: "It's all gone, it's all gone." The life teacher can't be offended at school. Although this life teacher doesn't manage her own dormitory, she must know The life teacher who manages your dormitory, if you offend the life teacher, she will make you regret it in the next few years.

For example, the cleanliness of the dormitory is not up to standard.

The onlookers originally wanted to gossip, but when they saw the life teacher kicking them out, they all dispersed like birds and beasts.Once back in the dormitory, they all turned on their computers and logged on to the forum to gossip about what they saw and heard today.

Leaving this aside, Li Xiao caught up with Yangzhou and walked out of the school gate side by side with him.

"But you look very angry." Li Xiao said.

As soon as Li Xiao finished speaking, Yang Zhou stopped in his tracks, stared at him squinting for a long time, and said slowly, "Aren't you the one who is angry?"

"I don't have one." Li Xiao quickly denied it.

Yang Zhou ignored him and walked straight ahead.

"I'm really not angry with you." Li Xiao stepped forward, stopped Yang Zhou, took out his phone, showed him the text message he sent to him, and pleaded. "Don't do this, don't break up, okay?"

After Li Xiao rushed out of the house, he gradually calmed down.He is angry, he is hating, but the person he is angry with is not Yang Zhou, but himself.

Yang Lei's death has a lot to do with him, it can be said that he killed him.

Yes, I killed him myself!killed the child's father.

He didn't dare to look at that child again. The more helpless and pitiful that child's expression was, the stronger the guilt in his heart. He knew that in this life, he would never be able to face him face-to-face.

He thought about breaking up, he couldn't have that kid with his own father-killing enemy.Only when we break up, maybe after a long time, the child will forget himself and find a partner who can protect him again.

But... when he saw Yang Zhou sending a text message, he felt that all time stood still.

He dropped his phone on the ground last night and turned it off, and he turned it on this morning.

It's just that I didn't expect the first text message after turning on the phone to be - let's break up.

separate……

Indeed, breaking up was the only way out for him... It was also a good thing for that child.But when these two words appeared in front of him, he knew that he couldn't let go.

He likes him, really likes him.I like watching him smile, watching his carefree smile, he wants to protect him and give him the happiest life.

However, all this is impossible.

Because I have personally destroyed his happiness.

This was the first time he saw Yangzhou look so pitiful and helpless. Although Yangzhou was sad about An Ziyu's incident before, he would not show such a pitiful look.

But today, he is like a child locked in a small dark room, helpless, dazed, afraid, fearful.

He didn't dare to face him, he could only choose to escape.

After escaping, he realized that he really liked him and couldn't lose him at all.When he saw the five words on the text message - let's break up, he instantly felt that the five words were like sharp knives, cutting his heart one by one.

don't break up...

This was Li Xiao's thought at the time, he took a taxi directly to go back, and when he opened the door, Bai Bai rushed over, without wagging his tail, but barking non-stop.

People have gone.

When he saw the ring in the gift box on the table, he suddenly realized—the reason why Yangzhou sent him this text message was because he hurt him.

When he was most helpless, he chose to escape.

Without even thinking about it, he ran directly to the school and his dormitory building, he would no longer run away, he wanted to tell him everything, and he faced him squarely.

Even if he hates himself.

Then I will use this life to pay him back.

Li Xiao stood in front of Yangzhou, refusing to budge.

Yangzhou looked at him for a while, and finally he said, "Let's go to the teahouse over there and have a good talk."

When they arrived at the teahouse, Yang Zhou and Li Xiao sat by the window, the waiter brought two cups of scented tea and then left.

Yangzhou looked at the roses in the cup, and asked softly, "Since you are not angry with me, why did you run out and ignore me?"

"I...I want to calm down." Li Xiao took a sip of tea and asked in a low voice seeing that Yang Zhou didn't take the cup. "Don't you like drinking scented tea? I'll buy you milk tea later."

"Original, no pearls." Yangzhou did not refuse.

"That... I have something to tell you..." Li Xiao said after thinking about it. "Actually, I am..."

