There is a terminal illness called narcissism

In the days that followed, I was tense for a while, because I was really not sure when Qi Cheng would show up, and with the lesson learned from my uncle, who knows if Qi Cheng will use a knife to hurt people when he goes crazy... Besides, I still advocate The person who told Qi Cheng to go abroad and get out of the country has properly raised a lot of hatred.

For this reason, whether I go out or go home, I always follow people around me, and I try not to stay alone in a certain place, but that Qi Cheng who followed me occasionally has never appeared again.Soon, due to the busy scene, Qi Cheng was also forgotten by me.

It’s not a lie that the roles are busy. Among the main actors in the crew, I was originally the one with the least roles, but I don’t know what happened. Later, I got a new script, which added roles for me.At the same time...Ji Minglang's role as the second male lead has been reduced a bit. This is actually not obvious in the complete script. It's just a comparison, and it's natural to find the difference.

When I saw screenwriter Ruan Wei talking and laughing with Yan Qi, I had a rough idea of ​​who was helping behind the scenes. Speaking of which, Yan Qi was sacrificing his appearance to win the relationship?The strange thing is that the rest of the crew didn't care about this matter. Even Director Qin didn't think there was anything wrong with the changed scene. Instead, he specifically asked me to let me act well and not disappoint people, otherwise he would just delete the scene without explaining. .

Li Jiajia asked me a few times with great interest, asking me how I got the role from Ji Minglang, and when I replied about my personal charm, she never asked me again, and asked Ji Minglang instead.It's a pity that Li Jiajia couldn't resist Ji Minglang, who was extremely enthusiastic on the surface. Not only did she not find out anything, but she accidentally had an affair with Ji Minglang. , Why does the female lead not love the male lead but loves the male supporting role? All kinds of CPs emerge in endlessly.

I think the scandal between Ji Minglang and Li Jiajia is something that director Qin intentionally brought up. Who told you that this drama has too much romance in the early stage? After all, it is not a corrupt movie, and the romantic pairing is the mainstream.Although Ji Minglang's acting roles have decreased, his reputation has not diminished. He didn't show any dissatisfaction. He raised his face all day long to recruit people, and he seemed to be a duck to water.

The most selfless person in the crew is probably Yu Yan. Even though I got the role, he acted happier than me.Hanging around me when there is nothing to do, he even helped me with other scenes after the scene with my opponent. I have verified why people always talk about Yu Yan in a boastful way.He can indeed be called the most serious actor. With this kind of research spirit, he might be able to take home a best actor in a few years.

After the mirror incident, I didn't let Xiao Duan continue to help me carry the mirror, but started to use Ji Minglang's mirror, even though Ji Minglang stopped destroying my things at will.He treated me, as he said, as a 'kind', to be clear, as a - good friend.

This logic is indeed strange. I will not admit that there is any friendship between me and him. He just expressed his views on his own, as if I can agree with what he said, which is too unreasonable.Most of the time, he confides his ideas, and I have a deep understanding of what "talking" is.

"Xiao Yan, look at that Yu Yan is peeking at you again, tsk tsk tsk..." Ji Minglang put his hand on my shoulder, shaking his head, not doing anything right.

"Don't be weird, what does he think is wrong with me?" I rolled my eyes and followed Ji Minglang's gaze. It just so happened that Yu Yan's gaze didn't look away, and he immediately retracted his gaze when we met me. It looks a little unnatural.

Ji Minglang raised his eyebrows at me, "Of course it's not right, you see who looks at people like him, it's obvious that there is a problem."

I think the problem is you!I didn't say that, but my eyes were merciless.

"Why don't we test it." Ji Minglang lowered his head, and slowly blew into my ear. I trembled, feeling uncomfortable all over by his disgusting tone.

Just as he was about to push away this person who couldn't stay idle beside me, Yu Yan walked up to me at some point, stretched out his hand and pulled me away from Ji Minglang, and stuffed the script in his hand into my arms, "Qi Yan, let's face the third scene."

"Didn't we get through that scene in the morning?" I turned my head and asked Yu Yan, his lips were tightly pressed into a thin line, and he replied convincingly: "It's not a bad thing to practice a few more times, you still have a little problem with your positioning .”

"Oh? Really?" I immediately thought about what I did wrong. It is a good thing that my role has increased, but the pressure that comes with it is increasing.If I don't perform well, it's completely embarrassing the entire crew. Director Qin alone can train me many times.

Just when I was about to follow Yu Yan to the scene, Ji Minglang stretched out his hand to stop in front again, with a smile on his face, his peachy eyes turned, and he walked closer to Yu Yan, "Yu Yan, don't just focus on Xiao Yan, I will You are also a newcomer who needs to be taken care of, and it seems that I still have a role to play, you, the leading actor, and me, the supporting actor, should practice more."

