Thoughts

Shen Duanrui looked at the person lying on the bed, lowered his eyelids, hooked the corners of his mouth as if laughing at himself, sighed, turned around, continued the unfinished action, closed the door and left.

Not two days after the new year, on the fourth day of the new year, Mu Dongchen said goodbye to Shen Duanrui with his small luggage and they returned to the north. Mu Dongchen's parents also went back three days later. The personnel related to Mu Dongchen in City C except Apart from the high school classmates who have not yet returned to school and the school that has been standing, there is nothing else.

Everyone is busy writing papers, looking for jobs, and graduating. They are so busy that they rarely have time to get together and chat, and the contact with each other is getting rarer.

On the day of graduation, Shen Duanrui sat quietly on the seat after listening to the principal's speech in the square and attending the graduation ceremony. The students around were crying or laughing, hugging or fighting, or taking pictures or revisiting, with the bright June sun above their heads One day, even sitting in a shaded place, I couldn't resist the heat, and the sweat slowly flowed down my forehead.Several other people in the dormitory were busy taking pictures with their classmates and teachers, and were busy showing their parents around the school. They left after taking pictures with Shen Duanrui and making an appointment for a dinner.According to Shen Duanrui's personality, at this time, of course, he was busy taking pictures like others, but when the principal said "Congratulations, you graduated", he felt empty in his heart inexplicably, as if something was missing.He tried his best to recall what happened in the past four years, but all kinds of images were flying around in his head, but when he tried to search for a section to take a closer look, he couldn't seem to catch anything.Some are restless, some feel lost.

them--

Shen Duanrui looked around for a week, those people full of youth and dreams were about to part.

Since then, each side of the world, each happy.

Shen Duanrui is not a sentimental person, but no matter how many times he has experienced graduation and parting, it seems difficult to wave goodbye with a smile.

After Song Yijiu bid farewell to the people in the club activities, he searched around and found Shen Duanrui who was sitting alone in the corner of the playground.

"Duanduan." Song Yijiu walked over and called him, "What's the matter?"

"Ah?" Shen Duanrui came back to his senses, raised his head in doubt, and then realized, "It's nothing, I just feel that I am very reluctant."

Song Yijiu sat down beside him, looked at the person taking a photo with the principal in the distance, and sighed, "Me too."

The trees are still so green, and the sun is still so hot, as if they were pulling suitcases, holding a map, facing the scorching sun, running around, looking for the newspaper office, looking for a dormitory, just like what happened yesterday. Say goodbye to this school, to the people here, to everything here, and head to a different place.

"In the future, please keep in touch, don't forget me!" Song Yijiu pretended to threaten, and said viciously.

"Yes." Shen Duanrui smiled slightly, and replied softly, "No."

Pack your luggage, have dinner, say goodbye, and leave the campus.

Put on your formal attire, clock in, sit down, and get to work.

The days go by like clouds and flowing water, and before I know it, a year has passed since graduation.

In the past year, Li Ming went abroad to study, Mu Mu went to graduate school in China, Xia Mian worked like Shen Duanrui, Song Yijiu decided to take the postgraduate entrance examination after tossing around for a while, Zhao Cheng, Lu Shengyun and several other like-minded people opened a studio, Ling Zi and his girlfriend Still studying in the same school... Everyone is moving forward on the road of their own choice.

As for Mu Dongchen, it should be the same as his previous plan, working hard in the same city with his girlfriend, and maybe one day he will receive their wedding invitation.

The fact is that he did receive a wedding invitation from Mu Dongchen.

Except for that meeting before the Chinese New Year, Shen Duanrui hadn't contacted Mu Dongchen for a year and a half.

From the day of graduation, Shen Duanrui told himself that it was time to let go and forget, and he needed to start again, so let the past be the past.

I have liked Mu Dongchen for at least five years. Although it has always been my unilateral liking, although I was destined not to wait for the other party's response from the beginning, although there were countless entanglements and sorrows during the period, but liking someone, you can It is a blessing and something worth cherishing to have someone you can like.Counting it, he has obtained five years of happiness from Mu Dongchen, and it is time to find other happiness, even happier, happiness.

This is the only contact in this year. Although the news it brings is still habitually repulsive and uncomfortable to Shen Duanrui, it is not as desperate as it used to be.

Shen Duanrui thought, maybe, after seeing Mu Dongchen walking into the marriage hall holding someone else's hand, he can truly bid farewell to the past.

July [-]th, Silver Valentine's Day, is a good day for getting married, moving into a house, and relocating.