"I just want to know if you like me or not?" Yang Zhou interrupted and asked Li Xiao before he finished speaking.

Li Xiao nodded quickly and said, "I like you, I like you."

"Hehe..." Yangzhou finally smiled, although the smile was very weak. "You know? When you rushed out, I thought you didn't want me. Indeed, I lied to you. I didn't tell you that I was the son of the chairman of Yuxing Group. But these are really not important, because I just It's just an illegitimate child, all of this doesn't belong to me, so I never thought about staying there in the future, and I also thought about becoming the head of the Yang family and the chairman of Yuxing Group."

Li Xiao's eyes flickered, and he lowered his head slightly. The words "illegitimate child" pierced Li Xiao's heart. It turned out that he had the same experience as himself, but this seemingly thin boy was much more independent and stronger than himself.

Yangzhou smiled lightly and continued: "I just want to find everything I have, and then protect everything I am looking for. I am afraid of losing. When my grandma died, I was still young, but I understand that my grandma will not come back when she is gone. Yes. When An Ziyu committed suicide, I was really afraid that he would leave like grandma. But, I just saw my father fall in front of me from the [-]th floor, falling to pieces, bloody and bloody. Father died, and Like grandma, she will not come back."

Speaking of this, Yangzhou's voice was a little choked up, and there was a faint smile on his face, but it was a bitter smile. "At that time I was sad and helpless, I didn't know what to do, so I wanted to go home and see you, but... you left, I thought you thought I lied to you, and you didn't want me anymore." Yangzhou looked up Staring at Li Xiao, tears filled his eyes. "I really thought you didn't want me anymore. I was really afraid of losing it."

Suddenly, Yang Zhou seemed to become frightened, his body was trembling, and he kept saying, "Daddy, don't want me, don't leave me. I will be very sensible, I will take care of you, I will..."

"Yangzhou!" Li Xiao stepped forward and hugged Yangzhou in his arms. "I won't want you, I won't leave you, no, never."

Slowly, Yangzhou's mood stabilized, and Dou Da's tears also flowed out. He buried his head in Li Xiao's arms, breathing in the smell of him.

"I was wrong today, I just... I don't know what's wrong with me." Li Xiao patted Yang Zhou's back lightly, comforting him. "What do you want to eat tonight? Daddy will make it for you."

"Dumplings." Yang Zhou buried himself in Li Xiao's arms and said in a muffled voice.

"Okay, I'll make dumplings for you tonight." Li Xiao smiled, but there was a bitter taste in his smile.

He couldn't say it, he didn't know how to tell Yangzhou that he was actually Hengyu's illegitimate son, and he was helping Hengyu steal Yuxing's internal information when he came home late.Even more unable to open his mouth to tell him that your father's death and I have an inescapable responsibility.

"Let's go home." Li Xiao gently held Yang Zhou's face buried in his arms, and looked at the face that was close at hand. There were still tears in those eyes, as if covered with a thin layer. Like a mist, his lips were a little white, and he looked at himself pitifully.

He knew that he was really afraid that he would not want him.

Li Xiao lowered his head and kissed Yangzhou's pale lips lightly, "Let's go home together."

Yang Zhou nodded heavily.

Li Xiao paid the tea money, took Yang Zhou's hand and walked out slowly.Yang Zhou obediently followed behind him, and they walked out of the teahouse on the street.

As the sun was setting, the two held hands and walked quietly.Passers-by saw the two men holding hands, and their reactions varied. Some whispered, some looked at each other and laughed a few times before walking away, some looked with contempt, and some looked curious.

But these had nothing to do with Li Xiao and Yangzhou, they ignored the expressions of everyone and walked slowly on the road.Li Xiao kept holding Yang Zhou's hand tightly so that Yang Zhou could feel the warmth from Li Xiao's palm.

Yang Zhou turned his head slightly, looking at the man beside him.

Sensing Yang Zhou's gaze, Li Xiao turned his head and asked softly, "What's wrong?"

"Warm." Yang Zhou said in a low voice.

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