The reason Ji Minglang said is indeed not very good for people to refuse, especially Yu Yan is recognized as enthusiastic, so it is impossible not to agree.After only two seconds of silence, Yu Yan replied, "Then let's go together."

Taking advantage of Yu Yan's turning around, Ji Minglang leaned close to my ear and whispered: "Later, you can see how he treats me differently from you."

I didn't intend to take Ji Minglang's words to heart, but during the show, I couldn't help observing the way the two get along.I didn't notice that it was a bit different if I didn't observe carefully. Needless to say, Yu Yan's acting is professional.

The Mozun played by Ji Minglang seems to do whatever he wants, there is a scene in the play, in order to see what kind of character Xu Ziqian is who can make the heroine Liu Wanjun fall in love with him, the Mozun deliberately pretends to be an ordinary ascetic to approach the heroine, If we hadn't been together for too long, we might have become friends.

The male protagonist Xu Ziqian is a person who abides by the rules of etiquette. He loves the female protagonist and will never make any intimate gestures. In the sect, I, the male number three, is secretly obstructing it. No one in the sect dares to make friends with Xu Ziqian.The ascetic dressed up by Mozun can be said to be the first friend Xu Ziqian really recognized from the bottom of his heart, so he should be very casual when getting along.

As a result... the Demon Lord encircled Xu Ziqian's shoulder boldly. Xu Ziqian's expression and words showed that he was very happy, but his movements were a little stiffer than before.If I hadn't observed carefully, I wouldn't have noticed this small detail at all.

Fortunately, Yu Yan adjusted quickly, and there will be no major problems in the next play with Ji Minglang.It's just that this small detail, placed on Yu Yan, is not right no matter how you look at it.I remembered that although Yu Yan had a good reputation in the crew, he never had close contact with anyone - except me.

It's not so obvious to women, everyone says Yu Yan keeps himself clean and never spreads gossip, but on the men's side...everyone thinks he plays best with me, why?Because he only flirts with me!Is this for publicity?With Yu Yan's reputation, even if he is helping me, he doesn't have to do this.

When the scene between Ji Minglang and Yu Yan was over, Ji Minglang said directly: "Yu Yan, I think we should repeat the episode just now a few times, what do you think?"

Yu Yan rubbed the space between his brows, and glanced at me, "I'll have a show with Qi Yan first, and then I'll find you. Don't worry, there won't be any problems when I play."

Obviously, Yu Yan noticed where he didn't do well.Ji Minglang didn't say anything, he stepped back and looked at Yu Yan and me, his eyes were full of interest.When playing with me, Yu Yan’s acting skills were perfect, and I couldn’t find any flaws. After the performance, he held my hand consciously, and I clearly felt his fingertips slipping on the back of my hand inadvertently. Well, I want to wipe my hands again...

"Yu Yan, I have a question to ask you." In order to clear up my doubts, I asked aloud.

Yu Yan didn't think much, showing a gentle smile, "Say it."

"Do you hate physical contact with others?" I asked quite bluntly, "At first I thought you hated me. When you shook hands, you would let go as soon as you touched them. Later, you found out that you do the same with others. You act, occasionally NG was in contact with people, shouldn't it be a coincidence?"

Yu Yan was silent as expected, and then smiled wryly in a low voice: "...Yes, I didn't expect you to find out about this situation. It's hard to imagine that an actor has this problem."

"No." I shook my head. "It's very unimaginable. I'm thinking about how you got here today."

Hearing what I said, Yu Yan was helpless, "Maybe I was lucky, and none of the movies I participated in had any intimate scenes. My first role was a person with autism who refused to interact with others." Contact, as we all know, I also won the best supporting actor because of that drama; the second role is the policeman who goes deep into the enemy camp, he must keep vigilant at all times, and keep people from getting close, the battle is a long-distance gun battle, for me It's not difficult to shoot; the third role is an IT elite, who touches the keyboard the most every day; the fourth role is the breeder of the aquarium, although diving is a bit difficult, but being with dolphins..."

"Stop, stop, stop." I quickly interrupted him, "Before you were famous, you were chosen for the drama, and after you became famous, you were chosen for the drama, so why did you choose this drama?"

"I want to break through myself slowly. The cycle of shooting TV dramas is longer than that of movies, so that I will spend more time with people." Yu Yan analyzed very rationally: "I can't change myself all at once, so I can only adapt gradually. This This drama is very suitable for me, the immortal cultivator has magic spells, and there are few real fights, plus the immortal cultivator is emotionally indifferent, and the ordinary eye contact makes Lala Xiaoshou to death, and he can contact people without being too intimate, I think it is good, so I took it."

"..." So that day when I was going to beat him up, it was purely a conditioned reflex of his body that he retreated?There is a feeling of being trapped!