Shen Duanrui took a day off from the company and booked a departure ticket.July [-] happened to be Friday. After getting off work on Thursday, Shen Duanrui simply packed his luggage and rushed to the station.He planned to sleep on the train for one night, and he would arrive in Mu Dongchen's city at around [-]:[-] tomorrow morning. After tidying up, he should be able to catch up with Mu Dongchen's wedding.

Shen Duanrui put the suitcase on the luggage rack, which contained the suit for the wedding tomorrow and the wedding gift for Mu Dongchen.The train staggered forward, the overhead lights were always on, and no one in the box turned them off.Shen Duanrui was sleeping on the upper bunk, not sure if the people below were asleep, and he didn't want to get up, so he turned over and closed his eyes to the wall of the box with the light behind his back to take a nap.The body is a little tired. After all, after working all day and taking the subway for nearly an hour and a half to catch the train, even Shen Duanrui, who is used to working overtime, will inevitably feel a little tired.The body is clamoring for sleep, but the spirit is not sleepy at all.

How can I sleep?

After all, tomorrow is Mu Dongchen's wedding day.

Ah, it’s not right to say tomorrow, it’s almost one o’clock in the morning, it’s already today, and it’s only ten hours before Mu Dongchen’s wedding.

So short...time...

Countless Mu Dongchen flashed through Shen Duanrui's mind, there was Mu Dongchen who read quietly in the setting sun of the classroom, there was Mu Dongchen who ran as hard as he could in the sports meeting, there was Mu Dongchen who stood by the window and closed his eyes to memorize books, and there was Mu Dongchen who skipped class and read books. Mu Dongchen went to watch the fireworks with Qiang, Mu Dongchen who took a nap on the table, Mu Dongchen who cleaned up carefully, Mu Dongchen who became a little shy after seeing the summer sleep, and Mu Dongchen who was caught by the rain. Mu Dongchen who got wet and became embarrassed, Mu Dongchen who was astonished and unbelievable when he received his confession, Mu Dongchen who evaded because of rejection, Mu Dongchen who appeared calm but prayed for reassurance, and there was Mu Dongchen who talked about There is Mu Dongchen who is excited and happy with his girlfriend, and Mu Dongchen who is drunk and blushing in a daze... There are all kinds of Mu Dongchen, from the time they met to after they parted.Every form of Mu Dongchen is so clear, so profound, and so palpable, but...that's just a memory.The reality is that they are separated by hundreds of millions of light-years.

Tomorrow, he will make a vow to her, put a ring on her, and become her husband.

I am just a friend, what kind of expression should I use to face him and her?

...smile...and bless...

Can you do it yourself?

In a daze, Shen Duanrui saw the young and childish Mu Dongchen standing under the tree next to the high school playground and waving at himself. He called a timeout to his teammates, apologized, and then hurried over , asked him what happened.With a smile on the corners of Mu Dongchen's eyes, he told him to invite him to dinner later.Curious, he asked why.Mu Dongchen couldn't hide his excitement and said with some embarrassment: "I have a girlfriend."

"It's summer sleep." Shen Duanrui thought, Mu Dongchen has always liked summer sleep, if he has a girlfriend, it should be her. "It's pretty good." Shen Duanrui congratulated. He was really happy for Mu Dongchen, which meant that his assist was still useful.

Mu Dongchen didn't speak, just shook his head with a smile, Shen Duanrui didn't think much, he said goodbye to his teammates and went to have dinner with Mu Dongchen who was waiting beside him.

Mu Dongchen led him east and west, passing the small supermarket where he usually buys water, bypassing the stationery store on the corner, skipping the fence of the house under construction, jumping over the stagnant water on the ground, and taking the water from the store. The flyer, dodged the passing cars, crossed the crosswalk, and finally arrived at the destination.Shen Duanrui thought, this meal has really gone far enough.

Mu Dongchen walked in front, opened the door for him, and let him in first.

When Shen Duanrui walked in, he found that the decoration inside was very festive, with roses, hearts, red silk, bouquets, it looked like a wedding venue.

"Did I go wrong?"

Shen Duanrui turned back to ask Mu Dongchen with a puzzled expression, only to find that the person who was still wearing a high school uniform just now had changed into a white suit with a flower on his chest, he had lost his youthfulness and childishness, and stood in front of him in a mature and handsome .

"Mu...Dong...Chen?" Shen Duanrui suddenly panicked, his throat was very dry, and he seemed speechless.

He saw Mu Dongchen opened his mouth, ready to say something, but he instinctively didn't want to hear what Mu Dongchen was going to say next.He wanted to leave here, but found that he couldn't move, as if someone had acupuncture points on him, so he could only passively accept the next thing.

"Duanduan, I'm very glad that you can come to my wedding with Xiaoqian." Mu Dongchen said with a smile, as if there were stars shining in his eyes.

wedding?Xiao Qian?Didn't you just become a girlfriend?Also, isn't the girlfriend aestivation?Who is Xiaoqian?Shen Duanrui couldn't figure it out.

