want to die every day

Gu Yan's deepest memory was awakened because of Yuan Haoyue's words. He was not expected by others. When his sister was going to suffer, he was pushed out by his family to bear instead without hesitation.

Yuan Haoyue noticed that Gu Yan's face was pale and his lips were tightly pursed. He eagerly turned to him and asked, "Gu Yan! What's wrong with you?"

Gu Yan's pupils dilated, his consciousness was blurred, his whole body seemed to be sinking tightly by the nightmare of the past, he didn't even have the strength to break free.

"Gu Yan!" Yuan Haoyue called a few times to no avail, he was looking around for something, when he saw a well not far away, he picked up Gu Yan and strode over.

So sad... let me die soon.

When you die, you feel nothing.

What reverberated in my ears were countless shouts from myself sinking in the deep sea. Amidst the crowd of begging for death, Gu Yan heard a strange cry, and his eyelashes trembled slightly.

"Wow—"

A burst of coolness came over and pulled Gu Yan out of his thoughts, his expression was dull, his hair and face were covered with water, dripping down his chin onto his clothes.

"Huh, you've finally recovered." Yuan Haoyue put the bucket in his hand aside, knelt down and looked at Gu Yan, he heaved a sigh of relief and said with a smile, "You didn't even breathe just now."

Gu Yan blinked her eyes, a drop of water dripped from her eyelashes, it looked like she was crying, Yuan Haoyue's heart skipped a beat for no reason.

Gu Yan lowered his eyes, said a word of thanks in a low voice, then he stood up and asked the village chief, "Do you have any dry towels?"

The village chief didn't understand what was going on in front of him: "Yes, at my house."

Gu Yan said, "Then go to your house."

Witt frowned: "Gu Yan, we haven't finished our work yet."

Gu Yan looked embarrassed, but his demeanor was indifferent, completely unaffected by the outside world, he said, "Are you ordering me?"

The reason why Gu Yan said that was because he received a new commentary.

"The children's clown makeup awakened your childhood memories. At that time, you played with Osborne and the others. You were the most favored clown among them, because you were the only child of Nibek. You had a clown hat that no one else had. "

Witt's cheeks twitched, as if restraining something, but in the end he just lowered his head and said, "Of course not."

"I have the final say here." Gu Yan finished speaking and signaled the village head to lead the way, "Let's go to your house now."

The village chief’s house is much larger than other villagers’ houses. When they entered the house, they saw a young woman knitting a sweater with a big belly. When she saw a visitor, she put down her sweater, stood up with her back and said, “Master.” ..."

"There are guests, hurry up and get the wine I put in the cupboard, the best one." The village head trembled when he felt Gu Yan's cold gaze, and ordered, "And bring a dry towel! "

Yuan Haoyue sat down, looked around and asked, "Where are the village chief's family?"

The village chief sighed: "A few years ago, my son was conscripted to fight in the war and never came back. Now it's just me and the maid."

"Maid?" Yuan Haoyue wanted to continue asking, when he saw a pregnant woman coming over with wine and towels, he quickly got up and wanted to take the plate for her, "I'll do it, thanks for your hard work."

The woman looked at Uehara Haoyue with kind eyes, and she almost lost her hand holding the plate. Fortunately, Yuan Haoyue was holding the other side.

Yuan Haoyue noticed this, and looked at the woman with a little more scrutiny.

"Towel." Gu Yan suddenly said.

The village chief immediately scolded the woman in dissatisfaction: "Do you still want to trouble the guest to help you?"

The woman immediately regained her senses, lowered her head and pulled the plate back, Yuan Haoyue let go, the woman put the cup and wine on the table, then handed the towel to Gu Yan respectfully with both hands, unlike Yuan Haoyue, she She lowered her head, not daring to look directly at Gu Yan's cold face.

"Please, please use a towel."

Gu Yan didn't take the towel immediately, but looked at the woman's face, he didn't speak, and the atmosphere became heavy.

The woman's hand holding the towel began to tremble slightly.

At this time, Yuan Haoyue said: "Gu Yan, if you don't dry it off, you will catch a cold."

Hearing what Yuan Haoyue said, Gu Yan reached for the towel, the woman breathed a sigh of relief and at the same time heard Gu Yan say, "Thank you."

The woman was slightly stunned, the nobles she met would never thank her, she mustered up the courage to look up, Gu Yan wiped her face, and didn't look at her from the beginning to the end, she couldn't help chasing the other's gaze, and finally stopped at the smiling man. Enter Yuan Haoyue.

It's not something she can think about.Feeling sad, the woman retreated silently.