"Then I have another question." I raised my hand, and Yu Yan and I were holding each other tightly, "Why don't you hate physical contact with me? Not only do you not hate it, I think you are a little... "I thought about it and couldn't find any words to describe his actions.

Yu Yan turned his face and looked away, "I don't know what's going on, suddenly I don't hate being like you, I think this may improve my problem, so these days..."

"So that's how it is." I breathed a sigh of relief and smiled, "Take me as a prop to help you recover, I said why are you so weird. Don't stare at me alone, you can try to find someone else, maybe It will be fine anytime."

Yu Yan's lips moved, but he didn't speak.I brushed his hand away, and rubbed the back of my hand lightly on the clothes, "You'd better find a girl to fall in love with, this kind of problem can definitely be solved, don't hold my hand incessantly in the future, I still have to find someone else! "

After that conversation, Yu Yan didn't show that closeness to me in the crew anymore. For this reason, Director Qin asked me if I had conflicts with Yu Yan, and said, "Yu Yan is so nice, he It is your blessing to be able to treat you as a friend, don't be awkward, it is not easy to have a friend in this circle."Recalling the situation when I first joined the crew, Director Qin really wanted to cultivate my feelings now.

After the crew ended my role, I continued to stay and learn a lot. After a few months, the main personnel of the crew were invited to the wrap-up banquet, including screenwriters, actors, producers, cameramen, etc...

I was undoubtedly in the ranks of being invited. In the evening, Director Qin booked a hotel, and I was at the same table with the actors, with Li Jiajia and Yu Yan on both sides.Because Li Jiajia and Ji Minglang are familiar with each other because of the scandal, they directly pushed people aside. For this reason, I said a few good words to Li Jiajia, and she smiled very brightly.

The banquet is not more relaxed than usual, especially me, there are many people who want to drink me... No matter how close those people are to me on the surface, they are more or less dissatisfied with me in their hearts.There is no way, I expected this situation from the very beginning, it is normal to be envied and envied to cause dissatisfaction, I can't do anything to me on the surface, I can only vent it now.

Yan Qi was sitting at another table with the staff, perhaps seeing the success of the drama, he was smiling very happily tonight.Except that Ruan Wei, who was sticking to his side, was a bit of an eyesore, everything was fine.Maybe happiness is really contagious, I am also very happy to see Yan Qi relaxed and smiling.

Even if you don't resist drinking anymore, isn't it just a toast to me?catch!I'd like to see what they can do besides toasting.That guy Ji Minglang joined in the fun and clinked glasses with me. I drank the red wine in the glass in one gulp. Someone tried to persuade me to drink white wine. I couldn't stand the taste of white wine, so I refused directly, regardless of whether the person's face was good or not. .To be able to drink is to give him face, and dare to ask for anything else!

Later, I don't know when it started, all the wine toasted to me went to Yu Yan.I propped my head on one hand and raised my head to look at Yu Yan who stood up to help me hold back the drink. I wonder if this guy can drink, the speed of drinking is really one cup after another... Ji Minglang is getting better now, he is holding the wine glass in one hand , with a wine bottle in one hand, walked up to Yu Yan in a chic posture, poured wine for him and said: "Star Yu, thanks to your care in the theater these days, acting is something you can use easily, but I can't." Come on, come on, drink this cup, maybe we won't be able to see each other in the future."

Yu Yan had just drank a lot of wine, his fair face was a little red, he squinted his eyes, and curled his mouth and said: "Where, let you act as a model, you are doing well."

The two of you came and went, and exchanged several glasses of mutual respect. I sat next to me and felt that the stamina of the red wine was picking up. I frowned and stood up and decided to wash my face to refresh myself.At this time, the banquet was the busiest, so I took the opportunity to leave the banquet quietly, got into the bathroom and put the water down first, then patted my face with cold water, raised my head and looked in the mirror, a man was reflected in the mirror, stumbling over.

"Yu Yan..." I didn't expect Yu Yan to drink like this. Usually, he is very precise in the distance of each step, and his steps are so unsteady, it seems that he is really drunk.Just thinking about it, he staggered and was about to fall to the ground.Thinking that he was blocking the drink for me, I had no choice but to quickly go up to him to support him, and asked, "Are you okay? How about I go talk to Director Qin and ask your manager to take you back first?" ?”

Yu Yan shook his head vigorously, but remained silent for a while. I couldn't help him a little bit, so I was about to let go and put him next to him to sit down.Just as he was about to move, he turned his head, clasped my wrist tightly with one hand, stared straight at me with his eyes wide open.I don't know how a drunk man has such great strength, he struggled to grab his hand, he frowned, the other hand wrapped around my waist, and I pressed him into his arms.The voice was deeper than ever, and a little hoarse, "Don't move, let me hug you..."

I only have one thought, isn't alcohol burning my brain?