"You will always be my best brother." Mu Dongchen continued, "I have always wanted to say thank you to you, and I'm sorry."

Best bro...ah, um, best bro.

Thank you and sorry?Why?

"Ah, Mumu and the others are here, I'll go to entertain the guests first, Duanduan, you can do whatever you want."

Shen Duanrui watched as Mu Dongchen walked away with someone wearing a white wedding dress next to him on his arm. Judging by that figure, it was indeed not Xia Mian.He wanted to find a place to sit and drink some water. He felt that his legs were a little weak and he was still a little thirsty, which might have been caused by playing ball just now.

Trembling, he found a stool and sat down, took the wine brought by the waiter and drank it down in one gulp, only to feel better.Just as he put down the glass, he heard the master of ceremonies not far away asking if he would like it.He looked up and saw that Mu Dongchen was holding the bride's hand and solemnly said "I do". After hearing the same answer from the bride, Mu Dongchen's whole face was full of smiles, and his eyes were full of happiness , just like the sun that radiated a radiant light, it made him unable to open his eyes with tears.

"The train is about to arrive at station X, passengers who want to get off, please get ready. The train will stop at station X for [-] minutes, please..."

Woke up by the broadcast, Shen Duanrui opened his eyes, checked the time, wiped his face and prepared to get up.As soon as the hand was covered, the fingers were immediately wet.He looked at his hands, was stunned for a moment, then continued to wipe it with his hands, and then wiped it with his clothes, then climbed out of bed and went to the bathroom to wash up.

Pulling the suitcase out of the station, took the subway, walked for a while, and finally arrived at the hotel not far from the wedding venue.After registering at the front desk and getting the room card, Shen Duanrui opened the room and locked the door, put the luggage aside, and went into the bathroom to take a shower.The lukewarm water drenched his body, dispelling the exhaustion and smell from the overnight train, and also slightly dispelling the cloud of stale air in his heart.Coming out of the bathroom wearing a towel, Shen Duanrui looked at the time, set an alarm clock, and stuck himself on the bed to catch up on sleep.I was wobbly on the train, and there were people getting on and off the train during the period, so I didn't sleep well at all.He needs to regain some strength, and he will be able to meet Mu Dongchen in a better state after a while.

When Shen Duanrui arrived at the venue, there were already quite a few guests in the venue.After learning about his seat area at the door, Shen Duanrui walked over and found that Mu Mu, Xia Mian and many high school classmates who had a good time had already arrived, and Li Ming couldn't come back temporarily because he was still studying abroad.He found a seat next to Mu Mu and sat down, making jokes with his classmates during the banquet, keeping his eyes on the table, occasionally he couldn't help but look around secretly, looking for the figure he knew by heart.Seeing that he was entertaining guests a little far away, Shen Duanrui withdrew his gaze and continued to stare at the empty spot on the table.

After being patted on the shoulder, Shen Duanrui turned his head and found that Mu Mu was looking at him with a worried and serious expression. He shook his head and smiled wryly, indicating that it was all right.

It doesn't matter whether Mu Mu knows about that matter or not, anyway, it's over for today.

The wedding went smoothly, the groom is handsome, the bride is beautiful, and the couple is a perfect match.

After the ceremony was completed, Mu Dongchen took the newlyweds to toast one by one. When they came to their table, everyone said auspicious words. Shen Duanrui poured a glass of wine and saluted the newlyweds. You will be united forever, and you will be together for a hundred years." Wei Wei turned her head to look at Mu Dongchen, "I wish you all happiness." After finishing speaking, he drank the wine in his glass.

Mu Dongchen, I wish you happiness.

The bride and groom quickly moved to the next table, Shen Duanrui poured himself another full glass of wine, and drank it all in one go.Pour cup after cup, drink cup after cup until the fifth cup is finished, then stop drinking, just eat vegetables and talk nonsense with classmates.

When the banquet was almost over, Shen Duanrui and Mu Muzhi met, and while everyone was drinking, they quietly left the venue.Pushing open the revolving glass door, I saw the photo of the newlyweds at the door. In the photo, Mu Dongchen stood behind the bride and gently circled her, with smiles on his eyes and brows.Shen Duanrui suddenly thought of the photos of him and his girlfriend that Mu Dongchen had shown him before. The poses were similar, but the happiness and satisfaction filled with them were even worse.Come to think of it, they love each other very much.

Shen Duanrui looked at the photo for a while, then turned around resolutely and left.

Loving you is something that once belonged to me alone, thank you for having existed in my life.

Goodbye, Mu Dongchen.