As soon as the woman stepped back, Witt, who had been silent all along, said, "Is your maid about to give birth?"

Witt's words also revealed that the maid is a pregnant woman. The village head was very happy, nodded and said, "Yes, I really hope it's a twin."

"When I saw her last year, she was still a young girl." Witt drank a glass of wine, and his tone was much more casual when talking to the village chief, "It seems that you have put in a lot of hard work."

The village chief heheed a few times, winked and said: "If I were more than ten years younger, I would do it myself, but unfortunately I have to share half of the money with others."

"It would be nice to have it," Witt said.

The words between Witt and the village chief reminded Gu Yan and Yuan Haoyue of the children in the village who were going to be sent to the circus, and the saying that money was given out every year. People in the village have been exchanging children for money to survive.

To the adults in the village, Nibek and Witt are not demons who take away children, but angels who send money.

Yuan Haoyue's clenched hands made a crackling sound, and he stared at Witt and the village chief, as if he would violently beat them up in the next second.

Gu Yan's expression remained unchanged, he wiped his face slowly and then his hair, he was waiting for Yuan Haoyue to make a move, thinking that Yuan Haoyue would better kill both the village chief and Witt.

But Yuan Haoyue managed to control his emotions after all, and soon there was a peaceful smile on his face. Seeing this, Gu Yan knew that things could not go his way, so he stood up and said, "Witt, leave the rest to me, you and the village Have a good chat."

The order Witt received was to let Gu Yan come over and take a look, so that he could take over the job in the future. Seeing him adapting so well, he nodded with satisfaction: "Then it will be hard work for you."

"It's not hard." After Gu Yan finished speaking, he walked out.

Yuan Haoyue followed Gu Yan to the door to deliver money, Gu Yan saw that he was silent, and asked seemingly casually: "Do you care about that maid?"

Yuan Haoyue was thinking, but she didn't hear what Gu Yan said, so she nodded perfunctorily.

Gu Yan didn't take the initiative to talk to Yuan Haoyue until all were delivered.

Seeing that there were still a dozen banknotes left in the suitcase, Yuan Haoyue asked, "Can I use this money?"

Gu Yan didn't want to talk to Yuan Haoyue, but the other party was eagerly waiting for his answer, so he could only say: "Yes."

Hearing this, Yuan Haoyue took out a banknote and quickly folded a heart-shaped double thousand origami cranes. This was the first time Gu Yan saw this kind of thousand origami cranes, as if two origami cranes were kissing.

Yuan Haoyue has slender fingers, and quickly folds paper cranes with the banknotes in her hand, which makes people unable to take their eyes off.

After folding more than 10 pieces, Yuan Haoyue took the folded origami cranes to the children on the street. Some children stayed at home and came out to ask for something.

Yuan Haoyue patiently placed them in the small palms of the children one by one. When a child asked him what it was, he touched the other person's head and said, "This is a wish and a hope. You must remember to give it to the child." To the parents who love you the most."

The children nodded ignorantly, Yuan Haoyue returned to Gu Yan after delivering all of them, Gu Yan said: "This is just a game."

Everything is just the setting of the game, no matter how hard Yuan Haoyue tries to get the child to send a thousand paper cranes to try to influence the parents, it is useless.

Gu Yan can see this clearly, so he can remain indifferent.

"I know." Yuan Haoyue said, "I finally know what so-called help is."

Gu Yan looked at him, only to see Yuan Haoyue reaching out to him and saying: "This circus is wrong, we can change their fate."

"Together?" Yuan Haoyue's face was bright.

Gu Yan stretched out his hand to hold it, he could feel that Yuan Haoyue was filled with the power of justice, he tried his best to smile, but he didn't know if he succeeded.

"it is good."

With Gu Yan's approval, Yuan Haoyue looked even happier. He took out the last paper crane and put it in Gu Yan's hand, then took the other's hand and walked to the village chief's house and said, "We have to go back and discuss with the others. Next move."

Yuan Haoyue walked ahead and couldn't see Gu Yan who was behind. The other party looked down at the thousand paper cranes in his palm, his eyes were cold, and his heart was also cold.

To be precise, he has no heart, because he was hollowed out a long time ago, and all that is left is a body that wants to be buried in the ground.

Thanks to Yuan Haoyue's words, Gu Yan knew what to do next.

Do what he should do as the Red Fang.

The author has something to say: ——a small theater that has nothing to do with the text——

Yuan Haoyue helps others.

Gu Yan stopped.

Yuan Haoyue protects others.

Gu Yan stopped.

Yuan Haoyue likes Gu Yan.

Gu Yan - can't stop it.